~Jada
I didn’t get much sleep last night.
Jess’s words clung to me, even during the trek to the next camping spot. At least by the end of it, my aching feet and sore back distract my mind enough. I’m not going to listen to what the rest of the Silent’s have to say. I’m sure they are just messing around with us, telling fake stories and luring us to believe something that isn’t true.
If it’s some kind of initiation, I don’t like it. I’m not sure why they are out to get me in particular, since Ace isn’t getting any of their attention. He just lingers on the outside, head down. He passes by everyone’s radar.
<~JadaI couldn’t get to Axel from here.Everyone crowded around him, asking him where he has been. He must be fairly popular if everyone is so interested in where he has been. Of course, they refer to him as Blue, the name he has gone by thus far as a Silent. It reminds me to keep my mouth shut on what I know and others don’t.So without anyone noticing me, I back away from the group and slink back to my tent. When I glance over my shoulder Kael is watching me, but luckily he doesn’t question it, most likely assuming I’m just tired.
~JadaAxel paid me no mind the next morning.We packed up all our belongings and started our walk again. Axel didn’t come near me, and I didn’t come near him. He walked at the front of the group and I stuck to the back, trying to think of how to deal with this. Should I tell someone and get him removed from the Silent’s, or should I keep it to myself?It doesn’t seem right to tell Kael about it. He sacrificed everything for me. I might not agree with why he did it, and how he feels now about me, but I can’t have his entire career taken from me because of a crush.
~JadaI’m not sure how I’m going to win this.Zara stands in front of me, his grin confident already. She has trained most of her life as a Silent, which translates to I have no chance. Everyone cheers around, some throwing bets around, obviously in Zara’s favour. If I could turn back now, despite the deal we have, I would, but there is no way the crowd will have it.“So, do you accept?” she questions, cracking her knuckles. I don’t pay attention to her intimidation tactics. I know this is going to hurt, and she doesn’t need to prove that to me. “Tell me you accept.”
~JadaI didn’t get any sleep that night.Sitting up in bed, I rocked back and forth, wondering whether I was stuck in a dark, cruel dream or not. It doesn’t seem real, when I think about all the small details of it. Being mates with an Alpha doesn’t even seem in the realm of possibility. I’ve thought about how much I’ve hated him before throughout my teenage years, however, unlike the rest of the girls in school, I never considered being mates with him.Thoughts raced through my head about how Kael would react to this. I mean, if I told him how I found out, he wouldn’t be happy. But would he be happy if he found out we wer
~JadaMy fingers burned just touching it.Looking around, I try again to see through the trees to see who had made the shot, deciding to have me see the letter rather than anyone else. Maybe it’s because I’m the only one standing here, or if they had mishot, but regardless, whoever they may be, they have disappeared into the forest, not coming back.Was it really Kael’s mother? The thought makes me shiver. If so, she found Kael’s private institute, and is using me as a messenger to get her note to Kael. I’m just not sure why they chose me.
~JadaIt wasn’t as if I had much of a choice.It wasn’t as if I was going to tell Kael no. Not when he has been so kind to me, and not when I know he is my mate. Maybe on this trip I can find out how to tell him. First, I need to know how I’m going to deal with it, since being the Luna of the Discipline Pack doesn’t appeal to me so much.I’m not going to lie about being nervous about how Kael will react, either. He doesn’t seem like he wants a companion, despite how nice as he’s been to me. Maybe he will cast me out, or send me back to the prisons to hide me and my secret from the public.
~JadaWe departed that afternoon, ready for however many days we might be out there.Axel didn’t agree to come right away, until Kael demanded it and he noticed Alpha Grayson was also coming. Naturally, he wants to impress the other Alpha, putting his hatred toward me aside. If hatred is even the right word. It sure seems like he feels that way, with the way he ignores me and almost seethes in my presence.Ace seems nervous about coming, but would never disobey Kael. Neither of the two Silent’s know anything about what we are doing. All Kael told them is that they are tracking something, and they are there for backup only.
~JadaKael’s reaction wasn’t how I expected it to be.It wasn’t admission, to be true, that I know we are mates and that I’m revealing it to him right now. It was a simple question that may have taken him off guard for a moment, considering the time I’m asking it, however, he doesn’t look as if he is coming to a realisation about what I’m insinuating.“Oh, well, if we were mates…I feel like it’s fairly evident,” Kael tells me, looking at me earnestly. I’m not sure what he means by that. Is that him telling me he would continue trying to find his mother for his entire life and not worry about me?
~JadaTwo months later.I love our new home.It took some time to be built exactly how Kael and I wanted it, but I’m glad we waited. It’s traditional, yet fits in with what Kael and I both love the most. What I believe makes it so special is it is right in the outdoors, rather than in a stuffy city. Being underneath the shade of trees, a garden right outside to grow things in is like medicine.Kael and I decided it would be best to leave the Discipline Pack after he gave his title to a friend of his who he has always trusted, Carson. Kael wanted to put distance between him and his old life, and as someone who has always wanted to travel, I couldn’t be happier.
