Writing a story where you use it as a way of processing your own pain and trauma, means when you make your characters suffer, it hurts you even more, but there is catharsis in the process.
I’m staring down the two wolves in front of me. Blaise – Vitali’s wolf – is crouched in front of me to the right, and Angel – Tyson’s wolf – is crouched to the left. Axel and I are trying to coordinate our attacks better. I’m the extra set of eyes, assessing the situation and looking for the best attacks while Axel fights. We’ve always been a team, but right now we’re trying harder than ever to be the best team we can be. Blaise is 5’9”, with light grey fur and a dark grey tail. Angel is 5’7”, with a mix of white and brown fur. Blaise launches himself at Axel going for his right flank, while Angel rushes to the side going for Axel’s left hind leg. Axel quickly shifts positions spinning around, aiming for Angel’s jugular while directing a strong kick with his hind legs at Blaise. Angel manages to dodge Axel’s bite, but Blaise gets a solid kick to the face and stumbles back. The two wolves circle us, looking for the best position to attack. Axel is focusing on Angel and I’m focusing on
It happened so fast, but as soon as I saw the blisters I knew exactly what was happening. It wasn’t too long ago something like this happened to me, only I could see with Chris this was much, much worse. His pain was getting worse to the point he began throwing up. Even when my pack was under attack I never felt this helpless. Someone abducted and is now assaulting my friend and my other friend is suffering along with her. We’re surrounding Chris, but there’s nothing we can do to help him, all we can do is watch him suffer and I hate it, I hate it with every fibre of my being. “Step aside!” Exclaims Aulen. Vitali and Tyson move out of the way as Aulen kneels by Chris’ head and places her hands on either side of his head. A purple glow forms around her hands as her eyes turn to black abysses with silver pupils and within a moment Chris is unconscious. “What did you do to him?” Tyson asks warily. “Knocked him out. It was the only way to stop the pain. I can’t block the bond, but I c
Where am I? I swear just a moment ago I was on the training ground feeling like I was dying because… Oh Gods, Mei. The pain I felt was someone… someone was… I clutch my chest unable to say the words. My love… someone touched her; violated her because I wasn’t there to protect her. I thought the pain I was feeling from her absence was agony but this… there are no words for this. I need to get to Mei, but I have no idea where I am or how I got here. 'I do,' I hear Axel say as something presses against my back. I turn around and nearly jump out of my skin. Standing in front of me at 6’1” with black and brown fur is none other than my wolf Axel, but how is this even possible? “Axel, is that you?” I ask in astonishment. He nods his head, 'In the flesh, so to speak,' he says in my mind. 'I don’t understand, what’s going on?' I ask in confusion. 'Stop for a second and clear your mind. Tell me what you feel.' I follow his instructions, closing my eyes and calming my thoughts. Once eve
I was pulled from a rare and happy dream – one where I was safe and loved – back into a nightmare that won’t seem to end. In the real world, I’m not safe, instead, I’m beaten and bruised and the person who loves me is gone. But if he was here would he even want me back now that I’m tainted? I feel dirty and disgusting; used and abused. How could Chris ever want to be with me now? Knowing what I let happen. How could I ever look into his hazel-green eyes knowing the betrayal he must have felt? Maybe he’ll only come to find me so he can reject me. I wouldn’t blame him. Opening my eyes I take in the room around me. It’s small but cosy, and the bed feels very luxurious. Wait, who put me in it this bed? I quickly sit up as the room starts to spin, my breath comes in hard and fast and yet I don’t feel like I’m getting any air at all. I can’t breathe. I clutch my chest as the ache inside it only increases. Someone suddenly rushes into the room and on instinct, I back up into the corner t
Jianyu guides me through the packhouse and with each step I take, more memories become clearer in my mind. I can remember running through these corridors as a child. Running with Jianyu and the other kids. We would play hide and seek, and I was always the best at seeking because I had better senses than them. The packhouse hasn’t changed a bit, at least not in appearance, but the atmosphere has changed. It used to feel warm and welcoming and now it feels sad and desolate. “How long have you been Alpha?” I ask, wanting something to focus on. “Five years now.” I’m confused. I don’t remember Jianyu being that much older than me, I thought Alphas take over at twenty-one like Amelia had. “How old are you?” I ask, trying to figure this puzzle out. “Twenty-two. Will be twenty-three in a couple of months. I know what you’re thinking and you’re not wrong. I took over as Alpha when I was eighteen as soon as I found my animai. You met her earlier, my Luna, Yan,” he says as he gets a dreamy
