Chapter 6
Declan:
In the rain we stand, our clothes saturated, our skin slippery, and our hair dripping. Globs of mud color us like outdoor paint, and the woods surrounding us whisper to the rushing river.
The stress that clutches me like iron chains moderately begins to subside as Ellie’s giggles fill the air. The sound of her happiness made it easy to forget my hella shitty day. The glow of her cheeks and the sparkle of her skin was a medicine you can’t buy.
Any day with Ellie was a good day. It didn’t matter if it was raining, it didn’t matter if it was sunny, hell it didn’t even matter if there was a fucking tornado. As long as she was there, your day would be a good day.
She could be special to anyone, but to me she was everything.
“Ellie, you’re shivering aren’t you?” I mumble, her delicate body trembling against my own. She is freezing.
She sends me a shy smile. “I’m okay D, I love the rain.”
I shake my head, there’s no way I’m letting her freeze out here. She’ll get sick and I don’t even want to think about her being sick. “You’re not okay, you’re about to turn into an icicle.” I place my finger on her glossy lips, hushing her protest. “Shhh come on, you can’t change my mind when your lips are turning purple.”
“Fine.” She murmurs, giving in.
I take her hand and lead her back into the car. She stops before the door as I open it, a frown covering her face. She glances at me. “I’m all muddy, I’ll get your car dirty.” She says so quietly.
Her beautiful blue eyes are big and they look so sad. She honestly thinks I care if my car gets dirty, I don’t obviously but the way she looks it’s adorable.
“You’re so fucking cute,” I mutter. Her frown deepens, I’m guessing at my language. Shit, I really need to stop swearing around her. “I don’t care about the car Ellie, I care about you.”
Still, she doesn’t get in, her face full of guilt. “I’m sorry I jumped into the mud puddle, I didn’t think about your car. Now it’s going to be a mess because of me.” Her hands are fiddling with the end of her sweatshirt, and it’s bothering me. Why the hell is she apologizing? Fuck the car, I could care less if it looked like a cruddy dumpster.
I step forward, taking her hands, stopping her from being all fidgety. “Stop,” I tell her, gazing at her gorgeous face. She’s not looking at me though, her eyes are set on the ground. “Look at me.” I murmur softly.
She does, her doe orbs meeting mine.
“Didn’t I just tell you how happy you make me?” I mutter to myself. “Let the car get muddy. I don’t care, it will remind me of you and just how happy you make me.” I lean in and kiss her wet forehead. “That’s a pretty damn good reminder.”
She flushes in the shades of red and pink. “Are you sure?” Chuckling, I pat her bottom. “Get in the car Lil’ one.”
She hurriedly gets in the car, her cheeks deepening in color. A smirk covers my lips, I never knew it was possible to love someone so much.
As soon as I’m in the car I crank the heat so Ellie doesn’t freeze to death. She tries to hide it but I can see and hear her teeth chatter, she couldn’t hide from me. Wes should be here soon, so hopefully, we won’t be stranded that while longer. I still have no idea how my tire popped.
Reaching my hand over I grab Ellie’s so I can trace the lines and indents of her soft smooth skin. Her skin was like silk. I wanted to memorize every dip and line, every imperfection because she was authentic.
As I trace her velvety skin, goosebumps surface while her blonde hairs stick straight up like static electricity. My fingers glide gently up her arms and as they do her breath hitches. I notice as her chest begins to rise and fall more rapidly. I smile, taking pleasure in what I can do to her. Seeing her simple responses is immensely satisfying.
She watches me with her innocent eyes, they’re as blue as ever right now. When I finally glance at her cheeks, they are rosy red. The most stunning color.
“I love you lots, D.” She whispers, her voice soft and sincere.
My lips quirk as my hand brushes along her hot cheek, I tuck a piece of damp hair behind her rose tipped ear. “I love it when you say that, I love it so much,” I mumble kissing the corners of her lips.
I love it when she calls me D, the way it sounds coming out of her delectable lips is inimitable. Every time she says it, I have to catch my breath because she leaves me searching for air.
Ella:
You make me happy, even when the skies are grey.
His low velvety voice played over and over again in my head. These words were simple but they meant so much to me. Even as the time passed, even as Wes picked us up, I couldn’t stop thinking about them.
He called Declan two times before actually being able to find us. But when he finally did, Declan showed him the tire. They couldn’t figure out how it popped, nothing in the road was sharp enough to cut through a tire, so it was a mystery.
Wes asked why we were all muddy, Declan glanced at me then with a mischievous smile saying, “Just having a little dip.”
All the while he and Wesley were outside in the pouring rain, I was in Wes’s black Jeep. Declan wouldn’t let me stand out in the rain again, so I sat and watched them from the back seat.
I could tell Wes was mad, he was mad at Declan for fighting and then straight up ditching school after. He was sure to tell him too, they hashed it out, Wes pointing fingers and Declan taking it.
I didn’t like Wes yelling at Declan, I didn’t like anybody yelling at him. But I knew Wes was only looking out for him, he was disappointed that Declan didn’t come to him and that he let his anger get the best of him. Wes cared for Declan just like I did, they have been friends since childhood, he was the brother Declan didn’t have.
