¬Avia
I barely have a chance to grab my morning coffee before Isaiah approaches me.
"Kenna, good morning," he says, smiling tightly at me. He can be so effortlessly polite, conditioned his whole life to assume the role of someone whose best asset is to hide their true intentions. "I wanted to introduce you to some people."
I’m already aware of exactly who I’m expected to convene with, but I appear none-the-wiser anyway. "Who?"
He nods for me to follow him. "These are to be your friends while you are here. They have very influential families that if you're seen with, will boost your reputation."
"Wonderful,” I reply, hoping my tone isn’t overly excited.
In reality, I’m dreading this. Having to have a conversation with a group of girls who I doubt I have anything in common with sounds like my personal nightmare, but regardless, I’m going to use this opportunity to get as much out of them as possible.
Wordlessly, I follow Isaiah out of the estate through one of the back exits. A large formal lawn stretches out, a white gazebo sitting to our right, surrounded by a group of tall trees. In the gazebo, I can see three figures sitting around a small table, speaking between themselves. My stomach churns, and for once, the anger I feel to all these people is lost, replaced instead by nerves.
Isaiah looks down at me, brow raised. He seems reluctant to take me out there, almost like he feels guilty for subjecting me to their presence. He has Alpha duties calling him away from the estate today, or I believe that’s the case from what I overheard yesterday from his conversation with Zire. His jacket is a dark, rich crimson colour, the undershirt black. Whatever duty he is attending to, it’s definitely formal.
We walk across the formal lawn toward the gazebo, not exchanging any words between us. The girls all turn their heads upon our approach, blatantly observing us, going completely silent. I try not to lower my gaze in submission, keeping it raised on each girl in turn as Isaiah and I walk up the few steps into the gazebo.
The girls are all effortlessly beautiful, dripping with wealth in so many different ways. I see it in their clothes, their jewellery and even in the air about them.
"Girls, this is Kenna, who I told you all about,” Isaiah introduces smoothly, motioning to me.
The girl sitting closest to me stands in one sweeping motion, her chair pushed back. "I'm Cherry, this is Savea and Mari."
The girl standing, Cherry, smiles at me widely, honey-coloured eyes warm and welcoming. She reaches forward, the hands covered in white lace gloves, grabbing my own to lead me to sit down beside her at the table. Morning tea is set up in front of me, small pastries on prettily painted plates are laid out in the sun, looking delightfully inviting.
I look at each girl in turn, trying to keep the smile on my face. "Lovely to meet you all."
"You must hate it here, it's so hot for someone who is from the Love Pack,” Savea exclaims, fanning herself with a jade green fan, long dark hair billowing behind her.
I try not to laugh, knowing I haven’t been in the Love Pack since I was very young, and now thrive in the warm Passion Pack weather. Cherry leans over, minding her flowy white sleeves over her plate of food, grabbing the teapot to pour me a cup of bronze tinted tea. When I look back up, Isaiah is walking back to the estate my heart sinking at the sight.
"I don't mind it so much,” I shrug.
"So you're here to make the Alpha look good?" Cherry asks, handing me my tea. It smells sickly sweet, but I take a sip anyway, trying not to look out of place amongst these girls. She has a knowing look in her eyes as she sweeps her light blonde hair back over her shoulder, propping her chin on her hand to look at me.
"Yes,” I muse. Savea has a regal look about her, one that has likely come from extensive travel and a family that has put her through the best possible schooling. Her eyes are a deep, pretty green, only a few shades lighter than Isaiah’s.
"Are you getting paid?" the other girl, Mari asks.
Her gaze is the most intense, her deep brown eyes looking over me with no shame to be seen. She is beautiful though, bronze hair twirled up into a braided updo, showing off her slender face and cheekbones that appear to be carved out of pure granite.
"No...I mean, I get to stay with him for free,” I say hurriedly. Their whole lives are based upon transactions; the higher the better. How much money I have might actually mean something to them, and whether I fit in here amongst them may depend on that. I have to gain their trust, because they will know more about Isaiah then he may be willing to share with me.
"You must be getting something,” Cherry says, sounding genuinely confused.
"Leave her alone Cherry, clearly she doesn't want to indulge us in her agreement with the Alpha," Savea exclaims, looking over at me. I shift uncomfortably under her stare, practically feeling her stripping me down, examining every exposed inch of me. "Are you sleeping with him?"
I don’t flinch. "I arrived only a week ago."
"He works quick, I hear,” Mari notes, taking a bite out of her cupcake. Has he slept with these girls? They are looking at me like I’m about to tell them something so compelling it will make their week, so I’m going to assume they haven’t, but maybe want to.
Her words do make me think, though. If there is this rumour that he works quickly with other women, it’s a surprise to me. He hasn’t shown me all that much interest other than the odd lingering glance and somewhat suggestive remark. Maybe that will change though. If this rumour is true, then it is a benefit to me. I have to remind myself sometimes of why I am here, what my mission is to do.
