Antonio
Yesterday was spent waiting for confirmation that Daisy had picked her dress and at the very last minute she had picked a dress. She barely spoke to me on the way to the manor and once we did arrive, she asked where she was sleeping and then made her way over there. I didn't see him at all yesterday which was fine by me. She must be expecting to be sleeping in her own room but as of tonight, my wife will be with me. In our room in bed with me. "You ready?" My dad asks me as I stand at the chapel waiting for my bride to head down here to me. "It's arranged. It means nothing" "Me and your mother were in an arranged marriage and look at us" he says while smirking at me. At his age, he's still a handsome chap and I would say that because I look exactly like him. "Jesus. Fuck I didn't know that" I say as I look at the door again. "My only bit of advice is to be faithful son. Arranged or not she wasn't in the wrong. It was her father's doing and she's paying a hefty price for it" "Yeah I get that" and I do. I get that she hates me and doesn't want anything to do with me but this is now her fate as much as it is mine. When the music starts playing and the small number of people we have here stand, I look to the back of the church to find my bride standing there on her own. I would have thought her useless father would want to see her get married to the ruthless, heartless bastard everyone claims me to be and he was told to be here so where the fuck is he? I've learnt how to hold all emotions in, to become expressionless and not show anything on the outside but on the inside, I’m fucked. She is pure beauty. Everything about her is beautiful and everything I have expected her to be is completely off topic. She’s feisty but she’s also scared. She has the balls and guts to stand up to a man like myself but she doesn’t like to use them. Maybe this marriage won't be a sham after all. She walks slowly toward me, her veil covering most of her face but I can still see her beauty underneath it as she gets closer to me. Her figure fits perfectly in her dress, it hugs each curve in the right place. She’s not like the women in our usual circle who don’t eat and spend hours on end in the gym to be super skinny. She's got plenty of curves that I cannot wait to grab onto in bed. Her dress is pure white and trails along the floor behind her. My brother nudges me from behind but I can’t even look at him which earns me a chuckle from behind. I have my brothers and best friend as my best men and everyone else in the family is seated up front and throughout the chapel. "Here's me thinking you stood me up" I whisper when I lift her veil and look down at her. "I thought about it" she mutters not making eye contact with me. Instead, she keeps a closer look at my chest. "I don't bite Princess. Unless you want me to" This gets her attention. Her cheeks flush a beautiful shade of pink but she doesn't look at me for long as her gaze sweeps over the guests sitting and watching. It's probably terrifying for her seems how she's never been in my world. Probably doesn't know how to use a gun and most likely can't defend herself in a certain situation seems that her height puts her at a disadvantage and by my records she prefers to read and relax. I know most of her school history, she was valedictorian, a straight A student, and had a select few friends and by the looks of her, she must have been the quiet and timid one so that makes our training heavier and so that will change starting tomorrow. The vicar begins the ceremony and goes through his usual routine and rituals about love and faithfulness and then goes on to the one part where I feel Daisy tense up. Do you, Daisy Harrison, take, Antonio Alexander Rosa to be your husband? To have and to hold in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer for the remainder of your life?" He asks Daisy and I watch as her eyes look defeated and pained. "I do," she says just loud enough to get the priest to continue. "And do you, Antonio Alexander Rosa take Daisy Harrison, to be your wife? To have and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer for the remainder of your life?" "I do," I say without any emotion or any hesitation. It's supposed to be a contract marriage. Loveless. Completely physical and I must be a fool to want to give this ago. I barely know the woman yet I can't wait to find out her strengths and weaknesses and what turns her on mostly. "In the power of god and the bible, I now pronounce you, husband and wife. You may kiss the bride" he says and I don't hesitate to look at my dashing bride who doesn't know where to look and I place my lips softly on her. "At least pretend to want me for a moment" I whisper in her ear feeling amused and slightly annoyed. She leans into the kiss and holds onto my sides as if she wants to squeeze me to death which makes me laugh because her grip isn't even all that hard. "What's so funny" she asks as we break off to the roaring and cheering of my family and men. "You." "What's about me?" "You gripped hold of me so tightly that I'm surprised you didn't try to pierce your nails into my insides" I chuckle but there isn't much humour to it. After a beat, she releases my body and brushes her hand down my jacket as if it’s an instinct for her to do. "I hate wearing heels" she whispers while trying to balance on each foot. I look down to see she's wearing silver heels which are quite tall but even in heels she only comes up to my chest. "So why have you?" "Because it's apparently felt tradition" she says but we're interrupted by my mother who rushes up and hugs Daisy tight. Not even giving her firstborn a hug. "Okay, Ma. Don't kill her. At least I know that you prefer my wife to me” I say with laughter trying to pry my mother's arms off Daisy. "I'm sorry. I just couldn't wait any longer! You need to get your bride to the reception area now Antonio. We will all meet you there" she says as she wanders back over my father and sister. "Shall we go, Mrs Rosa?" I ask with a smirk. She holds onto my arm as we walk back down the aisle and to the party that's being hosted at our family's resort house 10 minutes away from our home. "This could work Daisy," I say as I hold her thigh in the car. Her dress covers all of her legs so I can't have skin on skin but it’s better than what I could imagine. I don't usually like touching people or being touched but her nimble fingers hold onto my hand and that's when I notice a little scar there. "What happened to your hand?"Daisy"What happened to your hand?""I had an accident when I was 14. I had to have stitches but my stupid ass went and picked at them which made it scar" I laugh. The memory of itself is pointless. It's hurtful and it reminds me of a time when I couldn't defend myself."What kind of accident?""It doesn't matter. I learnt my lesson after that. Briefly"We travel in silence for the remainder of the drive, his hand stays on my covered thigh and my hand stays on top of his but it still feels awfully heavy with tension.-The night is full of his family dancing and mingling, Antonioni's Nieces and Nephews running around and doing exactly what children love to do.The music stops briefly before the MC comes on to ask for the bride and groom to attend the dance floor for their first dance as Mr and Mrs.Surely he knows it isn't real. This isn't what neither of us wanted and I will be sure to give my father exactly what I think of him tomorrow or whenever I see the sorry excuse for a man."
