ADAIRA ~ Was this how Gavrael felt his anger? Was it always this intense? If so then I could somewhat understand why he always wanted to fight, and to kill. I was so angry. It was like my anger had just been accumulating from all the times that I forgave someone for an offence in the past, or overlooked something that should have made me get pissed off. Then now, it all came back like a flood and wanted me to destroy everything around me. Fortunately for everyone else, Gavrael was the perfect target for my level of anger so no one else would bear it. But unfortunately for him, it would not be a pleasant experience. “Calm down, Adaira.” He said to me but his words had the opposite effect on me Instead of getting calm, I became more angry that he was trying to shut me up. “DON’T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!” I yelled. The closest thing to me was the bedside drawer so I used one hand to sweep across it and toss everything on it to the floor. He looked like he was about to complain about me
GAVRAEL***“No. Don’t touch me. This is for me, not for you.” She snapped at me as I tried to put my arms around her and I nearly groaned in frustration.Was this some sort of punishment?“What am I supposed to do then if I’m not allowed to touch you?” I asked as I leaned down to continue kissing her.She grabbed my hair and pulled my head back, my lips away from hers.“You do as I say, take what I give you and not the other way around… for once in your life.” She said and I chuckled.“Is this the point where I get on my knees for you? I know you’ve wanted that to happen ever since it came up in our past conversation.”My statement was meant to be a joke, just to tease her, but from her expression, she wasn’t actually against the idea even if she refused to admit it last time we spoke about it.“I’ll do whatever I damn well please and you’ll take all of it.”For some reason, no side of me saw her words, her anger or her disdainful expression as she stared at me as a challenge. Usuall
ADAIRA~We ended up on the bed after nearly putting a hole in the wall, and I mistakenly broke the headboard when I held onto it while having what was probably the fifth orgasm. When we finally collapsed into a sweaty, tangled heap, there was not a trace of the anger I had previously felt, and I felt so lax that I fell asleep almost immediately despite the fact that I needed to talk to Tamika and we needed to interrogate the brothers that were sitting in a cell right now. I also needed to ask Gaby what they had wanted to tell me in the kitchen before all this happened, but I couldn’t get myself to move an inch from my position on the bed. And Gavrael was stroking my hair which lulled me to sleep extremely fast.I had a weird dream. It seemed like I was floating above my body in my dream, watching myself do things from another perspective. I had no idea if this was a vision of the future or one of those past memories that I could not remember but seemed to belong to me. I was first in
ADAIRA~Instead of having a quickie and getting dressed on time, we ended up leaving the room more than an hour later. I was famished. Between getting so angry yesterday, and going at it with Gavrael till all the strength was sapped out of me, I could eat a herd of buffaloes right now. Ideally, we should have gone to the cell where the brothers were detained, but I made a detour to the kitchen first to get my breakfast. Breakfast had already been served to the rest of the pack, so I had to settle for what was left. Gavrael was in the dining hall waiting for his own meal to be served. They kept his own portion separate so he wouldn’t eat leftovers. He had wanted to follow me into the kitchen but I stopped him. No one would be comfortable if he was in here. All the smiles I was getting right now as I sat at the table close to the kitchen back entrance to eat would have been anxious gazes filled with barely concealed fear. I wanted to eat my meal in peace, even if Gavrael was displeased
GAVRAEL~“What are you doing here?” Adaira asked the female, Kraine’s mate, as we approached the cell house.She wasn’t supposed to be here and she knew it. That was why she looked like she wished the earth would open up and swallow her for being caught here.“You better not be here to help that bastard.” Adaira snapped at her as she opened her mouth to give a reply to the question.“I just wanted to s.see him, even if just for a minute. I’m… I’m sorry.” The female replied with barely concealed fear.“Don’t be sorry, be sensible. Why are you coming back to him after all he did to you? I haven’t even heard the full story but what I’ve heard is enough to make me despise him for life.” Adaira replied.I wanted to tell Adaira to take it easy on the girl because she was young, and it was her first time experiencing something like this. But I decided to stay out of the conversation. The female looked fragile, and like she needed a softer approach, but I trusted Adaira to know what was best
ADAIRA~“When I found out that Tamika was my mate, I kept it hidden because I didn’t want the others to ridicule me for being mated to her. My status in the eyes of others would have reduced." He said.As he spoke, I couldn’t help myself, I began to laugh. Gavrael looked at me like he thought I may have lost my mind and so did the other two males in the cells. Tamika’s mate that had been speaking paused because he was confused at my reaction.“So let me get this straight. You refused to accept your mate, not because you think there’s anything wrong with her, but because of what others would say? You’re so insecure, so… weak, that you can’t stand up for yourself and what’s yours against your own pack?” I asked and laughed again.“I wish I could say that I’m surprised, but I’m not. What else is to be expected from weak males?”“I am not weak!” Tamika’s mate snapped at me, and his brother growled beside him before speaking as well.“You’re so bold to speak because there are bars separat
