Daisy
"I screamed so loudly that I'm sure our neighbours could hear. They often phoned the police for disputes. They never really saw me because I couldn't attend school much due to injuries and pain when I couldn't walk, so they assumed I was his wife or something. The police would show up and I'd be locked in my room so I try not to use locks if I can help it. They never did anything. I learnt how to stitch up wounds because more often than not, Jerry would come home and would need some form of treatment.
I didn't know what else to do with my spare time and when he would split my skin I'd spent countless hours cleaning it and attempting to stitch it but when I'm right-handed and try doing it with my left I could never get it right so I messed up."
Grabbing my hand, the same hand he examined earlier, he shakes his head and speaks. Finally.
"He stabbed you?" Antonio asks while trying to hold some form of rage in.
"Twice. The second time he was stone-cold sober actually but I'd just come home from school. I had a boyfriend at the time, I knew it wouldn't last, that relationship I mean, but my father kept bringing men home and when he mentioned selling my virtue for a good price it was a signal. I didn't want to be that girl you know...I didn't want the man to have that control over me so I went and got rid of it on a waste of space school boy but I came home 2 minutes late and he flew right at me accusing me of being a whore like my mother."
Antonio's breaths stay steady but I can see the way his leg bounces and his hands clench at his sides.
For a man who doesn't do emotions and wants nothing to do with me, he's sure sending off shitty signals of caring here.
I chuckle to myself at that but I brush it aside.
"I spent 5 days in the hospital. That was the first time I had been in hospital. Bills were racking up, electricity would get turned off and our water would be freezing for days or even weeks. My clothes were always smaller than everyone else's but I couldn't afford anything else, I couldn't even afford the basics for when it was my time of month so I resorted to stealing them. I got caught once and that's when the System put me in care. I was so happy..."
I look up at my husband and I sigh. "How sad is that? I was so happy to be put into the system that I didn't care where I would end up. I can't remember how long I was there, a few weeks maybe I'm not sure but they soon placed me back in with Jerry. They claimed he had been fighting to keep me because I was his lifeline. I knew it was bullshit but they didn't do anything after that. When I turned 17 I had been known in the ED so much that when I showed up they sent me straight to a room and Dr Loveless would do what was needed before slipping me some antibiotics and extra supplies to get me through. She attempted to help me but then stopped when Jerry threatened her and then me."
"Daisy..." he says. No emotion. Nothing to predict him caring any more than the average Joe. I'm used to being alone. Me and C.J. Got so used to being alone that being in each other's company were the only times we loved being awake.
"You want to know why you got a faulty gift so I'm telling you straight. On my 21st birthday, I got a card from my mother. I was so happy and yet so upset. My brain asked a million questions, 'Why did she leave me?' or 'Was I not enough for her?' Said she wanted to see me, and told me it had to be without Jerry so I did. I went to the location she provided but Jerry followed me and then ran her over. He kept her alive long enough to know why she contacted me, why she left and what she wanted now and that was before he hurt her. He struck me after that and it's been that same cycle since I was a child. I have the physical and mental scars of everything he's done."
I carry on with my admission on my life while he sits there and stares right at me.
"He would rack up so much debt that I would be the one to get the brunt end of the stick and believe when I say that you're not the only one who knocked on our door. When he got in trouble he would sell me out and then claim to give a shit when I paid whoever it was. I hate drunks and drugs and I know that you work on those lines and I don't care okay? I know what you want from me and I will provide it to you as long as you just leave whatever I have said in here between me and you"
I finally let out a breath of relief when I finished what I had to say. I didn't notice that he was still holding my hand.
"Fuck..." is all he says before he pulls me over to him. I'm seated on his lap when I feel his hands trail over my dress and undo the buttons before stroking up and down some of the burn marks and belt marks on my body. They've all healed but you can feel the lumps from where they've been.
"You're a book geek right?"
"I tell you everything I have never told anyone but my best friend and you ask me if I'm a book geek?"
I go to get off his lap feeling like this was all some kind of joke to him when he pulls me back to him and holds me close.
If anyone walked in here right now they would assume I have such a loving husband and he's only trying to make me feel good but I'm actual fact he's trying to power play me.
"Let me go, Antonio" I say wiggling from his hold.
