It’s been centuries since I got this dressed up, yet here I am dressing for the same reason I did then.
Today is the autumnal equinox, one of the two times of the year when the sun is exactly above the equator making day and night equal in length. The other time this occurs is called the vernal equinox. To celebrate, supernaturals gather among their kind in hopes of finding their soulmate. However, for thousands of years during the autumnal equinox, the delegation has hosted the Autumnal Ball, allowing supernaturals from all corners of the globe to come together at the Kartheca to try to find their animai among other species. The last time I attended was in the 1500s and that was only for the novelty of it. This time is different.
While everyone will be attending hoping to find their animais, I’ve already found mine; he just doesn’t want anything to do with me. This would have been another year I avoided this event but for some unknown reason, me and my brother were personally requested by the delegation to make an appearance. We’re used to them reaching out regarding eyti matters and we receive the ball invitations every year out of courtesy, but we’ve never had a face-to-face request before. I wanted to say no, but Ayawamat insisted we attend. I don’t know why he’s eager all of a sudden. He thinks being restricted to one soulmate for the rest of your life is cruel and unusual torture. I try not to overanalyse the bizarre inner workings of my brother’s mind; it’ll only give me a headache.
I walk over to the dresser, pick up a pair of gold, hollow, leaf earrings with turquoise and rhinestone tassels, and hook them in my ears as I walk back to the mirror and examine myself. I’ve paired the earrings with a beautiful squash blossom necklace in gold vermeil with turquoise cabochons that meet at a Naja – or inverted moon. It’s an absolutely beautiful piece made by a Navajo artist named Leon F. Kirlie. Seeing as how Jartre created my brother and me in the image of the native people of this land and many of their stories were inspired by us, I feel very connected to the native people in a spiritual way and love to honour them whenever I can.
For tonight’s festivities, I’m wearing a gorgeous turquoise, cream and gold, strapless mermaid dress with a sweetheart neckline featuring an eye-catching tribal pattern on the fabric. The shoes are six-inch turquoise stilettoes with gold pointed tips and a delicate glittering gold metal woven around the leather. I’ve pulled my hair back into a high pony that splits into two braids that hang down over my shoulders. The final piece of the ensemble is my bracelet. I’ve had this bracelet for thousands of years and never take it off. It’s a large teardrop opal encased in silver metalwork that wraps around and up my wrist to resemble a feather. While I’m immune to the eyti, I don’t like to use my abilities on them unless I absolutely have to. This allows me to incapacitate them without killing them, which eases my conscience.
Overall, this is the most effort I have put into my appearance in a long time, but I think I’ve managed to pull it off. No make up though. I’ve personally never enjoyed it. It makes me feel like I’m wearing a mask, and my skin feels as though it’s suffocating.
As I continue to examine myself in the mirror, I hear a light tap at my door.
“Come in,” I call out, grasping the bust of my dress and tugging it up a fraction.
From the mirror I watch Ayawamat enter my room, his eyes widening as he spots me.
“Wow…Orenda…you look stunning,” he breathes out.
I smile at his reflection, “You look quite dashing yourself.”
Ever the standout, my brother is dressed in a matching suit jacket and pants with a green, pink, white and blue gradient over a green turtleneck that perfectly matches his rainbow leather pointed-toe dress shoes. Sometimes I think my brother should have been made into a peacock instead of a raitruum.
“Did you match your attire to your eyes?” I inquire.
“That I did,” he grins, “And I look good, don’t I?”
“Handsome from head to toe,” I admit as I turn to face him, “Are you ready to go?”
“Not just yet, I was hoping you could do my hair.”
I smile softly, “Would be my pleasure.”
I walk over and sit on the edge of the bed, patting the spot in front of me. Ayawamat walks over and happily sits beside me, turning his back to me and handing me his brush.
“How would you like it?”
“I think I’d like two simple braids, nothing as elaborate as what you’ve got going on.”
“Like you could even pull it off,” I scoff as I gently brush through his hair, then begin working on his braids. “Aya?”
“Hmm?”
“Why are you so eager to go to this thing? You’re not hoping to meet your animai are you?” I tease.
“For that, you can wash your mouth out with soap,” he says appalled.