~JadaI don’t think I want to be apart of their family.Kara sweeps back to her seat, motioning for me to sit on a vacant one also. With my eye on Kael, I sit next to him, wishing I hadn’t walked in on their conversation. Now they are distracted by me, and aren’t going to finish their conversation. I wanted to know more about the Sinful manipulation thing.“I’m so happy Kael has a mate. Especially one as beautiful as you. I’m sure you two will treat each other well,” she says softly. There’s a flicker of sadness in her eyes as she says that, which Kael seems to notice also, as he shifts uncomfortably in his seat.Kara is so sweet and so stunn
~JadaIt was almost like looking in a mirror.When have the same green eyes, the same hair. It’s so jarring, for a moment I’m stunned, stumbling back a few steps as I eye her skeptically. There is no denying I’m related to her, and that she is the woman in my nightmares who raised me, who hid me from Kael’s father’s power, and was supposedly sent to the prisons where she was executed privately, along with my father.Yet, here she is, standing in front of me as if all the grief I spent dealing with in my childhood was all for nothing. Did Axel know my mother was alive all this time, and didn’t tell me? I’m not sure why I’m questioning his morals now…
~JadaIt’s clear how bothered Kael is that he can’t detain Axel.We all sit in one room, Axel on one side of the table, myself and Kael on the other. He looks at us, cocky and entitled, knowing there is nothing we can do but listen and negotiate with him until he gives us the information we need. Kael is fuming beside me, quietly calculating his next move. At least no one else knows with this exchange.“Well, aren’t you going to ask me where she is?” He questions, leaning comfortably back in his seat. It bothers me how calm he is about this, knowing he has a chance of getting out of here alive. I want to wrap my hands around his neck for what he tried doing to me.
~JadaAt first, I didn’t know if he was serious.A half smile slipped onto my face as I readied myself to turn him down. To let him know this isn’t me admitting to him that I love him, and want to be with him over Kael. However, it doesn’t seem that that idea was flirting with his mind, as an almost sinister expression moves across his face. I freeze, realising this might not be as innocent as I first assumed.“I just thought we could talk is all. I would like to fix things,” I murmur, leaning he palms of my hands against the office desk. Axel takes a few steps forward, folding his arms over his chest. In that moment, I looked into his eyes and felt genuine fear.
~JadaI’m not tired, even as we return back to our room.Kael peels his jacket off while I sit on the edge of the bed, pulling my shoes off my feet. My eyes linger on Kael’s body as he tugs his shirt off, tossing it away. I’m not sure what intrigued me so much about the way he looks with the light reflecting through the window, the smooth, buttery light casting shadows over his already perfect abdomen.Something within me flutters, heat moving down from my stomach to between my legs. It’s a feeling that makes a blush reach my cheeks, which I turn away to conceal. Why am I suddenly feeling this way just by him taking his shirt off.“I’m hoping we ca
~JadaIt feels good to have no worries.Kael and I had a swim in the sea and a walk down the beach as the sun began to set. As dusk falls me, we moved to a restaurant on the beach. It’s surprisingly busy here, people laughing and talking amongst each other as they drink and eat. Everything here feels so calm, the people enjoying themselves with no worries on their shoulders.Naturally, everyone stares blatantly at Kael, whispering between each other as they try to decipher whether Kael is actually the Alpha of the Discipline Pack or not. Luckily, no one comes up to him to ruin our meal.“This place is so nice,” I comment once Kael and I got our drinks. He sits oppos
~JadaKael never left my room that night.We sat up all night, talking to each other about almost everything that we could. By the time dawn flooded through the windows, it was too late for us to get any sleep. I don’t even want to get up. I just want to lie next to my mate, still naked, my head resting on his chest while he plays with my hair.“Can we just stay in bed all day?” I ask. I don’t think I want to face the reality of our lives yet. I don’t want to see Blue, I don’t want to deal with the fact Kael might still pursue his mother against both her and Sinful’s wishes. It’s all so much.Kael loosens a breath, rolling over to look over m
~JadaI feel guilty seeming so relieved.Sinful lets me go, and I fall into Kael’s arms. When I look up at him, he smiles down at me, as if he isn’t regretful, however, I know It can’t have been easy to completely disregard ever being able to commit to finding his mother again. I’m going to have to make it up to him, however, I doubt anything will come close to that.“Noble of you, Kael,” Sinful says, and for a moment, when I turn back around to glance at him, I see a hint of sadness. Maybe it’s because he knows his mate would never do the same for him. As much as I despise him, that even makes me feel somewhat sad.