"Daisy.. do not do that unless you're going to be sorting the problem out" he grunts as he keeps me still. I know exactly what problem he's talking about but I've only ever slept with 3 people and I'm not even sure if I enjoyed it or not and I have never stayed the night with a male either so all of this is new territory for me.
"I'm asking you that because I saw you worked in a library. Each time I've looked into your photos on social media I'm looking at you holding a different book. I was going to say there's a bookstore in town where I want to take you tomorrow after training if we have the time." he says but I can't relax around him even when he is talking softly to me about books.
"A bookstore?"
"Yes. It's big and it's got any book you'd ever want there. If you are so big on chilling and being antisocial and you love to read and sit by fireplaces then I'll take you there."
"Training?" I ask because I never signed anything that would tell me I'll be training with them. Then again, I never signed anything anyway. I'm sure it will come about at some point soon.
"Yes. You're a woman who's been through shit. Enough to last you a lifetime and I won't always be here to protect you. You'll have your own guards but other than that I need to know you can protect yourself. I'm not going to argue with you about it. You'll simply do it" he grunts out.
I raise a single eyebrow his way and I'm just about to open my mouth when he puts his fingers there to silence me.
"No more tonight. Tonight I'm going to fuck my wife because I have done nothing but wait for this"
I laugh at his emphasis on 'waiting' like he couldn't go out and get any woman he wanted.
"Yeah sure" I mutter under my breath which doesn't sit right with him. He pulls my chin towards him and kisses me like I've never been kissed before.
He undoes my dress the rest of the way and stands up. I slide down his front while he unbuttons his clothes and lets it all drop to the floor until he's in nothing but a pair of black boxer briefs and holy shit on a Bicycle.
He's like a Greek god in an Italian man's body.
"Like something you see Princess?"
Usually, I'd be embarrassed about looking at someone but with him, I can't look away. I don't even know the man.
"Tattoos," I say so calmly and in my own world while staring right at him. He chuckles into the semi-darkness, the only light that's on is the two bedside lights.
"Why is it tradition to do this?" I ask
"Years ago it used to be a virgin bride. They would want to see the blood on the sheets the next morning to prove their love to one another but now it's just tradition to have sex the night of the wedding. Usually, the bride is too wasted to give a shit but you...my wife...will know exactly how I feel in the morning when I have done several rounds with you."
"You're very... big-headed aren't you?" I say with a smile. The smile comes out more like a grimace but if he notices he doesn't say anything.
"I'm big in all departments Mi Amor"
I turn around to try and stop the blush from showing but to my luck it doesn't, I can feel the heat of his comment. When Antonio approaches me from behind I feel him trace the tattoo on my back.
"What is it meant to be?"
"It's a tree of life. Half of it is where I have bloomed into something new, Where I feel happy and the memories of the past have been just that...a memory, it represents a new life and a new meaning and the other half is where my past life had taken me to a dark and unearthed place. It's where my restored energy came from. To give me a second chance" I rush out. The words form a case of verbal diarrhoea but he doesn't seem to care. He just keeps tracing the lines and design all the way down my back.
Weeks ago he was adamant on this being loveless. He would be faithful and he would satisfy whatever I needed physically and he would take care of me financially but right here...right now this feels more like a Romantic partner.
He kisses along my back, tracing my tattoo and up to my shoulder blades, my dress now long gone, a pile of cloth at the end of my feet.
Standing here in a matching white lace bra and panties with a garter belt which was already waiting for me this morning, I can't help but hold my arms over my body in a form of self-awareness on how I look.
I've never been a self-conscious woman before but knowing my husband has been with supermodels and any other woman he wanted only makes me feel insecure.
I have meat, and I have a little bit of a belly, not a lot of fat but food is my comfort zone when I'm stressed or especially when I'm on my period which...will be soon I think.
After a few moments my body begins to relax and we walk over to the bed where he gently places me before climbing on top of me.
"Are you nervous princess?"
