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A Sinners Gamble Chapter 38: Self-Esteem
Daisy It's been 7 days since Antonio showed up here. 7 days of watching him and his little girl, 7 days of feeling his presence when he assumes I'm asleep but I know I'm not. I can't sleep, I have my husband in my house who won't sleep next to me, I have a daughter who is so smitten with her father that she never wants me anymore and I have a self-esteem problem where my whole body vibrates with anxiety and nervousness."I spoke to my ma and pops the other morning" he explains as he sits beside me. I have watched them for the last hour and my mind won't allow me to break away from every negative thought running through my body. The same body he won't look at anymore. The same body I try my hardest to cover up every day and night knowing he's here but it doesn't always work. I shower with the door locked and I wear long clothing to bed in case he does come and sleep next to me but he doesn't. Not once has he even set foot in my room other than to bring me a coffee in the morning. "O
Last Updated : 2025-02-07A Sinners Gamble Chapter 39: Pain
Daisy "Nino" I repeat trying to pry my arm out of his grip but it's useless. "I loved you!" he breathes out. I only just realised that his use of past tense is there, and it hits me so hard that I can't hold back the sob that escapes me. He loved me—loved being the very last thing I wanted to ever hear him say. His anger only gets worse from there and I so wish for him to just hit something or even me to give me that excuse to run out of here and breathe again. "You made me think I fucking killed you! That it was ME who did this to you and not once did you try to get back to me! I hated being away from you and I spent so many fucking hours at your grave! Your EMPTY fucking grave in pain. That hole in my heart where you weren't there made things so much worse and I fucking hate you for it so yeah I do wish you had stayed gone""I'm sorry Nino...""It isn't good enough Daisy. It's useless now. You are useless to me...I should make you feel the pain that I felt when-""Antonio!" Max s
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Antonio I watched as she walked out of that door. My world walked out scared shitless of me because I didn't even realise I had a hold of her arms. I don't think it was that tight but she refused to let me go with her. Refused to let me be around her in fear and that is something I don't ever want her to feel. "Man...what the fuck!" my brother shouts at me. I haven't had a moment where I can gather my bearings because the moment Daisy left her apartment he forgot who he was speaking to but I guess his mind isn't talking to the don, he's talking to his twin brother who fucked up."What do you want me to say? I fucked up? I don't even remember losing my temper with her. I don't even remember grabbing her. All I remember is coming to the now and having you both shouting at me so back the fuck off" I shout back at him. It isn't until he brings his phone up with a video of her shaking under my hold, tears streaming down her face and trying to pull away from my grip that I realise I must
Last Updated : 2025-02-10A Sinners Gamble Chapter 41: Lonely
DaisyIt is pretty quiet for a very lost soul right now. Nothing I looked at looked the least bit appetising for me right now. I didn't want to go and get Clara straight away. I didn't want to change myself being seen and stopped by Max or Antonio.I've never been here before and I'm glad I found it. My thoughts come to the surface and I let everything I have been thinking and feeling explode into the tears that I let fall.Getting off the bus here I assumed I'd feel lighter but the heaviness of the situation makes me feel worse. Weighted by all my problems.Sinking in water I didn't even realise was rising or am I drowning? I feel like I have a backpack on.A backpack full of bricks that's making me sink, like I'm struggling to catch the breath I keep gasping for. The water rose above my stomach, then my chest and not but not least my face.All these thoughts and nowhere to scream them out. I'm so in on my thoughts that I don't feel the calloused hand touch my skin. Looking up I fee
Last Updated : 2025-02-12A Sinners Gamble Chapter 42: Christmas
Daisy"What are we doing for Christmas D?" My best friend asks me from my smallish kitchen. It's been weeks since I stepped on Antonio's home grounds, I told him I didn't want our daughter around those women to which he told me his mother told him about the horrible shit they said to me and about Clara."What do you mean?" I ask. I don't actually want to tell her that I'm not going anywhere because then she would feel obligated to stay here with me when she could be having fun.When we moved back Max insisted on her living with him, again, I was super happy for her.And while I've been sitting here looking at papers that really do need my signature to send to Antonio I can't bear the thought of having someone else's happiness ruined because of me so I reply with everything that it takes to plaster a happy smile on my broken face."I actually have a night planned of watching movies and sorting through Clara's old clothes that don't exactly fit anymore" I laugh avoiding her eyes. I don'
Last Updated : 2025-02-13A Sinners Gamble Chapter 43: Broken
Antonio Christmas Day and there are smiles all around. Everything in me is trying my hardest to smile, I have my daughter here who is happily playing with her toys. She had no idea how hard it was when I assumed she wasn't here. She will never know the extent of how bad my pain was over the last year and I plan to make sure she has a brilliant life.Will want for nothing and will be a happy child having the childhood she deserves."You okay lad?" My dad asks me and I want to say no. I want to say that there is something...or rather someone missing and I know exactly who that someone is but at the end of the day, how do I bring it up with 18 of my family members present at the moment?She wants a divorce. She won't even look me in the eye. She has never been more fragile and lost before and I can't seem to bring myself to admit it. She needs me but I need her more. I need her like my life depends on it. I need to have her with me at all times just so I know she's okay but how do I ad