I’ve just busted through my third boxing bag. I wasn’t exactly keeping it together before, but I am man enough to admit I’m a thousand times worse now. I finally felt our bond again, and more than that, I was able to link Mei. I know she heard me because I was pushing into her mind and could hear her thoughts and they shattered my heart into little, tiny pieces. I could feel her having a panic attack – the worst one to date – and I was doing my best to calm and coach her from where I was. I felt her relief and happiness when she heard my voice, but it didn’t last long. Her panic only seemed to escalate and soon she was drowning in guilt and shame and then for the first time since we marked each other, she shut me out. Axel was in shock and hasn’t spoken a word since. I admit it hurt; it hurt really fucking badly. To be cut off from her for so long only to have her choose to be cut off, it’s an unbearable feeling. That being said, I know why she did it and that just stings the open b
Arthwin was the last to enter so he could close the portal from our side, but I was paying very little attention to him, my eyes were completed focused on our new surroundings. Despite this being my first time here, the sense of familiarity is strong. As I glance around I am instantly reminded of Mei’s dream. That little home she lived in was clearly here at the Tian Pack and I have to admit this pack is a wondrous sight.The entire Tian Pack is built on top of a vast lake. Everywhere you look there are stone paths and stone bridges and buildings sitting on the water. Numerous stairs descend into the water itself and small boats float on the water’s surface. Lily pads and baby pink water lilies float delicately along the water, and the strong scent of plum blossom hangs in the air, but not the same as Mei’s.Beautiful Chinese buildings with turquoise roofs, red wood and gold detailing make up this entire floating metropolis and every structure is surrounded by the most luscious plum b
No one attempts to stop me as I sprint into the packhouse at top speed, following the pull of my bond to Mei. I’m weaving around people, twisting, and turning down corridors and up numerous stairs; the pull getting stronger the further I go. Soon Mei’s sweet, fruity yet floral, plum blossom scent is invading my senses in a heady caress, and I know I’m close. I stop in front of a large door and every cell in my body is screaming that Mei is on the other side of the door. Axel can’t contain himself, and neither can I, but with great effort, I will myself to calm down. I can feel and scent her just on the other side, I can hear her breathing and her heartbeat picking up speed, and I have to tap down my instinct to slam the door open and take her in my arms. I take in a long deep breath and gently knock on the door. I’ve never been so nervous in my whole entire life. “Mei, it’s Chris, please let me in.” My voice is so shaky it’s bordering on a stutter. I hear her heart kick up a gear, b
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“Mei?” I hear Eric ask. I zone back into the conversation; I really need to learn how to stop doing that. “Sorry, Eric,” I say sheepishly. “It’s okay,” he assures me with a kind smile, “Now that I have your attention again, there’s something I wanted to ask you in today’s session.” “What’s that?” I ask curiously. “In the past couple months you’ve interacted with Irshiusts on numerous occasions, but you haven’t once thought to ask them what became of the Alpha and Luna of Albus Mons.” “That’s not a question,” I point out. “You’re right,” he smiles, “I’m just wondering why.” “Because I don’t want to. It’s not something I ever think about. They were brought to justice and can’t hurt me or anyone else again, I don’t need to know more than that.” “Does that mean you’ve forgiven them?” I feel taken aback by his question. Forgiven them? How can anyone who has done such monstrous things be forgiven? “Why would I do that?” I ask warily. “Forgiveness isn’t about the other person; it’s
I take a deep breath as I eye my target. Everything is resting on what happens next. One wrong move and it’s all over for me but I’m not about to let that happen. I’ve come too far to lose now. I watch as the puck glides quickly in my direction and with a quick flick of my wrist, I hit the mallet at the puck sending it across the table where it shoots right into the gap at the end of the table. I throw my arms up in victory and dance around. “Oh, come on!” Vitali exclaims, “There’s no way you’ve never played air hockey before. You’re a devious snake and I think you’re hustling me,” he accuses, pointing a finger at me. “What does hustling mean?” I ask, stopping my dance to look at him curiously. “It means he’s a sore loser,” Amelia teases from the couch where she and Marcus are cuddling. “I am not a sore loser, I just find it hard to believe that someone who claims to have never played air hockey has beaten every single one of us,” he says, narrowing his eyes at me. “I swear I’ve n
There hasn’t been a dull moment since the coronation. Aulen returned and put up a permanent portal between Longsang and Invictus. Mei requested it be placed in a specific room in the palace so that it would be easy to find and prevent anyone from stumbling upon it by accident. My sweet, little Empress is a genius. Amelia followed her lead and requested the other side of the portal open inside the Temple of Morrtemis, again so no one would accidentally find it. Within days of the coronation, several members of the den packed up their belongings and came to live at Invictus. Their new homes aren’t ready yet so in the meantime, they’re staying in the guest house. Mei and I have been helping them to integrate into the pack. Some pack members – the troublemakers and the old-fashioned people – weren’t as welcoming to our new members, but they’re smart enough to keep their mouths shut. The rest of the pack, however, welcomed the nagata with open arms and have been helping them assimilate, es
