"Do you need an officer to take you home?" he asked me when he had acquired all the information he needed.
I shook my head, shifting my weight from one heel to the other to distribute the pain in my feet evenly. "No, I called an uber."
The officer nodded before entering his patrol car. The uber I called was waiting by the corner, and Beth was already on her way over there with Patty while Paul waited for me to finish.
"You alright?" he asked me when I met him on the sidewalk.
"I just want to go home. I feel like shit."
Paul stayed silent as we walked to the uber, and when I turned around, I had this silent hope that I would see Alejandro so I could thank him for saving my life. But he never returned. He was taken away so quickly after the car slammed into the pole that I had not even a second to register where he was going. All he left behind was the smell of his cologne and wrinkles in my blouse from holding me so tightly.
We passed one more cop car before we met our uber. The drunk driver sat in the back, head down, dirt and blood on his face behind a bandage the paramedics patched on him. He was younger in physic but older looking in his face—scruffy beard, bags under his eyes, long black hair slicked back into a ponytail. I met eyes with him once before he looked away with an immense amount of shame in his eyes.
I'm not sure if that shame was for almost hitting me, or for being captured.
**
The following morning, I woke up and immediately ran to the bathroom to throw up what felt like my lungs and my entire liver. My head was pounding and my body felt like it was going through the flu. Thankfully, I didn't have to be at my job to set up my office until Monday, but Sarah calling me and trying to talk about press wasn't going through well with me."You're hungover, aren't you?" she asked me.
"Yeah," I groaned into the phone before throwing up again.
**
Today, I feel a lot better. It's Sunday, which means (per usual) I'm spending it answering emails, making phone calls, and setting up appearances for Sebastian via phone with Sarah. Sebastian still hasn't talked to me since our encounter at the interview.
"You aren't innocent in that, either," Sarah tells me when I express this concern to her. "You aren't willing to apologize."
"And what should I be apologizing for?" I tell her. "I mean, he knows I didn't leak the journal and he knows I gave it away out of justifiable anger."
Sarah just sighs. I know she's tired of my bullshit, and sometimes I am, too. But if Sebastian doesn't want to have a productive conversation like the one I tried to have with him last week, then we have nothing to discuss. If we're on the same page professionally, I'm perfectly fine.
Liar, my mind chides. I rub my eyes at my own antics.
When I get up to refill my water glass, I feel an intense pain on my side that makes me hiss loudly.
"What's wrong?" Sarah asks.
"Nothing. My hip just really hurts."
For a moment, I wonder where the pain is from, but then I remember that it's most likely from my hip landing on the street when Alejandro pulled me out of the car's way. I'm reminded of the thank you I have to give him, but at the same time I still feel bothered by his behavior towards me in the club. Is that reason enough not to thank him for saving my life? Of course, not. But my pride tells me that the 'thank you' is all him and I will have between each other outside of the professional relationship that may occur; if Sebastian is working close with his family, then I need to work closely with them, too if I want to create the right image.
"You're getting old on me," Sarah says before laughing. "I'm supposed to be the old one."
"Thirty-three isn't old, Sarah. And besides, you look younger than I do and I'm twenty-seven."
"You're right, there. Latinas age like fine wine."
"I can't even argue with that," I reply honestly before we talk about work again.
**
On Monday, Darcy and I work at setting up my new office, as well as getting business cards and phone lines open. I hired a few workers to help me move everything into my office, which is a wide space bigger than I expected, with large windows overlooking the Los Angeles cityscape. During setup, Darcy told me that she had a few clients who were interested in working with me."I told them that I would have you call them back because you've been busy working on press for Sebastian," she says to me. Frankly, that isn't false. But once I think about it, I don't know how I'll be able to take on more than one client. It seems as if Sebastian is consuming so much of my time—time that could be spent publicizing someone else. I don't want my priorities to go to shit if I take on more than I can handle.
"Thank you, Darcy. Just make a note for me on the desk," I say.
