(Lydia)“I asked – the chauffeur … to take me to Sarah’s house last night,” he garbled, “I -- there was so much water – I woke up – she had been silent … I didn’t … I don’t know – I didn’t see -- SHE TOOK SLEEPING PILLS WHILE I WAS PASSED OUT!”I looked back at the stretcher that had already been wheeled inside. Sarah was in good hands now. She would be taken care of.But Thomas was clearly very shaken. I put a hand on his arm and looked comfortingly at him. Mama looked very concerned.“Why don’t we sit down by that bench?” I suggested. I led Thomas to the bench and Mama and I sat down on either side of him. It was late in the afternoon and a few birds were chirping in the trees.“Now, could you slowly tell me what happened?” I said. I kept my voice as gentle as I could. Thomas looked very white and his eyes were frantic and deranged.Thomas drew in a deep breath, exhaled, and then began to speak. “I went to Sarah’s house last night. I wanted to end things with her. Of course, I would
(Lydia)Adam had brought the kids over when we arrived home. His car was parked outside. When Mama and I walked in, the twins were chasing Adam in the lobby. “Tag, you’re it!” said Mabel as she caught up to Adam and touched his hand.They all looked at us as we walked in. “Mabel, Miles,” I said, smiling broadly, “This is your grandmamma.”Both of the twins looked at me wide-eyed. “We have another gramma?” Mabel asked in awe.“Yes,” I replied, “This is Mommy’s Mommy.”The twins jumped and screamed in delight. They instantly ran up to Mama and hugged her legs.Mama laughed and picked them up – one in each arm. I was worried about her feeble frame carrying so much weight and mouthed “Bring a sofa” to Adam.He nodded, immediately understanding, and dashed off into the living room. A few seconds later, he was dragging the large sofa out. I helped him put it in the center of the lobby and Mama sat down with the twins on either side of her. Mabel and Miles were chattering incessantly.“We go
(Lydia)Miles and Mabel were very happy to see their father. They ran up to him. He laughed and picked them both up.“So what’s up?” he asked and the twins began chattering with him.My heart warmed up at the way that being close to his children instantly brightened Thomas up. The tiredness that had been there before seemed to vanish as he listened to his daughter prattle on about her new interests and projects. His deep smile reached the creases of his eyes as his son hopped down from his arms and went to fetch his new toys to show to him.I felt myself smiling and checked myself.I could understand Thomas’s need for comfort right now. He had witnessed one of his oldest friends almost kill herself. But I shouldn’t let his vulnerability bring down my armor. After all, I reminded myself again, he and I could never end up together.He could only be here for the children.“How’s Margaret coping with the news?” I asked him when Mabel trotted off to find her brother. Apparently he was tak
(Lydia)I was up long after Mama had gone to sleep. I was still thinking about the conversation that we had had. The house was empty and quiet. I loved the silence of my home. It felt peaceful. And my home had started to cozier after I had hung up and laid out decorations everywhere. I was wandering in the lobby with a sheet of dialogues that I had meant to go through. But, for some reason, I couldn’t concentrate.I looked outside the window. A slight fog was settling in the atmosphere which cast a golden hue from the glare of the street lights.I turned around when I heard a door creak open. Thomas was standing in the doorframe.His clothes were wrinkled and his hair was a mess, as though he had been tossing and turning in bed.His eyes were doleful and intent.“Lydia,” the quiet carried his voice to me at the other end of the hallway.He began walking towards me. I could not say a single word. This was the man who I had loved, the father of my children, and the one who had divorced
(Lydia)Mama was trying hard to shake her habit of smoking. I think that being around Mabel and Miles at home and then with more children at school was helping. But I would still occasionally catch her in the backyard of the townhouse, puffing smoke out of her lips. She only ever did it when she was alone.She had thought that no one was watching, but I had decided to become much more attentive towards her now. I was only glad that the smoking had reduced dramatically because evidently this would have made her cancer worse. Mama looked stressed today. She was up at dawn and pacing the backyard with her cigarettes. I caught sight of her from the upstairs window but did not bring it up. I knew the reason why.So I cooked up her favorite cheese omelet with spring onions and toast, squeezed a glass of fresh orange juice, and set the table for her breakfast. When she came in, I gave her a big hug and smacked my lips against her cheek. “I love you, Mama,” I told her. She put her arms aroun
(Lydia)Thomas returned with an entire tray of food. He handed Sarah the new cup of coffee and then extended an assortment of snacks towards me. I managed a weak smile but I knew that I had grown pale. Thomas looked at me closely.“Are you okay, Lydia?” he asked. I simply nodded.He thought that it was about my mother. “Your mother’s going to be fine, Lydia,” he said softly, “Please don’t worry about her.”“I want a chocolate croissant!” Sarah pouted. She put her arm around Thomas’s.“Why didn’t you bring me a chocolate croissant, Tee?”Tee? Was that the nickname that she had conjured up for him?“We’ll get one on the way back,” Thomas replied. Sarah put a hand on her belly. “Your baby needs to be fed,” she said in a sing-song voice.I cringed. This whole act was wet behind the ears.I stood up and excused myself. I could feel Thomas’s lingering gaze on me as I tossed my now empty paper cup into the trashcan and disappeared inside the doorframe.My head was spinning. But I breathed. I
(Lydia)But Margaret was surprisingly calm around the kids. “Oh, my munchkins!” she exclaimed in a honey-sweet voice as they both trotted up to her. She ladled them both up into her arms. The joy in her eyes was contagious.“Grandma!” Mabel said happily, “Look at my pink rose!”. She extended her arm to show Margaret the glittering origami.“Ah,” Margaret gasped in indulgent delight, “This is a very pretty rose.” She nuzzled her nose against Mabel’s, “Just like my very pretty grand-daughter.”“Grandma Margaret?” Miles put an arm on her shoulder, “Have you met Grandma Adeline?” He pointed his other arm at my mother, who was sitting on the sofa, holding the paper tiger up to her eye level and painting delicate black stripes on it.Margaret smiled at Mama. “How do you do, Grandma Adeline?” she chuckled.Mama smiled back. “I’m well, Grandma Margaret. How do you do?”Mabel and Miles roared with laughter. They had caught up on this whole joke.“My tiger’s ready!” Miles exclaimed, “Come, Gran
(Lydia)Margaret took in my shocked expression. “Oh,” she said, “You didn’t know.”“How could I have known?” I responded.“I mean you’re mother’s here,” Margaret said, “She ought to have known.”“Don’t drag Mama into this!” I snarled.I didn’t even know why I got angry. Perhaps, it was because I had been on edge all day since my meeting with Sarah.Margaret’s voice was calm and collected. But her eyes were a set of stones. “Thomas doesn’t know anything about this either,” she said, “And I have no intention of letting him find out. Lydia, I’ve let your father know that he will have to reach out to you for money. He can squeeze the last drop out of you for all I care.”She straightened her back and looked condescendingly at me, “But I will not respond to threats made against my family. Get a grip on your father, is that clear?”“First of all, Margaret,” my nostrils flared, “I don’t need to tell your son about any of this. Second of all, I think you should know that I have already paid o