Chapter Five

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With all courage left in me and the decision to finally face death, I opened the door to Alpha Ryder's room. I walked in heads low, a few steps, and closed the door. I gathered all the strength I had to raise my head and looked at him this close.

He stood there, our eyes meeting. His alluring beauty had no match or trace. He captivated me in his presence with grace. His charm and wit ensnare me in delight. He was truly how the rumors described.

As I admired this beautiful soul, he charged at me with a sublime force, pinning me to the door and holding my neck rigorously. I was scared by his approach and when his claws pierced into my skin, I groaned in pain, but he suddenly soften his grip.

I raised my head to look up at him. His red eyes sparked continuously, his face so smooth, his lips…his breath…he was so close to me I wasn't thinking anymore. His eyes fixed on me like I was some sort of mystery. He then touched my lips with his thumb. Not only did my whole body shake, but there was a spark sent through my spine that I believed came from him.

I pulled the wolfsbane dagger out.

His scent lingered in the air, filling my nose. I was drawn to every part of him, I was restless and sweet heavens, I wanted him. Unexpectedly, he spoke a language that needed no words, the softness of his lips on mine, the heat of our body, the passion undone. Our tongues intertwined deeply. A profound moment of intimacy. I've never had anything like that in my entire life.

I pulled my mouth away from him. I shouldn't be kissing Alpha Ryder. I wasn't worthy. This was not what I was here for. I was getting attached, intimate, and horny for this Alpha wolf. I was meant to kill him, now that I had the chance.

I raised my hand to his back, the tip of the sword out and ready to slay. How could I backstab him? For all I know, in my entire life, no one has ever made me feel this way. I didn't care if Alpha Ryder just saw me as a stripper to spend the night with. This moment I would always treasure even in my grave.

My hands trembled. I feared the dagger was going to fall. I had no confidence left in me anymore. "I'm sorry" I quivered. "I can't do this" I cried.

"I'll take it slow. However, you want it." Alpha Ryder said. He was more concerned about laying with a low-class stripper virgin like me who smelled horrible. But he didn't understand, his life was at stake.

"I can't do this" I gave up dropping the dagger from my hands. He heard the steel sound and turned to look at the floor. A look. of betrayal. The sudden rage on his face as his eyes bulged showed I was going to die tonight.

He pushed me hard to the wall, his wolf claws piercing my neck. I had made him furious, I had crossed every boundary he ever laid out for me. "Who sent you!" His voice wasn't as soft as earlier. This was the other side of Alpha Ryder.

I fell to my knees instantly. I felt guilty, embarrassed, mad at myself, and questioned my existence. "Please forgive me Alpha Ryder" I apologized like he would show any mercy on me. There was no way I would reveal my father's name to him even if it caused my death.

He moved away from me, his fur sprouting out of his skin, his teeth growing, his panting growls and his fist clenching. He was turning into a beast, what I feared the most. But I didn't want to die, so I ran out of the door to save myself hoping he would not run after me and order me dead.

I didn't look back, I just kept running and running till I was out of sight of the club. I was out in the street half naked, with no place to go and no one to turn to. I failed my mission. I failed my family. I failed myself.

I've known what it felt like to be rejected, and now I have to face something worse, so much hatred from everyone that would see me. I might be killed eventually. That's the only thing I deserved.

As the cloud became dark, I realized I had to go to the place I called home. It didn't matter if I got slaughtered, at least it was in my father's house. I walked with weak knees and body aches from the previous dancing, lightning sparked in the sky, and without prior notice, the rain started to fall.

I hated to believe the rumors about rainfall in our city. This city which was dominated by just wolves was blessed with a special kind of rain and meaning. The moon goddess blessed us with the spesh rain years ago and every rain that dropped on the land meant two mates had found each other. Rain fell frequently sometimes, but there was scarcity most of the time.

I was delighted someone somewhere was happy to have found their mate. Another beginning, another revolution, another family, and good news to them. I just let the rain drench all my hopes into the mud waiting for my doom.

I got inside my house and Melissa rushed to me with a towel to dry me up like a rescue dog. I wanted to break down and hug her immediately, but my family appeared at her back. Tears rolled down my cheek as I stared at Alpha Lugard. "I'm sorry, Father" my voice trembled and mucus ran down my nose. His look of dismay, rejection, and disappointment created more holes in my heart.

"What have you done Charia?" my mother whimpered on my behalf and covered her mouth in tears.

"I deserve death, Father" I fell to my knees.