Sam didn’t like feeling helpless. It wasn’t something he was used to in his life. Even in his lowest moments, the things that scared Sam the most weren’t the threats on his life or the possibility of defeat, but the helplessness. Being a puppet, not knowing how to help Monika, watching the Knife murder human's; it was all terrifying because he couldn’t stop it.
As he watched Allen be thrown backwards and down a set of stairs in the warehouse they were in, he felt the helplessness setting in his stomach. He couldn’t reach him in time to stop it.
He felt almost like a child again as he sat there watching his brother being thrown back like a ragdoll just before the demon exploded, one of Allen arrows having met its mark. He saw his feet going down last and heard the sounds of his body tumbling down. Allen wouldn’t have the time to use his hands to protect himself, they would still be grasping his
Rose was about to start questioning and from the way Simon and Monika looked, she knew they were too. Sam sat there still, looking at his brother, a lost look in his face. She realised he probably already knew all of this, having listened to all of it as he was in the room. Before anyone could do anything, Jia moved.She knelt in front of Sebestian and squeezed his shoulder. For the first time he tore his eyes away from Allen and looked at her.“Sebestian,” she said, “do you think this is the best option we have? Can you get him back?”Rose was surprised at the softness in her mother’s voice. There was a firmness to it too, so that Sebestian would pay attention to what she was asking, but there was no edge. There was only a tone of sympathy, of shared feelings and care. It would always be shocking how much Jia Jones had changed. She was no longer the mother Rose grew up with, the hard edged
.“Do you have anything else to do?” Jones voice came from the tablet.“No, Sir,” Allen answered. His posture was rigid, his expression tight.He isn’t present as Omega yet, Sebestian thought.“I cannot believe the level of chaos you have allowed to descend on that pack house, Allen. An unsanctioned raid on here? Kidnapped human? All the unsanctioned missions you have allowed your siblings to go on? Not to mention anything!”Sebestian heard Rose gasp beside him and turned to look at the other three. Rose looked as if she wanted to disappear and Sebestian couldn’t say he was sad about that. At least they knew when this memory was from.“We went to the pack house to get the human back,” Allen countered, his voice level when addressing his father. Sebestian would never forget how much Allen looked
"No,” Sam murmured, almost to himself. “No, this wasn’t your fault.”They all turned to look at him. Sam avoided their eyes looking down the corridor. They were alone again. Alone in the grey world of Allen mind.“Sam, I love our dear Rose but that doesn’t mean she didn’t make some wrong choices in the beginning,” Sebestian said. He was frowning, watching him, but he didn’t understand what Sam meant.“No, that’s not what I meant,” Sam said, still avoiding their eyes. “I think we all did things we didn’t realise were hurting him. But I’m the one who yelled at him always. I’m the one Jones threatened to give the pack hoise to. I’m his brother , I’m supposed to support him, not be used against him.”“Sam, he loves you,” Rose moved to take his hand but he pulled back. Of cou
Rose watched as her brother moved closer to them, each step looked as if it took all his energy. He looked exhausted. She would have guessed he was around fifteen, only a bit younger than the Allen they’d just seen. He had to be coming back from patrol, what with his dirty boots trudging along the corridor.“Allen!” a voice called behind them. Rose turned to see Harry walking down the corridor towards them looking down at a tablet in his hands. In a moment, Allen entire demeanor changed. His back straightened and he appeared to have been jolted awake. His eyes were big and startled watching Harry approach.Rose moved out of the way, not wanting to feel what it was like for one of these memory people to pass through her, and Harry stopped in the middle of their little group.“Have you seen Jace and Rose?” he asked. “They’re supposed to be leaving for trai
“Sebestian,” she said slowly, as to not spook him away. “Don’t react quickly but I think I found Allen.”She saw his shoulders tense up and slowly Sebestian turned to look at her, Sam frowning and curious behind him. She nodded minutely to where the boy was and they both followed her gaze. She heard Monika little gasp from behind her.Rose chanced a glance at him. He was still staring at them curiously from behind the door frame. She didn’t know if he hadn’t noticed them looking or just wasn’t too spooked by it. He seemed to be watching her mostly, not really caring when Sebestian took a couple steps in his direction and crouched down.“Hello, sweetie,” Sebestian said, his voice calm. The little boy kept his gaze on Rose. She couldn’t begin to think how weird this must be for Sebestian. But then again, he was really old, maybe i
“Of course you can, my beautiful precious perfect little boy. Just check if there is someone to watch you okay? Allen?” Jia called to him when the little boy squealed and started running off.“I will!” he called after him as he went.Allen ran right by Rose and Sebestian and was through the door in a moment, back in the corridor.“Wait, where is he going? Allen?” Rose called after him.She immediately moved away from Sebestian, rushing to keep up with the child. He was already at the end of the corridor and her heart jumped in her chest. He guided her there, this was her big brother, or at least this was her way to find him and he was running off. She didn’t understand why but she felt a pull towards him as she watched his little legs carry him around the corner and disappear. Without a second thought, she ran after him.“Rose
Monika saw Sam disappeared after Rose and the toddler version of Allen and her heart dropped. Sebestian was calling desperately for them to stop, moving just further ahead of her. All she prayed to the god for was that they didn’t get too far ahead of them. Then she blinked. She blinked and in a second, Sebestian bwasn’t in front of her anymore.“Sebestian?!” she called, her voice higher than usual, as she kept running forward. She turned the corner and stared at the empty corridor ahead. Her head swivelled back and forth, she turned around in circles looking for any of them.She was alone.“No, no, no, no,” she muttered to herself, her heart racing in her chest.She was alone in a random pack house corridor inside Allen mind and it was really all her fault. She should have listened when they told her not to come with them, she should ha
--Sebestian saw Sam disappearing to the left and rushed after. He was aware of Monika just behind him as he went, all the while calling for the two to slow down, not get separated. Honestly, he wanted to shake sense into all of them. If they lost each other it could be catastrophic. As soon as he reached the end and looked to his left, he felt his breath leaving him in a gasp and stilled. Sam and Rose were gone, there was no one in front of him. He took a step back, turning to talk to Monika. They had to stick together, they had to.His heart beat desperately. She wasn’t there. But that was hardly the most pressing matter.Sebestian surroundings had changed completely in the time it took for him to swivel back to look for the red head. He looked around, he wasn’t in the pack house anymore. He was in a dark alleyway. It was nighttime, puddles around the floor, neon lights from signs illuminating