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Chapter 38
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2021-07-28 03:04:02*Cameron POV*
Everyone seems to move around me at double speed. The whole of the room is full of laughter and congratulations as the guys replay the last remaining minute of the game that led to our victory. We won. We are going to the championships. This means more practice and less time. This means a way to occupy my mind. Taking a big deep inhale I relish the pain it brings from my injury, anything to distract me from the emptiness I feel.
I close my eyes to refocus but all I can see is her face. The disappointment when she walked out of those showers towards me. The question she asked by just saying the name I had given her. One minute I had hope, the next I was watching it go up in flames. I had thought that earlier today was my lowest point. That maybe, just maybe I had suffered enough in one day that I could escape further injury. Instead, I’m in
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Mia and Noah just stare at me with crazy eyes. I can tell Mia is angry by the rigidness of her body, while Noah has taken on a more gentle concern. I know I should have filled them in sooner. I had locked myself away in my own mind by keeping them out of the loop, but if I'm being perfectly honest I was upset with them at the time. They haven't done anything to warrant my mood other than dote on each other. But I also never claimed to be of sound mind when it comes to my emotions or control of them. More than likely I also just didn't want their input on something I was sure I couldn’t explain. I’m also not positive that I had fully admitted to myself the extent of my own crush on Cameron and Izzy. How do you put into words what you can't even process in your own mind? And now here we are. Sitting in a stare-down with Mia trying to control her hurt feelings as I try to verbalize it when I know that words
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I angrily toss around in my bed as I cover my head with my pillow. The muffled sounds of yelling still permeate the flimsy cotton material as I grunt in anger throwing my blankets getting ready to throw down with whoever interrupted my excellent dream. I grab a sweater on my way out my bedroom door pounding down the stairs angrily. Mia comes to the base of the stairs looking white as a ghost and I know something is wrong. “Mia, what the hell is going on?” “I don’t know what happened,” she says tearfully. “What do you mean you don’t know what happened?” I move around her walking out the front door and following the voices. As I walk further, faster down the sidewalk I see Noah standing silently as a man berates him, hurling every curse word in the English langu
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“Everything ok?” Cameron asks as we stroll down the sidewalk heading to the movie. I turn to him, offer a smile, and nod. “Yeah, just had an eventful morning. Mia’s mom stopped by.” “The one that abandoned her?” he asks, as though searching his memory. “The one and the same. She’s a real piece of work.” “Think she could give my mom a run for her money?” he jibs. “I think she would probably enjoy trying,” I laugh out loud. We approach the ticket booth and Cameron grabs our tickets while I slip away, claiming the need to use the restroom so I can buy us the popcorn. Right as I’m about to pay, a hand takes hold of mine, a tingle of warm heat running along my arm, as he moves it and places his money in the concession worker’s hand. I put my money away. Sighing heavily as he leans down and whispers in my ear. “I have been waiting to take you on a date for far too long. You are not paying for a single thing.” H
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“Ok then start.” I declare. She turns to look at dad who is refusing to make eye contact with me. “Now please!” Cameron's hand runs the length of my forearm, finding my hand and entwining his finger with mine. I shy away, gently untangling our fingers and pulling my hands to my chest. I know he only wants to support me, but right now I’m feeling lost in my mind, and I need to be there alone to process everything. He doesn’t give up as he takes a step closer to me; he doesn’t reach out to touch me but I can feel his presence and it helps calm me. Looking over my shoulder at him, he offers me a sweet smile of encouragement, and I match him with my own sad smile of thanks. Mom’s sigh captures my attention, and I look to see her focusing on the tiled floor, her face full of guilt. A sarcastic laugh leaves my throat while I wait for an answer that seems to be stuck between us all. The tension is thick, almost suffocating, and I’m
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“I saw it.” Noah rushes out “Witnessed him hurting you. I tried to protect you, threatened him, and told him if he didn’t stop I would hurt him. But I was a kid, Faith. I didn’t know what to do. Who would believe me when you always appeared so perfect and happy all the time?” The only thing I can do is stand and stare. There is no one emotion that can embody my feeling of just complete emotional defeat. All these lies of omission eventually added up. Building until it grew so big it all just explodes at one momentous occasion in my kitchen. “I-I told him he wasn’t a man. That he was a lowlife for hitting a child and that no wonder your mom was sleeping with my dad. Because at least he was a real man.” Noah is talking fast, hands flying about in a frenzied state, trying to drive his explanations home. I close my eyes tight, shaking my head, willing my mind to wrap itself around what the hell is happening. Did my mom really ha
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“Well then, I will find a job and buy us a double-wide to live in,” Dad smirks. I choke on my laugh when her face falls, and she grows pale. “Fine. I’ll sign them and go to John.” She says. It’s blatantly obvious that she is trying to get a rise out of my father, but the only reaction she gets is a bark of laughter from Faith. “My dad?” Faith is trying to contain her laughter while my mother grows red with anger. “I’m sorry. You think he wants you after you tried to destroy him by getting him addicted to drugs?” “Woah, what!” I look at my mom as she stands looking guilty. Now it’s my Father’s turn to turn red with anger. “You gave him drugs?” My father says, his voice rising as it echoes through the house.”