ADAIRA~Tamika didn’t waste a second longer there, she turned and walked away as fast as she could. Even though her quick reaction hid her face, I had seen the tears in her eyes before she turned away. Kraine held his chest in the cell with a dazed look on his face. He was feeling the empty place in his heart where the bond had been before Tamika rejected him. I understood that feeling of emptiness, I had also felt it after coming back to life to discover my bond with Gavrael was broken. It was like you lost a part of your soul, a part of yourself that seems so far away and because of it you would never be the same. He deserved to feel that way and worse. Tamika would feel it too, but she wouldn’t be as acutely affected as he would be because she had been the one to break their bond.“You will stand trial in three days. You will be brought before everyone to state your atrocities, and I will deliver my verdict for your judgement. Before then, I will make sure you will beg for death a
ADAIRA~She took me to the outskirts of the pack, one of the official burial sites and I immediately knew where they had been laid because the soil around that part looked freshly disturbed. There were two tombstones made of stones and flowers on the grave. Shifters didn’t usually mark the tombstones with names like humans did, neither was the tombstone carved by hand or any tool. It was just stone in its uncut, untouched form made to form a small wall. The reason there were no markers even if everyone knew where their own loved one was buried was because we saw ourselves as one big family. So if you mourn for one, you mourn for all. Writing individual names would create a sense of division so they all looked the same to disprove that. It has been this way for centuries and it will still continue like this. Because of this, I had to stop by the tombstones that came before my parents and put a hand to each one I passed. It symbolised me drawing strength from those who have passed in o
EPILOGUE ~ Using up so much power drained both me and Gavrael, and we both passed out almost immediately after. We didn’t wake up till after two whole days because our bodies shut down to heal and recuperate. When we finally woke up, we discovered that using so much power had broken the hold of the third souls we each had. I no longer possessed Selene’s soul and Gavrael no longer possessed the soul of the demon king. Their essence had returned to the volcano realm after their souls split from ours. They couldn’t be killed, she was a goddess and he was a god, but it would take a long time for them to recreate a physical form. For now, I was just happy that we would no longer be the victims of an age long war. Then came another problem, the issue of Gavrael’s possessiveness. He was no longer under the control of the demon king, but now that he knew I was pregnant, his wolf was just as easily pissed off as he was before. It was usual for the mates of pregnant females to become very ter
GAVRAEL ~ He calls himself Zephyr, and seeing him manhandle my mate made me angry. But my anger wasn’t enough to break myself from his hold and regain control of my body. “Kill them all, I’ll deal with her. I could only watch as he took Adaira away from the battlefield, knowing that she was their only hope to win the battle against his beasts. “How does it feel having so much power but being unable to use it? You trapped me for centuries, took my memories, took my powers, kept me in this mortal body. This is just a slight taste of that. So tell me how it feels to hate what’s happening but not be able to do anything about it?” I could feel his amusement as she tried in vain to free herself from his grip. He was enjoying her struggles and her helplessness. I couldn’t even reach out to her to at least let her know that despite everything, I was still in here even if I’ve been pushed so far deep in my subconscious that I didn’t know the way out. But he had put an impenetrable barrie
ADAIRA ~ Gavrael is gone and there is no way for me to get to him. I wanted to use my powers to get across to the nether realm but Theia warned me not to do so because I would never be able to defeat him in his realm, he was stronger there. Our best chance of winning this battle is here in this realm, which means we have to wait for Gavrael’s return. By the looks of things, he would not be returning as my mate but as the demon king, with an army meant to obliterate us all. “There has to be something else we can do.” I said to Theia after waiting for an hour with no sign of Gavrael or any danger. My wolf was restless because my bond to Gavrael was so faint now that I had to search deep before I could feel it. I was terrified. What if the demon king somehow finds a way to sever our bond, how would I be able to reach my mate and bring him back? “You need to calm down. Your restlessness is affecting your pack. They’re already dreading the fight we all have coming, and they only stayed
GAVRAEL ~Heat, rage and pain. Those were the only emotions flowing through me at this moment. It was like my blood had been exchanged with lava and my head was being drilled open by a thousand nails. I felt the power of the full blood moon before it even rose and cast its reddish hue over the earth. This past week, I had to stay away from everyone except Adaira because I was losing my temper at the slightest provocation. I knew it was just because of what was coming that my restraint was shitty but at the same time, I couldn’t control myself which led to my isolation in order to protect everyone from me. Adaira was the only one whose presence I could tolerate even in those moments. And the second those rays of light from the full blood moon touched the earth, everything became worse.Heat, rage, pain. Nothing else mattered but these, and the demon whose soul was bound to me feasted on them delightfully. He was much stronger now and he was actively fighting me for control of my body.