After setting up half of my office, I end up having to run over to Harrison Inc. (which, again, is only blocks away) for a contract signing with Han Sin International; the contract with Harrison Inc. is being resigned by Sebastian, when Garrett happened to sign the partnership initially in the eighties.
The signing is held in the CEOs office (I still can't wrap my mind around saying 'Sebastian's office). Inside are press (of course) and a few close business partners that the Board wanted present. The signing is short and sweet; it's obvious that Sarah drilled it into Sebastian's mind to be as civil as possible, because in the business world, the Chinese are known to hold a bit of a grudge, so one wrong move from Sebastian could ruin a thirty-plus year partnership.
As Sebastian takes pictures with Han Sin's president, Chen Hongsheng, Sarah and I converse quietly.
"Don't tell him I told you, but Sebastian was talking about you last night."
I hate how hard my heart is beating. "Really? What did he say?"
"He was worried out of his fucking mind. Apparently, you almost got hit by a car?"
It isn't surprising to me that he found that out.
"It was...yeah, that almost happened."
"Jesus Christ. You alright? No concussion or anything?"
"No, I'm fine. Just a bit sore. But how did he know?"
"Who knows how Sebastian finds things out. He's got friends in a lot of places, I'm sure someone saw you at that club that night and told him. Look, what's important is that you didn't tell me that Alejandro Quintanilla was there, too."
Every time I hear that name, I feel the need to see his face again as if I've forgotten the distinct sight of him.
"Yeah, he was."
"Sebastian wasn't happy about that."
"Well, who cares what Sebastian is and isn't happy about? He was at the club and I was there, too. It was coincidence. If it weren't for him, I'd probably be dead right now."
"That's not my point."
And like clockwork, Sarah's eyes land on the Quintanilla Family, standing across the room in a close grouping like a pack of wolves, with all of them cold, mean, and unapproachable. But God, how attractive this family is. It's obvious the only thing on their minds is business, but a family as good looking as the Quintanilla Family is bound to have connections in every place and crevice; it's almost as if the Quintanilla's are a Colombian variation of the Harrison Family.
Alejandro is next to his uncle, Salvador, staring at Sebastian taking photos with Han Sin. His eyes are dark and unreadable, but his stature is defensive with his arms crossed against his chest like the men standing behind him. He seemed much nicer and approachable at the club, but now I don't even feel comfortable thanking him like I had planned.
"The Quintanilla's and Harrison Inc. are already an unknown force. No one knows their future since it's obvious Sebastian doesn't trust them like Garrett does. So if you allow yourself to get involved in the wrong way, it's going to start problems."
Sarah's right—so right, I don't even want to listen to her words of wisdom. I already told myself I wouldn't get involved more than I needed to, but hearing her tell me the same thing only to protect Sebastian's ass doesn't sit well with me. What I'm hearing is: "don't do this because we need to make sure Sebastian's happy and safe."
But I don't feel like arguing with Sarah especially, so I nod and excuse myself to tell the press that we'll take a five-minute break. When they disperse, I force myself to walk over to Sebastian.
"That went well," I say to him, purposefully looking down at the iPad Sarah gave me for today. "When the break is over, we arranged for you to take Han Sin's representatives down for a quick tour of the top floor, the Marketing department and Sales."
"Alright," Sebastian says; it seems like ages since he's said something to me.
"Try to be on your best behavior during this. We don't want to fuck this relationship up so early."
"It seems like you don't have faith in me."
"Well, we've seen it happen before, haven't we?"
Did I really just say that?
When I look up at Sebastian, he's staring down at me with that venomous green stare he's infamous for giving someone who's said something he didn't like. But I stare back at him with a holding glare that doesn't let up; he expects me to apologize, but I dare not even let the word "sorry" come out my mouth for saying what I said. So all we do is look evilly at each other until Sebastian rolls his eyes and steps a couple of feet away from me.
"Coffee courtesy of Harrison Inc. Cafe!"
Lucas approaches the both of us just in time with coffee to warm up the ice between Sebastian and me. I take the one that has 'black, two sugars" written on the side while Sebastian takes the other one and sips quietly.
