CASSIUS
Instead of making my way back to the ballroom in the basement of the pack house, I change course and head towards Xeraphina’s room. I don’t care if I have to talk to her through the door. There are so many things that need to be said before she connects with her wolf and shifts for the first time. I’m prepared to apologize on my hands and knees, even kissing her feet if necessary. It is crucial that I mend the rift between us.
As I hurried down the hallway, the sound of a piercing scream echoed, transforming into a haunting wolf’s howl reverberating through my ears. The intensity threatened to shatter my eardrums. In that moment, a captivating scent enveloped me, a blend of sweet honeysuckle, the refreshing scent of rain, and the earthy aroma of the forest. The scent is more alluring than ever before and I know that it’s Xeraphina who is transforming into her wolf. A mix of overwhelming happiness and anxiety envelopes my core. Ignoring the discomfort, I sprinted the last few steps, adrenaline coursing through my veins. With a determined grip, I pried the door open, my eyes widening at the sight before me. Xeraphina, her vibrant blue-green eyes resembling an ocean, sparkled with a hint of golden light within them. However, her face contorted in agony, her body writhing in pain. I knew then I needed to get her out into the open air as soon as possible. I’ve heard of wolves shifting indoors and the scene isn’t pretty. Let alone traumatizing to the wolf and its human counterpart. Getting her outside is risky, but I’ve got to, for the sake of Xeraphina and her wolf.
Bending down, I feel the coolness of the wooden floor against my knees as I pull her into my arms. I can hear the rapid thumping of our hearts synchronizing with each other’s as I clutch her as close as possible. The urgency fuels my sprint towards the front door of the pack house, the sound of my footsteps echoing through the hallway. With each stride, I send a swift mind link to Luna Sarah, alerting her to the situation.
As her human screams pierce the air, intertwining with the haunting howls of her wolf, I sprint towards the front door, my heart shattering like fragile glass. The anguish and desperation reverberates through the pack house, echoing in my ears. A mixture of fear and empathy washes over me as I comprehend the excruciating pain of her first transformation. I’ve been in this situation myself and the pain of transforming for the first time is immense. I want to ease her suffering, to bear the burden in her place. Gazing down at her, my heart aches at the sight of anguish and fury etched into her face, like scars carved by a cruel fate. I am aware I am the last person she wants to be close to right now. “Hold on, baby girl,” I whisper, my voice trembling. “I will protect you. Don’t shift while I have you in my arms. It would be bad for both of us. The first shift is always the worst, but you will be alright. I promise.”
Once outside, I lay her down in the soft, dew-covered meadow. I settle down beside her, my voice filled with words of praise and comfort, hoping to ease her distress. I encourage her to relax, feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin as I offer guidance on how to connect with her inner wolf, easing the arduous transformation process. As I speak, Luna Sarah approaches us, her presence commanding. She dismisses me with a stern command to take a hike, taking over soothing Xeraphina, who continues to writhe in pain.
‘Don’t go far. We must stay with our mate, Cassius.’
‘Why? So she can reject us right on the spot. I never talked to her. There is no way Xeraphina will hear me out now. It’s best we leave her and give her some space. Maybe if she has some time to cool off, she won’t reject us.’
‘Stop your bellyaching. Even if she rejects us, we won’t accept it. You will do everything in your power to earn her trust and the right to be her mate. If you had listened to me every time you…’
‘Shut it Talon. I know I fucked up in more ways than one. Countless times, alright. Just back off. I know what I need to do, and I don’t need you berating me.’
I’m startled out of my connection with Talon when someone claps me on the back and embraces my shoulder. “Thank you for getting my baby out here so fast. Sarah and I wouldn’t have made it in time. If you hurt my daughter, there will be hell to pay though,” Alpha Joseph says, before walking off to join Sarah in helping Xeraphina with her first shift into a werewolf.
‘Our mate smells absolutely divine,’ Talon says, sniffing the air and wagging his tail. ‘Honeysuckle, rain and forest. I’ve never smelled anything so divine in my life.’
