BLAKE I am so exhausted of all the mixed signals that I am getting from Nate, one minute he acts like he wants me and the next minute, he acts like he doesn't... He practically begged me to stay at his place because he was worried about my health and he said he wanted to make sure that I am okay before he let's me go.Then he discovered that I was getting sick because I was finally going to transform and then he helped me through the process. Yes I was in immense pain but I didn't miss how worried he was, it's very obvious that he cares about me but he keeps pretending and I don't know why.He unexpectedly gave me my first kiss and then he disappeared on me, I don't get it. Why is it so difficult for him to accept that he is in love with me? I asked for three months and it worked but last night, he still asked space and more time. "He is driving me crazy." He asked me to give him space and then he went ahead to fight for me today.He transformed into his wolf form out of the blue and
ALPHA NATE "Come in." I called and Blake stepped in. "Hell no." I cursed when I saw him, what the fuck is he doing here when I just saw him a few minutes ago."Why are you here Blake, what do you want?" I asked curiously because this is exactly what I have been avoiding, I asked for space and he claimed he understood but he keeps showing up anytime he feels like it.He stared at me with a confused look, I mean I know I am being unnecessarily harsh on him especially because he just risked his life to defend me which was bold of him. Unnecessary because we all know I can fight my battles myself but it was a confident move and he was cute but the issue is that we had an agreement and he went against it."Ummm, are you upset with me?" He asked curiously as I made my way to the living room."Shouldn't I be?" "No, I don't think so. Why will you be upset with me, what did I do?" He asked as he joined me in the living room."That's the issue, you don't seem to understand that this is a big
ALPHA NATE Where I really need to go right now is to go and see Raphael but Jake said Frank and Oliver wants to see me, so I have to go to the office and by the time I will be done, it will be too late to go and see Raphael, I don't want a repeat of what happened the last time I visited him. I need to go as early as possible because I have a lot of shit he needs to help me with... I can as well just go ahead and reject him so that everybody can finally rest but it feels like an impossible task to do.It doesn't feel right and even if it's right, I can't seem to hurt him like that. My wolf gets so crazy when he is in pain, like today when Benjamin wanted him dead, like a few minutes ago when he was crying and like the day he had his first transformation, so I can't afford to hurt him intentionally, I don't think I will be able to leave with myself if I do."Maybe Blake is right, maybe I am in love with him." I said just as I entered my office. "Or maybe the moon goddess is just messi
ALPHA NATE I practically didn't sleep all night, with the issue of the broken fence, theft from the clinic and the emotional rollercoaster with Blake, there was no way I could keep my eyes shut even for an hour. My mind is on constant overdrive and I keep thinking of how to take care of all the issues at hand.With what has been happening in the pack without my knowledge, I am beginning to wonder if it's now a question of what to prioritize, my feelings or the pack because it's obvious that I am not handling the both of them right.I got out of bed even though my whole body and soul is yearning for me to go back to sleep. "I need help and I need it now." I said as I made my way to the bathroom to shower. At this point, my head will explode if I don't get some form of help or advise. "I can't take it anymore." I showered quickly with cold water, hopefully it will cool my overheating head down.I stepped out of the bathroom, I was about dressing up when I remembered that Raphael's pack
ALPHA NATE "Hehehe, are you kidding. That's fucking good, gosh I am so happy for you man. Wow that's good news, why do you need to be so dramatic about everything. Moon goddess thank you, finally." He said excitedly while laughing in between. "For a minute there you scared me, I thought you were going to say something terrible happened. Do you know for how long I have been hoping and praying for you to find your mate? Wow, this is fucking awesome, we should celebrate." He said as he poured us more drinks.He tried to make a toast with me but when he realized that I didn't make any move, he realized that something was wrong. "Wait, you found your mate and it's not good news?" He asked curiously."Let me guess, you don't like her because she's not as sexy as you hoped for, she doesn't have massive ass and boobs?" He asked curiously.I wish that was the problem because then it could have been easily fixed, you know with a surgery or any related methods but In this case, how do I fix him
ALPHA NATE "I don't understand, what do you mean by you can't reject him? You just said that you are not in love with him, so the best thing to do is to reject him or what's the plan here?" He asked curiously but I don't know. "Look man, you have to tell me what the real issue is else I can't really help you, what's going on?" He asked curiously.I came here for his help and he is my best friend, so I shouldn't hide anything from him, it's ridiculous even as I am thinking about it and I know saying it out loud will even be worse but it has to be done."Ummm, he went through a transformation process recently and for some reasons, I just wanted to be there with him and help him lessen his pain, so I took him to the sex dungeon and I was there with him through out the process. It hurts so much to see him in so much pain, my wolf was a mess and when he finally transformed, he was the cutest and the most beautiful wolf I have ever seen." I said and smiled when I pictured his wolf again in