"The barista recognized me as your assistant and gave me the coffee for free," Lucas says happily; he's almost oblivious to the tension between Sebastian and I.
Sebastian smiles modestly. "I appreciate your gratefulness, Lucas."
"Why wouldn't I be grateful?"
"Because some people aren't, you know?"
"God," I scoff at him. "You're so full of shit—"
"Woah, okay," Lucas drawls out with an uncomfortable laugh. His eyes scan the room for Sarah, who is nowhere to be found. So, in an attempt to get the tension to ease a bit, Lucas starts talking about the time in eight grade when he almost got attacked by a Kangaroo while on vacation in Australia. And as he persists with the odd and out of place story, he quickly stops talking when someone joins the group.
"Is this a bad time?" Alejandro asks Lucas, warranting little to no smile in his direction.
Lucas's eyes widen, most likely out of fear since his eyes drop straight down to the tattoos on Alejandro's hands.
"No, no, it isn't. I was actually just going to go...that way."
And then quickly, Lucas is gone. If I'm not lying, I want to follow him. Because the silent discord between Alejandro and Sebastian when they're close to each other is uncomfortable.
Out of politeness, Alejandro shakes Sebastian's hand with a formal greeting that follows, but waits for me to extend my own hand before he shakes mine—for an extended period if I may add.
"This actually isn't a good time," Sebastian tells him coldly. Lucas' answer meant little to nothing, I suppose.
"I came to talk to her," he replies, then looks at me with an ever so slight smile. I start to wonder if the only time he genuinely smiles is when he's drunk, since our sober encounters so far have generated little smiles from his end. Regardless, I'm rendered speechless that this is all happening. I'm also to scared to look at Sebastian and his expression.
Keep it professional, Leslie.
"It's nice to see you again, Alejandro."
He nods. "You're in good health, yes?"
I know he's talking about the drunk driver incident on Friday. I'm under the impression that Alejandro thinks that Sebastian has no idea, but really, I'm confident that Alejandro knows that Sebastian's familiar, and is only doing this to pull a few nerves.
"I am." Keep it professional. "I actually never got to thank you for pulling me out of the way. You left so quickly."
"Do not thank me," he says modestly. "Really, I just came here to see how you were doing."
I swallow hard at the sight of him so close, paired with Sebastian's presence lingering behind me, watching Alejandro as if he means to do me harm.
Breathe.
"I'm doing a lot better, thank you."
Alejandro nods again, as if he's above using simple words.
"And I also want to apologize for the way I acted towards you on Friday," he then says.
"It's fine."
"If you don't mind, I would like to make it up to you somehow."
The look in his eyes makes it hard to formulate words, but I try the best I can.
"That won't be necessary," I reply, though I'm positive he's sure that I'm leading him on.
"We'll see."
Sebastian's eyebrows are furrowed deeply into a frown. Honestly, Alejandro's simple "promise" to make it up to me leaves me speechless. Hell, I want to smile from his harmless "threat," but decide against it.
His face loses a bit of amusement. "And before I forget, my uncle wanted to know if you had a...I don't know how you say it in English, but a tarjeta? A card for—"
"A business card?"
Surprisingly, Alejandro almost laughs at his own mistake. "Yes, sorry. A business card."
I fumble through my small wallet (which is harder to do since my hands are shaking uncontrollably) until I pull out an older business card of mine and hand it to him. He flips it back and forth through his fingers; it almost looks like the wolf on his hand is trying to eat the card itself.
"My assistant's phone number is on there, as well as my work e***l."
"Leslie King," he reads off the card.
"Yes, that is indeed my name." I'm reminded of how restrictive I was on giving him my name. It had to result in a business card for him to hear it from me.
"Is there any way that I can contact you personally?" Alejandro asks me.
I suck in a sharp breath at his words. "I-I...um...no, it's just t-the—what's on the card. You'd have to call my assistant. Her number's right there on the card."
A smirk teases Alejandro's lips at my embarrassing choice of language.