***
Xeraphina took fifteen minutes to transform. Her fur was a mesmerizing blend of black and dark chestnut. I was in awe of her wolf’s beauty. She was the most beautiful wolf I had ever seen. Her size was impressive, likely because of her alpha blood. Her eyes were piercing blue-green with flecks of gold. I couldn’t look away. The connection between us was intense. It felt like a magnetic force was trying to pull us together. I didn’t want to disturb her, so I stayed still, holding my breath. Xeraphina seemed to be having a conversation with her wolf as they were meeting each other for the first time. My infidelity, as well as everything that has happened in the last two years, is being shared by Xeraphina with her wolf, I’m pretty sure. I don’t blame her for doing so. If she is; I’m in trouble.
Her majestic wolf leaves her parents behind, trots over to me, sniffing me as she walks around me, then sits on her haunches in front of me with an annoyed growl coming from her throat. I keep thinking that maybe her wolf will introduce herself to me. Maybe let me know what her name is. But then I’m reminded that Xeraphina and her wolf can’t link with me yet. Her wolf, however, can link with Talon though since they are mates.
‘Has her wolf reached out to you, Talon?’
‘Yeah. So shut up. I’m talking to her now.’
‘At least tell me what her wolf’s name is.’
‘Her wolfs name is Xariah. And you are not in a pleasant spot with her, or Xeraphina. Leave me alone, so I can speak with my mate.’
This isn’t a good sign at all.
XERAPHINAThe excruciating agony pulses through every fiber of my being, intensifying with each piercing scream and howl that escapes my throat. My hands revert to their original state, only to twist and shatter once more. I feel like at any moment my heart will go into shock and I’ll die. It would be nice if I died, so this excruciating pain would end.As my door swings open, a captivating aroma fills the room, surpassing any scent I have ever encountered. It’s an incredible blend of salty ocean air, juicy watermelon, and a hint of rich chocolate. For a moment, I find solace from the torment that consumes me, but it fades as the searing pain resumes its merciless assault. It feels as though every nerve, cell, and bone in my body is being torn apart, creating an unbearable and unrelenting sensation. Even my internal organs seem to undergo a disturbing transformation, and I could throw up at any moment. However, the thought of vomiting is impossible since I haven’t eaten since yesterda
XERAPHINAI have never experienced such exhilaration in my entire life as when Xariah and I dashed through the woods. Even the excitement of cattle roping in rodeos pales in comparison. For four long years, I have eagerly awaited this moment. The shock and disappointment of discovering that Cassius was my mate, as revealed by Charity, no longer burdens my thoughts. I am finally free! Xariah, my incredible wolf counterpart, exceeds all my expectations and is everything I have ever wished and prayed for from the moon goddess.Xariah stops for a moment, sniffing the air, panting to cool off. Her ears perk up at the sound of a nearby stream and lick her chops. ‘The first shift always takes a lot out of the wolf and human. I need a drink before going any further.’‘That would be nice. We could see what we look like in full form, Xariah. The stream isn’t too far away. Let’s go,’ I say through our shared consciousness, smiling.Xariah’s tail wags furiously as she yips with glee, her joyful h
XERAPHINAIn an instant, a searing pain slices through my chest, causing me to hunch over, clutching my heart. The anguish grips me beyond any pain I have ever felt before, as if squeezing the very life out of me. It’s worse than the pain I felt when I was transforming into my wolf for the first time.It was wrong of me to reject Cassius. He has been a part of my life since I was born. Cassius has seen me through every milestone growing up. Even as I went through my preteen stages and then became a teenager. Cassius was even there for me when I was shifting into my wolf for the first time. He’s been there for me forever until he got married to Charity. Then he cut all ties with me until two weeks ago. Two years without Cassius by my side and the whole time, he knew I was his fated mate. I don’t understand why Cassius has done this to me. He rejected me before I could even understand what was happening. I became nothing to him when he married Charity. Just like I became nothing to my