Daisy"I screamed so loudly that I'm sure our neighbours could hear. They often phoned the police for disputes. They never really saw me because I couldn't attend school much due to injuries and pain when I couldn't walk, so they assumed I was his wife or something. The police would show up and I'd be locked in my room so I try not to use locks if I can help it. They never did anything. I learnt how to stitch up wounds because more often than not, Jerry would come home and would need some form of treatment.I didn't know what else to do with my spare time and when he would split my skin I'd spent countless hours cleaning it and attempting to stitch it but when I'm right-handed and try doing it with my left I could never get it right so I messed up."Grabbing my hand, the same hand he examined earlier, he shakes his head and speaks. Finally."He stabbed you?" Antonio asks while trying to hold some form of rage in."Twice. The second time he was stone-cold sober actually but I'd just co
AntonioAfter hearing her story on how she was basically held a prisoner by her own father and mind, the way she was let down by the system that should have been there for her, protected her and caught on to what was happening, the people she thought she could trust. I knew I needed to let some anger out but I didn't want to take it out on her so I decided to give her something she would like.For some reason, knowing that she was taken care of and happy made me feel at ease. I wanted to do something that might help her.And if that was to go out and buy any books she wanted then so be it. It didn't matter if she picked 3 or 300 I will be having my office sorted tomorrow and I will be having her join me whenever I'm in there.I kept telling myself I didn't want to love or get to know her and I don't deny the obvious lie I'm telling myself but I can't deny the attraction here. Her body was ramrod stiff throughout the wedding day and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Was it too ma
DaisyMy body aches as I sit in the bath. It's a good ache but my chest feels tight.Hearing him laugh at my expense makes me feel like a complete loser. I didn't tell him that because I felt like it, I told him that because for some reason my body and mind trust him even if my heart doesn't and wouldn't.And then he went and made me look a fool.I can't help the sobs that leave my mouth. I try to cover them by placing my hand there but it doesn't work. I locked the door which I shouldn't have done because I absolutely loathe locks on doors but right now this bathroom is my safe place where I can just be.Right now in here, I can cry in peace and I can laugh in peace.The bath is relaxing, my body settles so easily and my muscles don't feel like they are stiff after what me and Antonio had done but the relaxing place is soon disturbed when the door unlocks and opens."Daisy..." Antonio says as he crouches beside the bath next to me."Yeah?" I ask while facing forward still. Again, I'
Antonio"Bro, what have you done to her?" Dante laughs and I can't help but feel some pride in my wife's reaction to finding Megan touching me."I fucked her good and proper last night. She's been through a lot of shit man. So fucking much" I mention quietly so no one else overhears me talking to my best friend."Like what?""Jerry abused her. She's got scars up her shoulders and down her back and some on her hands from where he hurt her. She was so fucking open about it with me after I overheard her talking to her friend""What are we going to do?""Nothing," I tell him "Why not?""Because we're going to train her to be the best fucking female fighter along with my sister that New York has”"You think she will be okay fighting Antonio? She's not exactly...""I know but she will get there," I tell him before entering the gym. Daisy is a few paces ahead of us and I know she's holding back on going in there so I walk behind her and push her body in with mine. Her ass hitting my groin a
DaisyI've been Mrs Rosa for 10 days already. We've spent a lot of time getting to know each other in those 10 days, stopping in bed after tea and then having sex most of the night but today he seems to be in some form of mood.I don't want to know why and I don't question why either because I have problems of my own to deal with.My period started last night and so did the pain. And sweet Jesus they hurt so bad this month.I look at my phone and see that it's 10:38 am and I'm curled up in bed with a hot water bottle and Chicago Fire playing on the TV in the background.My phone has gone off a few times but I've ignored it and stayed in a curling position.Once again my phone goes off but I ignore it because every time I move my whole body hurts. Cramps are the worst and when I say the worst I mean they hurt so bad that I can't move and I prefer to sleep.The door to our bedroom opens and Antonio's annoyance comes through loud and clear."Do you not know how to answer your phone!" He
