Chapter 61 – Lance My day went on pretty smoothly which was already expected from my point of view and you know what romantic people say, you are blooming when you are in love. I’ve heard that phrase probably a lot of times before, from my workmates to my classmates in college to even random customers that go to the acoustic bars that I perform at and I just don’t know if it was true to life or that it was just a usual saying to exaggerate things. To be fair, I haven’t seen it myself and I honestly really thought it was just some random phrase taken off of a page of a romantic novel. I guess I’m in love now because everyone noticed how I was just filled with bright energy. I don’t see it myself but they’re seeing it and that’s more than enough of a proof. When I got to Fidelitea, my crewmates, Frank and the rest, even the manager, they all asked me if I’m in love or that if I had a really good sex last night because they noticed the apparent glow and the different energy that I’m res
Chapter 62 – Jayler This Monday marks the first day that I’m all paid of the all-around free work that the school head punished me for. The past month was pretty difficult for me and it was undoubtedly a hell of an exhausting month both physically, mentally and emotionally. It has taken a toll on me but I’m all good now. I’m more than glad that all of those negative things, the tiring confusion, the exhausting physical work, the constant overthinking, they all have ended simultaneously. I managed to iron the rift that I have with Lance and it translated pretty incredible as much as I’ve expected things to go well. I just had a long moment of reflection last night after Lance and I had a long phone call. It wasn’t some sort of overthinking but I just had a lot of realization when I played all of the scenario inside my head in a supercut style. I thought my life was all fun and well balanced with Jasper and Kenneth and the constant sneaking out just to party and drink and let loose. An
Chapter 63 – Jayler “What?” Pretending as if I didn’t hear what my dad had uttered, I continued shoving waffles into my mouth. I’m already shaking deep inside and I don’t want to show him that I’m extremely guilty of what he’s accusing me of. I don’t even know who told him that I was out last Saturday night. I’m pretty confident that my sister didn’t rat me out and Lala, she might be the culprit. However, I don’t think she wants to be that person and she’s been trying to stay out of the family drama so I don’t believe she’s the one who told my dad about it. “A little birdy told me that you were out last Saturday night.” Dad went on and I could tell he was trying to keep his voice controlled to a much lower level as compared to his usual shouting tone. It’s the first time that he wasn’t shouting but I could clearly discern the anger gritting in his tone. I’m sure he’s only talking like this because he doesn’t want the tension with my mom to erupt all of a sudden. I kept my mouth shut
Chapter 64 – Jayler “Don’t you think dad’s having an affair?” Chewing a piece of nugget dipped in sriracha sauce, I tried reopening the floor of conversation between me and my sister. We are now both sitting at the centermost table of the whole floor and I don’t have any idea why Joyce chose this table when there are a lot of empty tables. She ordered a BigMac meal and pancake while I ordered nuggets and fries. “He might be.” She replied taking her time to put some honey on the pancake while I stared at what she was doing. “With who?” I followed up. “I don’t know, his secretary maybe?” Joyce shrugged. “Maybe.” “You don’t think he’s working every weekends, do you?” Joyce spat back and it just came into me that he might actually spending his time with someone else every weekend. I know he’s a very busy man but having business trips every fucking weekend sounds truly sketchy. “Now that you mentioned that, who could this other woman be?” “I have no fucking idea.” Joyce began stuff
Chapter 65 – Lance Yhannie and I had a surprising catching up and quite shockingly, I didn’t know that the restaurant where we met each other was owned by none other than one of our groom-to-be, Valentine Grande. That’s probably the reason why the name of the restaurant sounded very much familiar to my ears when I first heard it. It felt like I’ve heard it from somewhere else before even I’m very much aware of the fact that I have never been to that place. It turned out that it’s Valentine’s restaurant that’s why it’s called the Grande restaurant. It’s pretty obvious but to be fair, I have been disconnected with them, with everyone from my high school in several years. I don’t even know anyone way back in high school because I tried to block everyone from that era. I’m so bitter that I distanced myself away from them and tried not to reconnect with anyone from that point in time. I have seen a few of them visit the bar every once and a while but I never go out my way just to meet them
Chapter 66 – Lance I kind of have an idea of the love and hate relationship that Dominic and Valentine had but it was just an idea and I don’t know what exactly happened throughout their life. I have to be honest, while I have already moved on from the pain and everything, I still kind of want to hear what exactly happened. I want to know the full story and Yhannie was the best person to tell that story right now. “Remember that fiasco at our prom?” Yhannie asked making me recall that horrible event at our high school prom. That was so fucked up and who would ever forget that dramatic moment onstage? That was something that no one would ever see again in their life and it’s only worth remembering. It made our prom somewhat spicy and yet fucked up at the very same time. At that time, I was still harboring some infatuation and some confused attraction towards Dominic and even though I know I’m only a side character to their story at that debacle, I was still hurt and shattered by what
