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Chapter 28: Waters
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ReadersBlogIn this chapter you will find two different names. Daisy is Katie who is her secret name to keep her identity a secret and C.J. is Naomi. Yes you will find that they speak to each other in these names and there actual names but out in the open and where people can hear they will be their secret names.
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A Sinners Gamble Chapter 41: Lonely
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