But me, I didn’t care about missing school. I did care about how much trouble Declan was no doubt in though.
As I waited for them, I thought about what I would get Declan for his birthday. I wanted it to be special whatever it was I decided. Hearing the doors open, I glance up as both Wesley and Declan get in the vehicle freshly wet with rainwater.
Wes looks back at me, flashing me his charming smile. “You look dashing Ella, even when you’re covered in mud.” He then starts the engine. “Though I’m quite sad you didn’t invite me to join, we could have made mud pies.” He says sadly.
“Fuck no.” I hear Declan mutter. I laugh quietly, “You’re so silly Wes.”
“See Declan, Ella wants to make mud pies. It’s a great idea, we could top them with yummy worms and rock sprinkles.” Wes cheers, sending me a wink.
Declan looks at him with fake interest. “Yeah we could, then I can shove them down your throat. Fantastic idea.”
Wes frowns. “No Deck Deck, mud pies are for fun. Don’t be silly.”
“Why not Wesleyyy? Afraid of a little mud?” Declan taunts. “It’s not silly, and next time you call me Deck Deck I’ll make sure you can’t walk for a week, yeah?”
I gasp. “Declan that’s so mean.” He wouldn’t really hurt Wes, I know that but still. Wes came and picked us up, he should be a little nicer.
“You see Ella, he’s so mean to me.” Wes wines. “He hurt my feelings, little D is such a bully.”
Laughter bubbles in my throat. I can’t even...he sounds just like a toddler tattle tailing to his mom. I swear Wes is such a goofball.
Declan glares at Wes. “Grow a pair.” He mutters, then turns around looking at me. “I’m not mean baby, I’m honest.”
The car ride was a lot of fun. Wes is such a talker so at no point was there once any silence. His voice filled the car, whether he was singing or babbling on about nothing actually important. At one point Declan asked him if he ever ‘shut up’ which only led to Wes telling him to stop being ‘cranky’ and he needed a ‘nap’.
Wes drove us to Declan’s apartment. Declan and I both desperately needed a shower, the mud smelled disgusting. It was all caked in my hair, turning it an ugly brown color that I didn’t like. I just couldn’t wait to change my clothes and actually feel clean again.
If I’m being super honest, it also makes me very self-conscious. I wish Declan and Wes didn’t have to see me like this, I must look hideous. It was my dumb idea after all, but I loved jumping in puddles, it’s just so fun.
Once at Declan’s place, Wes plops down on the sofa and turns on the Tv. Declan throws his keys on the counter, then grabs my hand leading me to his bedroom. He already called a tow truck to get his car.
As I follow him, I admire how he always manages to look good. Even now all dirty, he’s still so handsome. Dropping my hand, he goes over to his dresser and opens the third drawer down.
While he gets clothes, I peer around his room. On his nightstand is a picture of him holding me bridal styles after one of my games, it’s one of my favorite pictures of us. My stomach flips with literal very intense butterflies when I look at it.
Declan didn’t really display many pictures, so the ones he did display must mean a lot to him. I know him putting up that picture of us meant so much to me.
A minute later he has a shirt and boxers in his hand. “Time to shower baby.” He coos, resting his hand on my lower back, bringing us to the bathroom.
“Don’t you want shower first?” I ask.
He glances at me, a small grin stealing his pink lips. “We could shower together.” He whispers low in my ear. My eyes widen the heat of his breath like fire against my skin. “W-what?”
“Just a suggestion.” He shrugs, chuckling. He studies my face, amusement lighting his green eyes. Is this some kind of joke? “Y-you want t-to shower with m-me?” I stutter, feeling suddenly extremely nervous.
His dirt-streaked fingers caress my burning cheeks. “Do you want to shower with me?” He asks, his smile showing his practically white teeth.
“U-umm I-I d—.” I try to form a sentence but have no idea how to respond. My body feels like it’s immersed in a million flames.
His finger lightly brushes down my lips. “Shh don’t worry, only when you’re ready.” He murmurs.
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Its currently midnight, but I’m posting this chapter now because I want you guys to read it! Sorry for any errors, Enjoy!
Chapter 7Ella:Well, it’s official,
Chapter 8Declan:Ellie’s head rests
Chapter 9Ella:
Chapter 10Ella:"Ella are you ready yet," Olivia calls from my bedroom.
Chapter 11Ella:A sudden weight on my stomach has my eyes splitting open, innocent giggles filling my ears. As my eyes come to focus, the frame of a little girl hovers
Chapter 12Declan:My heart is fucking racing like no tomorrow, an incessant pulse felt throughout my whole entire body. My emotions are running wild, so fucking wild.
Chapter 13Ella:Moonlight trickles over the earth glazing it in a dim glow. Stars, they shine deep in the night. Crickets chirp and
Chapter 14Declan:Eighteen, one day older, big deal.
