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2024-10-29 19:42:56It’s not normal for me to put a lot of effort into my appearance, yet here I am standing in front of the mirror in the locker room making sure my hair looks ok and swiping on some mascara. Cameron fell for me in my natural state but I want to improve upon that, call it love or fear I don’t care, either way, I’m looking pretty good if I do say so myself. I flatten my shirt in a nervous, excited state and nod to my reflection. Here we go. I’m going to be bold. I’m going to walk right up to him and see how he responds.
There’s a little extra pep in my step this morning as I walk out of the locker room expecting to see Cameron waiting for me like he always did when we were just friends. The lack of his presence instantly mars my good mood, and for a moment, an inkling of doubt creeps in. Shake it off, Faith. He is probably just running late, it’s fine. I readjust my mindset. I will see him when I see him. It’s fine, everything will be fine. Gosh, why
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Angela saunters over to our table, all eyes following her as she cuddles with her oversized stuffed bear. The small square box doesn’t go unnoticed by me as it comes to a stop right in front of me. For a moment Angela stands in silence, waiting for me to start the conversation. I have no words, and I have no idea what she is expecting from me. I could throw a fit, cry, get angry and attack her, but if what she says is true. If by some crazy miracle she is pregnant with Cameron’s baby, I would never do anything to injure it. Even if its mother is the spawn of a demon. “Look at how sweet he is.” She says, referring to Cameron as she opens the little box revealing a thin gold bracelet with a small flat gold piece with an engraving. “It says ‘Have Faith in me.’ it’s his promise to always come through for us.” she focuses her eyes on mine, just waiting for me to break. I can’t break. I won’t, not here and not because of her. “I almost fo
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“Toss it here,” Mia says, opening her mouth in anticipation of the small chocolatey morsel I lob through the air. It bounces off her forehead, promptly landing on the comforter of the bed. Laughing, I grab a handful of popcorn and toss it at her. “You suck!” she chuckles as she searches through the crumpled blanket for the chocolate, and finding it, she gleefully pops it in her mouth, munching. We have spent the last 4 hours laughing nonstop. Reminiscing about our old sleepover day, talking about our celebrity crushes, and arguing over which books are better. My mind still wanders to Cameron now and then, but the second I look like I might turn down a rabbit hole, Mia cracks a joke or throws something at me. “Ok. I’m getting hungry for like, actual food.” Mia announces. Standing up she walks over to my desk and grabs 3 takeout menus. “Pizza?” I ask. “Please! We are
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The nightmares came back. Maybe it’s just the stress of everything, heck it could be even the fever I’m running, but either way I’m sweaty, achy, and my brain hurts. I roll to my side, breathing fast. This dream had been worse than normal. No longer are they relived memories. Each night, they morph further from real life and dive deeper into my subconscious fears. Tonight had been about Cameron, and it has been the scariest one yet. Every time I close my eyes, I see his limp, lifeless body staring at me from the dream. My heart is racing at what happens next. I whimper as I quickly sit up from my bed. Pulling my comforter closer to my body. The tears come as they always seem to these days and I sob into my blanket. I know it’s just a dream, and that Cameron broke my heart, but seeing him like that has been far worse than the pain of him not wanting me. My door slowly creeks open and I see a head pop in, my heart pounds as I find my voice.
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“Maybe he ran away to think?” I Offer while we drive aimlessly around town searching for any sign of Cameron. The arcade on 16th St had been our first stop. We were there at Edith’s suggestion, so I had run in only to appease her. I couldn’t imagine Cameron coming to a gaming hole, not as a 17-year-old jock, anyway. After thanking the woman behind the counter who said she hadn’t seen him, I raced back out to the running car. Edith frowns as she stares out the window. We are running out of places to look.We have checked the mall, the football field, weight room, yacht club. The yacht club was interesting trying to get in. Edith faked a heart attack while I snuck behind the desk checking their log. For 3 hours we have done nothing but search all the places she used to take him when he was a little boy. I feel useless as I have nothing to offer other than my average driving skills. I know Cameron well, bu
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*Faith POV* A pained yelp sounds from behind me as I run as fast as I can away from who I am sure is a guard coming to keep me away. I hear footsteps clattering behind me and turn over my shoulder to check the distance. The moment my eyes land on Noah chasing me down, I slow down and come to a stop as I round a corner. Noah comes fumbling around and I grab his arm, yanking him against the wall. “What the hell! Did you seriously sick an old lady on me?” he rubs his upper arm, scowling at me. Realization dawns on me, and I see my mistake. Breaking out into uncontrollable laughter, I bend over and rest my hands on my knees, wheezing in a fit of giggles as I work through what just happened in my mind. I just played ninja with my, maybe still my boyfriend’s, grandmother, let her sacrifice herself as she beat the person I thought was a guard who, as luck would have it, is just one of my best friends trying to help
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Each blip on the monitor is a reminder that she is still here, still fighting. It’s been a whirlwind since we arrived. Flurries of medical personnel bustle in and out checking vitals, changing liquids, offering water for Faith, dad, and me. She had a stroke, that’s what the doctor said. He said extreme stress brought it on. I rode here with her in the ambulance. I just knew she would wake up if I left her alone for even a minute, and I couldn’t miss that. Yet she still hasn’t opened her eyes or even squeezed my hand. I know she will recover. It doesn’t take a medical genius to know that she is just too amazing to leave me. She would never do that to me. Faith walks up behind me and snakes her hands over my shoulder, hugging my back and giving me a kiss on the cheek. “Hey, how are you doing?” she whispers. The heat of her breath tickles my ears as I turn slightly to see her face. She looks exhausted and stunning. How
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“Well then, I will find a job and buy us a double-wide to live in,” Dad smirks. I choke on my laugh when her face falls, and she grows pale. “Fine. I’ll sign them and go to John.” She says. It’s blatantly obvious that she is trying to get a rise out of my father, but the only reaction she gets is a bark of laughter from Faith. “My dad?” Faith is trying to contain her laughter while my mother grows red with anger. “I’m sorry. You think he wants you after you tried to destroy him by getting him addicted to drugs?” “Woah, what!” I look at my mom as she stands looking guilty. Now it’s my Father’s turn to turn red with anger. “You gave him drugs?” My father says, his voice rising as it echoes through the house.”