AntonioI left the house in such a foul mood. I knew I would have to calm down eventually, I knew what I said to her was out of order but I couldn't contain the anger when she didn't answer her phone. The panic I felt when she didn't answer and knowing that the Koreans are after us, I knew that I had to see her. I know she isn't lazy. I know full well that she doesn't like to sleep in and she prefers to be doing something but in that moment, after the shit morning I had already had I just snapped and I snapped at my wife who didn't do shit to deserve it and looked at me like I'd physically slapped her."So what are we going to do about this proposal?" Braden James of Jameson's Hotel and Bar asks as we all sit in the office.My mind keeps diverting back to Daisy and how she was looking pale on the bed. I didn't think too much of it but now that I have I can't help but think she must have been ill to be stopping in bed and agreeing to something even I knew she wasn't.In the few weeks
DaisyIt's been 35 days since my husband has been home and it's also been horrible and lonely. I spent the first few days after he left in bed after the doctor saw me and told me I probably had bruised ribs and a bit of a shiner on my cheek but nothing major that needed fixing.My period didn't even last the usual 5 days which was different for me.I've tried phoning Antonio but it always went to voicemail so I left it after day 22. I've had some of the people here gossiping about us, about how this marriage is a sham and how he deserves someone better.Every morning for the last week I have woken up in a cold sweat and being sick. I'm constantly sick and feeling tired but I keep putting it down to the stress of everyone here.I've had the stares and classic sneers from some of the female workers who I don't even know and didn't know who worked here.Judgemental comments over the last two weeks have gotten worse and I've just about had enough of it."Have you all got a problem with me
Antonio I watch as Clara eats her food. My mind and body are just observing the way she doesn't bother with who is around her but she is quick to watch Daisy's movements. I understand why she did it, why she changed her name and moved and I want to phone my mother and father. Inform them of everything that's happened but my gut is telling me to wait a while so that Daisy can get used to having me around again. Standing at the kitchen Island, I watch her with our daughter...just waiting for her to finish so I can help with bedtime and watch over her so my wife can sleep. Max and C.J. have gone out for the night and he told me he would be booking them into a hotel with some of our men standing guard for protection. "You ready for your bath baby?" Daisy asks Clara as she clears her food away. I don't move, I don't think the shock of everything happening has worn off yet."Dada" she squeals "Dada bath." She says as she sticks her arms out to me. "Hi Princess," I say extending my arms o
DaisyI run like there's no tomorrow. I didn't want to stay in there and watch as my world came crashing down.I remember what my therapist told me the moment I slowed down."Write down your thoughts and feelings. Give yourself a meaning to believe that everything will work out the way you want it to""Good fucking words doc" I cry. The waves crash against the rocks next to the pier. That feeling you get when you feel like your whole world is falling apart just as you get everything together again.I don't blame Antonio for wanting nothing to do with me. I guess his life is changing now and no matter what he wants, he's got to have me a part of it.I guess I could just move into my own place, he can have Clara when he wants but I refuse to give him full custody of her.I may not be stable sometimes and I may need that little bit of help but I am a good mom!I repeat that mantra in my head while I listen and watch as the waves continuously crash against the rocks."I was told I'd find
Antonio"Daze?" I say trying to get a look at what's going on but I can't see anything. I don't even know if I can forgive her right now but the broken look in her eyes makes me want to hold her tightly to me. "I'm okay. I just remembered actually that I need...I need some things from the shop down the road...I, I won't be too long" She says and I can tell it's all bullshit but I won't call her out on it. If she 7#doesn't want to be around me then I will have to try harder soon to get her to see that we are a family and a family will always stick together. "Daisy" C.J. says but Max stops her when the front door closes. "So this is my niece?" Max says as he approaches Clara, taking her little hand in his."It is. This is my princess" I say snuggling myself into her neck and tickling her with my beard which makes her laugh. She's got such a beautiful, carefree laugh that I just can't stop the tears from falling."What's wrong with Daisy?" Max asks and then I remember she left. "I-""
DaisyDaisy: Can you pick Clara up from nursery? I need to start talking now.A moment passes before her text comes through.C.J.: Of course. Go home. Get showered and I'll come home later with her. Be careful okay and take your meds when you get home.I hid my phone when I read her last message, but I knew he'd seen it. It doesn't take a genius to know he's seen it, as the phone seemed to be resting on my lap in full view of the chat."The house is a bit of a mess. I mean-" I try to explain as he pulls out of the beach carpark. I rang Clara's nursery to let them know it would be C.J. picking her up instead of me and they seemed fine with it."Princess it's fine. I want to see where you live for now" he says and I don't mention the fact that I can't go back to New York where I'll be eaten alive by everyone.I let his idea slide as I stand and keep a safe amount of distance between us. It's been nearly 15 months since I have seen him, that's 456 days without him and yes, I know it is m