"Right. Well, thank you for the card."
Alejandro shakes Sebastian's hand, in which you can clearly see that Sebastian does not even want to be near him. But as for me, Alejandro leans down and gives me a gentle kiss on the right cheek before saying farewell and making it back to his family, who happens to be leaving. I'm stunned, flushed deep red, I'm sure. But Sebastian? He's fuming. And it would be horrible of me to say that I'm finding satisfaction in seeing Sebastian so angry.
But I'm finding satisfaction in seeing Sebastian so angry.
Sarah finally comes back and grabs Sebastian's arm. "C'mon. You're up."
Though absent, Sarah clearly sees that something happened. Sebastian won't stop staring at Alejandro with nothing but pure hatred in his eyes, and from this, Sarah gives me a similar look for not listening to what she said before. I apologize with my eyes at her, but it's clearly not enough. But a few seconds later, Lucas returns to the group, utterly confused.
"Well." He looks at Alejandro's distancing figure. "He seemed nice."
I stay for the promotional tour Sebastian is giving Han Sin. As if Han Sin's representatives have never visited Harrison Inc. before, but it's good publicity to show that Sebastian is somewhat invested in the company."Just got an email from GQ," Sarah whispers to me, eyes on Sebastian in front of the cameras and lights."Do they want Sebastian in an article?"She shakes her head. "No. Front cover.""Have them email me—""Already done."I can tell Sarah's still upset about the Alejandro thing that happened a couple of minutes ago, but in all honesty, there wasn't much I could have done to have prevented that situation. The Qui
**It takes all my willpower to get out of my car. Parked outside of my mother's house, I'm forced to believe that the moment I set foot on the porch, I'll no longer be safe. But still, I know I should do this. The street my mother lives on is quiet and wealthy. Not as wealthy as Sebastian's neighborhood, of course, but wealthier than where we lived when I was younger—the Ciglianos are successful restaurateurs in Italy, but it took a while for that success to make its way to my mom here in the states. I saw it after my parents divorced but wanted nothing to do with it, especially after I left for college. "I wasn't going to pay for your schooling anyway," my mother told me the moment I declined any financial assistance for my education from her. My heels soun
**My mother feels powerful, and it's dangerous.Sebastian and I have a lot in common, believe it or not. Maybe that's why we're at such an impasse—we're more alike than we'd openly admit. But one thing that we have in common that overpowers all is the undoubtable evil in our parents.As I become older, the reason for my mother's animosity towards me makes me curious beyond compare. When I was younger, I just assumed it was something I did; I assumed that I was just unlikeable in her eyes. But now I see that it's more than that. She's willing to blackmail me to keep me away from her schemes, and to make sure I'm miserable. And the only reason I have is because of a woman, and her involvement in my mother's life; my mother went as far as to tango with Garrett Harrison to ruin me.
** I drive over to Harrison Inc. I didn't call ahead to ask if Sebastian was in, but if he isn't, I'm willing to wait for him in his newluxuriouswaiting room until he decides to stroll in, wearing his stupid designer suit with his stupid ensemble that hangs on to his stupid words and demands. As I'm speed walking over to Harrison Inc., I can't help but read over that damn article repeatedly in my mind. Him and I both know the only reason she's in the picture is because of my backstabbing mom and his slut-of-an-ex-girlfriend, Felicity Felix. Felicity-Fucking-Felix! That blonde conniving bitch! I walk into the main lobby, meanuvering my way through the endless bodies walking around. The intercom above the giant glass ceilings talks about the glory and
** I walked back to my office building, but instead of entering my office, I entered my car and drove home. A myriad of thoughts was flooding my mind as I sped down the busy Downtown LA streets, but more importantly, I felt more liberated than I had felt before. Those words I said right in Sebastian's face marked the first time I actively stood up for myself without regretting it after. But not only did I not regret it, I couldn't stop. I was smiling during this drive, like a cage I was stuck in had finally been opened. The threat of my mother and Sebastian's vengeance by pursuing Claire somehow managed to spark an opposite reaction in me. So now that I am home, I have left my phone in the living room on vibrate. The only sound comes from Pedro's