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119 — EXPLOSIVE EMOTIONS

Author: Blaq
last update Last Updated: 2024-12-17 23:57:56

AMANI

My eyes are firmly shut as I thrash around on the bed in search of my anchor, in search of my source of strength. But he’s not here. He’s gone. I know he is.

When he was here, the piercing pain in my heart had reduced to a dull throb. The dirty, contaminated feeling that tainted my soul stayed far away, too scared of his darkness to come close. The heavy feeling in my limbs had disappeared, too.

When he was here, he protected me. He shielded me from Antonio’s grubby hands. But now that he’s gone, I’m being bombarded with everything at once. The excruciating discomfort is back. My demons have returned to attack me and he’s not here to fight them off.

I can hear voices in the distance and even though I’m clutched in the throes of a horrible nightmare, I still call out for him. I need him.

I listen carefully, hoping I hear his voice, hoping he comes back for me.

When the pain becomes unbearable, I curl into myself and hot tears slip past my tightly shut eyelids.

My soul takes a
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Judiles
Zuri is a manipulating busybody. She doesn’t know when to stop. She is a chihuahua indeed. Too nosey.
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Letty
Zuri is getting on my nerves
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