My co-members and I have successfully done it. We've passed the project and been graded the highest. I'm grateful for the universe it doesn't go against my wish for today. As I drop the canvas I painted on, I go to my co-members and together, we crack up each other because of the good output.
"I knew you guys could do it," I say with a jolly tone."Thanks to you, Stella," the girl in front of me says. "Without your encouragement, we couldn't have done it.""Oh, come on," I deny. "We've all done it because we believed in ourselves, in our best."The boy beside me claps twice. "That's why I'm treating you guys for today."Everybody cheers, still under their breath."And you'll go with us, Stella, alright?" the boy adds."Sorry, guys." I purse my lips, an expression of apology plastered on my face. Everybody sighs in dismay. "I really want to spend some time with you guys, but I have work," I utter in addition."It's fine, Stella. Prioritize your needs," the blonde girl says."I'll for your shift today," the boy adds, again."That would be lovely, but I don't do that, dude," I say while wiping the drops of acrylic paint on my palms with wet wipes. "Anyway, I'm off. I'm proud of you guys.""Stay safe, Stella.""Safe road ahead then.""Thanks again. Bye-bye."And with those words, I put on my backpack and get out of the campus. I run across the rather busy street and stride to Aunt Hilda's block. "Auntie," I say while knocking on the door.The door then opens in some seconds, revealing the newly woken-up Marco inside. He yawns noisily and raises a brow at me. "Mom and Dad aren't home. Why?""I'm just getting my bike." I'm about to leave when I suddenly think of Reign Hayes. "Marco, by the way . . ." I trail off, "Have you told Reign your feelings yet?""Stella, why would I?" he spits out. "I don't want to get rejected on-site.""Um, okay?""Was she present?""She's always been.""Oh," he says. "Okay.""Anyway, I'm hitting the road now." I wave at him.He just nods and says, "Be careful on the streets."I interject an 'Aha' and get on my bike. I start pedaling across streets and alleys until I get to our building. I find Om transferring a cactus into another pot. She smiles at me and greets me a good afternoon. I throw my bag onto the couch and hug Mom from behind. "I've been having a good day, Mom. How are you?" I whisper to her.She rubs my hand with her chalky palms. "I'm fine. Just a little back pain earlier.""Have you taken your medication?""I did. I always have.""Don't worry." I stand beside her and put the remaining soil into the other pot. "After I pay the rent, we'll visit the neurosurgeon for a checkup.""It isn't needed, Stella," she rebuffs. "I'm all good, enjoying good health.""Don't worry about the money, Mom. I can work on it.""Thank you, sweetie, but I need you to focus on your entrance examination." She dusts the soil off my palms. "I need you to do great in college, and worrying way too much about me isn't going to help you.""Mom, don't say that.""But—""I'll just prepare your dinner." I walk away. "I'll be heading early to the restaurant."Mom just shakes her head. I kind of don't like this side of her. There's no problem with exhausting my body for her. I love her, and I know she knows that, so I'll risk even my soul just to give her a better, bigger life. My father didn't give him that, and neither did Sean, so I'll do it, voluntarily and gladly as my body still can.Our fridge is almost empty. I prepare a plate of quinoa salad with avocado mayo and make another bowl of salad out of broccoli, collards, and beet greens. And there we go — the vegetables are finally out. I put the dishes in the microwave and serve them on the dinner table together with a glass of grapefruit juice. After I change into the uniform, I remind Mom of her bedtime and then kiss her goodbye."Take care, Stella," she says sweetly.I nod and smile. "I will. Lock the doors and windows, alright?" She nods. "I'm off," I say as I shut the door.After getting out of the building, I hail a taxi and arrive at the restaurant a bit late because of the heavy traffic tonight. I put on the thin apron and start getting the guests' orders. The manager comes to me and orders me to get the orders of the outdoor diners.As I get out of the building, the autumnal bleak wind greets my already-cold frame. I cheerfully greet the guests and take their orders. The schedule tonight is hectic. When people leave, a group or two shows up.A man in a neat dark blue suit with gray sideburns smiles at me as he enters the restaurant. "Is there any available table still, miss?"I look around and see a crew of girls leaving a four-seat table. "I'll just clean it up, sir.""Sure, sure."I smile and then take off. I briskly swipe the table's mess into a tray and then sanitize the surface. I dry it with a thick towel and lead the man in a blue suit to the area. He quickly grabs the menu and then orders a Penne Pomodoro and two servings of tiramisu. His deep dray irises seem to smile at me as I lay his meals on his