"Do you have any Advil or literally any medicine?" I ask him in my raspy voice. I originally didn't wish to talk to him, and still don't, but if he has medicine, then it would be worth speaking a few words to this handsome guy.
He is a dangerous bully... Well, I don't really know about him being a bully. I have never witnessed him bully someone. But everyone says that he is in a gang. Everyone says he isn't afraid to beat anyone to a pulp if you mess with him.
So I really shouldn't be talking to him, but I really need some medicine at this moment. He digs in his backpack and drops two pills from a pill bottle onto my hand.I grab my water bottle and plop the pills into my mouth. With one sip, they are gone. "Why are you covered in cuts, Flower?" There's that stupid nickname again. He doesn't even know me, so he doesn't have the right to give me a nickname. I look away from him and stay silent.Good thing I’ve already swallowed the water or else it would be splattered everywhere from the pure shock of his words.*************************************
Alec
watch as her head rests on her hand. Little cuts linger around her neck and face. The bruise on her eye looks slightly better than it did the other day. At least that was a plus.
I sneak a look into her eyes. She's beautiful and her eyes too. But they are dull and lifeless.There is no glow in them. They are empty. Almost as if she is a corpse walking, trying to fit in with people that are alive.
I sit up and turn to face her. Why am I interested in her all of a sudden? Get a hold of yourself, asshole. Someone probably poisoned you, and now you're dying. This is just a result of that. Maybe I should check my pulse to make sure I'm alive. I've never cared about anyone. Ever. Aside from myself and my men. I don't give a flying fuck about girls. Fuck them and kick them to the curb, literally. But this girl. This girl is sitting in front of me. Temperance. Something is different about her. Something is pulling me in. The fuck? I know nothing about her.She glances at me and immediately looks away. There is something up with her. "Alec, Temperance, are you two talking?!" The teacher shouts. How would the teacher even come up with that? My mouth isn't even open. I watch Temperance's face. She looks like she is going into full panic mode. "N-No, ma'am." She stutters, trying not to trip over her own words. "Don't lie to me. Detention. Both of you." The dumb teacher smacks her hand on the desk. I watch as Temperance's eyes change. They are full of fear. Near the end of class, I hear her whispering something. ****************************************************************** Temperance "He won't beat you. He won't hurt you. Just tell him that you stayed at school to do extra work." I whisper, my fingers balling into fists as I try to hold back my unshed tears. My heart is pounding. My mouth is dry. I break into a cold sweat, completely afraid of the dark hole that I am going to fall into. "He won't hurt you. He won't hurt you." I console myself, trying to reassure myself. As soon as the bell rings, I stand up, almost knocking my chair to the ground, ready to leave for my next class. I feel someone grab my wrist, my heart skipping a beat in panic. I pull away, whimpering. I have bruises all up and down my arm from a monster. Every touch hurts.“Flower, we need to talk." Alec stands up beside me. I stare at him in fear. Is he going to hurt me? He looks at me with concern dripping off his facial features. I reluctantly follow him out of the classroom and down the hall into a janitor's closet. He faces me and looks into my eyes. He is so much taller than me. He is maybe 6'2 while I am only 5'2. "Who's going to hurt you?" He asks. I stand in place, as still as possible, confusion twisting my face. My eyes widen as I realize he heard me talking to myself earlier. My breath hitches and I avert my eyes to the ground. He steps closer to me, looking more intense. I can smell his cologne, minty with forest. I back up a step in fear and immediately slam into the wall behind me.I wince in pain from the wall coming in contact with my wounds. "Who is going to hurt you?" His voice is dangerously low. My heartbeat is fast. I don't know what to do or what to say. He slams his hands on the wall on either side of me, making me jump and tremble. "Why concern yourself with me? You don't even know me." I whisper on the verge of tears, glaring at him. His angry facial features soften. "Yknow what. Don't tell me. I don't care. I'll let you do whatever the fuck you want." And with that, he leaves the janitor's closet.I sigh helplessly and slide down the wall. I pull my legs into my chest and wrap my arms around them. I can’t help but cry. I cry about everything. About my mom dying. About my father becoming abusive. About Alec leaving. I don't even know why I'm upset about that last one. But the truth is that I