ALPHA NATE "Relax, I have another drink." He said as he brought out another bottle of whiskey. "What do you mean by it's a disaster, I thought you said he is special?" Raphael asked curiously but the issue at hand has nothing to do with the fact that he is special.I poured myself another drink and I chugged it down again. "Have you forgotten what I had to do to you when you told me about your mate? What will I do with Blake, how will I keep him safe and what will I do when people eventually finds out that he is my mate or do you think I can hide him forever?" I asked curiously because even if there is a possibility that I can hide him forever, I still don't want that. He doesn't deserve to be kept a secret, I want to show him off, I want him to be happy and free but there is no way all of that can happen with the law we have against gays."Well you are the Alpha of the pack and it's your call, your father made the law while he was the Alpha, so maybe it's time for you to make your o
ALPHA NATE "It doesn't matter bro, I am not blaming you for anything, I just want to make sure that you do the right thing moving forward, don't run away from your problem anymore." He advised but I still feel very guilty."Thanks for your understanding and all your advice and suggestions, I have been looking for when I will have this conversation and it was totally worth it, I feel much better and for the first time in a long time, I actually know what to do and how to go about it. You have no idea how much of a burden this whole Blake issue has been, couple with the pack issues, I have been a complete mess." I pointed out."Well thank goodness we were able to figure the issue out, but what's happening at the pack?" He asked curiously."Honestly man, I don't know. I realized that one part of the fence is broken but I don't know who did it and yesterday, I got a report that someone has been stealing from the clinic and I am thinking that it's the same person that broke the fence that
ALPHA NATEHe is a fucking rapist and a bully and he thinks the only problem here is that he came into my house? Has he forgotten the part where he attempted to rape Blake in my house and he would have probably succeeded if I didn’t come in when I did. From where I stand, he has a lot of explaining to do if he ever wants to get out of here alive. “First you invaded my privacy and then you wanted to rape Blake in it and you think the only issue I have with you is that you entered my sanctuary?” I asked curiously while staring him down. “You are joking right?”“I am very sorry, I don’t know what came over me. I just wanted to talk to him but he insulted me and I got mad, I am really sorry. I promise you that it will never happen again.” He said while crying profusely and it's really upsetting because I have not done anything to him yet, what will happen when I start punishing him.“I don’t doubt that, I am confident that it will never happen because you are not getting out of here. I w
ALPHA NATE After I was able to calm Blake down, we ate and I returned to the office. I need to find out who the person that broke the fence is and why he did it in the first place but most importantly, I have to deal with Travis for frustrating Blake in his former pack and for trying to rape him, what the hell? As soon as I got back to my office, I made a connection with jake…“Good afternoon, Alpha.” Jake greeted as soon as I connected with him.“Afternoon Jake, please come over to my office.” “Okay Alpha, I am on my way.” He said before I ended the connection. I turned on my laptop to watch the CCTV clip for when jake captured the criminal but to my surprise, the camera went blank around seven o’clock and it has been blank since then. I am guessing the person already tempered with the camera before he was caught and he didn’t get the opportunity to fix it back, whatever the case is, he will have to fix the mess he has created and he will definitely be punished.“Come in.” I said
ALPHA NATE There is nothing anyone can tell me, I can see the moon goddess hands all over this, knowing my father, he would never have given in so easily but he miraculously did, I honestly thought that we won't come to an agreement and I will have to enforce the new law without his consent, I feel so blessed that for once, we are both on the same page.Or maybe his decision has something to do with the fact that he already knew or suspected that I might be gay. "Am I even gay?" I asked curiously as I made my way home. "It doesn't even matter." What matters is that I can now do the right thing... I am so happy that everything went better than I planned it.As soon as I got home, I didn't even bother to knock. I decided to surprise Blake with my presence and also with the good news but as I stepped in, I was the one that surprised myself.Everything I was holding fell to the ground as soon as I saw the scene in front me me, Blake was pinned against the wall while another guy was kissi