AntonioI couldn't believe it.I couldn't stay seated throughout the whole flight. I waited on bated breath for my brother to phone back and say it was a mistake. A mistaken identity or some shit but when I showed up at the beach and saw C.J. With barely any colour on her face I knew."You lied! You fucking lied to me!" I shout to her. My brother gets on my way but I don't allow him to get too far in the way."I'm sorry! I'm sorry okay I had to.""No! No, you fucking didn't! I mourned my fucking wife with you and the whole family and you lied to me! You knew she was alive and you kept it from me! From everyone" I shout drawing attention to us."Calm the fuck down, man. Don't speak to her like that!" He says getting into my face and I respect him for protecting her. I managed to shower and shave, get sobered up and have an actual meal on the flight here but the nerves are settling in big time."Where is she?" I ask pinching the bridge of my nose.She points to the woman sitting on the
Daisy (Also known as Katie)"So I'm trying to plan for a party and I need some ideas" C.J. Says as she is most likely pacing in our home. I've just got off the bus to go and pick Clara up with 2 hours to spare so I nip into a shop and pick up the things that we need and then I do my usual routine of sitting on the beach with a decaf cup of tea.I started work a few weeks ago so I wasn't using my best friend's money all the time even though she does mind but I quite enjoy the pace of keeping my mind sort of active.When I had my little girl I went into a spiral of depression, I would only get out of bed to tend to Clara but it only got worse.I gained weight and I became a different person and no matter what tablets I went on I always felt like they weren't working.When she was 5 weeks old I was admitted and sectioned into a hospital with her and placed on evaluation after evaluation to see what was wrong with me.My outbursts, slow mood, stress, changes to my eating and sleeping and
Antonio"Hello there handsome"I don't even look at the sultry, yet screechy voice that sat right next to me.In the last year and a bit, I haven't so much as touched another woman let alone stare after one.My living room in our wing has photos of my wife. It's become a small shrine for her.Some photos of her and her best friend, (I'm sure that they are more for my brother's sake on that one) it consists of some items of hers that I could never get rid of.I'm brought back to the moment when the woman snakes her fingers over my biceps which catches my attention."What?" I snap. I don't intend to but obviously, she doesn't see my wedding band on my finger or she's just a pure bitch with "Marry me money" on her forehead."Wondering if you're up for a good time tonight? I'm in town and it could be a lot of fun" she says touching my arm and running her long, blood-red nails down to where my belt is."I'm married," I say out of habit. Even when good-looking women try to seduce me, I'm ne
Daisy (Also known as Katie)3 days post-surgery."Welcome back Miss White," the hospital's nurse says as she checks my dressings and fluids.I can't remember being transferred to the hospital bed. I can't remember anything from the moment I heard Nino tell me to stay awake. Every part of my body hurts so bad."My...baby" I whisper but my mouth feels like sandpaper."Your baby is perfectly fine honey. I heard you don't want to hear the sex of the baby from your friend who is waiting for you to wake up"I nod my head but the pounding in my head keeps going with the bright lights flickering in the room."Lights. Too-""I got it, honey." She says as she turns down the lights for me and adjusts some of my fluids to make me feel a little energised.A cup of water and a straw appears in front of me with C.J. holding it with tears in her eyes."I stuck to the plan. I managed to pay off the surgeon at the hospital over there to do what we needed to do but I can't stay long okay? I need to get
Daisy (Katie)"Have we got everything sorted?" C.J. asks me as we finish packing my hospital bag.A few weeks before the shooting, I spoke with C.J. and we agreed that if anything ever happened to me but I survived we would move. We would protect our lives and we would move no matter how hard it would be.I would still raise mine and Antonio's baby and I would be a great mom to our little girl or boy but every turn we took we were looking over our shoulders so my light brown hair is now jet black. C.J. who changed her name to Naomi had also changed her blonde hair colour to Brown and also started wearing darker clothing as a disguise but everywhere we planned to go went to shit."That's everything," I say and zip up my hospital bag.Thankfully Antonio gave her my bank cards and everything beforehand to draw money out if she needed and she did. There was a little over 190 thousand dollars in my bank and then the money max transferred to her which I found weird but then I also found out