CASSIUSI hoped rescuing Xeraphina during her first wolf transformation would make her consider giving me a chance. However, being there for her did not give me the result I wanted. Despite Luna Sarah’s disapproval, I stayed and waited for her to shift into her wolf form. Luna Sarah was right - it would take time for Xeraphina to feel at ease around me.I knew Xeraphina would be hungry when she returned, so I started making her favorite breakfast. The waffles were easy, but the omelet took a while because I wanted it to be perfect. In a skillet, I cooked diced ham and chicken. I chopped onions and minced garlic. I even minced parsley, oregano, and other spices in a separate skillet. With four eggs from the chickens, I made a huge omelet. I wanted to do everything myself to make sure it was perfect, even though some omega women offered to help. While I was waiting for Xeraphina, time felt like it was lagging. Now she’s here, but things aren’t going as planned.I thought Xeraphina would
XERAPHINAClutching some oven mitts, I open the oven, bend down and retrieve my plate. As I rise, I glance back to see the bewildered look on Cassius’s face. “Do you need something? Or can I eat in peace?” He blinks a few times before turning and leaving the kitchen with his shoulders slumped and his head hung low.Do I feel any remorse for hurting Cassius's feelings and being harsh? Absolutely not. Should I feel guilty? Nope. He deserved the full force of my words. I should have gone even further than what I said before. I don’t believe I expressed myself enough. However, during that conversation, I was in unbearable pain, and the longer it went on, the worse the pain became. What he doesn’t realize is that the bond between us is now weak. His scent doesn’t affect me as strongly anymore, and I barely felt any tingles when he touched me or hugged me after not accepting the rejection. Thankfully, Cassius’ not accepting the rejection took away all the pain, so I’m grateful for that. The
XERAPHINATilly, an omega wolf in her late twenties, joined our pack a few years ago, having come from a neighboring pack. Her story of why she left her old pack remains a mystery to everyone except my father, the Alpha and my mother, the Luna of our pack. Despite being here for ten years, she arrived without a mate and has yet to find one.Returning her hug, I step back to retrieve my plate and put it back in the oven to keep it warm. I then turn to face Tilly. “I’m not sure what has happened to you, but my condolences for whatever it was. Little did I know that him carrying me outside in the middle of my first shift into a wolf was so risky. If I had known, I wouldn’t have let him do it. Now I feel guilty. The whole time he was taking me away, I was mentally hoping I could shift and use my claws to castrate him.”“My older brother, who was only a year older than me, died when he picked me up and carried me outside, when I was going through my first transformation into my wolf. We di
XERAPHINAAfter finishing my meal, I made my way down to the basement where my party would take place. It’s going to be an elegant affair, and my dress is stunning. My parents are pulling out all the stops for me, which doesn’t happen very often. The whole excitement of the event used to revolve around me finding my mate, but that’s no longer the case. As a result, families from different packs will be attending. Honestly, I’m not too bothered about that anymore. A party is a party, and I’ve been anticipating this moment for a few years now.If only I had been born a boy, perhaps my father would have shown more interest in me throughout the years. It feels like I have always been a burden to him. My mother has always been the one who looks out for me, even amidst her responsibilities towards our pack. However, my father keeps her occupied with pack affairs, leaving little time for us to bond as mother and daughter.As I make my way down to the basement, I spot my mother taking charge,
XERAPHINA “Charity was the one who pursued Xachariah first. I discovered them together one night, and that’s when Xachariah admitted they had been dating for a few months. Your brother was splurging money on jewelry, clothes, and whatever she desired, all without our knowledge or permission. Charity moved on and started seeing Cassius after we learned the truth.”“Cassius doesn’t know about Xachariah and Charity. As far as I know, no one does. Beyond them two, your dad, me and his mother Catherine. Cassius’s father, Carleson, doesn’t even know. We should have told him and I guarantee you Cassius never would have been able to stay with Charity so long. He never would have let them get married, either. That woman is rotten to the core,” mom says, crossing her arms and rolling her eyes in anger. “She and her family have caused nothing but problems since merging into our pack thirty years ago.”“It sounds to me like she’s been out for money and ranking from the get go. I’m glad you and d