Chapter 67 – Jayler I am not really expecting for something grand when Lance asked me out today. In fact, I wasn’t expecting him to ask me out at all. I thought he’s busy with his part time job at the café and while he already told me today’s his free day, I still know he has an upcoming gig later tonight. Needless to say, I still want to see him again and I have a higher expectation that seeing him would surely make my day better. I’m sure it would. I just started my day with my parents fighting right in front of me and my sister, almost disrespecting everything, the food, the things that they preach. And while I didn’t necessarily have a bad day at school, it was plainly the same old boring school stuff and it was just the usual routine and nothing exciting that would take my mind off to somewhere else happened. I still feel sad and horrible. I don’t even want to go home because I’m unsure of what to expect. Are mom and dad still fighting? Are they still mad at each other for what
Chapter 68 - Jayler I don’t know how to describe the wonderful feeling that I’m feeling in words as the movie went on. All I know was my heart was beating for Lance and the intimacy that we have felt subtle and electric. Lance doesn’t seem to have the intention of removing my hand from holding his and he’s even holding my hand a bit tighter. I keep on stealing glances from him every once and a while and there are some other points throughout the movie that we are catching each other stealing those little glances. We just awarded each other with a small and shy smile and then go back to watching the movie as if nothing happened. With one of our hands chained to each other, we had to use both of our free hand just to pick some popcorn and grab our soda. Throughout the film nothing eventful happened much to my utter disappointment. Although I was feeling like I wanted to actually pull Lance’s face and just kiss him hard that he’s going to give in to the seduction but I didn’t try to do
The three of them left Bradey who was enjoying the company of beautiful girls grinding with him. He surrendered to his bed and pleaded for the mercy of sleep to come and rescue him butit won't just come. He began thinking about what he said a few hours earlier, at first it sounded funny and even more insane but it could possibly be the solution to his problem. Dating a man.He was always open to the idea even before he met Samantha, but he couln't just take the risk without properly thinking about it, plus he wasn't gay at all. Day by day, he is losing every singledrop of hope he had to the point that he is starting to become desperate. The thought of getting old alone was squeezing his spinal cord; he never wanted to be left alone in this world like her mother.Richard was sitting taciturnly in front of his computer monitor, tapping away the keyboard, and while sipping some of the Matcha he bought from where he worked, he did not turned hisfocus away fro
After the kiss everything went crazily awkward yet it felt like doubled heaven. However there had been no clear apprehension of moving from sleep to consciousness or if he did ever had the chance to sleep at all. At first he was just lying around eyes wide open firmly fixed above the idle ceiling. Usually things always do sink in as swift as a blink of an eye but now it actually took about less than twenty-four hours for him just to fully process and accept everything that happened. It's sure is real and it was wild, hungry, ardent, and awfully wrong in a way yet he wanted it all.He needed every second of it.Not that he was regretting it or something but it sure opened the closet to the realization of how sexually confused he is. Jasper and Kenneth kept on asking him about when will he ask somebody out, or when will he fuck somebody and as a response he was just telling them words of wisdom. It was obviously hilarious but, even if you consider how smart he is, he jus
Kenneth's increasing excitement almost gave a successful infection to Jasper and Jayler, as soon as the lazy tattooed bouncer let them in without even having some second thoughts or even laying an eye to verify their legality, they started moving with the funky beat playing within the background. Clearly, even a nine year old kid could tell, they seem to resonate sheen light of minority within them though, in the most teenager sense of thinking, they dressed themselves plausibly in accordance and tried to be as oblivious as possible. They were successful about it, no one noticed and even if someone actually noticed they wouldn't give a damn anyway. They were just having fun and having fun means breaking rules, or at least that's how teenagers believe it to be."Oh lord I’ve got to admit I missed this damn place” Kenneth whistled.“Are you fucking kidding me Kenneth?” Jasper blurted in response while giving him a disbelieving glare.“Well, yeah I was here yesterday and the day before t