I chuckle, “Okay, if it’s not that, then what?”
“I’ve been thinking about that battle the other month.”
“Not to be confused with all those other battles,” I tease further.
He throws me a dirty look. I bite my lips together to keep from laughing and let him continue.
“We’ve been alive a very long time and in all that time I’ve never seen supernaturals from all walks of life gather together and fight as one like that. The fact that we were kept out for the worst of it made me feel like we were…being excluded.”
“You wanted to fight?”
“I wanted to feel like we were needed; like it wasn’t just us looking in as always. We’re called on when needed, but even that is rare. So many people still don’t even know we exist,” he says in frustration. "We're older than the Delegation, yet they are respected, and we are myths."
I sigh, understanding how he feels. I can’t count how many times I’ve swooped in to save someone’s life only to hear the deflating words that they have no idea what a raitruum is. Being the only two of our kind has its many downfalls and that is one of them.
“I just thought maybe attending the Autumnal Ball would give us a chance to be seen by the supernatural community.”
“I understand where you’re coming from and am completely behind this. But just for the record, if you had wanted to find your animai, I’d have supported that too,” I say sweetly.
“Never going to happen. Besides, why are you so sure Zarseti would even give me one? You don’t see all her daughters paired up.”
“Because I believe if there was someone for me, there’s someone for you.” I place his braids over his shoulders and line them up on his chest. “All done.”
He gets up and examines my handiwork in the mirror, gracing me with a bright smile, “Perfect as always. Now we can go.” He holds out his hand to help me up which I eagerly take.
As we proceed down the stairs, I notice my brother eyeing my dress.
“What are you looking at?”
“Nothing. Just admiring how stunning the dress is. Where did you get it?”
“Tituba made it for me,” I say proudly.
He blinks in surprise, “You didn’t wish for it, did you?”
“Gods no!” I gasp, “I would never do something so cruel. Just because she has chosen to use her abilities as a visum to help others as penance for her past indiscretions, does not mean I would ever take advantage of her. When I say she made the dress, I mean she made it with her own two hands. She’s quite the designer.”
“How am I only just finding out about this? And how does a visum who lives in the mountains manage to manufacture a gown like that anyway?” he asks suspiciously.
I roll my eyes, “We turn into birds and fly, yet a visum in the mountains sewing dresses is the thing you find impossible to believe.”
“What can I say, I’m a unique character. Now, speaking of flying…”
We exit the house and make our way onto the grass, my heels sinking into the dirt with each step I take. I focus on feeling the power within me take hold, and as a burst of electricity shoots through my body my human form is quickly replaced with my raitruum form along with my brother. I stretch out my thirty-foot-long wings, feeling the breeze between my feathers as I bring myself to my full fifteen-foot height. I feel my power and strength coursing through me like a livewire. In this form, everything is heightened. I hear beyond what I could in human form, smell scents I was completely unaware of and see up to five miles away.I look over at my brother as he flaps his wings, the bright gold of his feathers that fade into electric blue glowing majestically like they were being lit from within. In bird form, we are identical in every way but scent, so only certain beings can tell us apart. But since we tend to handle our duties solo to keep us spread out, that issue doesn’t come up muc
Okay, I’m ready for bed.Besides living with my brother, I’ve been a very solitary being for thousands of years. The most social interactions I experience are when I interact with the Delegation or save someone’s life. Apart from that, I’m happy to do my own thing, so all these back-to-back discussions with so many people wanting to get to know me are a bit overwhelming. The selfies, on the other hand, were going a bit far for some of them, but I suppose they wanted visual proof they met a raitruum.The moment I’m given a chance to breathe, I race over to the buffet, pull up the bust of my dress once again and help myself to some eclairs. I’m just digging into my second when I feel a wave of serenity wash over me as arms wrap around me from behind. I glance down and see gold flecks of glitter buried against ivory skin. I look behind me to see a bright smile and golden eyes twinkling up at me.“Kamelya, you startled me,” I chuckle, putting my éclair down and turning to hug her.“Those