CASSIUSXeraphina lies motionless, connected to an IV, feeding tube, and heart monitor. Vaegon and I grip her hands, waiting for her to regain consciousness. It has been three long hours since we discovered Xeraphina. The healers have determined that she has fractured vertebrae and has sustained extensive fractures throughout her body, including her neck. Xariah’s powers are too weak to heal her, and they have informed us she may not survive this horrific ordeal. All we can do now is sit by her side, filled with hope for a positive outcome.Xeraphina’s heart rate has been slow, and the healers have revived her five times. However, she always comes back to us, if you can call it that. Her parents, Vaegon and I, have decided that if her heart stops again, we will let her go. If Xariah can’t heal her, Xeraphina wouldn’t want to live in a state where she cannot function.Xeraphina’s heart rate stabilizes, and her pale complexion slowly regains its natural color. With time, the bruises on
XERAPHINAAn enchanting whisper of a woman’s voice I have never heard before penetrates my subconscious, beckoning for me to wake up. “Xeraphina. Wake up dear. We have much to discuss.” But for the life of me, I can’t pry my eyes open.“Don’t worry about anything, dear child. You almost killed yourself falling down the stairs, but I got here just in time to help you. I’ve stayed close, watching over you and your mates in case I would need to intervene,” she says, then sings once more.As she sings, her voice weaves an enchanting melody that stirs my soul. A delicate shiver travels down my spine, while a cool breeze caresses my head and torso, soothing the shooting pain that had left my body in agony.My eyes snap open, and I am engulfed in weightlessness, my body free from all the pain. As I turn my head to the right, I am captivated by the sight of a stunning woman who bears an uncanny resemblance to me. Her eyes, a mesmerizing fusion of green and blue, outshine even my own, radiatin
XERAPHINA“Don’t worry, Angel of Mine. We won’t kill each other. We’re just gonna rough each other up some,” Vaegon says, glancing over at Cassius. “Right, asshole?”“You’re still lucky I’m behind bars, fucker,” Cassius warns, ramming himself against the bars and reaching his arms out to grab Vaegon, but he steps out of reach.“Quit y’all’s shit already. You are two grown men. I’m not in the mood for this. Sleep. I need sleep,” I say, strolling away from them and walking towards Xachariah.Getting on tiptoe, I whisper into Xachariah’s ear, so Vaegon and Cassius can’t hear us with their heightened wolves’ senses. “Those two are going to kill us all. We’re all doomed.”Xachariah chuckles and shakes his head. Then does the same, whispering into my ear. “They know if they kill each other, they’ll kill you. If what your wolves are saying is true. Vaegon and Cassius would do nothing to jeopardize your life, Xeraphina,” Zachariah explains, a snarl coming from his lips when Cassius comes into
XERAPHINA Cassius’s gaze met my own, gold swirling in his irises and confusion washes over me. Then I look over at Vaegon to see gold swirling around in his irises as well. What the hell is going on here? Talon left Cassius, but he’s back now, out of nowhere; for what reason? Talon reconnecting with Cassius will make rejecting him so much more difficult now. A fresh wave of tears collect in my eyes and I reach up to swipe them away when they slip down my cheeks.Glancing at Vaegon, my voice hitches as I whisper, “Vaegon, I’m sorry, but I need you to leave, please. Cassius and I need to have a private chat.”“You can’t reject him, Xeraphina,” Vaegon states, as he glares at Cassius, growling and crossing his arms in anger.My brows furrowed, I turn to see Cassius coming closer. “What the hell are you talking about, Vaegon? I thought you of all people would be the happiest about me rejecting Cassius.”“Has Xariah not reached out to you about anything regarding the three of us?” Cassius