AntonioAfter hearing her story on how she was basically held a prisoner by her own father and mind, the way she was let down by the system that should have been there for her, protected her and caught on to what was happening, the people she thought she could trust. I knew I needed to let some anger out but I didn't want to take it out on her so I decided to give her something she would like.For some reason, knowing that she was taken care of and happy made me feel at ease. I wanted to do something that might help her.And if that was to go out and buy any books she wanted then so be it. It didn't matter if she picked 3 or 300 I will be having my office sorted tomorrow and I will be having her join me whenever I'm in there.I kept telling myself I didn't want to love or get to know her and I don't deny the obvious lie I'm telling myself but I can't deny the attraction here. Her body was ramrod stiff throughout the wedding day and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Was it too ma
DaisyMy body aches as I sit in the bath. It's a good ache but my chest feels tight.Hearing him laugh at my expense makes me feel like a complete loser. I didn't tell him that because I felt like it, I told him that because for some reason my body and mind trust him even if my heart doesn't and wouldn't.And then he went and made me look a fool.I can't help the sobs that leave my mouth. I try to cover them by placing my hand there but it doesn't work. I locked the door which I shouldn't have done because I absolutely loathe locks on doors but right now this bathroom is my safe place where I can just be.Right now in here, I can cry in peace and I can laugh in peace.The bath is relaxing, my body settles so easily and my muscles don't feel like they are stiff after what me and Antonio had done but the relaxing place is soon disturbed when the door unlocks and opens."Daisy..." Antonio says as he crouches beside the bath next to me."Yeah?" I ask while facing forward still. Again, I'
Antonio"Bro, what have you done to her?" Dante laughs and I can't help but feel some pride in my wife's reaction to finding Megan touching me."I fucked her good and proper last night. She's been through a lot of shit man. So fucking much" I mention quietly so no one else overhears me talking to my best friend."Like what?""Jerry abused her. She's got scars up her shoulders and down her back and some on her hands from where he hurt her. She was so fucking open about it with me after I overheard her talking to her friend""What are we going to do?""Nothing," I tell him "Why not?""Because we're going to train her to be the best fucking female fighter along with my sister that New York has”"You think she will be okay fighting Antonio? She's not exactly...""I know but she will get there," I tell him before entering the gym. Daisy is a few paces ahead of us and I know she's holding back on going in there so I walk behind her and push her body in with mine. Her ass hitting my groin a
DaisyI've been Mrs Rosa for 10 days already. We've spent a lot of time getting to know each other in those 10 days, stopping in bed after tea and then having sex most of the night but today he seems to be in some form of mood.I don't want to know why and I don't question why either because I have problems of my own to deal with.My period started last night and so did the pain. And sweet Jesus they hurt so bad this month.I look at my phone and see that it's 10:38 am and I'm curled up in bed with a hot water bottle and Chicago Fire playing on the TV in the background.My phone has gone off a few times but I've ignored it and stayed in a curling position.Once again my phone goes off but I ignore it because every time I move my whole body hurts. Cramps are the worst and when I say the worst I mean they hurt so bad that I can't move and I prefer to sleep.The door to our bedroom opens and Antonio's annoyance comes through loud and clear."Do you not know how to answer your phone!" He
AntonioI left the house in such a foul mood. I knew I would have to calm down eventually, I knew what I said to her was out of order but I couldn't contain the anger when she didn't answer her phone. The panic I felt when she didn't answer and knowing that the Koreans are after us, I knew that I had to see her. I know she isn't lazy. I know full well that she doesn't like to sleep in and she prefers to be doing something but in that moment, after the shit morning I had already had I just snapped and I snapped at my wife who didn't do shit to deserve it and looked at me like I'd physically slapped her."So what are we going to do about this proposal?" Braden James of Jameson's Hotel and Bar asks as we all sit in the office.My mind keeps diverting back to Daisy and how she was looking pale on the bed. I didn't think too much of it but now that I have I can't help but think she must have been ill to be stopping in bed and agreeing to something even I knew she wasn't.In the few weeks
DaisyIt's been 35 days since my husband has been home and it's also been horrible and lonely. I spent the first few days after he left in bed after the doctor saw me and told me I probably had bruised ribs and a bit of a shiner on my cheek but nothing major that needed fixing.My period didn't even last the usual 5 days which was different for me.I've tried phoning Antonio but it always went to voicemail so I left it after day 22. I've had some of the people here gossiping about us, about how this marriage is a sham and how he deserves someone better.Every morning for the last week I have woken up in a cold sweat and being sick. I'm constantly sick and feeling tired but I keep putting it down to the stress of everyone here.I've had the stares and classic sneers from some of the female workers who I don't even know and didn't know who worked here.Judgemental comments over the last two weeks have gotten worse and I've just about had enough of it."Have you all got a problem with me