am. Maybe it's because out of everyone, someone finally noticed I'm not okay from all these years. I stand up and walk out of the janitor's closet, leaving my backpack on the ground. I spot Alec and immediately start running towards him. "Alec," I yell. He turns around, his attention on me as I stop in front of him, my hands going to my knees so I can catch my breath. "I'm s...sorry for saying t...t...that. I have a lot... going on." I explain, my words back to stammering. "I might've been too harsh." He looks away from me, his hand rubbing the back of his neck, face scrunches up in embarrassment. Within seconds of understanding each other, dizziness takes over me, my head feels light. I feel like I can't stand, my legs wobbling, threatening to give out. I have black spots in my vision. Then... The world around me goes black. ************************************************************** AlecI place the fragile girl on my bed and look at her, scanning her too skinny body. After she fainted, I decided to take her to my house.She needs rest after that hard fall. When I picked her up, I noticed how light she was. Maybe 100 pounds. That's another thing I added to the list of suspicions. "Ella!" I call for my maid. "Yes, sir?" She appears at the doorway after patiently waiting in the hall for me. "Please undress this girl and put her in something she could be comfortable in." I would love to do it myself, but I know that she would freak out. The last thing I want is a girl screaming my name... in a bad way. I leave the room and walk into the main one.The three guys I live with are sitting on the couch, presumably ditching school. Ethan, Damien, and Zander. "Who was that girl?" Ethan asks while placing a chip in his mouth. "A friend," I reply bluntly, knowing Temperance and me definitely aren't close enough to be friends. "Gonna fuck her?" Damien questions. I roll my eyes and respond with no. Their mouths gape open as they look at me in shock. "You don't ever let a girl in here unless it's to fuck." Damien states, like the idiot. I roll my eyes and grit my teeth in annoyance. "Sir." Ella taps my shoulder gently to get my attention. I turn around, growing tense when I spot the worried look on her otherwise delicate face. What is it?" I ask her. "Her body is completely covered in scars, cuts, and bruises, new and old," Ella replies, her voice straining. I feel my heart drop. I stand here in complete shock.That's what she's hiding. I should've known. Lots of people in the gang come with wounds like that. All of them try to hide it. I should've realized the signs of hiding wounds, but I didn't. I am angry. More than angry, I am furious. She's so delicate and fragile. Why would someone hurt a beautiful flower? A girl like her would have nothing to do with the underbelly of society, right? I look at my men behind me. Knowing they heard. "Zander, do a fucking background check on her," I order.TemperanceSo warm and comfy. I snuggle deeper into the sheets. And that's when I realize it. I'm not in my room. I immediately sit up, scanning the room I am in.I am sitting up in an unfamiliar room, on a king-size bed. Alec sits at the end of the bed that's presumably his, looking at his phone. I checked myself. I am wearing an oversized black t-shirt and shorts. I'm not in the clothes I wore when I got to school. Meaning... Alec saw everything on my body. I immediately freak out. Alec looks at me, watching my facial expressions. He forms a weak smile on his face. "Hey." His voice is soft. "Hey," I answer, trying to stay calm, but my heart is beating a million miles an hour. He moves closer to me and gets under the covers with me, like a weirdo, and sits beside me.I inch back from the stranger that has kidnapped me. "I put my number in your phone. In case you need help." He informs me. I nod, staying silent, not knowing what to say. "I didn't dress you." He a
Temperance I'm falling. Waiting for someone I barely know to catch me. To my surprise, he does with a grunt from impact. "We need to l-leave," I tell him. I get out of his arms, ignoring my dad's screams. I open the passenger door, placing myself in the seat as he runs around to the driver's seat. "What was that?" He asks, concerned about the new wounds covering my face. I sigh and lean my head back in the seat. "Just drive," I respond. He starts driving down the road, and I relax. "You better start talking before I take you back there." He threatens, bringing himself back to an asshole. I look at him in fear. He wouldn't... would he? I don't know what to tell him. Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you. I'm abused and raped a lot. But that's okay. No, I can't tell him that. So I make up a lie. “See... I was about to get grounded. So I ran out of the window. Because I didn't want to be grounded." I know my lie didn't sound believable. It is obvious it is far from true.