Last Updated : 2025-02-14A Sinners Gamble Chapter 44: Truth
Daisy "You gotta help me here Daze," Antonio says as he takes my hand and leads me back to the sofa. The truth is...I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and I've spent every waking moment trying to find myself again, trying to find the person I once was and that's my issue. I'm not that person anymore and I don't think I ever will be. I want to believe that everything happens for a reason and only kind, it does but at the end of the day, I never asked to get shot at. Twice might I add. Thank you. "I want to. I do but it's hard to. I've spent so many months alone even when I have had people around me. I hate it Antonio I hate it" I say, the tears streaming down my cheeks but every time I wipe them more fall and the more that fall the more I realise how I'm on the edge and the only way to get off this edge is to come clean about what's going on with me. I want to so badly to leave it all in the past, leave it where it's supposed to be but this past is following me to my fut
Last Updated : 2025-02-16A Sinners Gamble Chapter 45: Submit
Antonio With the bath running and Daisy holding herself back, I'm tired of wanting her to see what I see, so I take her hand and pull her further in.The bath isn't big enough for both of us, but I want her to enjoy a soak while I find something to make her so we can watch some TV in bed before I go home and watch over my daughter.Our daughter.Once she's in the bath I take myself out of the bathroom so she doesn't feel nervous about undressing in front of me. Not that she should be nervous. She's still my fucking wife. She's still the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on and she will see that by the end of tonight."You good?" I ask through the door.Her contented sigh and a simple "Yes" is what settles my mind. I know she has problems and I know she's had to face such shit since she left New York the last time but this feels like it can be fixed.Not everything is unfixable and not everything is as easy as tossing money to the situation I know but I want her to feel like
Last Updated : 2025-02-16
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A Sinners Gamble Chapter 48: Positive
Daisy"So what's all of this, then?" C.J. asks me as she puts some books to the side. It's all I ever wanted to do. Since I was a little girl, I have wanted to plan my own wedding and be a working wife. I want to live a normal everyday life and give back to people who deserve it.I'm still planning my wedding. It's been 6 weeks since I came back to the manor. Antonio's parents left weeks ago but I still FaceTime his mom who has become another mother figure to me. I don't call them by their names, they started as Mr and Mrs Rosa but now it's just mom and dad. As weird as that sounds, they spoke with Nino about it beforehand and because I had been through quite a lot and coming out of it slowly with their support as well as everyone else here, they assumed I would benefit from having parental relationships with them and I was such an emotional mess when they bought it up."Well, I've been doing my assignments and spending so much time at the park on the grounds with Clara these days whi
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 47: Safe
Antonio "You look good these days," my mom says as she stands beside me at the kitchen counter. Over the last week, I've managed to get Daisy all packed up in her apartment and settled in here. She's been spending a lot of time doing online classes for mental health, learning new things, and exploring different ways to manage her own issues while trying to get a degree for herself."Yeah. I've actually got something to tell you," I explain. My mother and father are going back to Italy this coming weekend. Now that the new year has passed, I need to explain what will be happening in the next couple of months."Go on?""Me and Daisy are getting Married" I explain as I sift through the cupboards to get Clara her snack. It's currently snowing outside and she has been making snow angels and snow princesses as Daisy called it all morning."I'm- well I hate to break it to you honey but- you're already married" she laughs. When we got back here my mother took it upon herself to take Daisy a
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 46: heartfelt
DaisyI submit to him.I let him take me the way I wanted him to take me.I let myself submit to what I know I want, and deep down, everything is perfect at this very moment.I want to believe it will stay like this, but my mind doesn't go to that place. Right now, though, it's gone to a blissful place called 'Orgasm land,' and I can't for the life of me bring myself to care about much else."One more for me princess" "I can't- I""Give me one more Daze! One. Fucking. More" he grunts out as he leans over me and rubs my clit like a man possessed and I can't help it. My body even though it feels spent and achy, gives him another orgasm."Good girl." He whispers in my ear while biting the curve of it. The sensation making me milk his orgasm right out of him."Shot, Nino we didn't use a condom" I gasped out. I don't want to sound like a shitty person but the last time we didn't use a condom I ended up with Clara- and not that I will ever regret my little girl but it took its toll out on
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 45: Submit
