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Frustration Pt 2 - Orenda
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As I continue to fly through the sky keeping my senses perked, I feel it. I feel the cold, bone-chilling sensation of nothingness. That shadow of endless loneliness that leaves my feathers perpetually ruffled. I dive down, bringing myself lower to the Earth but too high to be noticed and keep my eyes trained, scouring the ground for signs of eyti. It doesn’t take me long to spot them. Below is a small forest, but I can see one part of the forest is completely shrouded in darkness as if it’s devouring all light around it. As I approach, my ears pick up the unmistakable sound of snarling. There’s only one being who snarls like that.I tuck my wings in and dive fast just as I see a number of eyti about to swarm two sanguidae. I let out a piercing squawk in warning to the eyti as I let my feet out to brace my landing and stretch out my wings to slow my descent. As I land, I wrap my wings around the two sanguidae shielding them from the oncoming eyti.The two women look up at me, their blo
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“In the name of the cosmos! Is your inner monologue always this dreary?” I hear a familiar voice groan in exasperation, taking me by surprise and filling me with disgust.I glance behind me to see none other than the irksome Merlos, sitting high up on a tree branch above me, staring down at me with irritation etched onto her face.“Keep out of my mind and we won’t have a problem,” I snark, glowering at her with disdain.“For someone with all the power of the universe at their fingertips, you sure love to bitch. Far more than me,” she quips.My lip twitches into a sneer of its own accord as I cross my arms over my chest, her very presence filling me with an insatiable desire to rip out her entrails. Assuming she has any…only one way to find out. I launch myself at her with celestial speed, hand outstretched, ready to grip and crush her dainty neck until I feel her windpipe turn to dust in my hand. I smirk a malevolent smirk at her when my hand locks around her throat, the excitement of
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I take a deep breath and sit up, letting all the air out of my lungs as I look over at my closet. I reflect on Aya’s words, realising he made some strong points. I don’t wallow or whine about anything. Of course, I’ve never had anything to wallow or whine about until now. Even with my duties, my life has been relatively carefree. I feel like the carefree side of me has been snuffed out a little since my animai came into my life, which sucks because an animai is meant to make you feel whole and complete, not miserable and frustrated.Aya is right, I do need a night of fun!Launching myself off the bed, I march over to my closet, push open the sliding doors and begin examining everything I own. I’m starting to question my own taste when a particular ensemble grabs my attention. I grab the hanger and look over the skimpy little number as a wave of rebellion washes over me. Would Azadou be enticed to see me in this or angered? Well, he’s likely to never see it so why the hell should I car
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As if the universe is trying to emphasise Ayawamat’s words, a burst of pressure hits me in the torso, knocking the wind from my lungs and making me clutch the kitchen counter to keep myself in place.“Orenda?” Ayawamat frets, grasping my shoulders, his brows raised with worry.I blink in confusion, placing my hand over my chest as I collect my bearings, trying to figure out what the hell I just felt when I suddenly feel deep and overwhelming rage rising up like a violent tempest inside me.“Azadou…” I whisper.“Now what’s the fucker done?” Ayawamat seethes through gritted teeth.“I don’t know,” I murmur in confusion as I stand up. “Something is wrong…I can feel so much rage,” I quaver, rubbing my chest as if to soothe the emotions intensifying from within me despite our bond not being completed.“Isn’t that him on a normal day?” Ayawamat quips mildly.I shake my head in disagreement, “Not like this. I have to find him,” I declare, marching towards the front door.“Orenda, wait!” Ayawa
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I rise to my feet, my nostrils flaring as I hold my arms out, reading myself to try again. With lightning speed, Jartre is in front of me, his hands fisting my shirt as his eyes glow silver and bright, his jaw etched in tension.“Dammit, Azadou, stop this! It doesn’t matter what you do or what you throw at me, I am not going to fight you!” he bellows in frustration.“Afraid you’ll go too far and kill us both?” I taunt with a cold smirk.Jartre’s mouth curls in disgust as he throws me to the side, dropping me on my ass like an annoying bug.“When are you going to get it? If the only thing that came from our deaths was you finally finding peace, I would grant it to you in a heartbeat, but this isn’t about you or me. I’m not choosing not to hurt you because I’m scared for you or myself, I’m choosing not to hurt you because I refuse to cause Orenda any harm, especially the kind that could cost her her life!” he shouts, his words coated in turmoil.I sit up, resting my arms on my knees as