TemperanceI sit in the car with the five boys, the bulletproof vest Alec made me wear is making me feel claustrophobic. While Connor drives, Alec is in the passenger seat. Zander and Ethan are sitting on either side of me with Damien in the back. Alec and Connor are having their own conversation in the front while me and the boys have ours in the back. Although it’s mostly just them talking and me listening I still find it comforting. After about thirty minutes of driving in the dark Connor stops the car. Everyone gets out of the car with their guns and I follow blindly like a lamb to its slaughter. If I am being fully honest I would tell you I'm scared. But I'm a liar so I'll say I'm brave. "If anything goes south shoot to kill. And Flower. Remember what I told you."He refers to me staying beside him or Zander. I nod, the nickname of flower still irking me. Alec leans closer to me and whispers in my ear, "Stop trembling. I won't let anything happen to you." I didn't even rea
Temperance"Mommy, where are you?" I call around for her. The car is flipped over, and I am hanging upside down. The only thing holding me in is my seatbelt—the seatbelt cuts into my legs and shoulders.There is fire all around me, and I am sobbing. "MAMMA!!" I shriek again as I hear sirens coming closer with each second. Still no answer. "There's a woman and a little girl in there!" I hear people frantically shouting. Strangers in suits are desperately digging in the car. One man pulls me out leaving my mom in there. "Get momma out! Get momma! What about mom?" Snot runs down my face as I scream and hit the man carrying me away."MOM!!" I sobbed. I don't know why she isn't out of the car. Until I spot it. There is a piece of glass from the window shield stuck in her neck. She is bleeding out everywhere.Even my young mind can comprehend that she’s dead. I wake up to Alec shaking me. My body is covered in cold, sticky sweat. My body violently shakes as my stomach churns. Tears run d
Temperance "And what does that mean for me?” I ask him frantically. "It means if we don't stop this, then you won't make it. "He’s joking, right?" "Anything that could have caused this?" The doctor asks. I tremble as I realize I can’t tell him the truth, the real cause. He won’t know how bad my body has been treated. Internal bleeding? God really hates me, doesn’t he?"I got mugged the other day." I blurt out a lie. Emaline looks at me, thinning her lips before getting distracted by something Ella whispers. "Aside from your face, where are your other beatings?" He asks. "My stomach and back." "Lift your shirt for me." He responds bluntly. I cross my arms in front of my chest, refusing to lift my shirt. I don't want anyone to take advantage of me. I don't want to be touched like I was before. "Temperance, it's ok," Ella tells me, giving me a soft smile. I shake my head, finally agreeing. The doctor turns to Ella and Emaline, "Will you two leave the room, please."As soon as he sa
Alec As I step into my room, I immediately notice Temperance under the sheets of my bed. I keep my gaze on her fragile body. I take a step forward, her eyes are closed and her cheeks are red. She is asleep, but droplets of sorrow dry on her delicate face. My knuckles gently touch her cheek as I attempt to push a hair out of her face. She opens her eyes and slaps my hand away, terrified."What's wrong?" Utter shock flows through me from her reaction. She doesn’t dare look at me as she shakes her head now. Is there a book on how to deal with girls?*********************************************************************TemperanceMy heart is desperate to talk to this man. It forms sentences that don’t arise past my rib cage. The words die in my throat. I want to talk to him but my lips stay locked together, not daring to open. "Did you take a shower?" He asks me. I shake my head no. He goes silent, thinking. "Go take a bath. I'll get you a towel and some clothes." He is so sweet to
TemperanceThoughts of my disgusting body storm in my head. Why did I let him know what happened to me? He thinks I'm disgusting. Fuck. Fuck. I'm so disgusting. Its clear to me now that I have to leave. I'll never be safe from my father. No matter where I am.I tried to blind myself but this assault brought me back to my senses. I'll never be safe, and there's no use burdening Alec. I grab a paper and pencil and start writing. I know you find me gross now. Don't worry. I find myself gross too. I will get out of your hair now. And I will go home. I will see you at school if you decide to come. I know you are busy with gang stuff. Xoxo TemperanceI place the note on his nightstand, folding it up neatly. I know people will start looking for me soon, so I have to get out of here quickly. I have nothing to take back with me, so I leave with the clothes on my back and the prescribed pills. I ignore the pain and sneak my way out of the house and down the driveway. I can't stay here an