Antonio An hour earlier:"It's been weeks Ant. Are you not going to go home?" Max asks as he pours himself another drink."Yeah," I mutter and as I go to stand up, my phone rings in my pocket.Magda."Why is Magda ringing?" I ask anyone in general. "Yeah?" I say into the phone. Magda is like a grandmother to everyone. Loves to fuss around and make sure we have all eaten but sometimes she can be one scary woman."Oh bloody nora child.""Who's Nora Magda?""It's an English saying apparently. We have a slight problem and when I say slight problem I mean your wife just took the car""What do you mean my wife took the car?"A pause on the other end of the line makes my patience snap completely. "Woman...What the fuck has my wife taken the car for?" I snap into the phone but her snapping makes me quiet and feel like a shit husband."Don't you Woman me Tu idiota. Maybe if you were here defending your woman when she has done nothing but get verbal abuse from Megan and her friends and snide
Daisy"Yes, princess?" He whispers in my ear as I pull back and look into his eyes.Will he ever really mean his confession?Will I be the woman he comes home to every night or is this just some obligation towards his child?Instead of voicing those feelings and concerns to him, I regard them and tell him the one thing that will annoy me so much but I know we can't do this here."We can't do this here" I try to explain before he even gets his hand near me.Over the last week, if I remember correctly, I have showered and changed into comfy underwear, sweats or leggings, and long baggy tops and I have cried over stupid things, listened to sad songs and eaten my way through packets of twirlers.My life rocks and my hormones suck.God damn it!"And why not?""Probably because this is my best friend's spare bedroom and-"I pause as I think about how to word what it is that I'm trying to say without sounding like an awkward teenager about to have her first kiss."And?" Antonio prompts."I'm
Daisy"So what's all of this, then?" C.J. asks me as she puts some books to the side. It's all I ever wanted to do. Since I was a little girl, I have wanted to plan my own wedding and be a working wife. I want to live a normal everyday life and give back to people who deserve it.I'm still planning my wedding. It's been 6 weeks since I came back to the manor. Antonio's parents left weeks ago but I still FaceTime his mom who has become another mother figure to me. I don't call them by their names, they started as Mr and Mrs Rosa but now it's just mom and dad. As weird as that sounds, they spoke with Nino about it beforehand and because I had been through quite a lot and coming out of it slowly with their support as well as everyone else here, they assumed I would benefit from having parental relationships with them and I was such an emotional mess when they bought it up."Well, I've been doing my assignments and spending so much time at the park on the grounds with Clara these days whi
Antonio "You look good these days," my mom says as she stands beside me at the kitchen counter. Over the last week, I've managed to get Daisy all packed up in her apartment and settled in here. She's been spending a lot of time doing online classes for mental health, learning new things, and exploring different ways to manage her own issues while trying to get a degree for herself."Yeah. I've actually got something to tell you," I explain. My mother and father are going back to Italy this coming weekend. Now that the new year has passed, I need to explain what will be happening in the next couple of months."Go on?""Me and Daisy are getting Married" I explain as I sift through the cupboards to get Clara her snack. It's currently snowing outside and she has been making snow angels and snow princesses as Daisy called it all morning."I'm- well I hate to break it to you honey but- you're already married" she laughs. When we got back here my mother took it upon herself to take Daisy a
DaisyI submit to him.I let him take me the way I wanted him to take me.I let myself submit to what I know I want, and deep down, everything is perfect at this very moment.I want to believe it will stay like this, but my mind doesn't go to that place. Right now, though, it's gone to a blissful place called 'Orgasm land,' and I can't for the life of me bring myself to care about much else."One more for me princess" "I can't- I""Give me one more Daze! One. Fucking. More" he grunts out as he leans over me and rubs my clit like a man possessed and I can't help it. My body even though it feels spent and achy, gives him another orgasm."Good girl." He whispers in my ear while biting the curve of it. The sensation making me milk his orgasm right out of him."Shot, Nino we didn't use a condom" I gasped out. I don't want to sound like a shitty person but the last time we didn't use a condom I ended up with Clara- and not that I will ever regret my little girl but it took its toll out on