Chapter 34 Declan: Ella. My mom. Ella. My mom... JULIAN— Ella. I can't find the words to talk. Ellie's here. My mom's dead. Ellie's holding me up. My mom has a bullet in her head. People are yelling. There are so many people. Voices from all directions. It's making me dizzy. Ella's crying, I can feel her warm salty tears drip onto my dirt-drenched, blood-skidded skin. But I can't console her. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I can barely move, I feel so heavy. Like a barrel of boulders. Sleep, I want to sleep. My head is pounding, pulsating. And my eyes—my eyes are closing. They won't stop closing. I can't keep them open. I don't want to be here anymore. Something hurts. Everything hurts. And it won't go away, amplifying and expanding and evolving. Like a parasite or a disease.
My mouth drops open at the condition of the person, and my heart hurts for them. What kind of present is this? Until he lifts his head and my whole world goes spiraling. And I'm choking, tears spilling, as I go to get up and sprint to him only to be shoved back down by my shoulders. He's almost unrecognizable.My Declan.I try to get back up again, lashing out at the guy keeping me from my Declan. But the man twists my arms behind my back and steps down on my heels immobilizing me. Declan wrestles too, even in his condition he tries to fight the guys holding him but he's as skinny as I've ever seen him, his forest eyes sunken in, and his cheeks hollow. He's so weak he almost looks sick. "Ellie." He yells, his voice is a brittle rasp as if he's been deprived of water for days. And the very sound ofhisvoice makes my heart sing and crack and
Chapter 33Ella:And suddenly I felt nothing but the reverberation of my pulsing panicked heart roaring through me like thunder rupturing the sky. He smiled, bringing his index finger to his vile lips, tapping the window again with the tip of the gun, motioning for me to unlock and open the door quietly before settling the gun back on my face. My stomach squeezed, a ball of anxiety sitting heavily in its pit, growing, stretching, sprouting as quick as just a simple snap of your fingers.Behind me, Olivia's voice shakes. "Who i-is that?"I gulped, having no other choice but to lean forward and slowly unlock the door knowing my life was nothing to him and he could end it just like that. "That's Julian."
Ella: Two hours later I'm in the back seat of an undercover police car with Olivia and Declan's mom driving to an ordinary neighborhood just fifteen minutes away with strict directions to not leave the car. Declan's location has been confirmed by the spies sent out an hour earlier to watch the house that was a suspected location. They've taken pictures, showing four people who stand on watch outside the house, two in front and two in back. Which is enough evidence to know the house isn't an ordinary house. Normal people don't have bodyguards outside their doors. And normal people don't talk about who they are torturing in their basement. Torture.Declan was being tortured,hasbeen being tortured for just over a week. Hearing it crushed me, it nearly had me on the edge of a meltdown bu
Chapter 32 Ella: The front desk is nearly as tall as my chest, made only so the person behind the clear glass attached to the wooden wall dividing us can only see my face with the exception of a small square opening so they can hear people talk. It's more of an office with desks littered with papers and stacked filing cabinets behind it. The secretary on the other side of the glass is typing on the computer as I halt my steps, while another woman sits near the back wall behind her and licks the top of an envelope then presses down on the white paper to seal it. For some reason the envelope catches my eye giving me a sense of déjà vu. It makes me think back to when I came home one night after soccer practice and my mom was drinking. She had a torn op
Chapter 31Ella:Picking myself up off the floor, scrubbing away my tears, I gaze blankly at Olivia with only one thing on my mind. "I'm going to Declan's apartment," I state, my voice hollowed out. Every single emotion weaving around my brain is pushed back the moment I'm standing. Crying isn't going to help Declan or my mother. Self-loathing isn't going to get me any closer to finding them. They need me, not the weak pity party me, they need the put-together me. I'm done crying. I will not cry again, not until they're found. I vow it to myself and them.I'm done waiting, I'm done being helpless. Every second that passes could be another second of them being harmed. I will not waste any more time, too much time has passed already. Who knows what condition they're in? I'm g
**Trigger Warning** (abuse) If that makes you uncomfortable please skip this chapter.Chapter 30Declan:My eyes shoot open as my body becomes fucking frigid. Extremely gelid water being thrown onto my bare skin feeling like shards of ice piercing into my flesh. Like millions of needles poking and poking and poking. A choked gasp falls right past my lips as my body immediately begins to convulse in uncontrollable shivers causing my teeth to chatter. The water is so extremely cold it burns as if blue blazing fire is covering me from head to toe. Between gasped breaths, I recognize the two men showering me in Arctic water, my cousin Matthew and Julian's right-hand man Jason.Directly in
Chapter 29Ella:One week later.I'm a hole, a pit, a depthless cavity. A spiral of dark twisting deep inside of me. Hours feel like days. Days feel like weeks, and weeks feel like months. My mother is gone, Declan is gone, and pieces of me are gone. Stolen, taken, kidnapped. The same three words said multiple times a day, multiple times an hour. Shredding my ears and my heart and my mind into something dark, something critical, something desperate. And I don't think I've ever been so pathetically desperate in my life.Day by day, Declan's heartbreaking face lights up the tv screen on channel ten news right beside my mothers. His eyes of green forests and vast beautiful grasslands are not the
Chapter 28Declan:Slamming my apartment door shut, I chuck my keys on the table itching to break something, anything at this point.