collar as he runs around my feet
**It's quite apparent to everyone in the room that I'm thoroughly enjoying this.I shouldn't be enjoying the fact that the mere sight of me is making Sebastian upset. But I am. Usually, I'm the one left speechless at the sight of Sebastian's godly physic and distracting good looks. But it feels quite good to have the roles reversed for a change, now does it?"I'll be right back," I tell the entirety of the office before leaving to see about acquiring a few more chairs. Darcy is at my side when we begin the hunt."Who is that?" she asks me inquisitively, her voice small as if whoever she's asking about is listening behind us.I assume she's talking about the ne
** Julio and I have an engaging conversation during the drive to coffee with Alejandro. It's just innocent conversation to calm my nerves—yes, I am nervous. Before at my office, I was completely in control of the situation with Sebastian. But now? I can't stop tapping my feet while staring anxiously out of the window. It seems like hours to get to this restaurant for coffee, but really, it's just my impatience. When the car stops, we are parked in front of a structure that is heavily inspired by Spanish architecture. Briefly, I think of Sebastian's mansion and the similarities it shares to it, but I force myself to stop with the thoughts of him for once. Right now, I'm here for me. Alejandro offered me a lot of money to help promote this event him and his family want to host; th
**The "meeting" between Alejandro and I went surprisingly well.I say "surprisingly" because I didn't expect to enjoy myself as much as I did. Alejandro and I not only talked about business, but we talked about our lives; he actually wanted to get to know about me—what my favorite TV shows were, what 'The Notebook' was about, why Forever 21 is called Forever 21. It was just nice to take a break from the drama that dealing with Sebastian has brought me.But the drama starts the moment I wake up the next day.Today I, as Sebastian's publicist, have to meet with the social media specialists team to finally get Sebastian's twitter and Instagram up and running. After the exit I made yesterday with him, seeing him today may be
**I thought my victory over Claire Finch would last as long as the buzz around her scandal. Apparently, I was wrong.I'm unsure if it's because the heat has lasted longer in the press, at a constant peak, then expected—two weeks. It's all everyone is talking about. It's all everyonehasbeen talking about since Claire came out with the statement.In my office, I watch an interview that Claire did yesterday with Diane Sawyer about her infidelity scandal. I read the comments more than anything; they're less than sympathetic. I force myself to see the immense positivity in this, but with Sebastian not here to share this victory with me, it's almost useless in a selfish sense. A professional sense? It's an instant boost in my career. A publicist's ace in the
I should tell someone. I should do something. I should say something to someone I trust, but admittedly, I'm too scared. The journal, dark and tattered but still intact, rest on my lap as I sit in my car, too scared to put the keys into the ignition in fear of the car blowing up with me inside it. I've called Isaac and asked him to pick me up from the restaurant due to "car trouble;" I didn't mention the journal to him. He would only tell me that I should have listened to him about moving to Venetia. He would also tell me that this is certainly Garrett's doing—everything I already know being told to me over again. I don't open the journal again. I feel like I'm invading Sebastian's memories if I were to read it again; he's let go of the drama that's surrounded it. Now that it's back, all of its baggage comes with it. I should burn it. Bury it. Hide it somewhere. Part of me wants to
** I tap my fingers impatiently against the table top, watching restaurant goers enjoy their mimosas and laugh over their egg toasts. Brunch seemed like a reasonable time for Claire to meet me. Not for dinner or lunch or even breakfast, but brunch. That was the only time she'd agree to. She also set the place for our meeting—The Edenboroughin Beverly Hills. Very upscale eatery; money is dripping from every guest in the room. Claire, who had me make the reservation, texted me and told me she would be a little late the moment I walked into the restaurant. At that point, I knew she was messing with me. But I don't mind indulging in her childish antics. The fact that she agreed to meet with me is progress enough. "Can I get you started with something to drink, miss Ki
**JANUARYFor the last thirty days, I've been dealing with the most unbearable anxiety.Not because of