Chapter 90The feeling of being in Dan's arms is bringing back dêjãvū and that puts a bad taste in my mouth. After eating - rather, forcing him to eat, he swept me into his arms and onto the dance floor and I had to painfully go through the memories of another time with Ash.I can't do it anymore."I'm tired, Dan." I grimace as his hand tightens around my waist but I release a sigh of relief when it loosens and he steps back with a jerky nod."You're right, I'm sorry. I'll take you home now.""No!" My voice comes out loud, so I paste a smile on my face hoping it looks comfortable, and shake my head. "No, please." I shrug. "The night is still young, and. . .""What are you saying?" I watch with a sinking heart as hope flares to life in his eyes. I'm not tired of being with Dan, but he shouldn't look like I'm the next best thing after God.What have I gotten myself into? Unfortunately for me, I can't stop now. "I
Chapter 91All around me, the theatre takes on thunderous applause from the people who are standing, clapping, and cheering. Within me, there's a different type of thunder, and even though the applause is enough to drown out the roar of a lion, I can still hear my heartbeat pounding in my ears.Dan is oblivious to the turmoil I'm going through as he's also a part of the crowd clapping and standing. The strobe lights are no longer bouncing all around as their focus is now solely on the stage and the men smiling and bowing.Yes, they did a great job, but my attention is now focused on the seat where the couple is, where I know Ash Thunder is. I fiddle with my bag to bring out my phone but my hands are shaking so badly it's difficult to get it out. On the third try, I succeed as I drag my phone out and manage to put the torchlight on as well.I flash it on the seat directly in front of me but it's empty. There's
Chapter 92He's slouched with his hands resting on the arms of the chair, his legs stretched out in front of him. Dressed in a crisp white shirt, pressed black trousers, and polished black brogues, his hair is slightly wet and slicked back. He looks like a poster boy for the CEO of a conglomerate and even though I hate him, it's a look he carries quite well.I've never seen him wearing such clothes before. It's like I'm looking at his clone and not the real person. He's like a totally different person.The air is weighty with something heavy and I sit up immediately when I realize he's here. Ash is here. He's sitting in front of me, and staring at me. In my mind's eye, I see him sitting close to the blonde woman and staring at her. I close my eyes, trying to unsee it. I feel as if many hands are closing around my throat as I begin to gasp for air. He's beside me in an instant holding a glass of water."Breat
Chapter 93The night seems to drag on and sleep seems to be elusive, a figment of my imagination, something that has refused to come even though I've willed it. Believe me when I say that I've done almost everything to try and get my brain to relax but it seems to be an exercise in futility.I've tossed and turned, trying to shut off my brain activities by counting sheep, I've even tried praying, but that has never really worked out for me so I just gave up and resorted to tossing and turning.Look at me now - it's almost dawn and I'm still awake. Wide awake, actually.I can't seem to get those pictures Ash threw on the bed for me to see, out of my head. Even though I locked them up in my bedside drawer, they're still imprinted in my mind.Why would anyone want to kill me?What have I done for that to happen?I haven't hurt anyone.Alright, yes, I did kill someone. Two people actually, but the first person I kill
Chapter 94"And so accounting is really getting quite interesting, thanks to tutorials and-"I'm finding it difficult to listen to what Clarissa is saying because the feeling of being watched is back. I flick my eyes around the cafe nervously. There are two girls in front of us chatting amongst themselves, and to my right is a middle-aged man drinking some beverage and reading the newspaper.The only other person is sitting in the left corner and he's on the phone arguing with someone from the way he keeps gesticulating. None of these people look harmless, and neither do any of them look like they're watching me, but you never know."ALICIA!"I blink repeatedly and turn my attention back to Clarissa whose face is scrunched up in anger. She's got that hard glint in her eyes and her left eye has begun to twitch.Uh! Oh! Shit's about to hit the fan now, for sure."I'm really sorry, Clar, I'm just out of it now,"
Chapter 95Fear floods my veins and makes that damn tightening in my chest act up. I sink from my chair onto the floor, unable to do anything, see anything. All that keeps playing through my mind like a loop are those words.Don't fall down the rabbit hole.I stare at my phone still gripped tightly in my hand and at the words. They mock me, laugh at me, and I just can't take it anymore. Anger rips through me, and through the pain, I decide once and for all not to be afraid anymore. I've gone through a life-altering situation. I've killed to stay alive also and I've lost someone precious to me.What's one more problem that I can't surmount?I will get through this just like I went through the others. With that knowledge ringing in my head, I pick myself up and dust my clothes off before sitting back at my desk, but not before I delete the message from Ash. I wade through the remaining pile of files on my desk e
Chapter 96"Go ahead - call them," Ash says bringing something out of his pocket. At first, I think it's a gun, but when he brings out a phone, I'm trying to understand what he's up to. "Here! You can even use my phone."I look at the phone in his outstretched hand as if it's a snake before looking back at his face and raising my forefinger. "Get out of here now. This is your last warning!"My hands shake from how much rage is coursing through me. Is this guy bipolar? Why can't he just get the message and leave me the fuck alone?As if he hears my unspoken words, he stands and shakes his head sorrowfully. "I'm afraid I can't do that."He's like a panther as he saunters towards me, sleek and handsome, nailing me with his eyes and rooting me to the spot. I can't think. I can't move. I can't focus on anything but his intense liquid brown eyes. I can see his tall lithe frame as he crowds my senses. He moves dangerou
Chapter 97 ASH"The woman in question. . . is my wife."Immediately I say those damming words, I release her hands and step back. I can't look at her, I just fucking can't. I can't change this already awkward situation I've gotten myself into but I know how this must sound to her.Bad.Very bad.It's like rubbing salt into an injury and hoping it'll get better.Not fucking going to happen.I claw a hand through my hair as I begin to pace. "You don't understand," I say more to myself than to her, as if by saying that will magically make things alright. "I didn't have a choice, I had to marry her."Fuck it, I sound like a damn pussy.I hear a choking noise and when I brave a glance at her, one of her hands is at her throat. She looks like she can't breathe. I take two steps toward her, but she holds up a hand in the air and I freeze in my tracks.Fucking dummy.Of course, she doesn't want me anywhere near her