Selena
He gritted his teeth angrily and his fist was clenched so tightly by his side that it was obvious he was trying to hold himself back from hitting me. Regardless of how Lucian treated me, he knew better than to lay a finger on me. My pack was a like a backbone to his pack and if my father got upset and pulled back his support, things could change for the worse. No matter how hard he tried to pretend like that wasn’t a fact, he knew it deep down and acted accordingly. He stared at me in silence for a few seconds before he reached out to grab my neck but I was quick to step away from his reach. “How dare you!” He growled in anger as his brows furrowed, he was so angry that his eyes shifted from their original form to his wolf’s blue ones, “so just because I have been away for a while you’ve grown wings.” “This isn’t about growing wings Lucian, this is about respecting my boundaries as much as I respect yours.” I shot back with confidence. I had no idea where my confidence was coming from, maybe it was because I knew Logan was behind me and he would never let Lucian hurt me or maybe it was because I have had enough of his affection towards Cindy. It drove me insane and broke me in ways I never thought was possible. “She is just a damn maid Selena and she had dared to disrespect my mate and the Luna of this pack, I would put her in her place and punish her whenever I damn well please because I am the Alpha of this pack.” He yelled at me as he turned and made his way towards the maid who was still cowering close to the bed. I stepped in front of him and shoved him back with the strength of my wolf and being a Luna, my wolf’s strength was enough to stop an Alpha like him. “And who is she? If she is just a maid then who is she?” I yelled back at him as I pointed at Cindy, “she is just a mistress to you Lucian and my maid is not entitled to give her the respect that you’re demanding for.” “Selena,” he snapped, “do not forget that I am still the Alpha of this pack.” “Then do not forget that I am also still the Luna of this pack regardless of your mistress’s presence.” I clapped back and he stared at me with his mouth hung open slightly, in shock. He had not expected me to react like this, he had probably expected me to crawl into a corner and cry myself to death but that wasn’t me anymore. I was so done being the one always hung up on him and getting hurt when he didn’t show me affection. Logan was right, if he couldn’t see what we had then that was his loss not mine. He stared me down with such ferocity that should have forced me to whimper and step aside but I didn’t, I glared back at him in anger and soon enough, he backed down. “Help me pack up.” I said to the maid as I moved around the room, gathering my things into my bags and as soon as we were done, Logan, who had been watching everything in silence, helped the maid and I move the bags out of the room. The room was my room just as much as it was Lucian’s, we shared the same matrimonial space but when he stopped coming home, the room became mine but if his mistress was going to make a fuss about it, then she could have the room to herself. I wasn’t willing to fight over a room, I just wanted to ensure the people close to me like the maid I had grown to see as a sister, didn’t get caught up and hurt in the whole thing that was going on at that moment. It didn’t matter to me if she took the room or not. Deep down, I knew that was lie. The fact that Lucian had tried to give our matrimonial position to that woman drove the knife that was already wedged in my heart deeper and it left whatever was left of my heart in pieces. How could he do that to me? Has me hated me that much all these while? All these years with him and he had no affection for me whatsoever that he was willing to rub it in that he was mated to her, as if it wasn’t bad enough that she was carrying his baby. I moved to the empty room down the hall that hasn’t been used by anyone ever since I got married to Lucian so as soon as the maid was done helping us arrange the new place, she excused herself and returned to her other chores. “What you did back there for the maid was commendable Selena.” Logan suddenly spoke up when we were alone. “I didn’t do it so I could be commended.” “I know that, that’s why it’s commendable.” “It doesn’t matter if it’s commendable or not.” I shot back and he smiled. We finished up whatever was required to make the room suitable for me and to my surprise, he didn’t leave, instead, he bent down on one knee in front of me since I was seated on the couch and held my hand in his, gently. I was taken aback by this simple yet touching gesture of his. “He doesn’t deserve you Selena. Someone that would hurt you this much simply because of a woman he thinks he feels a mate bond with doesn’t deserve you.” He said and I cocked my head sideways to look at him. “And why do you think that?” “You’ve spent years of your life trying to achieve whatever you thought was best for this pack, I watched you Selena and I have never seen a woman as selfless as you are.” He paused and took a deep breath. “I respect you and your position enough to never want to see you get kicked out like some garbage or like someone that they no longer find useful, that was why I defended you with everything I could in that meeting with the council but one thing I must admit is that, I never want to see you unhappy, no matter the circumstances.” Unsure of what to say, I just listened to him without saying a single word. He took my silence as a sign of agreement and continued, “In as much as I never want you to leave Selena, if at any point at all, you stay here turns into torment and all you feel is pain, suffering and sadness then I would never stop you from leaving, in fact, I would support that decision. Any decision you make at the end of the day, I would always support it because I just want you to be happy.” For a few seconds, I let his words hang in the air between us while I reflect over everything he has said. I knew Logan cared about me, it was safe to say he cared more about me than Lucian did, he never forgot my birthday unlike Lucian and every single time, he always gave me a present while Lucian on the other hand, was never home. But he was wrong to think I wanted to leave, I would admit to being in pain but that wasn’t enough to make me leave because I wasn’t staying back for Lucian, I was staying back for something that mattered so much more to me than he ever would. For the one thing I had dedicated a lot of myself to. “I am staying for the pack, not for Lucian, I can’t bear to see my efforts getting ruined by a childish Alpha like him.” I responded and his eyes lit up with some sort of glow that I couldn’t comprehend. “And am I a part of the reason for your decision?” He asked and it took a couple of seconds for the real meaning behind his questions to sink in but as soon as it did, I looked up at him sharply. “Please tell me I am a part of it Selena, I have waited long enough to hear you say that.” He added and my eyes widened in surprise. I always knew Logan cared a little more than the others but I never thought he would be bold enough to hint at his feelings, especially not when Lucian was back home. Lucian was the Alpha and he was the beta, how could a beta love his Alpha’s Luna? It only meant one thing, death.Selena.