After the ceremony, everyone gathered outside and what I saw was like I was seeing colours for the first time. More red lanterns hung from strings reaching from tree to tree and as the sun set they cast a soft red glow over everyone. There were performances, music, and plenty of food to go around. Everyone was together celebrating what just happened and if that wasn’t enough to make me happy, getting to see more of my Chinese heritage in action, was. For fourteen years I never even dared to dream I’d experience a day like this one, and yet now it kind of feels like a dream. A beautiful dream that I never want to wake up from. Logic tells me fate brought me here, it wasn’t an easy journey, and it wasn’t one I wish on anyone else, but boy does getting here feel worth it.I’m sure that sounds crazy. Who could ever feel the horrors I’ve lived through are worth it? But the truth is, those horrors allow me to appreciate all of this so much more. Joy, pleasure, love; I treasure and feel thes
Watching Mei take her oath standing before me looking like a Goddess has me captivated. I hoped and prayed every day and night since we met that she would find her strength and become who she was meant to be. I never knew this was what the future had in store for her, but watching it happen before my eyes, it feels right and as I feel the pride radiating off her, I’m filled with pride for her.I force myself to focus back on Qiang as he begins to address the crowd one more time.“Today is a day of many firsts, for today we not only welcome our new Empress who is the first of her kind, but we welcome our new Emperor, the first mutolupus to govern over our people. To those who may disagree with this, I remind you of our most sacred beliefs. The bond between soulmates is the purest gift of love and strength ever given to us by the Goddess Zarseti. It is through our soulmate we find peace, wholeness, and a pillar for life. The Gods have chosen this man to be not only the pillar for our Em
I can’t believe this is really happening. I’ve spent all day in Nuo’s bedroom as she helped me get ready for the ceremony. I’m used to the women back at Invictus helping me get ready for something, but those times took maybe an hour at the most. This, however, has been a day-long process, one I’m very grateful to have had Nuo’s help with. Looking at the final result, I no longer recognise myself.My creamy skin is glowing and luminescent from the makeup she did, shaping and accentuating the shape of my eyes while giving them a small cat eye and a dusting of gold on the lids to match the gold lipstick on my lips. My hair has been pulled up and styled into I guess what looks like several buns elegantly tied together and golden clips pinned throughout. I don’t have pierced ears so finding earrings was tricky, but she managed to find a beautiful pair of gold chandelier clip-on earrings, but all of that is nothing compared to the stunning gold embroidered hanfu I’m wearing. The inner layer
It’s one week till the coronation and things have been hectic as hell, although Mei seems to be thriving. She’s embracing her new role with gusto and watching it is inspirational. She’s been working closely with Nuo, who is overseeing the entire ceremony. She’s organised the decorations and what we’ll be wearing and teaching Mei and myself the words and customs of the ceremony. It’s a lot more than what I experienced for my Delta ascension and to be honest, I’m getting excited and to top it off it’s a crash course in Mandarin. I’m also anxious as hell, but I think it would be weird if I wasn’t. In between learning the words for the ceremony and the ceremony itself I’ve been juggling the fittings for what I’ll be wearing and doing a lot of finance work not just for Invictus but Longsang as well. The people of Longsang know how to be self-sustaining but so much there has been left in squaller because of their selfish prick of an Emperor. Oh sure, he had no issues with buying jets and ex
We had lunch with Qiang and Nuo and then they took us around showing us more of Longsang. Seeing this place as a guest instead of a prisoner helps me to appreciate it more. Longsang is a truly breathtaking place, even Chris was in awe as we walked around. It did give Chris and me a chance to see what changes need to be made. The school here looks like no one has cared about it in years, which makes me sad. It hurts to think there are children here growing up without an education just like I did. The medical centre has definitely seen better days. Everyone’s homes are in good condition because they take care of them themselves, but anything that involves community or public wellbeing has been horribly neglected. When I think I’ve learned all there is to know about Zixin’s cruelty I learn something new that devastates me. Nuo, however, told me that my mother loved the school and actually was one of the teachers. Hearing this has made me even more determined to fix this place up and turn