Temperance I pop two pills into my mouth with a bottle of water I have under my bed. I'm not sure if I can mix my pills with regular Advil but that has yet to stop me. I figure that even if I accidentally overdose, it would be ok. Right? I put on black leggings and an oversized dark blue hoodie that stops mid-thigh. As I'm driven into a coughing fit I place my hands over my mouth. The acts of coughing wrack my frail body, my head spinning as I try to calm down. Stepping into the bathroom I avoid looking at myself in the mirror. I can't bear to see myself. I turn on the faucet, letting the water run over the bristles of my toothbrush. I find myself mesmerized by the flow of the water before placing my toothbrush into my mouth. I wince at the shooting pain I feel inside my mouth. Curious, I take my toothbrush out of my mouth, nudging my tooth with my tongue. As one of my molars wiggles, I feel the color drain from my face. This isn't supposed to happen, my teeth are supposed to b
Alec"You think this isn't hard for me?" Chris runs his fingers through his hair."I didn't say that." I grit my teeth, my ears ring with annoyance.I slam my hands on the table, snapping everyone's attention back to me. "Even if she's happier gone, did you guys forget that she was almost taken a few weeks ago?"I can almost see her small body fighting off her attempted kidnapper. If he would've overtaken her I swear I would've shot him right then and there."So you think she's in danger?" Chris grits his teeth."I'm saying I don't know what kind of trouble she's in!" I want to yell at everyone, telling them to search until the bottoms of their feet are rubbing off."I have something you need to see!" Bee and Rea bust through the door. I watch as Rea slightly glances at Connor before pushing her long hair out of her face.I stand to my feet, glancing at everyone at the table before leaving with the two girls. My heart races in my chest as we enter the security room."So... you're not
I stand completely still, my hands behind my back as my posture tightens."Is this fun for you?" My father asks me, shoving his pointer finger at me. My head gets knocked back and my body follows before catching myself with a stumble."I-is what fun?" The corners of my lips threaten to turn downwards."Watching me take care of you while you stay completely selfish. Do you not understand that I'm suffering because of you?" He squats down, bringing his hands to his face.Tears fall down his cheeks and onto the floor. Light sobs fill the room and I can't help but copy his crying.My hands come up to my face to wipe my tears away.I don't know why I'm crying because of him. Maybe it's this love I still have for him that makes me upset when he cries."I-I'm sorry." I hiccup, watching him lift his head. He crawls towards me, bringing himself upwards and wrapping his arms around me.He places his chin on my shoulders and softly cries.Maybe this is a turning point? Maybe he will finally real
TemperanceMy legs threaten to give out as I continue to pump them, trying to find my destination. In some sick way this reminds me of the times growing up that I was forced to run away from my father. Through my life with him, the familiar pain I would feel in my bones would cause me to sob as my legs continued to sprint.After years of the abuse I suffer with complex ptsd. I have a slight limp in my left leg where my knee is. Every-time I run like this I feel fire ignite in my knee. Not only that but my eyesight has also faltered through the abuse. From constantly pouring alcohol into my eyes as a form of punishment I was forced to get eye surgery two months ago. Even with the surgery I will eventually need glasses since my eyesight is still poor. My body is littered with scars from that monster. I got out alive but with the cost of my leg, my eyesight, and my skin."S-she's dead Temperance!" Danny yells at me, dragging me out of my thoughts.Her breathing is rigid as she slows down
AlecI thin my lips out, wanting to crush the note she's left me in my hands. I've read it over and over.I love Temperance with everything in me but the notes she always leaves when she runs away are starting to get annoying.I've never understood her reasonings for running away aside from right now. In the past, she knew I could protect her. She knew she didn't have to go back but she still did.Now, she thought I was replacing her. I almost did replace her."Dear Alec, I don't know why I bother with these notes anymore. They seem like such a childish thing. How else would you know I left on my own will Vs if I was kidnapped?Anyways, I can't stay here while someone else is in my place by your side. I can't watch you be happy with another woman while I'm simply cast aside. I know you say this is for me but I never asked you to do this. I love you dearly and I want a future with you so bad but now I know that I can't have one with you. As soon as you picked a stranger over me is when
