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2021-07-15 04:06:17I follow Faith to the front door calling her name as loud as I can but it dies the moment it leaves my mouth, only to drown in the loud chatter and music that seems to be pouring into every orifice of the house. I curse under my breath trying to decide what to do. Do I follow her and tell her exactly what's on my mind? Or do I apologize for taking it too far? Shit. I don't know how to do this stuff. I shouldn’t have to apologize, I didn't do anything I didn't want to do and it didn't seem like she was all that averse to it either.
This is all because of Angela. Damn it. If I had just dumped her yesterday like I planned then she wouldn't have had a right to interject. Then Faith would have stayed in my arms and not worried about the fact that I have a girlfriend. Not that Angela was a real girlfriend. I mean really she just wanted the perks of being my girlfriend and I could do whatever I wanted with
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“Hey,” I say like a moron swinging my arms as I walk up to her awkwardly. Faith sighs heavily. “Cameron.” she says emotionless by way of a greeting and the deadness of her tone strikes me hard as my chest begins to ache from her lack of emotion. “Listen. I’m sorry.” I say, rubbing the back of my head and dropping my gaze to the grass she is strangling. At Least she is showing something. Even if it is anger. “It’s fine. I was drunk when I kissed you. I had a momentary lapse in judgement.” she says not looking at me. Again with the lack of emotions. This girl is going to kill me. “Faith, look-” “Cameron. You have a girlfriend and you screw everything that walks with boobs. I’m just some game to you.” She says matter of fac
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*Faith POV* The stream of sunlight glares in my eyes as the wind blows through my partially propped open window. I groan reaching for my phone to check the time only to realize I had shut it off last night. I roll to my back and take a deep breath as I click the power button and wait for it to come back to life. Within a moment my phone vibrates twice. 2 missed alerts from Izzy. nothing from Cameron. I scoff at myself and my wicked train of thought. Why would I ever imagine that Cameron would reach out? And why do I even care? I can't help but tsk in disappointment at the message. Izzy thinks he took it too far. That's what he thinks I'm upset about? Men are so dense, they just assume we are not perceptive at all. I can still clearly see the way he shuffled and tried to hide from Angela when she came in like he was so embarrassed to see me. A little tear stea
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The doorbell rings and I call down to Mia telling her the cash for pizza is on the entryway table. I can hear voices downstairs in a low hush and the door shut as I come bounding down the stairs. My wet hair perched on my head in a messy bun with an oversized stained sweatshirt and some spandex shorts underneath. When I put my foot on the landing I teeter and almost fall over when I see who is standing in my foyer. “Cameron!” I say shocked. Looking over to a confused and mildly amused Mia. “What are you doing here?”. “I need to talk to you.” he chokes out slowly as his eyes travel the length of my exposed legs and up to the old ratty high school football sweatshirt. I cross my arms and try to hide my pleasure at the way his eyes are devouring me even in my disheveled state. “About what?”
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*Cameron POV* I groan sitting up trying to find the source of the knocking that pulled me from my slumber. I hear a quiet tapping on my door and leaning up to check the time on my phone. “Yeah?” 4:36 am. Holy shit. really?! “Cameron, Your mother is here.” Says one of the butlers. “Ok,” I grunt as I swing my legs to the side of my bed tossing my blankets back. The cool air swoops in, making me shiver as I hop up from my bed. With a little added speed I walk to my closet tossing on a pair of sweatpants and my black hoodie. I grin a little thinking about how the last time I had this hoodie on Faith was in my arms. I wish it still smelled like her. Slipping my feet into my plush slippers I walk out of my room and
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7:15 rolls around and I sit waiting near Faith’s locker. I check my watch every 5 minutes hoping she shows up soon. She skipped her run club this morning and I have to see her before class today. I've been waiting for 2 hours just to see her face. I know I can't talk to her about this, not when she is struggling with her own things, but just being around her seems to have a calming effect on me. I'm finding myself growing more anxious and worried about my Grandma and angry and murderous about the manipulation Angela and her father are pulling off on my family. How am I literally stuck in a relationship with the world's biggest gold digger? I hear a fake girly giggle and my blood runs cold. Angela. Shit. I start to walk hoping she won't see me. She chats away about the new birthday present I am supposedly getting for her to confess my undying love. I toss my hood up over my head and pretend to be getting i
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The bell dings as I slip out of the janitor's closet, closing the door behind me softly. Twice now I have sought out the solitude of this closet. I might as well move in at this point. I spent the better part of the last 50 minutes trying to make sense of what was happening with dad. Should I tell Mia and Noah? Do I call mom? I have no idea how to handle this and I hate even more that I'm starting to care. I pull out my phone as I stare at the screen trying to contemplate which move is the right one. Is there even a right move in these situations? A hand comes flying into my peripheral vision right as it lands softly on my forehead. Looking up startled my eyes settle on the corner of the lockers that are right in front of my head.. I gasp looking up and following the long muscular arm to see the hand belongs to Cameron. He offers me a confused and concerned look as I step back from the corner and he remov
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Each blip on the monitor is a reminder that she is still here, still fighting. It’s been a whirlwind since we arrived. Flurries of medical personnel bustle in and out checking vitals, changing liquids, offering water for Faith, dad, and me. She had a stroke, that’s what the doctor said. He said extreme stress brought it on. I rode here with her in the ambulance. I just knew she would wake up if I left her alone for even a minute, and I couldn’t miss that. Yet she still hasn’t opened her eyes or even squeezed my hand. I know she will recover. It doesn’t take a medical genius to know that she is just too amazing to leave me. She would never do that to me. Faith walks up behind me and snakes her hands over my shoulder, hugging my back and giving me a kiss on the cheek. “Hey, how are you doing?” she whispers. The heat of her breath tickles my ears as I turn slightly to see her face. She looks exhausted and stunning. How
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“Well then, I will find a job and buy us a double-wide to live in,” Dad smirks. I choke on my laugh when her face falls, and she grows pale. “Fine. I’ll sign them and go to John.” She says. It’s blatantly obvious that she is trying to get a rise out of my father, but the only reaction she gets is a bark of laughter from Faith. “My dad?” Faith is trying to contain her laughter while my mother grows red with anger. “I’m sorry. You think he wants you after you tried to destroy him by getting him addicted to drugs?” “Woah, what!” I look at my mom as she stands looking guilty. Now it’s my Father’s turn to turn red with anger. “You gave him drugs?” My father says, his voice rising as it echoes through the house.”