The long and tiring day finally reeled to an end, Richard arrived at his unit at exactly eleven pm with the thought of Jayler actually staying in, and as usual like yesterday and the day before that,there was no sign of Jayler to be found. He was not fine with it, he doesn't understand why or how did something like this be happening to him but he felt like just being with him soothes allthe sores of a tiring day, but he has to be fine with it, and of course realizing the mere fact that his shift ends at 10 pm, Jayler probably had gone home, he has some parents and a sister toworry for his safety. He has a family, a sweet thing that he had once. And this is Friday night, and Friday nights were supposed to be the youngest of the young nights for him, and even if heis already at the early stages of getting real old to this crappy life, he and his friends still have the finest time to seek pleasure with their party people mindset. The clamorous thought of feeling
Friday came crashing down like a tremendous blazing fireball of blessing, aside from the mere fact that Fridays were always a blessing, it was the last day of Jayler's three day suspension andafter that he can finally return back to school. He woke up very much delighted with the idea that it was all over at last, and, just like the fresh and lustrous morning light, his smile was the brightest.He took the shower with such ease and pleasure while singing some part of a certain song, humming happily into its funky and perky beats and later on doing some awkward dance moves.He arrived thirty minutes earlier today at Richard's condo unit, appearing quite youthful and reinvigorated as ever. Purely for his own amusement, in the high spirits of this stirring and exciting day,Jayler had been trying to act accordingly, keeping himself pulled together, as he found how endearing Richard could be, who based on the sole evidence of his bachelor upbringing have sethi
It was past ten before Richard arrived at Fidelitea. This was the hour when he found Fidelitea most lovable; the shop was not yet the busiest, the smell of fresh teas making its way to invadehis nostrils never failed to relieve his accumulating anxiety, and he was so eager to kick start the bright day with his indefatigable enthusiasm bolstered by the good night sleep he mustered.Though, a thousand of trembling hearts were beating restlessly in close proximity within this heaving ancient mall, and many of them, after all, would be aching in agony but his heartache wasfar worse than theirs. Considering all of the things, whether all of the good or the bad, that happened in his past, he was impotently reduced into nothing but an incapacitated marionette madeout of fragile skins and broken bones with a deplorable heart from stitches of mismatched parts from varying textiles that were scraped out from the anguishing memories of all of his past lovers.Strang
"What the fuck is that?" He mumbled quietly, precisely questioning what was that that he just felt earlier. His heart was still fluttering like a butterfly until now. The stare was still like the oddestfive seconds of his entire life, it was as though a moment from a romance series where the lead actor accidentally stared at his leading actress and the time suddenly went into a slow phaseof motion happened to him. This was, as far as he knows, the very first time that something like that happened and it was undoubtedly unexplainable that made his heart tramble, jerk and flutter.He walked out of the shower room then went to dress himself. Hardly aware that he had moved, he found himself lying motionless back in his own bed in which he had spent the latter of thecold night, slowly and lazily scrolling down onto his social media accounts. Fortunately, thanks to several groups of fandom that follows him, the girl who posted their kissing photos receivedmyri
Denny was promptly fished out from the short film of bittersweet memories that he was virtually viewing in his mind by a loud ring coming from his cellphone. He came to his sense and tardilypicked up the call. It was Bradey."Hello?""Where are you?" asked Bradey."At home, why?" His voice was soft and broken."Why you sound like that?" Bradey asked inquisitively."I'm watching Korean drama" Denny lied, he doesn't want to but it appears that Bradey doesn't remember that today is Jesse's death anniversary."Oh, I didn't know you watch those stuffs" Bradey knew that Denny hated dramas and he was baffled that Denny is watching Korean dramas."Now you know, now can you please spit the reason why you called because I'm really busy crying about this sick drama" Another lie. Denny truly hated dramas, too much that without beingaware of it, he became one."Er, I just want to ask help from you""Proceed""I'm calling here fr
Jayler decided to stay outside of the guidance counselor's office. He was quivery and unsteady; he kept on moving around, back and forth, doing random things that he thought might keephis nervousness down. Anxiety was sending several swift arrows of thoughts inside his brain. Can Richard make a good bargain with the guidance counselor? Will he be successful? Will hebe convincing enough to act as his uncle? All of it was softly and slowly killing the very most of him and the longer he waits, the more queasy he gets. Slowly, he was losing the dull light ofhope he have and was already on the verge of detaching himself from present towards the future of what will probably happen to him. Finally, the squeaking sound of an opening door awakenedand pulled him back to his sense."How did it go?" The uneasy anticipation of a good answer forced him to run instantly in front of Richard."Shush" Richard shushed him, pulling him into the farthest corner of the b