everything that happened in December—I have been seeing a therapist for almost an entire month who has helped me tremendously with correctly channeling my feelings about everything that happened to me; Sebastian promised to talk to someone if I did, so we're both making weekly visits to shrinks.It isn't work, either. Work has been "relatively" normal ever since I returned to my apartment and eventually got back into my routine. The ideal reasons aren't the reasons at all. The real reason involves a man that I can't seem to get enough of—a man that seems to always spiral my life out of con
** Sebastian's house has a heavy, eerie feeling to it when no one is here. Its vast walls and weaving hallways have to always be occupied. If not, it's like an abandoned castle from legend. I wonder how Sebastian managed to dwell here on his own when he wasn't hosting parties. I sit outside most of the day on one of the chairs in the courtyard. With my laptop, I get back to work; it takes my mind off of last night. I want to feel somewhat normal again but in truth, I don't know if everything will ever be truly normal like it once was. I suppose this is the life I live now, and I have to learn how to adjust to it instead of running away from it. Hours pass and so do countless emails. I've responded to every media outlet in my i
** I wait for the walls to cave in on themselves. I wait for the lights to go out and for everyone to disappear. Suddenly, I'll be free falling. And right before I hit the ground, I'll jolt myself awake; this is a dream. I want this to be a dream. I want to wake up right next to Leslie with the sunrays and the sheets and shit. I don't want this to be real. But after waiting for the end of the dream, it never comes. This is real life. What I'm seeing is one-hundred percent real. Claude, Isaac and Penny stand beside me, staring in the same direction that I am but wearing different facial expressions; I'm the only one whose expression isn't distinctive. Salvador continues to try and wake Alejandro up. There's a small groan that emanates from him, but he still remai
**SEBASTIANI like watching her sleep.She'll never know this, though. Never on my fucking life; I always preach about how ridiculous it is to watch someone as they're deep in slumber, but fuck, I can't help it this time—she looks so beautiful. Angelic, almost. Peaceful, too. I've done this before, watch her sleep. We were at my mom's house in Tennessee. I went through a rough patch, and she slept on the couch in my room through the night. When I woke up, she was still there, wrapped in a blanket up to her neck, eyes soft and without worry. Now is a little different. Now, she's underneath my sheets with the fabric clinging to the titillating curves of her body. Her bare legs stick out through my bedding, her breasts barely covered. Her hair is a m
** I don't know how to feel about the sight in front of me. Alejandro being carried away. That's what I see, sitting on the ground with Sebastian's arms still wrapped around me. I watch Isaac and Claude lift his body up and haul him out of the room. His eyes are closed, hair hanging back to reveal more of the gash on his nose—the gash I created. I just stare, my body in a state of shock with my limbs frozen stiff. They struggle to haul Alejandro's mass through the door, but they succeed, the sounds of their laborious breathing being heard as they travel down the hall. When they're gone, I look around the room at the mess—the ceiling plaster scattered on the floor, the broken lamp, overturned furniture. None of it seems real when the images burn into my brain. Sebastian begins to remove his hold on me, slowly as if it's a danger to my wellbeing for him to break away. "I'll be right back," he assures me. His voice is certain and adamant
** The only thought that races through my mind is death. Alejandro is going to kill me. That's what's going to happen. He's going to shoot me, and the moment everyone downstairs hears the gunshot, it will be too late; the gun is already pressed into my back. All he needs to do is pull the trigger. "I don't want to hurt you, Leslie," Alejandro whispers in my ear. I'm too scared to speak; he told me not to make a sound. I breathe in the rough leather of his glove and tense against the gun on my back. Eyes closed, I wait for him to shoot. But he never does. Instead, he removes the gun, still keeping his hand over my mouth. I'm pressed even further into his chest, smelling the sweat and tobacco stuck to his clothing. The sound of knocking on the door makes us both jump in alarm. "Leslie, it's me," Sebastian says on the other side. The moment I hear his voice, I scream even louder into Alejandro's glove. "Shut up," he growled into m