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Seduced.03 - Gulo
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All I Ask Seduced.04 - Confused
Lisha's"Gusto mo bang pakasalan kita?"Napatingin ako kay Alejandros matapos niyang sabihin sa akin iyon. Hindi ko alam kung nararapat bang sagutin koi yon. Hindi ko alam kung bakit niya kailangan itanong iyon sa akin? Kung normal na sitwasyon siguro, baka, sumagot ako ng oo. May anak na kaming dalawa, wala man kaming relasyon pero gusto kong bigyan si Alba ng maayos na buhay, iyong may buong pamilya kami, iyong masaya. Sa sobrang pagkatulala ko sa kanya ay napaluha ako. Nagulat naman si Alejandros."Huy, h'wag kang umiyak, baka isipin ng mga tambay sa kanto na inaaway kita! Baka gahasain nila ako!" Frantic na sabi niya. Agad kong pinahid ang mga luha ko. Inayos ko ang sarili ko. I reminded myself that what we have isn't normal just like the others. Bakla si Alejandros at kaibigan ko siya, hindi ko kukunin sa kanya ang kalayaan niya. He's a good man and a good friend and I am sure that he is going to be a good father. I am not going to take it away from him because he deserves to be
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced.05 - Confessions
Alejandros'I wasn't able to come to Lisha's for three days because of work. Napakarami kong ginagawa buti na nga lang at nandyan si Kairos para hatian ako sa trabaho. Nakikibalita rin naman ako sa company ko and the people there told me that Sabino is back in the country and he's the one in-charge of the fall make – up collection. I really wanted to go to the company because I wanna see him, iyon nga lang, nahihiya ako sa kanya."Catherine's not answering my calls." Nagulat ako nang magsalita si Kairos sa tabi ko. Hindi ko napansin na nakapasok na siya sa office naming dalawa. We share the same space. May dalawang table lang doon na magkaharap. Minimal lang ang design sa office namin, the tables, the couch, sa tingin ko ang attraction ng office namin ay ang view ng airport sa likod.I eyed my brother. Can he really be this insensitive?"Baka naman busy iyong tao." Sabi ko na lang."Busy? Wala naman siyang ginagawa sa Qatar. Wala siyang work. She's just there for a vacation. Pinauuwi
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced. 06 - With or without
Alejandros'Sasama akong sumundo kay Elisha ngayon. I woke up early because I have to take a bath and shave and do all my morning rituals. I was looking at myself in the mirror thinking about my actions. I am gay. I know that I am still gay but why the hell am I being attracted by her lips, her hips and her breasts.I sighed. I am back to being confused again. Oh to the M to the G.Nagbihis na ako at lumabas ng kwarto. I was told by the maids that Mama and Papa was waiting for me in the dining area kaya dumaan muna ako roon. I saw my whole family there. Si Kairos ay pinapakain si Mariake ng fruits. Ang laki na kasi ng tyan ng hipag ko at mukhang tuwang – tuwa sila Mama at Papa sa pinagagawa ni Kairos. If they only know..."I'm leaving, Ma. I'm going to pick up Lisha and Alba.""We're coming with you." Sabi ni Papa sa akin. "All of us. Even Mariake." Napatingin ako sa kanya. "Anak, we're doing this together. Pamilya tayo at hindi ka namin iiwanan.""Your father is right." Dagdag pa ni
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Elisha's"Nakakahiya naman po, Tita, halos kayo na po ang nag-iiwi kay Alba."Hiyang - hiya talaga ako kay Tita Gianna kasi halos siya na ang nag-aalaga kay Alba. Hindi pa kasi kami umuuwi sa bahay na binili ni Alejandros. Dalawang araw na kami ni Alba dito sa mansion at sa dalawang araw na iyon, damang – dama ko iyong pagtanggap nila sa amin ng anak ko. I was smiling at her. Si Tita Gianna naman ay natawa lang. We were having breakfast in their gazebo."Anong nakakahiya? Anak ni Alejandros ang anak mo. Mahal na kita bata ka pa lang so anong nakakahiya, Elisha?" Hindi ako nakasagot. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. "How are you and you're family? Nagkausap na ba kayo ng Mama mo?"Umiling ako. "If I go home now, Mama would tell me how disappointed she is of me. Wala naman po kasi akong kapatid, Tita, so ako lang talaga ang nakikita at nakikita nila, I am a disappointment in the family." I laughed. Dinaan ko na lang sa tawa ang lahat kahit medyo masakit na ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko ipap
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced.08 - Si Bes ay...