Antonio With the bath running and Daisy holding herself back, I'm tired of wanting her to see what I see, so I take her hand and pull her further in.The bath isn't big enough for both of us, but I want her to enjoy a soak while I find something to make her so we can watch some TV in bed before I go home and watch over my daughter.Our daughter.Once she's in the bath I take myself out of the bathroom so she doesn't feel nervous about undressing in front of me. Not that she should be nervous. She's still my fucking wife. She's still the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on and she will see that by the end of tonight."You good?" I ask through the door.Her contented sigh and a simple "Yes" is what settles my mind. I know she has problems and I know she's had to face such shit since she left New York the last time but this feels like it can be fixed.Not everything is unfixable and not everything is as easy as tossing money to the situation I know but I want her to feel like
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 44: Truth
Daisy "You gotta help me here Daze," Antonio says as he takes my hand and leads me back to the sofa. The truth is...I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and I've spent every waking moment trying to find myself again, trying to find the person I once was and that's my issue. I'm not that person anymore and I don't think I ever will be. I want to believe that everything happens for a reason and only kind, it does but at the end of the day, I never asked to get shot at. Twice might I add. Thank you. "I want to. I do but it's hard to. I've spent so many months alone even when I have had people around me. I hate it Antonio I hate it" I say, the tears streaming down my cheeks but every time I wipe them more fall and the more that fall the more I realise how I'm on the edge and the only way to get off this edge is to come clean about what's going on with me. I want to so badly to leave it all in the past, leave it where it's supposed to be but this past is following me to my fut
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 43: Broken
Antonio Christmas Day and there are smiles all around. Everything in me is trying my hardest to smile, I have my daughter here who is happily playing with her toys. She had no idea how hard it was when I assumed she wasn't here. She will never know the extent of how bad my pain was over the last year and I plan to make sure she has a brilliant life.Will want for nothing and will be a happy child having the childhood she deserves."You okay lad?" My dad asks me and I want to say no. I want to say that there is something...or rather someone missing and I know exactly who that someone is but at the end of the day, how do I bring it up with 18 of my family members present at the moment?She wants a divorce. She won't even look me in the eye. She has never been more fragile and lost before and I can't seem to bring myself to admit it. She needs me but I need her more. I need her like my life depends on it. I need to have her with me at all times just so I know she's okay but how do I ad
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 42: Christmas
Daisy"What are we doing for Christmas D?" My best friend asks me from my smallish kitchen. It's been weeks since I stepped on Antonio's home grounds, I told him I didn't want our daughter around those women to which he told me his mother told him about the horrible shit they said to me and about Clara."What do you mean?" I ask. I don't actually want to tell her that I'm not going anywhere because then she would feel obligated to stay here with me when she could be having fun.When we moved back Max insisted on her living with him, again, I was super happy for her.And while I've been sitting here looking at papers that really do need my signature to send to Antonio I can't bear the thought of having someone else's happiness ruined because of me so I reply with everything that it takes to plaster a happy smile on my broken face."I actually have a night planned of watching movies and sorting through Clara's old clothes that don't exactly fit anymore" I laugh avoiding her eyes. I don'
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 41: Lonely
DaisyIt is pretty quiet for a very lost soul right now. Nothing I looked at looked the least bit appetising for me right now. I didn't want to go and get Clara straight away. I didn't want to change myself being seen and stopped by Max or Antonio.I've never been here before and I'm glad I found it. My thoughts come to the surface and I let everything I have been thinking and feeling explode into the tears that I let fall.Getting off the bus here I assumed I'd feel lighter but the heaviness of the situation makes me feel worse. Weighted by all my problems.Sinking in water I didn't even realise was rising or am I drowning? I feel like I have a backpack on.A backpack full of bricks that's making me sink, like I'm struggling to catch the breath I keep gasping for. The water rose above my stomach, then my chest and not but not least my face.All these thoughts and nowhere to scream them out. I'm so in on my thoughts that I don't feel the calloused hand touch my skin. Looking up I fee
A Sinners Gamble Chapter 40: Grovel
Antonio I watched as she walked out of that door. My world walked out scared shitless of me because I didn't even realise I had a hold of her arms. I don't think it was that tight but she refused to let me go with her. Refused to let me be around her in fear and that is something I don't ever want her to feel. "Man...what the fuck!" my brother shouts at me. I haven't had a moment where I can gather my bearings because the moment Daisy left her apartment he forgot who he was speaking to but I guess his mind isn't talking to the don, he's talking to his twin brother who fucked up."What do you want me to say? I fucked up? I don't even remember losing my temper with her. I don't even remember grabbing her. All I remember is coming to the now and having you both shouting at me so back the fuck off" I shout back at him. It isn't until he brings his phone up with a video of her shaking under my hold, tears streaming down her face and trying to pull away from my grip that I realise I must