“I’m so sorry to interrupt, but you’re Orenda, aren’t you?” asks the blonde woman, her turquoise eyes shining with hope.“That would be me, I’m sorry, do we know each other?” I ask curiously, trying to place her face.She’s toned and beautiful in a one-sleeved, glittering, turquoise gown with a sweetheart neckline and a slit up to her hip with a bustle of turquoise silk flowing from her hip accentuating her curves. The shoes make quite the statement being eight-inch holographic platforms with diamond straps and a diamond starflower as the buckle. She looks like royalty but based on the familiar energy, I’m going to guess an Alpha, which makes the handsome gentleman with his arm around her, her Luna. His jet black hair is tied back in a half-up pony and is in a matching three-piece turquoise suit with a white button-down and white tie, with turquoise suede loafers with gold tipped toes.I’ve never had the privilege of meeting a male Luna before. I’ve met a few female Alphas in my time,
Not a moment later, I feel my entire body become rigid. An intense, overwhelming wave of energy comes over me almost knocking me off my feet, and it takes all of me to remain standing. I can feel it approaching like a cold, dense fog skimming across the water and cloaking the land with a cloud of unease. I’d know that feeling anywhere. A feeling I should loathe and shiver at, but I don’t. It makes my body feel alive and my essram rejoice in ways I can’t begin to explain. It feels like a black hole sucking me into its depths, and never have I wanted something so much in my whole life. As disturbing as that thought should be, it brings me nothing but comfort.I look to the end of the ballroom, my heart skipping several beats as that energy intensifies. A moment later, the grand double doors are pushed open, and stepping over the threshold without a single care is none other than Azadou himself.The God of Malice.The Demon God.My animai.His bright purple eyes glance around the room wit
With a deep and unyielding sense of solicitude coursing through me, I race over to the mirror, tearing the vestiges of human modesty from my torso and stare at my reflection in the mirror. My brows furrow, the complete maelstrom of my thoughts clear on my face as with a faltering hand I touch my chest – searching – but there’s nothing.How did she do it?Outside of the Gods, no being has ever willingly touched me. No being ever dared. Is she that vacuous or just ruled by a sense of self-abandonment, lacking in any notions of self-preservation? More importantly…nothing came of her touch. She showed no fear or hesitation as she placed her hand upon my chest. I saw no hatred or disgust in those prism eyes. She looked upon me, pleading, beseeching; her voice soft, confident and firm, yet the very sound of it seemed to cast a spell of calmness upon my being.For the first time since I was torn into this world, I felt frozen. I watched and waited for the malice to take her over…but it never
Ever since the Autumnal Ball I find myself flying on frequent patrols just to distract myself from reliving the events of that evening over and over again in my mind. I feel like I’m experiencing Groundhog Day. I wake up and set off on patrol only to come home and find my mind plagued by the memory of what it felt like to be in the presence of my animai. To be close enough to touch him and yet still unable to feel that touch. To experience the penetrating stare of his piercing, purple eyes and breathe in his intoxicating scent only for him to just disappear from my life without a word once again. He has neither rejected me nor left me with any inkling that I will ever see him again. This is my hell. Condemned there by my own soulmate.Ayawamat does his best to lift my spirits, but what can he do? How do you mend a broken heart that was broken by being denied true love? Even to me, it sounds unhinged. Every day I try over and over to call upon Merlos for answers, yet day after day she
“You really are a magnificent sight to behold,” suddenly announces a somewhat familiar and enchanting voice. The coldness around me lifts, replaced by warmth as I turn my head, locking on a set of bright silver eyes smiling up at me as long strands of dark, forest green hair swirl around her radiant face in the breeze.I channel the electricity through my body as I transform back into my human form and face the Goddess before me, bowing my head with respect.“Goddess of Light,” I greet her honourably.“Nope, still not used to that one. Man, does that sound weird,” she chuckles. “Please call me Gabriella,” she says warmly.“I’m Orenda…but I’m pretty sure you already knew that,” I respond with a playful smile, reaching out and shaking her hand, my body immediately feeling light and airy from the contact.“Due to all the craziness we haven’t had a chance to get to know each other, or for me to tell you just how in awe I am of you and your brother,” she says reverently.I can’t help but b
Without warning, Azadou takes a menacing step towards me, forcing me to back up in retreat but he doesn’t stop. He keeps pressing forward, forcing me to step back until my back hits the edge of the banister, making me wince in pain.“How the fuck did you get in here?” he snarls.I gulp. Again, not from fear. No. I gulp from what the sound of his voice does to me! That deep, base tone of his voice has replayed itself over and over in my mind since the first time I heard it, but my memories haven’t done it justice. It sounds so much better in person.“I was sent here,” I answer him, taking in a deep breath and basking in his scent as my mouth begins to salivate. He smells like the remnants of ash left as a fire burns down. There’s a coldness to that scent and yet it smells calming and alluring, like it’s where I’m meant to be.“Why?” he presses coldly, refusing to allow me the peace of my thoughts or this moment of closeness with him.“Because I want to know what you did to the eyti,” I