Elisha’s“Nasaan ba si Alejandros?”Nabungaran ko na si Cachi sa kusina namin. Iyong maid niyang si Paula ang nagluluto ng almusal habang dala niya si Rom kasi dumedede ito sa kanya. It’s easy to distinguish the twins, si Rem kasi palaging naka-green na suot tapos si Rom, blue. Mukhang okay na naman na si Cachi, hindi ko na siya naririnig na umiiyak o kung ano-ano ang sinasabi. Ang alam ko normal naman sa kapapanganak ang malungkot. Ako nga after kong manganak, ayaw kong hawakan si Alba. Umiiyak ako nang walang dahilan but then I got better and it’s all because of Alba too.“Baka pumasok na sa work. Alam ko, bukas pa siya babalik kasi may seminar yata sila sa office niya.” Naupo ako sa silya sa tabi niya. I was smiling as I was looking at Rom, ang cute noong baby, ang pula ng pisngi.“Si Alba?” She asked again.“Tulog pa. In-on ko iyong baby alarm para marinig ko siya. Kakulit, kagabi ay halos hatinggabi na natulog, naglalaro kasi sila ni Alele nang kung ano, hagikgik nang hagikgik.”
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced. 09 - Tension
Elisha'sAno ang mayroon kay Alejandros at hindi ko mapanindigan itong pag-alis ko? Alam kong mas tama ang desisyon kong umalis na lang kaysa naman iyong nandito ako tapos pareho naming iniiwasan ang isa't isa. He is avoiding me, sa kadahilanang hindi ko alam, tapos ako iniiwasan ko naman siya dahil ayokong may masabi pa sa akin si Sabino.Kung noon, natutulog kami ni Alejandros nang magkasama sa kwarto, ngayon, hindi na. Kapag nakakatulog na siya dahil magkatabi sila ni Alba, lumalabas ako ng kwarto. I stay in the living room or I go to Cachi's para naman may kasama siya doon.Hindi na rin kami masyadong nag-uusap ngayon, which makes me sad because I really like talking to him.At kahit nakakainis aminin pero nami-miss ko si Alejandros.That morning, nag-grocery kami ni Cachi. Wala na kasing supplies iyong mga bata, wala nang formula si Alba, iyong kambal, wala na ring diapers kaya naisip naming lumabas na dalawa. Ito iyong first time ni Cachi na lumabas after niyang manganak. Apat n
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced. 10 - Building up
Elisha's"Ateng, lalaki na ba siya? Parang lalaki na siya... feeling ko lalaki na siya."Taa nang tawa si Catherine Fe sa akin. Nasa bahay niya ako nang umagang iyon. Naghahanda kasi siya sa pagdating ng Mommy niya. Excited ang lukas. Sabi niya nga bantayan ko siya dahil baka atakihin siya ng epilepsy sa sobrang excitement niya. Ganoon daw kasi siya kapag mataas ang emotions. Inaatake siya."Hindi ko alam." She smiled. "Malay mo naman. Ano nag-wrestling ba kayo?" She asked me."Hindi. Umiyak kasi si Alba, so I had to attend to her. Ewan ko ba. Parang napapaso na rin ako. Umalis nga ako sa kabila, tulog pa rin si Alele. Sa iisang kama kami natulog eh. Bahala na, basta." I sighed. Nasa play pen si Alba, habang si Rem at Rom ay nakahiga sa crib nilang dalawa at para bang nag-uusap."Everything has to be perfect. I don't want Nanay to think that I am losing it." Tumawa siya. "Anyway, h'wag mon ang pakaisipin si Alejandros. Kung gusto ka niya at kung may nararamdaman siya sa'yo, gagawa siy