table. I give him a cheap beam and am about to leave when he utters "Hey."I turn to him. "Yes, signore?""You're in your first college year?" he asks."Oh, no, sir," I respond. "I'm graduating from high school next year.""Oh, I see."I slightly bow. I don't know what I did that."You come off as an industrious person, kid," he says. I'm quite weirded out by the word 'kid.' Nobody calls me that except my father. The man then continues speaking, "I'd like to invite you to work for my company, if you just want to."Woah. This is an opportunity to earn more needfuls. I just . . . don't know this man though. He seems like a nice man. Did he say 'my company?' That means he's a boss. I'm talking to a boss. I turn my gaze around and back to him. I say, "What are the requirements, sir?""Just a little experience in personal assistance," the man says while poking his pasta. "Have you had one?"Sorry, sir. I've only worked in eateries and art studios.""Well, we can work that out." He shakes his head, smiles, and then hands me a small card with a contact number on it. "Here, we're hiring, especially college students who seek extra income for their studies and experience for future professions."I shake his rather calloused hands and utter my gratitude, "Thank you so much for this, sir. I'll call when I'm ready. I'm Stella De Vega, by the way.""Sure, kid." He beams a smile. "My name is Rusco Andreyev." His name sounds Italian or Russian or whatever.I go back to the counter and distribute the orders of the other guests that have arrived. It's been a long night serving the customers, and it's all worth the effort. Our shift manager gives us some bonus cash. He tells us he's been reassigned to the newest branch opened on the other side of the city.After finishing setting the seats on top of the tables, I head for the sidewalk while hailing a taxi. I want to have a car so badly. Even just a hatchback or sedan. Or even a micro. I'd love to own one. Soon, I guess.My mind suddenly goes blank when Ryle appears in front of me. He's wearing, as usual, a leather jacket with sleeves folded up above his elbow, exposing his forearms that look almost big as my leg. His hands don fingerless motorcycle gloves. He pulls back his wet hair and stares at me like a freak he actually is.I can't see his deep grays because of the dim surroundings. It's not that I want to take a look at it. "I thought we talked about this, mister," I break the silence. "I'll call the police regarding this constant stalking thing you're doing.""I'm not stalking you," he replies, his jaws tightening. "I'm waiting for your service.""Why would you even do that?" I step once to my side, away from him.He sits astride on his seemingly high-end gray sport bike while frequently turning his head in my direction. He's being weird again. And the worst thing is he knows where I live. How long has he been following me? Is he an agent or something on a mission to assassinate me? Well, maybe not. I've gotten no riches at all, except my mother and my paint-smeared palettes. When will he stop? I need him to permanently leave me alone. I'm not walking the earth to play some kind of submission-toleration game, or whatever he's enjoying doing. I hope he's happy now that he's been successfully ruining my days. I was cheerful earlier, and now, it's all vanished. Thanks to Mister Freak himself.The taxi finally arrives, the sight of the old driver somewhat giving me a sense of comfort from Ryle. I give Ryle a blank stare before getting into the vehicle. He just stares back at me statuesquely, the tight clenching of his jaws appearing to somehow emancipate. As the taxi moves along, he puts on his helmet and then screeches his motorcycle in the opposite direction. Thank God. I almost died because of his vexing presence.I turn up in our apartment before midnight, and Mom is already in a tight sleep. I kiss her good night and then saunter into my room. Upon sitting on my bed, I open my laptop and search 'Rusco Andreyev' on the Internet. A website says he's the founder and market leader of the dominant luxury vehicle manufacturer in Russia called 'Doyarka.' Doyarka is most well-known for its tough off-road trucks and cruiser motorcycles. I'm shocked by these flooding achievements the company has attained. Mister Rusco Andreyev proposed a job for me in his company. I can't believe it. This is real, right? This is real.I browse more about Mister Andreyev. When I enter Doyarka's website, an image of a woman in a framed picture on a small cupboard flashes on the screen. It says Doyarka is inspired by Mister Andreyev's late older sister who was a milkmaid in northeastern Russia. I open the menu bar and when I accidentally click on 'More about Rusco Andreyev,' I get redirected to an online businessmen's encyclopedia. Of course. When I feel lucky, the universe has to throw a misfortune at me. That's how life works.I stare blankly at the picture, my brain exploding to bits in great silence. There he stands beside Mister Andreyev. Their deep gray eyes match so perfectly. Their facial features make them appear just like brothers. Their smile is weirdly identical. I heave a sigh of dismay. He's Mister Andreyev's son — Ryle.