"No," I say, to her original question. "But it doesn't mean it can't happen."
"I wouldn't tie yourself to him that much, if I were you," Savea mumbles, adjusting her dark dress, the top of it huggin her neck. "Your father wouldn't approve."
"I don't care what my father wants. If I want to have sex with him, I will,” I reply confidently. Maybe if I can get it back to Isaiah what I want through these women, then I can lower his guard...Or maybe I’m going to ruin all my chances, and this mission will be over because of my words.
Cherry nudges me, biting her strawberry tart. "I like you so much already."
"You're clearly made for this,” Mari adds, her smile somewhat sinister. It reminds me of the conversation I had with Zire and Isaiah, about how I need to be cold-hearted to do this job. Have these girls been told the same thing by their families? Or do already have that ingrained within them?
I lean forward, the cloying scent of the roses in a crystal vase at the centre of the table making my head spin for a moment. "Tell me everything you know about the Alpha, I want to know what I'm in for."
"He's quiet, never really giving us much attention when our families have events," Cherry admits, looking between Savea and Mari. These girls clearly rely on each other in this wild, unpredictable world. "Everyone despises him so much, yet he never has much to say to us at all. When he decided to start taking people from their homes to have them working mandatory jobs at those factories, we didn't hear from him in days."
My heart plummets in my chest. That was only enacted eight months ago, and was a real turning point for the rebellion. It changed everything from merely planning, to full blown movements within the community that we have had to keep up with. Malin and I would be working there if it weren’t for the fact that our names are wiped from every record now, so we technically don’t exist.
"At least it didn't affect us,” I mutter with a shrug, although I want to slap myself just for saying it.
"I hate it, and I hate him for it," Savea sighs, extending her slender hand in front of her, admiring her neatly manicured nails. His green gaze raises to mine, pinning me in my chair. "But if you don't like that, you'll despise his family."
I already know that. "Why?"
"They are just evil. They never treat us like equals," Cherry exclaims, shivering despite the warm air that bathes this shaded gazebo. "That whole family is poison."
"Who cares? I know what I'm getting out of this,” I assert, refusing to let them see that I’m frightened, that soon enough I may have to meet his family, and even though I’m Kenna from the Love Pack, daughter of a Noble, I will still not be good enough to be in their son's presence. Isaiah probably already thinks that...I mean, Zire definitely does.
"Go for it, Kenna," Mari purrs, twirling her golden bracelet around her wrist. "I don't know a single person to grace his bed, so I'll celebrate if you can achieve it."
I grab my tea cup, grinning despite everything in my body wanting the opposite. "Here's to trying.”
¬AviaTonight, I’m feeling brave.I’ve noticed since I’ve arrived that no one hangs around past midnight, so instead of going back to the compound to see Kadrick and Malin, I’m going to explore. If I get caught, I’ll just blame it on general curiosity, or perhaps I’ll blame it on home-sickness that is making me want to learn the layout of this enormous manor so I can feel more comfortable.Avoiding the Alpha’s quarters, I begin my exploration upstairs. Most unmarked doors I avoid, worried I may open one and it’s someone’s room. So I just
~AviaI’ve decided not to stay long at the compound tonight, wanting to finally get a proper night's sleep instead of gallivanting all about the city the whole night long.My hands tightly grip the window sill to my room here in Isaiah’s estate, as I pull myself up. I’ve gotten quite good at coming in through this window, as leaving through my door has recently become too much of a risk. Mercifully, a trellis laced with climbing ivy aids me in my climb up to the second story, even if I can feel the soft bend in the thin wood as I make my way up.Wincing, I pull myself through the last part of the window, ducking my head be
~AviaVoices and rushed footsteps outside my room forced me to rise early this morning.For a moment, I’m confused, as I dress quickly and stride downstairs, avoiding frantic staff who hardly have time to murmur vacant apologies at me as they pass. The main foyer downstairs is far more busy, many people separated into small groups as they talk fill the space, none bothering to look up as I join them, looking for anyone I know who can give me answers.Spotting Isaiah at the other end of the room, speaking to some unfamiliar face, I walk to meet
~AviaI go where I know I can run into him naturally.I’m not sure how long I stand in the kitchen, sipping from a glass of water, waiting for Isaiah to emerge from his underground room. Malin is right, this mission needs to move forward, and quickly. The longer it takes for me to get information from Isaiah, the longer I have to be here, which means at any moment, someone could realise I’m not the real Kenna.Finally, I hear soft footsteps from the adjacent hallway, so I turn to the tap on and refill my glass. All my senses are alert as I anticipate Isaiah’s entry. Speaking to him like this, in the middle of the night where he