For the first time in a week, I laugh. I let out a bitter – though still amused – laugh as she speaks about avoiding rejecting my brother. I don’t know where this burst of energy is coming from, but I’m welcoming it gladly.Invidia pushes off the wall, glaring down at me in annoyance, “What the hell is so funny?”I look up at her, a bitter, mocking smile tugging at my lips. “You even thinking you have a say in the rejection of my brother is laughable.”She fists her hands at her sides as they are ignited by glowing indigo energy. “You think I couldn’t reject him if I want to?” she bites back acerbically.My mocking smile only continues to grow, and I find myself eager to bask in the aftermath of shattering any little fantasies she may have had of being bonded with Ayawamat.“You seem under the very erroneous belief that my brother would ever give you the time of day,” I gladly taunt, leaning back against the stone wall, the uneven edges suddenly feeling unusually soothing as I watch In
I’m pulled from my dark reverie as a groan of pain passes my lips when I feel an ache in my cheeks as my head is yanked downward. I lock with obsidian oculi with a golden core as Invidia’s fingers dig overly aggressively into my cheeks, her face a strange mix of relieved and haunted as she squats before me.“I understand,” she murmurs unusually sympathetically. “I know what rejection can do to people. Despite what she liked to claim, I know my mother’s strength was never the same after she killed her animai. She killed the man she was bonded to without thinking once about the ramifications. She was so fucking cocky,” she scoffs in irritation, “And so obsessed with her plans for power and domination that she actually believed she was above the consequences that come with rejecting the magic of a God,” she shakes her head in ridicule. “But you see, I’ve learned so much from every mistake she ever made. I won’t let anything derail my objectives, which is why I had to make slight amendmen
The sound of movement around me stirs me awake. My eyes slowly flutter open, my mind groggy and my body aching beyond belief as the burning pain in my ankle brings the reality of my predicament crashing down around me. I slowly look up to see Invidia standing over me, a satisfied look on her face.“I’m pleased to see you ate all of your food. The last thing I want is to have to force-feed you,” she lilts with faux concern.I say nothing. I just stare at her, my face no doubt reflecting my exhaustion but in truth all I feel towards her in this moment is apathy. I had expended so much energy communicating with her before because it was necessary; she had answers I needed. It was an unpleasant means to an end, but now? Now I need to save every last morsel of energy I can, if I am to get myself out of here.Invidia’s eyes narrow infinitesimally. “What? No begging? No pleading for me to set you free and do the right thing?” she queries, her tone filled with mockery.I am an immortal, mille
Invidia smirks confidently. “You understand what I’m saying now, don’t you?”“That’s why you chose me,” I whisper gravely. “My human blood is a fabrication, which means I contain far more celestial blood than other supernatural beings.”“Now you’re catching on,” she grins.Invidia rises from her chair, pulls a small vile out of her back pocket and holds it up to the candlelight. Inside the vile is a silver liquid, a liquid I presume to be God’s blood, but it looks different…it’s not the vibrant silver I’ve seen the few times I’ve witnessed a God bleed. It’s darker, almost a gunmetal colour. It’s as if the mingling with human DNA, the process of abstracting it or maybe the thousands of years of being separated from the source has diluted its potency or warped it in some way.“It took me a year to syphon this much God’s blood. It is a long, tedious process made worse by the fact that I’m only able to syphon insignificant amounts from my subjects. But I’m patient, and with enough time an
Invidia regains my attention by clapping her hands together. I open my eyes to see her face cast upwards and a bright smile on her face. “I can’t believe I’m the first person in history to catch a raitruum!”I feel disgust rippling over my body like centipedes crawling under my skin. I would give anything to strike her down and claw her eyes out with my talons, but I’m too weak. She’s made that painfully clear. I accept that I won’t get my climactic moment where I rise like a phoenix from the ashes and make her regret having ever met me, but that doesn’t matter. I don’t need my ego inflated, I need a rescue, and I know just the person to call.I call through our link, but quickly all I sense is static on the other end. I call out again, trying to summon what I can to push through, but no matter how much I call he doesn’t hear me.On the extremely rare occasion my brother has a block up, it feels more like hitting a wall with a giant ‘do not disturb’ sign on it, but this is different.