*****I wake up with my head throbbing. I take in a capsule of ibuprofen from Mom's cabinet and push it down with cold water. I slept early though. Well, a quarter past twelve is still early. Anyway, I prepare hearty sandwiches and cups of coffee and call for Mom. She sits across me and has her eyelids half-shut looking at me."Are you okay?" she asks worriedly.I nod cheaply. "Yes. There's just like this bass drum beating up in my head.""You know you can take a day off school and work.""No, Mom.""But you have to get rid of this headache." She stands up and lightly presses the back of his hand on my forehead. "Keeping up with the teachers' discussions and customers' orders are hefty for you.""I'm fine, Mom." I take a sip of the coffee.She sits again. "Okay. I just don't want you to tire yourself. You don't deserve it.""Mom, we've already talked about this thing." I chew on my sandwich. "I'm doing this whether you like it or not," I say. "And Mom."Mom just raises her brows in response."Somebody offers me a job in this big company," I say cheerfully, making Mom's shoulders slouch. "Why?" I ask."Another job?" she queries.I sigh. "Mom, I can do it. Don't worry about me. Just relax here and I'm going to get your rich health back."Mom doesn't reply. I know this is hard for her as well, witnessing her kid work hard for her sake. But if she wants me to stop for my own good, then I'll always deny that want. I have to get her out of this rather miserable life. I'll get her old, healthy self back. I promise her that.After breakfast, I head to the shower and clean myself. While the heavenly, cool water floods down my body, my mind suddenly thinks about Mister Andreyev and Ryle's connection. Ryle is Rusco Andreyev's son. Ryle is a son of a billionaire, which blurs it all because he differs from him in terms of morals. I shrug the idea off and just finish my bath.After the brain-damaging Tuesday morning classes, I blink at Reign Hayes entering the school gymnasium with her rather famous circle of friends. See, Reign is very well-known for her physical aesthetics, gentle personality, and outstanding wits, but also, she's known to be the current mayor's half-sister. The news shocked the city, but as days have gone by, people have forgotten about the stirred-up scandal. That day was chaotic actually.I sit on the bench, my eyes not taking off Reign's back, out in the faint sun. I think of Marco. I wonder how he's going to work this out. I hope Reign isn't in a relationship yet because I'm rooting for my cousin's shot. Reign has always been private and silent, even when she's around with her friends. She's elegantly perceptive, and it's one of her traits everybody seems to like, including me.I've just gone from the cafeteria. I didn't feel like eating, so I ate less than I usually take in. I cross my legs and grab my sketchbook. I bite on the era
I can't believe it. I can't believe I did that. Last night was so random. I let Ryle take me to our place and I liked it. Not Ryle, but his action. I mean, really, Ryle. I don't need to be in denial when it's only me I'm talking to. Ryle is, based on last night's experience, more than the moron he is. Okay. I guess I'll stop now calling him names. It isn't really good for my personal credit.I've been awake since four twenty in the dawn. Six hours of sleep, huh? It isn't that bad. I sit up straight and bend my knees up to my chest. My eyes dart to the hanger where Ryle's leather jacket is mounted neatly. I told him that he should wear it since the streets were cold as hell, but what did he do? He left it. I get off the bed and walk toward the jacket. I touch its thickness and then smell it. So sweet that I can swim in it. Ugh, Stella. Stop it. I then let go of the jacket.I saunter out of my room and find Mom preparing breakfast. I make three cups of coffee — one is for Mom and two fo
I close my eyes as Kent leans his head against mine. I put his hands off my face and gently push him out of my proximity. I should've never done that. I kissed him. Now, he must be thinking that I still like him. O Stella, what trouble you've gotten yourself into. I didn't see this coming, and it was my fault.Kent, with his ocherous eyes, stares at me, statuesquely still in his place. He sits down on my bed and then lays his head on my bolster. He sits his head over his intertwined fingers and then heaves a deep sigh. I just watch him stare at the ceiling until he looks back at me, making my eyes avert to the bedside. I sniff the forming liquid in my nose and then cross my arms, waiting for Kent to initiate the conversation, but he doesn't do so.I then rive the earsplitting silence, "Can you please go now?""What?" he sneers. "After you kissed me, I'll get this? You want me to leave?""I . . ." I trail off, unable to bring out words since I'm dumbfounded still by the minty aftertaste