Huling Na-update : 2023-05-10All I Ask Seduced.11 - The After
Elisha'sWe are now walking back to the main base of the CLPH. Alejandros was holding my hand while we walk. I couldn't contain my happiness. Basta masaya ako at mukhang masaya rin naman siya."Hey, Alele!"Napansin kong may golf cart na huminto sa tapat namin. In there, I saw his cousin, Apollo Vejar kasama ang girlfriend nito. They were laughing while talking to Alele."Saan kayo? Tara, sakay na!""Sure! Saan ba kayo pupunta ni Wewe?" He asked. "Si Lisha nga pala." He looked at me then he grinned. "Jowa ko." Napansin kong kumunot ang noo ni Apollo."Jowa?" He repeated what Alele said."Girlfriend iyon, Pol." Sabi noong maliit na babae. Hindi naman nagsalita na si Apollo pero halata sa kanya ang pagtataka. Inalalayan naman ako ni Alejandros hanggang sa makaupo kaming dalawa sa likod ng golf cart. Hindi niya pa rin binibitiwan ang kamay ko. I am happy – so happy. Mahal ko naman kasi si Alejandros. Iyon nga lang, hindi ko alam kung mahal niya ba ako. Paano kung hindi, paano kung ganito
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Eight years later...Kindred Hospital Seattle – First HillElisha's"Momma, will he be okay? I mean really, really okay? I am really really worried about him. Rem keeps on asking me if Rom is going to die. Mama Cathy doesn't want us to think that Rom is going to die. Rem said that if Rom dies, he wll die too, is that true? If that is, where are we gonna bury him? In Qatar, here in Seattle or in the Philippines? It's so confusing because we have like dual citizenship."Alba keeps on talking while we walk around the hospital to find Cachi. I just got back from picking Alba and Rem from their school and since we got in the car, hindi na tumigil si Alba sa kakasalita. Hindi ko maintindihan kung paanong naging napakadaldal nang anak ko samantalang noong baby siya ang tagal niya bago natuwid sa bulol niyang pagsasalita. She's now seven years old. Two months from now, eight years old na siya, I was thinking of giving her a birthday party. Ngayon lang kung sakali siya makakapag-party."Rom is
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Elisha's"Ateng, lalaki na ba siya? Parang lalaki na siya... feeling ko lalaki na siya."Taa nang tawa si Catherine Fe sa akin. Nasa bahay niya ako nang umagang iyon. Naghahanda kasi siya sa pagdating ng Mommy niya. Excited ang lukas. Sabi niya nga bantayan ko siya dahil baka atakihin siya ng epilepsy sa sobrang excitement niya. Ganoon daw kasi siya kapag mataas ang emotions. Inaatake siya."Hindi ko alam." She smiled. "Malay mo naman. Ano nag-wrestling ba kayo?" She asked me."Hindi. Umiyak kasi si Alba, so I had to attend to her. Ewan ko ba. Parang napapaso na rin ako. Umalis nga ako sa kabila, tulog pa rin si Alele. Sa iisang kama kami natulog eh. Bahala na, basta." I sighed. Nasa play pen si Alba, habang si Rem at Rom ay nakahiga sa crib nilang dalawa at para bang nag-uusap."Everything has to be perfect. I don't want Nanay to think that I am losing it." Tumawa siya. "Anyway, h'wag mon ang pakaisipin si Alejandros. Kung gusto ka niya at kung may nararamdaman siya sa'yo, gagawa siy