Burning, scolding pain shooting through my ankle has my senses returning with a vengeance as a scream of agony tears its way through my throat. I gasp for air, the unexpected physical pain compounding with my mental and spiritual fatigue to create a brand new kind of torture.I try to move my arms, but something around my wrists weighs them down. As I pant, I force myself to focus past the blur of my vision, and slowly, Invidia’s familiar frame comes into view. She’s squatting in front of me, her bone-white hair tied up in a short pony, the strands too short to be contained by the hair elastic framing her face. The only thing illuminating my stoney prison are two sconces holding a single flickering candle on opposite walls. The light around me is dim at best, making Invidia’s toasted brown skin appear darker in complexion, while giving her hair a ghostly veneer.Willing myself to focus a bit more, I see her gazing at something in her hand, her expression seeming impressed. I glance at
As if the growing void sucking the life from my fatigued body wasn’t bad enough, I get to add crippling guilt to my list of woes. Every day Ayawamat is at my side, tending to me and trying to uplift me. Instead of living, he’s wasting his time watching me waste away. Every second that passes, I try to fight off the emptiness. I try to cling to the broken shards of my shattered essram hoping I’m strong enough to survive this. If not for me, then for my brother. If I die…he’d be all alone. That thought pains me almost as much as the aftermath of rejection.There are moments where I feel myself being sucked into oblivion, the frigid nothingness taking hold and refusing to let go, and just I find myself surrendering to it, I feel this charge from deep within. I can’t explain it, but it's like an electric paddle to the soul. It doesn’t last, but when it strikes; for the briefest moment I feel the warrior in me resurge, her voice strong and commanding, telling me not to give up and that I c
I’ve lived fifty per cent of my entire existence in the body of a human, with all of the weaknesses that come with it, but this is the first time I’ve ever felt helpless.It’s been almost a week and there has barely been any improvement in Orenda’s condition. I’d say she’s clinging to life, but that would imply she’s trying and I’m not so sure that she is. Every day I tend to her. I brush her hair, keep her company, and I try to keep her fed. Soups and broths are the only thing she can get down, but at least it’s something. She speaks the occasional word every now and then, but they take so much out of her that I encourage her not to speak and keep her strength. She’s able to communicate much better telepathically, so she mostly responds that way. While I miss hearing the sound of her voice, I’ll take any form of communication she can manage; it’s a sign she’s still with me and hasn’t given up yet.I put the empty bowl of broth down on her nightstand and gingerly dab some of the beefy
A thunderous, harrowing roar bursts from my lungs as I throw my right hand out like the strike of a hammer, an intense bolt of purple lightning discharging from my hand and striking through the interior of my home, obliterating everything in its path. I stare at the resulting destruction, my chest heaving and sweat forming on my skin as I remain unburdened from the cataclysmic agony tearing its way through me. I pant, my lungs feeling constricted as if air cannot reach them as a current of purple electricity moves across my flesh. With a strained roar, I throw out my left hand, hurling another bolt of purple lightning through my interior, watching it obliterate everything it touches, but still, I feel no better.Feeling drained, I collapse against the banister, the flimsy material breaking under my weight and making me fall to the floor. I move onto all fours, my fingers tearing through the floorboards like butter as the wood triturates in my palms as I clench my fists. Every cell in