“Lamazee, I don’t know man, Aimee said it a class where pregnant women go to prepare for the birth or some shit,” Josh utters with a shrug, and I sigh. I should be with her doing all these things. God, I’m such an idiot.
“Well, where is it? I told her I wanted to be a part of the baby’s life, and she’s still fighting me on it. She’s so fucking stubborn.” I groan, shoving my hand through my hair in frustration, and Josh shrugs, nodding in agreement.
“It’s why you love her, my man,” Josh chuckles as he picks up his gym bag.
“It’s truly bizarre because usually, you know the reasons why you love someone, right?” I utter, and Josh nods, watching me. “I can’t remember the reasons why I love her. I just know that I do, isn’t that strange?” I explain, looking down at my split knuckles, which were bleeding a little. “If she asks me why I love her, I wouldn’t be able to give her an answer,” I add as we walk out of the gym together.
“It will come, brother, and if it
The following day, I made sure to look my best. If I was going to win Shayla back, she needs to know I’ve got my shit together. I wore my royal blue Hugo Boss suit with a crisp white shirt and blue tie. Hair styled, aftershave on, I felt better already. Shayla Hoult— prepare your heart because I’m coming for you. I slide my shades on and leave for the office.“Good morning, Mr Hoult.” Jenny, the receptionist, greets me as I walk through the lobby toward the elevators.I smile charmingly and nod, “Good morning Jenny.” I greet back and push the button to the elevator as I check my emails—invitations to various New Year’s Eve galas. I’ll pass. I’ve still got Christmas to get through, and the baby will be here by then. That reminds me, what am I going to get Shayla and the baby? Christmas is in six weeks. I make a mental note to plan something special for them.“Good Morning, Mr Hoult.” Jess greets me waiting by the elevators as she does every morning with my schedu
“Oh my God,” She whispers, looking over her diploma, her eyes filling with tears. “I can’t believe it. I mean, I knew it was coming but to actually have it, it doesn’t seem real.”I couldn’t contain my excitement for her. I grin proudly. “It is real. You did it, Shay, you worked hard and never gave up on your dreams, and the result is right there in your hands.” I tell her, reaching up and brushing her tears away. Shayla looks up into my eyes as I stroke her jaw. “You should be proud of yourself,” She smiles, and her whole face lights up.“Actually, we did it. You probably don’t remember, but I couldn’t have done it without you, Cole. You were honestly so supportive and helpful. You stayed up late nights helping me with assignments, and when I was ready to give up, you wouldn’t let me. You always reminded me who I am and kept me on track.” Shayla says with a sigh. “No matter what has happened between us, I want you to know that I’m grateful to you and all the opportuni
Ten minutes later, we are on our way to the hospital. Shayla called Janet, her midwife, who told her not to panic and come in right away. I look over at Shayla, who winces a little while she inhales and exhales slowly. “You okay, sweetheart?” Shayla shakes her head, closing her eyes.“I’m getting contractions.” She whispers, rubbing her stomach. I bite my lip, feeling so utterly useless. What the hell do I do? I’m trying so hard not to panic and stay calm for her, but I am freaking the fuck out inside. “I need to call my mum and the girls. The hospital bag, my medical file, it’s all at home.” Shayla explains, taking out her phone but stops when she gets another contraction. “Cole, please hurry.”“We’re almost there, baby, just a little bit longer.” I drive faster, and each time I hear Shayla whimper in pain, my insides clench tight. We finally get to the hospital, and they take her in right away and hook her up to a CTG machine that measures the baby’s heart rate and h