~AviaI couldn’t bring myself to admit to Malin and Kadrick what happened in the kitchen last night between Isaiah and I.I’ve spent the better part of the day gnawing at my fingernails, leaving them raw and tender, pacing back and forth incessantly in my room. Proceeding from here is going to take a lot of caution, since I’m teetering on a very dark, unforgiving path. Had I succumbed to Isaiah’s wishes, what would have happened to me? I would be disgraced."You've failed. He truly doesn't want you,” Malin mutter, tossing her hands up. I sit with m
~AviaI lean back in my seat, letting the sun drench me."How are you and the Alpha doing?" Cherry’s sweet voice asks from beside me. I turn my head, looking at her. Myself, Cherry, Mari and Savea have found ourselves louding out the back of Isaiah’s manor, enjoying the heat from the sun. My morning was hectic with everyone running around trying to make sense of what happened to my personal guard, and since I’m not allowed out of sight without one, I’m forced to be in the company of three girl’s I struggle to have anything in common with."I'm gett
~AviaKadrick passes back and forth in my room, dappled streaks of moonlight tracing his person."I can't stand him,” he mutters distractedly, hands clenched firmly at his sides.I loung back on the bed, chewing mindlessly on a snack I retrieved earlier from the kitchen. Kadrick is struggling with the same initial feelings that consumed me when I arrived. He may not have experienced the consequences of Isaiah’s reign to the same extent I have, but that, and yet the anger he grapples with is fiery and hot, compared to mine, which simmers at a cold, dark intensity. I’ve had years to cry, to scream and truly feel
(TW: brief indications of abuse in the very beginning)~AviaI scrunch my nose up, trying not to sneeze.This morning I was summoned early to have breakfast with the girls outside in the formal garden under an impressively sized pergola. The morning sun warms my back as I enjoy my white tea with honey, even if I'm rubbing my nose every few seconds, silently cursing my allergies, even if the blooming flowers around us are beautiful."Who is Elise?" I ask mindlessly once the discussion between Savea and Cherry dies down.
~AviaI hold Isaiah's hand tightly, looking at him as he looks at the house that reportedly held his mother in the duration of Isaiah's reign as Alpha.Over the past month, while transferring power, we have sent her letters, asking her if she wanted to return to the estate, but she refused. So now, we have come to where she has made herself a home, on the edge of the Passion Pack.Isaiah is anxious to see her again. It's been years since Kit forbid him from seeing her until he proved himself as Alpha.And now I get to watch them being reunited."Are you nervous?" I ask softly. Isaiah nods, swallowing tightly as he stares at the front door, which we are yet to approach. He's taking his time, drinking in the sight of his mother's home, which she is unwillingly to part with. I can't blame her. It's beautiful out here.Isaiah sighs. "More then I would like to admit.""When did she leave?" I ask gently. Making him repeat the story will make him remember who much he wants this. He's convinc
~AviaIsaiah's fingers press gently into my jaw, turning my head around so he can examine my face.Kit's hit has left a mark, which I've thankfully covered with makeup, although by the seething anger simmering in Isaiah's gaze, some of it is still visible. It's not good, considering it's Tai's wedding day to Elise, and important people will be present. But by the end of the ceremony, it won't matter."I'm going to kill him," Isaiah growls softly.He looks handsome, dressed up as he is, looking the part he is meant to play. Today, it doesn't hurt to see him like this, knowing we are going to escape this life, that he is mine completely, and soon, him and I can be together with no interruption."Me too," I sigh, fighting the urge to touch the tender flesh of my cheek. It only stoke my anger, my desire for revenge that I will be granted today."I can't believe he would hit you." He shakes his head, dark brows furrow."It won't matter after today, right?" I say lightly, trying to remind o
~AviaThe cool of the night does nothing to soothe my anger as I stride outside, wondering if I should run into the forest and never come back.I hate her. I truly hate her.Footsteps sound from behind me, and when I turn to look over my shoulder, I'm relieved to see it's Isaiah approaching, and not Malin. "Hey...hey, Avia, are you okay?""I'm done. I hate her," I tell him. I don't even think I can look at her again, let alone continue with the rebellion. It's not worth it anymore, if Malin is doing this. I should have backed away the moment she took my leadership position away from me, but Isaiah being involved encouraged me to stay and see this through.He envelopes me in a hug, pressing me against him. "It's okay...""No, it's not okay. She killed Kenna," I tell him, as if he truly ever knew who Kenna was. How could anyone take a life like that? I should have freed her much sooner...I should have saved her when I first started having doubts."She shouldn't have done that, I know th