Antonio With the bath running and Daisy holding herself back, I'm tired of wanting her to see what I see, so I take her hand and pull her further in.The bath isn't big enough for both of us, but I want her to enjoy a soak while I find something to make her so we can watch some TV in bed before I go home and watch over my daughter.Our daughter.Once she's in the bath I take myself out of the bathroom so she doesn't feel nervous about undressing in front of me. Not that she should be nervous. She's still my fucking wife. She's still the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on and she will see that by the end of tonight."You good?" I ask through the door.Her contented sigh and a simple "Yes" is what settles my mind. I know she has problems and I know she's had to face such shit since she left New York the last time but this feels like it can be fixed.Not everything is unfixable and not everything is as easy as tossing money to the situation I know but I want her to feel like
Daisy "You gotta help me here Daze," Antonio says as he takes my hand and leads me back to the sofa. The truth is...I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and I've spent every waking moment trying to find myself again, trying to find the person I once was and that's my issue. I'm not that person anymore and I don't think I ever will be. I want to believe that everything happens for a reason and only kind, it does but at the end of the day, I never asked to get shot at. Twice might I add. Thank you. "I want to. I do but it's hard to. I've spent so many months alone even when I have had people around me. I hate it Antonio I hate it" I say, the tears streaming down my cheeks but every time I wipe them more fall and the more that fall the more I realise how I'm on the edge and the only way to get off this edge is to come clean about what's going on with me. I want to so badly to leave it all in the past, leave it where it's supposed to be but this past is following me to my fut
Antonio Christmas Day and there are smiles all around. Everything in me is trying my hardest to smile, I have my daughter here who is happily playing with her toys. She had no idea how hard it was when I assumed she wasn't here. She will never know the extent of how bad my pain was over the last year and I plan to make sure she has a brilliant life.Will want for nothing and will be a happy child having the childhood she deserves."You okay lad?" My dad asks me and I want to say no. I want to say that there is something...or rather someone missing and I know exactly who that someone is but at the end of the day, how do I bring it up with 18 of my family members present at the moment?She wants a divorce. She won't even look me in the eye. She has never been more fragile and lost before and I can't seem to bring myself to admit it. She needs me but I need her more. I need her like my life depends on it. I need to have her with me at all times just so I know she's okay but how do I ad
Daisy"What are we doing for Christmas D?" My best friend asks me from my smallish kitchen. It's been weeks since I stepped on Antonio's home grounds, I told him I didn't want our daughter around those women to which he told me his mother told him about the horrible shit they said to me and about Clara."What do you mean?" I ask. I don't actually want to tell her that I'm not going anywhere because then she would feel obligated to stay here with me when she could be having fun.When we moved back Max insisted on her living with him, again, I was super happy for her.And while I've been sitting here looking at papers that really do need my signature to send to Antonio I can't bear the thought of having someone else's happiness ruined because of me so I reply with everything that it takes to plaster a happy smile on my broken face."I actually have a night planned of watching movies and sorting through Clara's old clothes that don't exactly fit anymore" I laugh avoiding her eyes. I don'
DaisyIt is pretty quiet for a very lost soul right now. Nothing I looked at looked the least bit appetising for me right now. I didn't want to go and get Clara straight away. I didn't want to change myself being seen and stopped by Max or Antonio.I've never been here before and I'm glad I found it. My thoughts come to the surface and I let everything I have been thinking and feeling explode into the tears that I let fall.Getting off the bus here I assumed I'd feel lighter but the heaviness of the situation makes me feel worse. Weighted by all my problems.Sinking in water I didn't even realise was rising or am I drowning? I feel like I have a backpack on.A backpack full of bricks that's making me sink, like I'm struggling to catch the breath I keep gasping for. The water rose above my stomach, then my chest and not but not least my face.All these thoughts and nowhere to scream them out. I'm so in on my thoughts that I don't feel the calloused hand touch my skin. Looking up I fee
Antonio I watched as she walked out of that door. My world walked out scared shitless of me because I didn't even realise I had a hold of her arms. I don't think it was that tight but she refused to let me go with her. Refused to let me be around her in fear and that is something I don't ever want her to feel. "Man...what the fuck!" my brother shouts at me. I haven't had a moment where I can gather my bearings because the moment Daisy left her apartment he forgot who he was speaking to but I guess his mind isn't talking to the don, he's talking to his twin brother who fucked up."What do you want me to say? I fucked up? I don't even remember losing my temper with her. I don't even remember grabbing her. All I remember is coming to the now and having you both shouting at me so back the fuck off" I shout back at him. It isn't until he brings his phone up with a video of her shaking under my hold, tears streaming down her face and trying to pull away from my grip that I realise I must