“It doesn’t matter who I am staying for Logan. What matters is the pack.” I stated as I rose to my feet, knowing fully well that his attention was still on me.It was awkward and might have been embarrassing for him, but this wasn’t the time for me to start talking about another relationship with someone else. Lucian had hurt me badly enough. My life and marriage with him had inflicted a wound that was still wide open and hurting me so badly that I could barely think of another man.Logan wasn’t bad at all, but him and I wasn’t going to work out, not with everything going on. He deserved someone better.“Selena I didn’t mean to…” he began, but when I noticed the direction he was hinting at again, I decided to quickly change the topic entirely.“The recent attacks,” I blurted out, and he paused, “they have been becoming a bit of a situation these days. What do you suggest we do about it?” I inquired, and he sighed heavily in defeat.“Are you sure you want to talk about stuff li
Chapter Seven.Selena.“He is back.” Logan announced as he strolled into my study late that night. The study once belonged to Lucian, but after his return, he had ordered for another to be redesigned to suit his taste, and that was done.Not wanting to request another study, I decided to move into his old one and continue my task as the Luna, unbothered about what Lucian was up to.At least, until Logan started bringing me the details of what was going on.“Once again, he defeated the enemy’s army and has recovered more territories than the battalion we sent there ever did.” He added, and I sighed heavily as I dropped the document in my hands.“His success is my success, Logan. we are in the same pack, and I do not…”“Enough with the pretense Selena, I know how you feel and we both know that soon enough, the pack members and council members would not be able to deny him the right to do as he wishes when he tries to kick you out.” Logan replied, a hint of anger in his voice.I knew he
Selena.“Six years of marriage and still not a single child from Selena.” My mother in law Brinny snapped at me in front of the entire council, “a true Luna should know that without bringing forth an heir, she has failed her pack and her husband.”The entire room fell silent because they knew not to say a word to aggravate her whenever she started this conversation.“But how can she have a child when Lucian is away most of the time?” Katherine, my sister in law and favorite human in the pack house, tried to defend me, but her mother shut her up almost immediately.“Maybe if she found a way to make him stay back like a real wife should, maybe he wouldn’t have left. Maybe if she tried to capture his heart rather than focusing on matters that should be handled by the Alpha, she would have given us an heir by now.”Whispers and murmurs broke out among the council members who were mostly family of my husband, Lucian. I could tell from the look on their faces that they were panicking but un
Selena“Thank the goddess, finally an heir for my son.” Brinny cried out excitedly as she rushed over to the girl beside Lucian without even trying to confirm who she was and how she got pregnant.“You’ve done well Son,” she carressed Lucian softly before she turned to the girl and held her stomach, “this child is the future of this pack so from now on, everyone must accord you and this child with the respect you deserve.”“A true Luna indeed, unlike some barren ones that sit with their head so high up in the cloud that they can no longer get pregnant again,” she shot back at me.I remained rooted to my spot, staring right at Lucian without moving. Every single, hurtful word the Luna said didn’t get past me, and when I tried to move, I staggered and almost fell flat on my face if Logan had not helped me up.“Lucian…” I whispered his name softly as Logan helped me back down on the throne. Every single eye was now on me, I could tell they were all expecting a reaction from me while Brin
Selena“Step aside.” Lucian barked angrily at Logan, but Logan simply refused to budge. It was surprising that he could stand up against Lucian like that when he was the beta.“So mother was right after all, you’ve been whoring around with him and everyone else while I was gone right?” He glared at me above Logan’s shoulder.“How could you even think of hurting an unborn child? How evil can you be Selena? How much hatred can you have in your heart to be able to do that? All that negative energy is the reason your womb is still blocked.” He added angrily and reached out to hit me but Logan shoved him backwards.“That’s your Luna Lucian. Think before you act.” Logan growled but Lucian simply ignored him.“I didn’t do it, I didn’t ev-even touch her. I was about to leave when she fell on her own, why would you even think that I would be able to do that?” I asked, unable to stop the tears that was still rolling down my cheeks.The woman that caused all this commotion was still sprawled out
Selena“I guess it is settled then, Luna Selena stays.” Logan said as soon as he was done counting the number of hands that was raised. Out of all the twenty-four men on the table, twenty-one voted for me to leave, and twenty-three voted for me to stay. Lucian had only lost by one vote. “This doesn’t change anything. She must leave this house immediately.” Brinny snarled at me as she slammed her palm on the table, but I wasn’t even bothered by her reaction.“Staying doesn’t change how I see you, Selena. It would only make it worse. I would never see you as my Luna, and I promise to make your life a living hell until you walk out on your own two feet.” Lucian threatened while the pregnant woman beside him that I had heard him refer to as Cindy clung onto his arm with a grin on her face.Seeing them like that in front of me, tore at my heart, it made me ache with pain, but I took a deep breath and masked my emotions.“I am not afraid of you, Lucian, and I do not care what you decide