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Chapter 37: I AM TIRED

Author: Gwen hywfar
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~Lilith’s POV~

Where are the meds? I can't find them. Bastian doesn't look good. What should I do? No, Lilith, just concentrate on finding the medications. Why didn’t he say anything?

Even in the midst of all this, his family was still frustrating him. Mad people everywhere.

A loud thud echoes through the room, so loud that I fear whatever falls is already broken.

I shouldn't have left him. That was the thought that crossed my mind when I saw him.

Bastian had fallen. He was the one that had fallen. When did he stand? Wasn't he sitting on the floor? The sound I heard, it was him? And not an object?

The marble wood drawer crashes against my leg, jolting me from my shock. My eyes snap back to him lying there, his eyes wide open. As though, shocked life was being snatched from him.

No. No. No.

“Bastiannnnnnnn!”

I run with all my might, closing the two feet between us.

I lift him up the moment I reach him, his weight heavy against me. His eyes are still bulging.

“Please, don't die. I don't
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