“...What’s her name?” I found myself asking politely, though I didn’t really feel present.
Truthfully, I didn’t feel much of anything. My body had gone completely numb, falling into autopilot responses as I struggled to come to terms with what Cai had just told me.
He found his mate.
But he was only nineteen. He shouldn’t have found her so soon.
‘Caius knight dies at the age of twenty-one with no Luna, mate or child’. That was the future for Cai I had known. Yet somehow this timeline had changed enough that he had met her earlier. It was a cruel slap in the face as reality reminded me, once more, that it would refuse to ever let me be happy. Even for just the few years I thought I might have had with him.
“Caitlyn,” he replied awkwardly. “She seems… nice. Sweet.”
‘Nice’? Really? That was the best he could say about the woman
“...What the fuck are you doing back here?” Aleric asked. He stood in my doorway, arms crossed, staring at me like I was insane. But I didn’t care. My mind was made up. There was no way I was going to have this conversation tonight. “No,” I answered flatly. “‘No’?” “No, I’m not doing this now,” I clarified. “I’m too tired. We can talk later.” I rolled onto my side, facing away from him, and pulled the blanket up over my shoulder. Maybe if I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep, he would just leave on his own accord. “Aria, you need to tell me what’s going on,” he pressed. “Joseph told me you came back over the border and I thought he was joking until I caught your scent by the stairs. Did something happen? Were you caught?” “No,” I mumbled, repeating myself once more. “Stop that. Regardless of how tired you are, this is more important. I need to know if something went wrong.” I groaned out in frustratio
'Was last night real?' I asked myself, staring up at the ceiling in bed. So many things had happened, so many truths had finally come out. ...And I felt… lighter. I’d woken up after deep sleep, unsure how long had passed, but my body had been grateful for the uninterrupted rest. Though a part of me was angry at myself for taking the risk of their reaction, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t happy with the outcome. Or I at least meant that in Aleric’s case. Cai… well, I had to believe that what I did was for the best. The fact that I wasn’t locked away in a hospital right now pending a psych evaluation meant that Aleric had actually believed me. It was something I’d been worried about the entire time I’d been back. I knew how insane it sounded when being told the first time. Some days even I still couldn’t believe it. I slowly got out of bed, my body still aching in several places, and got changed into some clothes. T
'...I could just ask her,' I thought to myself, staring in the mirror at my reflection.After that night, Aleric and I had agreed that we needed to come up with a plan on how to free myself from the collar… as well as remove Tytus as Alpha in the process. For obvious reasons, allowing him to proceed with marking me was out of the question, regardless of the terms Aleric and I were on now. And so we’d conceded that it was time. Time for Tytus to step down, allowing for proper change....But now that just left us with having to think of a way to actually achieve that.I’d spent hours already pouring over different ideas, but was mostly coming up empty. All of them either wouldn’t work or were morally questionable....Which was how it eventually led me to be staring at my reflection, contemplating something I normally never would have considered.To ask my former self for her help.The girl I hadn’t heard
“...Why Elder Luke?” Aleric asked me a few days later. We were in his car, driving towards the housing estate where the Elders resided. A place I hadn’t visited since my marking confirmation three years ago. “...Are you seriously asking me that?” “Well, it’s just he’s the least experienced Elder, right?” Aleric said. “Didn’t he join only a few years ago? Wouldn’t one of the other six Elders be better to reach out to since they’re more experienced?” “The fact you’re even asking me that means you mustn’t be overly familiar with how this pack is actually run yet,” I replied. “I know enough,” he said defensively, making me laugh. “Okay, okay, sorry… I’ll explain,” I said. “Have you ever noticed how all of the workload Tytus gives you consists of only very minor issues? Like petty problems that don’t need much thought?” “Yes but I’m not a fully sworn in ranked member yet. The larger issues would be looked after by Tytus and the Elde
“This is fake,” I said, coming off far more flustered than I intended. “There is no way there are people out there just running around with… with god powers. That’s… that’s so stupid.” It’s absurd. Insane. Some sort of joke. Because if it was real then that meant my life had been far more controlled than I initially realised. That there were powers at be far more advanced out there than just a Goddess mark. And it meant that Cai… I wanted to throw up. “Based on your reaction,” Elder Luke said, his eyes examining me, “I can’t help but wonder if this discovery isn’t actually all that foreign to you. Would I be correct in assuming that perhaps you have personal insight into the theory?” He was right. I was getting overly worked up because a part of me had already started piecing it together… and it scared me. The more I thought about it, the more plausible it became. Because, truthfully, there was something I wa
“Any pain, discomfort or nausea recently?” my mother asked me, taking notes as I laid on top of the examination table. We had been at this for a while now so I was sure we were nearing the end of the appointment already. “Other than living every day with silver burning my neck? No,” I answered. “And what has your diet been like? Are you eating properly?” “I’m probably not eating as much as I should be…,” I admitted. “Though my diet has consisted of healthy meals. Courtesy of the packhouse chefs, of course.” Her mouth creased into a thin line of disapproval but she wrote it down nevertheless. “Are you exercising and keeping fit? I know you’re no longer having to train for the Beta heir position but I hope you’ve at least been keeping active.” “Up until about two weeks ago, I wasn’t exercising, no,” I confessed. “Though, these last few weeks I’ve been in the gym every morning for a few hours. Aleric has been helping me get
Warm. It was so warm. Everything around me felt like it was burning, our skin already flushed enough from the training just prior. …And I wanted more. With one hand tangled through his dark hair, my other was tracing slowly down the front of his chest, feeling every muscle under my touch. And Goddess was it flawless. His body moulded against mine perfectly, as if it had been made to fit there. '…This is wrong,' a voice whispered inside. And yet that thought only seemed to excite me further. It felt a million times better than I thought it would, his mouth moving hungrily as it responded against mine. His lips softer than I would have ever imagined. '…Stop…' There was a sense of urgency, a sense of need as I clung to him, pressing myself up against him closer, desperately searching for as much contact as possible. '...You need to stop.' No, I r
“No…,” I whispered, the words choking out of my throat. Almost a whole day. I’d slept for almost a whole day. My vision hadn’t taken place just after sun*set*, it had been just before sun*rise*. And now an hour or so had already passed since then. I felt myself go completely numb, releasing Lucy’s hand from my grip. There was a crumbling beginning within me. Like I was falling… falling into an Abyss that was completely of my own making. One that was a hole I’d been desperately trying to swim away from these last four years, trying so goddamn hard to believe that there was still good in people. That even though I had been rejected, killed and abandoned by everyone around me, that there was still potential for people to do better. That I could do better. And now it seemed the final betrayal had embedded its dagger. The one I knew I wouldn’t ever survive. And, apparently, neither would my parents. '…There w