"OK Cara, this is not going to be fun or easy. In fact it's going to be very hard for you to do. You aren't going to want to accept any of it. But it is necessary that you do.. The sooner the better. We are running out of time. You are going to be confused. And honestly, this will probably be the most emotionally painful thing you will ever have to endure. For that I am truly sorry. I wish I could spare you the truth. But I'd only be being selfish if I did. You have to go back. I can't allow you to stay here now. We aren't meant to be together yet. So please,, know I love you dearly. I will be right here beside you the whole way. I need you to relax and trust the process." Tara told her sister.Cara listened to her sister. Her heart pounded in her chest. She drew in a deep and shaky breath, exhaling slowly in an attempt to calm her nerves. Then she slowly nodded her head to show that she was ready."OK, now close your eyes and think about the first thing you remember from Monday morni
Cara's eyes slowly opened. She had no way of knowing how long she had been out. She looked around in confusion. She had no idea where she was at. As her eyes slowly began to focus she saw that she was now in an all white room. As she scanned the white wall in front of her she realized that there hanging in front of her was a large white board. The kind you write on with dry erase markers. On it there were names written in blue dry erase ink. Beside the names were titles listing them as CNA, LPN, RN, and doctor. As she read the list and came to the bottom, the last name jumped out to her. It read, "Patient's name: Kaylee".At that moment Cara became aware of a beeping noise and a whooshing noise behind her. Slowly she turned around. There behind her was a hospital bed. On the bed lay someone covered head to toe in bandages. The person was hooked up to an IV and had a respirator hose going down their throat. Beside the bed was a respirator, inflating and deflating. It was forcing air in
Blinking her eyes repeatedly, Cara looked around trying to get her bearings. She realized that she was now sitting on the couch in her family's living room. Tara sat patiently at her side. Sighing she allowed herself to fall back into the cushions and tried to relax. She felt as though she had an impossibly huge load on her shoulders. Because she was burdened with an ensurmountable task she did not understand. She was feeling so overwhelmed and like the situation at hand had already defeated her. She found herself again longing for her mother. She desperately needed her mother's comfort. Cara closed her eyes and released another deep breath. This, all of this was just too much. She was just a girl. A normal teenage girl who's biggest concern should be wether she was going to pass the next exam. She wasn't supposed to be here.. Wherever here was. She shouldn't be so lost. She was so tired of the constant confusion and searching for understanding. Cara felt like giving up. She wondered
When Cara finally calmed down her sister helped her off the floor and onto the couch. Tara sat there beside her rubbing her back to offer comfort. "Cara honey, you did it. I hoped you would. I knew you could, I just didn't know if you knew you could. Not everyone can find their way back." Tara told her. What was that place, Tara? It was so impossibly black. There... there was nothing... absolutely nothing." Cara shivered at the memory of being trapped there. She never fathomed that such a place could exist. "I don't know if it has a name, Cara. I haven't witnessed many that go there. The few I do know of personally... well, none of them came back." Tara looked away from her sister before standing and nervously clasping her hands. Tara began to pace back and forth in front of Cara. Something was definitely troubling her. Cara watched her sister slowly walk back and forth as she mulled something over. After a couple passes Tara stopped and turned to Cara. Her face creased with conce
"Cara, you need to wake up honey. Come on now. Wake up." Cara's mother called to her softly. Cara wasn't ready to wake up yet. She laid there stubbornly holding her eyes shut. "Cara, come on dear. It's time to wake up. You'll be late. Let's go, wake up now." Cara felt her mother gently push on her shoulder, but still she laid there refusing to open her eye's. She was tired. She wasn't ready to start her day just yet. Was it a school day? She couldn't remember. She thought it might be the weekend. But if it was the weekend, then why was mom making her wake up before she was ready? As tired as she was it had to be early? "Oh! If it's the weekend then it's my birthday!" Cara excitedly opened her eyes and sat straight up. But she was shocked to see that her mother was no where to be seen. She sat there on her bed looking around confused for a bit. Did she dream that her mother was trying to wake her up? Then she remembered that she had in fact had some crazy dreams all night. Something a
"Cara, honey, time to wake up! Come on, Cara wake up!" Cara's mother called out to her. For half a second Cara considered pretending she hadn't heard her mom. She knew it was early because she was still so tired. As she laid there holding her eyes closed and pretending to still be asleep she suddenly remembered the happenings of the day before. Her eyes flew open wide as she sat up and looked around. She was back in her room! She was in her own bed and again there was no sign of her mother. Cara didn't understand. How had she ended up in her own bed? She clearly remembered falling asleep at Kaylee's house. Slowly she pulled the covers from on top of her and saw that she was once again wearing her oversized t-shirt. She looked around her room trying to make it all make sense. Had she had a nightmare? A nightmare made more sense than what she had experienced had been real. Cautiously, she swung her legs over the side of her bed and allowed them to hang over her plush fusia colored rug
Cara approached the entrance to the hospital cautiously. She was unsure of what to expect. But also excited that this was at least something new. She half heartedly pondered exactly how she had ended up on the opposite side of town. Nothing about what she had been experiencing made any sense whatsoever to her. She was afraid to get her hopes up, but she was silently hoping that someone would be inside the hospital. Cara's heart sank as she stepped into the main lobby. One look around the atrium and beyond and it was obvious that there wasn't another soul around. She continued to walk through the large area. In the middle there was a fountain surrounded by greenery. The hospital was six stories high. Here in the atrium vines and other plants ran all the way up to the top floor with a huge sky light above the fountain. Every floor had a railing which allowed the atrium to be viewed no matter what floor you were on. All around the atrium there were small waiting areas scattered here
Making sure to maintain contact with the wall helped to keep Cara feeling grounded. She needed that tactile contact to keep her fear at bay as she navigated the darkness within the hallway. The steady sound of the beep drew her forward. It was steady and constant. Cara focused on the noise like her life depended upon the repetitive, unending noise. She slowly walked forward into the unknown sliding her hand along the wall slightly ahead of her. Ever so many feet she could feel the outline of papers or informational signs or door frames and doors. Once her hand ran across a key pad lock and she startled at the resounding noises made when she pushed the wrong buttons. After what felt like an impossibly long time her hand felt the corner of the wall. She believed she was now at the end of the hall and that this must be where another hallway began. Keeping her right hand on the corner she held up her left hand in front of her as she slowly attempted to turn down what she believed was an