TemperanceTossing and turning through the night.My sleep has always been weary. The only time I ever got a full night of sleep was whenever my father would knock me unconscious.Being by Alec would help me. All I would do is put my hand on his chest. His chest moving up and down would help lull me to sleep.I turn towards the wall on the stained twin sized mattress. I look at the door, staring through the fist sized hole.Alec isn't here anymore. It's just me.My sheets and pillow smell like my room. Our room. They smell like Alec.I inhale the scent, letting a tear slip down my scarred cheek.I feel disgusted letting my wonderful sheets touch this disgusting mattress. It's the only thing blocking my skin from touching the stains but it still makes me cringe.People have no doubt had sex on this mattress. This is a whore house after all. My only question is how long will I be able to stay here?I have to pay up someday and they will make me do it with my body.I don't want that.I'v
Alec I sit uncomfortably in a seat in an empty meeting room. My heart aches in my chest. I feel physically fatigued from the pain I feel mentally. Who knew a breakup could hurt like this? I can't help but want to cry as I replay the events from hours ago. I can't forget the pain in her eyes as she screamed. There was so much emotion built up. Her eyes showed so much pain... so much anger. I was almost afraid she would punch me. I never would've imagine she would throw things at me. Arellas words play in my head over and over again. "You took her in and killed her father. The day you took her in is the day you signed a contract to protect her. That girl is more of your responsibility than I am." I've always thought of Arella as my responsibility. Temperance too... but not in the way Arella has put it. I have taken everything Temperance has never known away from her. I've stolen her old life and basically forced her to live with me. "Alec, what the hell are you doing?" I feel a
Temperance"He might not even go through with the marriage." Connor states, leaning on my dresser beside me as we stare at the wall opposite to us.I shake my head no, giving a sad smile, "The fact t-that he's e-even going is enough d-disrespect to me. I'm... I'm not-not staying here." I try to twist my ring around only to get a stab in the heart when I find nothing there.Connor turns towards me, "You're leaving. What about us? You'll be leaving everyone. Me, Zander, Ethan, Damien, Rea, Bee, and Ella. Can you really handle that?"I have made amazing friends while being here... but I can't just walk around this mansion like it's mine whenever Alec will take a wife soon."I c-can see you... and Z-Zander-no not him. Chris, I can see him. No o-one else." I love them all but I know I'll only be able to keep a tight circle if it means leaving. I know Alec will look for me when I leave and I'm not planning to let him find me.He tries to speak, trying to get me in my right mind before I beg
AlecI watch in shock as the woman I love throws things at me, glass cutting my face as she screams.She looks insane as she screams. In her eyes there's an emptiness. Like she's not all there. Somethings different about her.Connor has watched this whole thing play out, I can tell he's clearly on Temperances side. He watches with a hint of interest as she screams at me. Like he's studying the human emotion on someone who is severely angry.Ella turns the water off, pulling Connor back as Temp makes her way to me.Temperance isn't after Connor. She wouldn't hurt Connor. She's after me.She doesn't understand my reasons. I'm doing this for her. I love her so much that I would marry another woman just to keep her safe.Her safety is my main priority.There's multiple eyes from our friends on her. I feel almost embarrassed to be screamed at by her in this manner.Zander stands in front of the crowd. Rea clings onto his arm. Damien and Ethan stare dumbfounded, not knowing what to do.I ca
TemperanceI thought everyone is supposed to have character growth. Not just in books but in real life. Yet it's been a year and a half and I'm still stuck on what happened during my adolescence.I stare in the mirror I stand in front of. Things are definitely different from back then. My looks included.Back then my hair was long and thin. Now it's thick and short, down to my shoulders. My eyes used to be dull and lifeless but now they are bright. My thin and honey body is now healthy and I'm never starving.To think I almost killed myself.If I would have I wouldn't be where I am now. Both of my parents are dead, anyone who's wronged me is gone, I'm surrounded by a loving husband and amazing friends.Several times my mind has gone back to the one person that escaped my grasp. The one person that slipped through my fingers.Emaline.My best friend.I see her every time I closed my eyes. Her face is morphed now, it's blurry. Her face has faded from my mind. I haven't forgotten her, ju