ALPHA NATE I smiled at her because I feel better knowing that she's on my side and she will intervene when the going gets tough. "Morning mom." I greeted as I stepped in and gave her a hug."How are you baby? Does that mean that everything went well with the questionnaire yesterday?" She asked curiously while whispering the questionnaire part. I remember telling her that I will I later show up here today if everything works out as planned with the survey, so I am guessing that's why she brought it up."Yes mom, it did. We had just seventeen people refusing, the rest of the pack members are on board." I whispered to her."That's very good, I am happy. Let's go and face him." She said as she led the way. I am so glad that I have a support system to do this with me, I am still tensed and anxious but I am a little hopeful that things will work out eventually because let's face it, it's obvious that my father is outnumbered, more than half of the pack members are against him, so he has no
ALPHA NATE "You are looking for Blake here?" I asked curiously while staring at her like she has grown two heads."Yes, he is needed urgently at home." She added and the fact that she's been confident about the fact that he is here beats my imagination."Are you okay, do you need help?" I asked curiously. "Because what gave the the impression that Blake his here to begin with?" I asked her, I am actually curious."Well he doesn't spend much time at home anymore and he mentioned that he was here one time, so I just assumed that he is here again." She pointed out and now that I know she's not exactly sure that he is here, I can now deny it because I don't want anyone to know about us until I am ready to announce him to the pack."First of all, it's late so why the fuck will he be here and the few times he was here was in the morning to train, so get the fuck out of here and go look for him elsewhere, don't come here next time." I said pointedly. "What will he be doing at my place by th
ALPHA NATE "First phase has been completed, tomorrow I will go again." Although tomorrow will be more difficult than this but I am going to celebrate my little victory. Although I am baffled that a whole seventeen people thinks like my father, it's obvious that they will be a problem.I have a feeling that the seventeen people are probably the elderly people in the pack, maybe I should have included names so that I can know the exact people to watch out for but it's all good.I am particularly excited because I can bring Raphael back and any other person that feels like it, out of the thirty five people that said yes yesterday to the lift, only five of them said no to bringing the banished people back like Jake which is okay by me. I am not going to force all of them to return, it's not like I know where to find them but if there is a pack member communicating with them like I am doing with Raphael, they can ask them to return when the time comes."Wow, I need to go home and celebrat
ALPHA NATE I mean it's not like I don't want to tell her, I mean I know that she's very open minded and she's not homophobic like my father but this is different, I am her son, what if she's not okay with me dating Blake. It's one thing to not care about gays but it's another thing entirely to find out that your son is also gay, I really don't want to disappoint her but there is really nothing I can do. The moon goddess chose him for me, so I guess I can't keep hiding it from her because she will find out eventually and I think it will be better if she finds out from me."Yeah, you are right. There is more to this, I found my mate three months ago." I blurted out."Oh my goodness, I am so happy for you but why didn't you say anything, why am I just hearing this?" She asked curiously as she came over to my side to give me a hug."Well I found my mate the same day I banished Raphael and I was so confused, infact up until recently, I was convinced that the moon goddess was trying to pun
ALPHA NATE "I just feel like it's better we leave the past in the past, they already left the pack and their way of life is certainly different, besides most of them might still be very upset about the way we treated them and bringing them back is like bringing back trouble because there is no guarantee that they won't seek for revenge or cause any form of trouble, they might decide to be rebellious. So I think if it's possible to change what happens in the future then that's fine but there is really no need bringing them back." He explained and I think he as a point, he is right.They were all sent out of the pack in a shameful banishing ceremony, so there is every chance that they will be defiant when they return just to prove a point and I honestly don't need that drama. I guess I will just leave the decision in the hands of the pack members, it's up to them."You are right but I guess the rest of the pack members will have to decide." I pointed out."Okay but can I ask why you ar
ALPHA NATE I woke up to Blake wiggling out of my hold again and I wonder if I am poking him again or something. "Oh sorry." I said when I looked down and I saw that I was poking him, I am always rock hard around him. I don't want to torment him especially because I know he is ready for me to have sex with him but I am not, maybe I shouldn't be holding him at night when we sleep."It's fine, good morning." He said while smiling at me and I pulled him closer and I planted a kiss on his lips.I got out of bed after giving him a kiss and I made my way to the bathroom, I have to go to the office early today because I have something to handle... Before I went to bed last night, I decided that it will be wise for me to go to my father with proof of why taking down the gay ban law is the best thing to do and to do that, I need to actually know how the pack members feel about it, so I will use today to gather the informations and then I will determine if I should bother talking to my father a