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2021-05-02 14:52:27Throughout my life, three men have told me that they loved me.
Beyond maternal love or "friendly" love; innocent love. These declarations of love were ones that I categorized from the heart or soul, whichever place you find more sentimental.
Hudson was first. We were at dinner in New York with a few of his friends from his firm. On the taxi ride back to the hotel, he told me he loved me. I knew he didn't mean it, but I replied anyway to ensure the simplest of car rides was not over complicated: "I love you, too."
Alejandro was second. In Venetia, is where he told me. Not in person, no. Over the phone - the burner phone that was supplied to me from my estranged grandmother. In Colombia, thousands of miles away, he told m
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