~AviaRebellion meetings like this are risky.With Kit staying at the estate, he notices absences far more. So we have been sneaking out together in the middle of the night. It's exciting, doing this behind Kit's back with Isaiah. I'm beyond happy that I know longer have to keep this from him.Elise and I haven't spoken since she demoted me. The only reason I want to stay is because of Isaiah, otherwise I think I would have left by now. She went behind my back. I don't think I'll ever trust her again.But I've decided I like Kae. She is decisive and honest.Malin may be the former, but she most definitely is not the latter."It's our time to move soon. Kit may not be around for long, so we need a solid plan," Kae tells the group, steam from her coffee wafting up around her face. Everyone is overwhelmed by Kit's visit, knowing now is the time to make our move."I want to kill him. I'm going to kill him," Isaiah says. Everyone is still, knowing what it must take for a son to want to kil
*Mature Content Warning - Read At Your Own Discretion!*~AviaKit arrived a few days later, much to the dismay of everyone in the manor.Mercifully, I haven't seen him all day, keeping to myself. However, dinner time has come around, and I've been summoned to the dining room. I wish I didn't have to see him until the moment I can kill him, but Isaiah wants to announce me as his mistress so his father won't speculate about any affection we show toward each other.Striding into the dining room, I take my seat next to Isaiah, opposite Kit. Cherry and Zire are here, but Elise has finally departed home for a short period of time before the wedding."Kit, it's good to see you," I muse, forcing a tight smile upon my lips."You too Kenna. How is your father?" He asks, brazenly looking over me. I can feel Isaiah stiffen watching his father, but I quickly nudge his leg with my foot under the table, not wanting him to reveal his anger right now.I summon a calm breath. "Doing well.""Really? I h
~AviaWe sit at the table the next morning, silently eating our breakfast."You all okay? You seem tired," Cherry notes, looking at each of us in turn.Considering everything that is going on, Elise has made some kind of excuse to stay. Now we are all here at once, all in the rebellion and eager to deal with Kit. Cherry has no idea though, which Zire insisted continues. It's not that we think she will talk to anyone about it, we all just agreed that we didn't want her to have to harbour this secret."Hardly slept," Isaiah mutters, glancing up at me over the rim of his coffee cup. We got back late last night, and although part of me was tempted to spend the last few hours before dawn in Isaiah's room, I remembered the role I have to play here.And it's not as Isaiah's mate.Elise leans back in her seat, peeling away at her fruit. "Me neither.""I was...reading," Zire says, frowning down at his plate, avoiding Cherry's eyes. So much for the expert liar. When it comes to Cherry, he has n
~AviaI find Isaiah standing outside the compound, staring off into the small woods that flank it.He wears the shadows like a cloak, not looking my way as I approach. My heart pounds wildly, stomach fluttering. I'm frightened he will tell me he won't forgive me, that he doesn't want anything to do with me.But I'm also frightened he will tell me he does want to be with me, and everything will go back to being complicated.He continues to stare straight ahead into the darkness as I lean my back against the wall of the building next him. "I don't even know your name.""It's Avia," I whisper."Avia," he mouths, testing my name out on his lips.I've become so accustomed to hearing him call me Kenna that my stomach flips hearing my true name. I never thought we would get to this part, where he knew my name before his reign as Alpha has been taken down. But it feels right, as if the last puzzle piece has been slotted in to confirm we truly are mates, because the feeling that overcomes me h
~AviaI've never felt such horror.This is a trap, we've been caught. Zire told Isaiah who I truly am, and now they have infiltrated the rebellion, and I'm going to go to prison for a very long time. I feel like screaming, hyperventilating or even fainting. Anything to distract myself from the terrifying reality that my life is truly ending."What is going on?" I ask quietly, looking at everyone's shocked expressions in turn. None of them look angry, surprisingly, but it appears as though they didn't expect to see me here. Maybe this isn't a plot against me.Isaiah steps forward, all the warmth in his emerald eyes that I've become familiar with has leeched out, leaving an iciness in it's wake. "That is a great question."Malin grasps my arm, looking as panicked as I feel."We need to get out of here, Avia. We have been caught," Malin exclaims, backing toward the door. This is the first time I've seen her not in control of a situation, taken aback by the last people we expected to see
~AviaTears stream down my face as I drive, aiming for the city.I can't go back, not now. The mission is over, and I failed. All I can do now is hope Malin will take me back into the Rebellion, otherwise I'm going to have to create a life elsewhere. It hurts to think about leaving Isaiah, never seeing him again, but I can't risk him forcing me to stay with him, to be with him when I want nothing to do with leading this Pack.Eventually I make it into the city, my tears drying as a sense of responsibility drapes over me. I've known I wouldn't be able to make this work for a while, so this shouldn't have come as a surprise.I just wish I didn't allow myself to be so weak in that moment...I shouldn't have let him kiss me.Once I've made it deep into the city, I park and change quickly into clothing in the back of my car. I need to get some sleep, in this quiet parking lot, with what remaining hours of night time are left, and then head to the compound in the morning.I wake a few hours