XERAPHINAWhen Xariah rushes into the forest, I decide to end our shared consciousness. I don’t care what Xariah does during this time. Thanks to Cassius, I’m a ball of anger, pain, and sadness. Looking back, I see if I had just kept my rejection of Cassius from the start; things would be fine. I gotta spend more quality time with Vaegon. This is something that Cassius promised me I could have, but went against his word, which isn’t fair to Vaegon.Why do I still have such powerful feelings for Cassius, despite all the harm he has caused me, my family, and our pack? Well, I guess it’s because Cassius is family, and I have always loved him. However, I can’t continue this way any longer. The recent events, like him starting a war with Charity and losing his wolf Talon, have pushed me to my breaking point. I need to let go of Cassius and move on, just as he needs to let go of me. Our relationship has become toxic.As of now, I need to focus on Vaegon. It’s not fair to him. I’ve been in a
CASSIUSMy senses come rushing back to me when Vaegon informs me about Xeraphina’s panic attack. In addition, he reveals Alpha Joseph’s plan for both Xeraphina and me to reject each other, ultimately leading to my expulsion from the pack. These words hit me with a force that I can no longer ignore. This manipulative asshole is on the verge of accomplishing everything he has desired since entering our pack, and it pisses me off.“I bet you’re fucking happy, aren’t you, asshole? You’ll have her all to yourself now.”It’s not until he calls me a fucking spoiled teenage brat that I can’t hold off my anger anymore. In my drunken catatonic state I lunge at the fucker, forgetting about the fucking jails bars between us. My head collides with the steel bars, almost knocking me out, but I shake my head, ridding the stars shooting out in my vision away.“You better be glad I’m behind bars or I would fucking kill you, fucker! She is my fucking fated mate! Mine! I’ve known her my whole fucking li
CASSIUSXachariah drives my truck as we head back to the pack house. He vents his anger, yelling and cursing about what happened with Xeraphina this morning and the incident involving Charity. With each outburst, he slams his fist down on the steering wheel, distorting it to where it seems unusable. When he realizes he can’t hit the steering wheel anymore because of its fragile state, he bangs on the dashboard. I’m relieved Xachariah isn’t directing his anger towards me this time, or else he would kill me. However, I know once we reach the pack house, I will face the consequences.At some point, he stops the truck, and we step out. I receive several blows to the ribs, some causing fractures, and a strike to the head, all while he continues to curse at me. After venting his anger, he forces me to drive the remainder of the journey.As Xachariah settles into the passenger seat, a sense of foreboding washes over me as I see his glazed eyes. I know he is reaching out to Alpha Joseph to di
VAEGON It took us forever going down several twisted tunnels and stairs before we made it to a massive door that leads to the dungeons. We must be several levels underground, at least eight from the amount of stairs we went down.Xachariah unlocks the massive door and pushes it open. Then he ushers me inside and growls when Cassius’s scent wafts towards us.“We don’t use the dungeons that often. Cassius is the only one down here right now. So it shouldn’t be hard for you to find him. He’s towards the end, is all I know,” Xachariah says, pointing in the direction I needed to go.“I’ll lead you to our bunker afterwards, so you’ll know where it is for future reference. Instead of taking a left like we did to get here, you take a right. Good luck, man. I’ll be right here if you need anything.”Glancing around, I see several jail cells akin to that of the human jail cells. Where there are cots and toilets, and that’s about it. The only difference is that they welded the cells into giganti
VAEGONSkinning and chopping, the moose brought Xeraphina and me together, and we could bond a bit. We were just kidding around and having a blast. Xeraphina was good once she stopped thinking about Cassius.During our conversation, we discussed various topics, including my background and alpha training. I shared my passion for vintage cars and my talent for fixing engines with her. In fact, my dad and I have a hobby of buying old cars, fixing them up, and then deciding whether to keep them or sell them. Interestingly, Xeraphina suggested I might get along well with her youngest brother, who is a year older than me. It turns out that he shares the same enthusiasm for classic cars as I do.We discussed various topics like the lodge, her love for horses and cattle roping, and our family backgrounds. Cassius’s name never came up. Xeraphina mentioned a friend who passed away a few months ago. She got lost in thought and Cassius crossed her mind. I changed the subject to learning horse rid