ADAIRA~I was eating more than normal out of anxiety. It was still better than worrying myself to death and overthinking everything though. My sleeping schedule was also wack but that was understandable. The full blood moon would rise tomorrow night and I just couldn’t bring myself to sleep even if it still was hours away. My wolf on the other hand was calm and mostly silent. After the night of the pack bonding ceremony where we all shifted to wolf form and ran as one pack to strengthen the pack bonds, she hadn’t made a push to be set free which was unusual. Usually, if I stayed for more than two days without shifting, she would be angsty and restless, whining to be set free, and I would have to shift and run even if for a few minutes. But it’s been days without shifting and she was still calm, I had no idea why and I was too preoccupied with everything else happening to try and figure it out. Maybe she understood the complexity of the situation we were in and was just trying to help
ADAIRA ~ It took two days of mating almost all round the clock for my heat to die down and for the both of us to regain our senses. And as this problem was solved, another problem presented itself, our lives were just a myriad of problems nowadays but who’s counting. When we returned to the pack after my heat passed, almost all the other packs had come to join us, just two were left and they were expected to arrive in a few hours. But as I passed through the crowd, all the males were still attuned to my scent even though I was no longer in heat. Females were also drawn to my scent but it didn’t make them lust after me like it was confusing the males. It was a big problem because it was causing chaos and it was making everyone restless, and I had no idea why it was happening. In fact, it seemed to be even worse now than when I was actually in heat. Sage wolves had also been arriving from the human towns close by. They were wary but they were all put together in one house to await my
ADAIRA ~ Just as expected, the rest of the pack took the news of Sage wolves with varying degrees of disgust, shock and wariness. When we announced the merger into one mega pack, they were even more shocked and awed. There were obviously protests especially when we let them know that we planned to get messages across to Sage wolves in hiding and have them come here to join the pack. But we also explained the great danger that would be coming against us and that we would only be able to defeat them if we work together. Next we let anyone with ideas step forward and speak. There was so much to be done; clearing the surrounding forest for instance, so those that would come to join us would have room to build their own houses, plans to build another general pack house where meals can be taken by a larger group because eating together was a shifter custom meant to ensure the pack bonds remain strong, same as hunting in a group and running as a pack on some full moons. There would also be
ADAIRA~I moved closer and held Theia’s mother by the hand. I forced myself to relax and put every doubt out of my mind. If I could protect the whole pack with the barrier, this was nothing compared to that. I didn’t really know what to envision, last night, it had been easier to see a barrier forming in my mind just like Gavrael directed. But now, do I imagine her using powers? Or imagine me giving her powers?It turned out that I didn’t need to do all that. While holding her hands, I felt some sort of vacuum, a hole in her essence. A missing piece. I didn’t need anyone to tell me that that must be the part of her where her powers used to reside, all I needed to do was to fill it up. I reached out to her with my own essence and I vaguely heard her gasp as she was zapped with it. Her hands were released from mine as she crumpled to the floor and her husband rushed to make sure she was okay.I opened my eyes to see that she was faintly glowing for a few seconds before the glow died do
ADAIRA~I was getting weird looks from everyone that saw me today. After eating by midnight and talking for a while, Gavrael and I had gone back to bed to sleep and woke up after dawn but later than usual, we were entitled to sleeping in after everything that happened after all. But as we left the room to join the others for breakfast, everyone was either looking at me with awe or fear or both. I figured out why when Gaby walked closer to us to speak to me.”Ady, did you really… you know, do that stuff?” She asked.She seemed unsure of how to ask her question and if she should even ask it. I also didn’t understand what exactly she was talking about, so I asked.“What stuff?”“The warriors that fought with you, they showed all of us what you did. We weren’t there but we could see it from their minds. It still seems a bit hard to believe. You were flying or floating, I don’t know, and you were glowing, and there was so much light. And you burned the dead ones, none of the creatures cou