Kalia. "How is he?" I asked the nurse while waiting to see my father.Staying in the house after everyone left for the memorial felt lonely for me. I needed to do something to keep myself busy, so I went to visit my father in the hospital. "He has been asking about you alot." the nurse said opening up some sort of file, "Come on, I will take you to him. He is awake."I followed her closely, part of me dreading seeing my father. Mostly because I knew he wanted to hear about where I was with the plan, and I had not yet done anything really since the wedding. "There is my daughter." he said, his eyes lighting up as he saw me walk into his room."Hey dad.""You too good for your old man now?""Ofcourse not dad," I said cheekily as I sat beside him, I took his hands in mine, "How are you feeling?""Not as great as I would like, but she is taking good care of me." he said referring to the nurse who was now checking his vitals.My father had recently been diagnosed with stage liver cirrhos
"I feel like this is all my fault," I said tears freely falling down my eyes, "I should have kept my mouth shut like I promised. None of this would be happening. You wouldn't be in a hospital fighting for your life. Our family wouldn't be in shambles and broke." i said in tears. "I wish I could take it all back.""Hey, hey baby," my dad said touching my hand softly, "It's not your fault and it was wrong of your mom to ask you to live with that secret. You were a child.""But I tore us apart, mom left you.""Your mother had her own problems Kalia, eventually she would have left. It had nothing with you. And my drinking is not your fault at all and I don't want you to blame yourself. None of this is your fault."We sat there in silence, with us holding hands. It was my first day back in school, we went home early. I rushed home and there she was on the couch with the same man, they were naked, I wish I could erase that memory off my mind. I remember how shocked she looked, but she wasn
Jake. Naima had been a mess all day today, I really could not blame her. She was hurting just like I was hurting. Whoever says it gets better has clearly never gone through grief. It had been two years and everything was still fresh. And everyday I think about all the situations that ended up to losing my daughter. I looked over at Naima again, in tears. She was the only person in the world that understood exactly what I was going through. I walked over to her, but the moment she saw me her whole demeanor changed."Please Naima, not today. I don't have the energy to fight you." i said truthfully.I knew she needed for me to be the bad guy, today so she would atleast feel better, but I did not have it in me. I pulled her into my arms, but she was punching me, screaming at me. " It's all your fault. It's your fault my little girl is gone.""You know what Naima, i can't." i said as I started to walk away."Yes, just walk away, go." she yelled at me, still screaming.But I did not
Kalia. I sat in the quiet, sterile atmosphere of the doctor's office waiting for the nurse to finish finalizing sat in the quiet, sterile atmosphere of the doctor’s office, waiting for the nurse to finish up Jake's discharge papers. The sound of her typing was kind of therapeutic, soothing even. I had no idea what I was doing, but maybe this could work in my favor. If Jake didn't remember me or the things I did, Maybe we could cohabitate better. He had been in the hospital for a week now, he had almost fully recovered apart from the memory loss but he was going to use a wheel chair for a few more days. With his memories gone, he had been surprisingly pleasant, I had been by his side every day helping feed him, change him and even spend some time with him. I felt him move and turned to look at him, he was sleeping there so peacefully, like a baby. I took his hand in mine, feeling the warmth of his skin, in that mom grateful that things hadn't been worse than now. The nurse hand
Kalia. The ride back home was silent, we said Atlest ten words to each other the whole way home. I didn't know what to say to him and I guess he had no idea what to say to me either. I was so glad when we finally got back to the house, I could breathe again. "I will go get your room ready." i said as soon as we were both out of the car. His driver and his security were already handling his bags and bringing him back into the house."I thought you said we are married." he said randomly catching me offguard and I looked at him confused wondering what he was hintint at. "Aren't we supposed to sleep in tje same bed?" he went on."Ofcourse.""You said you were going to prepare my room, like we slept in different rooms. Were we fighting before all this?" he asked now looking at his security and driver for further clarification."Ofcourse not, we had just gotten married." i chipped in before anyone started talking, "I just didn't know if you will be okay sharing a room, I am technically a
Kalia. It had been a few hours since I ran out of the bedroom. It was now past eleven pm at night. I had made sure Jake was fed and by now I was sure he would be dead asleep.I quietly creeped back into our room, the lights completely turned off, careful not to trip on anything and wake him up.I had already taken a shower and changed into my pajamas in the bedroom that had been previously assigned to me. If it was up to me I would have slept there too, but I needed to be in the same room as him just incase anything happened. I was about to sit down on the bed when the lights suddenly turned on. "I figured at some point you were going to come back." Jake said, he was not on the bed, he was sitted on the couch across from the bed."You should not be up." i said surprised, "You scared me to death.""Well, I'm sorry I didn't really mean to scare you.""Why are you still up, I thought you would be asleep by now.""I thought I wait up for you, see how long you intended to avoid me.""I
Kalia. I woke up to the soft glow of sunlight coming in from the open sheers. I sat up still everything a little fuzzy looking around. The other side of the bed was empty. It was all coming back to me, how last night went down. I quickly lifted up the blanket to check if anything happened and my pajama shorts were still very much intact. It had been a while since I had slept like that, so peacefully. I was about to get out of bed, getting the covers off me as I yawned, a little tired. Maybe I needed to sleep a few more hours. "I wouldn't do that if I were you." His voice said from the door way, with a full tray of grapes, coffee, juice some eggs and bacon. "You made me breakfast?" I said all smiles and in shock too, "I didn't even know you could cook." "I can't," he said with a big grin in his face as he set up the tray on bed, "I had Maria make app your breakfast favorites.""Well,its the thought that counts." i said smiling up at him as he leaned over to kiss me. "Mmmmh, I c
Kalia. After the altercation with Naima, our breakfast in bed was now ruined there was no way we were going to go back. "I am so sorry about her." Jake said apologetically, he seemed genuinely sorry. But it wasn't really his fault. "It's okay, you had no idea she was coming." i said walking over to him, he was sifted on the bed. I sat on his laps with my hands around his shoulders. "If I had my memories back, all this would not be happening you know." "Hey," I said touching his face softly, "don't beat yourself up about it.""But I will make sure she never steps foot here again." he said getting angry again. I was partly relieved, with Naima completely gone my secret was safe. But the tensions in the room was still there, the air was suddenly too thick. It didn’t help that I felt Jake's hard on. I liked the fact that his body reacted in that way towards me and my touch but he did not seem so thrilled. He quickly got me off his laps. "I have to go." he said getting up, his voi