The words love at first sight didn’t mean much of anything to me until I laid my eyes on my daughter. My daughter. I have a daughter. How crazy is that? A couple of hours ago, she was inside me, and now she’s out and sleeping peacefully beside me. It was just like everyone said to me, she will heal all the broken pieces inside of you, and she has. The moment I held her, and she opened up those beautiful green eyes, my heart was captivated. There really is nothing more important to me than her. After her birth, we had to spend a week in hospital because she was born preterm, and the paediatricians wanted to keep an eye on her; however, she was absolutely perfect. She’s feeding well and gaining weight by the day. All her tests have come back clear, which meant we finally get to take her home.I jump awake when I hear Alaia fussing and see Cole was holding her against his chest, rubbing her back softly. He’s obsessed with her. You wouldn’t think this was the same man that said h
After dressing myself and getting Alaia ready and strapped in her car seat, we finally leave the hospital and head back to the apartment, much to Coles dismay.“Aww, here’s my princess.” Aimee coo’s when we walk into the apartment. She takes the car seat from Cole and sets it on the sofa. “Welcome home, baby girl.” Josh, Aimee, and Jo all gather around the baby as I watch them. Not even a week old and she’s already so loved by so many people.“Hey, I’m home too.” I voice put out, and the girls look over at me and wave before cooing over Alaia again.I hadn’t noticed I was crying until Cole lifts my head and brushes my tears away. “Hey, what’s wrong?”I shake my head, “Nothing, I’m just feeling overly emotional again.” I tell him, and he smiles and pulls me close hugging me. I lay my head on his chest and sigh, closing my eyes as he holds me tight. “I better go shower and get some rest while she’s asleep. Can you keep an eye on her while I shower? I won’t
“So, what is the deal with you two now?” Jo asks me quietly as she takes a bite out of her slice of pizza.I sigh and look over at Cole, talking with Josh. “I don’t know. He keeps saying he wants us to be a family and that he loves me, but I…” I trail off thoughtfully.“You’re scared he’s only saying that because of the baby,” Aimee finishes for me and I nod, closing my eyes. “Have you mentioned the divorce to him again?”I shake my head and look at her. “No, he keeps changing the subject whenever I try to bring it up. He’s refusing to give up on us, even though there hasn’t been an us for months now. It’s just not the same anymore.”Jo frowns, “Does that mean you don’t love him anymore?”“Of course I do, but my heart still wants the old Cole, and I know he’s not coming back,” I utter miserably while picking at my slice of pizza. “There are these moments where I feel like he’s back to himself again, but then he’ll look at me impassively, and it hit
“Let me love you, baby.” Cole whispers, ghosting his lips over mine, his fingers tangled in my hair. Cole’s lips brush mine apart, and just as our mouths were about to fuse, Alaia’s cry makes us jump apart.“I better go check on her,” I utter, stepping away from him. Cole nods, watching me as I walk to my bedroom and pick up Alaia. He walks over to us and leans close, dropping a kiss on Alaia’s head, all the while his eyes staring into mine.“Don’t break up our family, Shay,” Cole whispers pleadingly. “We can make this work. I know we can.”“We’ve never been a family, Cole,” I reply, looking at him steadily. “I’m tired of being married to a ghost. My husband is gone, and it doesn’t look like he’s ever coming back.”Cole licks his lips with a shake of his head, “Shayla, you’re not married to a ghost. I’m right here.” He tells me, frustration evident in his tone. “Why are you so reluctant on giving us a chance, babe?”“Because you hurt me one too man
“What do you think?”Shayla looks at the wall and wrinkles her nose in distaste. “I am not loving it.”I frown and look at the wall and then at her. “You said pink.” I remind her, and she lifts her jade gaze to mine and narrows her eyes.“I thought it would look cute, but now that I see it, I hate it.” She utters with a shrug of her shoulders.I exhale and frown thoughtfully. “Okay,” I bite my lip and look at her again. “I’m thinking, yellow?” I suggest, and she tilts her head to the side and looks around the nursery, and nods.“Yellow might work. It will definitely brighten up the room.” She sighs, glancing down at the baby monitor to check on Alaia before she looks at the wall again. “Maybe we can do a feature wall with her name in the middle.”I nod again and look at Shayla. It’s been two days since she and Alaia have moved back into our home. Shay’s been pissed about having to come back, but day by day, I’m hoping her anger will simmer,