On Thursday and Friday, we'll take the third quarter's exams. Those two days will sure be fiery. I have to study well since academically good impression matters to tertiary schools. After the Friday exams, all students are invited to participate in aesthetically managing the gymnasium because, O God, it's seniors' ball already on Saturday. I'm sure everybody, especially ladies, will be busy roaming malls and visiting tailors to hunt down such ostentatiously dazzling outfits. I know, right? This is a one-time experience in high school. Why not spend some cabbages? I'll do it as well.It's already lunch at school. My brain cells are tired because there were two pop quizzes earlier — Chemistry and Mathematics. I get myself a tray of hotdogs, warm pastries, fresh strawberries, and a bottle of water. I go to a vacant table and enjoy my solitude.I find Colton seated among his varsity teammates and Reign talking to her girlfriends. I successfully ignore the urge down in my guts to think abo
After a day of scholarly stress, I stop by Aunt Hilda's to check on Marco, but he isn't home yet, so I tell Aunt Hilda I'll be on my way to work. I ride my bike and eventually get back home. As I open the door, the sight of Mom in her favorite white sheath dress dancing to a piece of instrumental classical music greets me. She stops her graceful movements when I shut the door. I look at her appreciatively and then she beams me a smile."What party are we celebrating?" I joke.She sways her head to the beats of low piano notes. "I just felt like wearing your grandma's dress again.""Well, you look great in it.""I'll give this to you soon."I hate myself for interpreting that very differently. I step forward and fix Mom's hair. "We'll survive this life, okay?" I reassure her.She nods with a smile. "Of course, we are.""I love you, Mom.""I love you so, so much, my Stella." She kisses my forehead, and then we collide into a tight embrace.I then made her dinner and give her some CDs of
The Friday exams have topped off with me harboring a silent mental deterioration. The subjects were difficult, but at least I knew what I was doing. Now, we'll be waiting for next week to catch sight of our exam results. I hope I've done well. I believe in myself, but I can't sidestep being apprehensive. It's coded in my very flesh already.Anyhow, it's lunch already. The afternoon classes are vacant for the preparation of the gymnasium for the seniors' ball tomorrow evening. I sit among Reign's girlfriends together with the several varsity teams around the long table. I just feel like socializing today. I settle down between Reign and Colton to get some tea. I take a bite of my cheeseburger before talking to Reign. "Hey.""Hi, Stella," she greets after swallowing some of her juice."Ready for tomorrow?" I ask."Kind of. How about you?""I guess so.""Who's your date?" she queries.O God. Oh, gosh. Yeah. I forgot about it. I don't have a date. Is it really essential to have a date? Ugh
I wake up at an icy Sunday dawn. I yawn out a mist of breath and then immediately wear another layer of sweatshirt. It's gotten colder and snow is bound to fall in next week. At last. The third quarter's exams are done. The seniors' ball was fun. I guess it's time to treat myself to an early morning run. I wear my running shoes and leggings and then get out of the apartment, taking off to the uncrowded streets.I've already jogged for more or less half an hour when I arrive at the park. Fog still covers the surroundings, so it's quite hard for me to concentrate on exercising. Instead, I walk along the dewy row of benches to get a little bit warmer. It straightens my cropped tank top and then redo my ponytail.The small café I occasionally stop by isn't open yet, so I resume sauntering through the bricked-up paths. I turn to my back and start stepping backward, my arms stretching out up in the air, feeling the energy of nature as I shut my eyes tight until somebody bumps into me. I'm ab
I'd been feeling okay these past few days, but it's all gone now. Any moments of joy and cheers in my studies and work have just been set ablaze into ashes since Mom got admitted to the hospital. I feel the void in me eating all of my strength away. Our father and Sean already left us. I'm not used to Mom being away, especially when she's not in shape. I wonder how she's doing at the hospital. I hope the medical staff are taking good care of her thereI idly sit on the couch and lean my head against the backrest. It's still a tragedy to me how Mom managed to camouflage the pain she suffered. Is that how worried is she about my own weal? That it took her to mask her own agony just to make me feel like I was doing everything right? To make me feel like my sacrifices are worth it? She really should've just told me about her spinal injury complicating.I toss down the glass of iced milk and then undo my socks. I put my legs on the small table and put out my phone. I look at Aunt Hilda's nu