Chapter 9 A Sneak Peak Of The Past

'Simone pov'

Today I woke up in a good mood. I was smiling like crazy. Even Amy asked what made me smile like that. But I just smiled at her and shrugged.

I really had fun yesterday with Andrew. And the way he acted was so different than he is when he is at school.

Like he is showing me the other side of him. I learned more about him.

Yesterday I couldn't stop thinking about the kiss he gave me. I know it's just on the cheek but it means so much to me.

You know that feeling when you have a crush on somebody for so long and suddenly that person kissed you.

Then you feel sparks and butterfly in your stomach. That's what I felt when he kissed me.

Right now i'm flipping pancakes and again with a smile on my face. I made shaped pancakes for me and Amy.

Usually I don't make shapes, but today I made it. I was flipping my last pancake when Amy came in the kitchen.

She looked at me weirdly and I looked back at her.

"Look at you smiling again like crazy". She said weirdly.

Rolling my eyes and went to take two plates for the both of us. Putting some pancakes on my plate with some syrup.

We ate in silents. After we were done we sat in silents again looking at each other weirdly. Until Amy decided to break the awkward silents.

"So. How was your date yesterday with Andrew. Was it fun?". She asked. I nodded my head without hestitating.

"It was so fun Amy. He was so sweet to me. Although it was an apoligic date or dinner. But it was fun and he showed me another side of him". I said smiling. Amy laughed.

"So that is why you were smiling like the cat from 'Alice in wonderland' ". She said teasingly. Rolling my eyes and smiled at her.

"Nope not because of that. It's because he kissed me on the cheek. I still feel his lips lingering on my cheek. I mean I know it's on my cheek but who cares". I rambled. She looked at me smiling while shaking her head.

"That's good babes. You deserve to be happy. I don't see that smile everyday since that day. You should do it more often". She said. Then realized what she said she stopped smiling.

My smile faded. I know what she's talking about 'that day'. She was talking about my parents.

When my parents died I was so sad that I had to lock myself in my bedroom for a month.

I only came out for food 'sometimes'. After a month Amy came to my house and banged on my door yelling that if I didn't come out she woul kick the door.

So I opened it because I knew that she would kick the door. We went out that day to clear my mind and forget about the past. But I can't forget the past. I feel like it's my fault they died.

It's like that the past is haunting me. Months after months I lived with my supposed to be aunt and her daughter. They beat me. They used to abuse me when I disobeyed them.

Amy only knew and saw the blue and purple bruises on my body where they hit me. So she said I had to live with her and I did.

I didn't saw my aunt and her daughter after that day when Amy threatened them. I guess they really didn't care about me. They wanted to get rid of me anyways.

But I know that thay are still out there hating my guts.

I snapped out of my trace when I felt a hand on my arm. I looked up to see Amy giving me an apoligic face.

"I'm so sorry babes. I didn't mean it like that. I didn't mean to bring up the past when I said that you should forget it. Again i'm so sorry Simone". She said. I know she didn't mean it.

"Hey hey it's okay Amy. I'm not mad at you. I should be thanking you that you saved me from my abusive aunt. I should thank you that you were always by my side when there was no one else there for me. I should thank you for giving me a home to live. I should say thank you for everything that you did for me. I don't know where I would be if I didn't have a bestfriend like you". I said as I held her hand. I didn't realise I was crying until I felt a tear sliding on my cheek. She looked at me with wide eyes.

"Shit Simone I made you cry. Please don't cry because you are making me cry. You don't have to thank me. I will always be here for you no matter what happen". I looked at her and her eyes were filled with tears that is threatening to fall.

I wiped my tears away and chuckled. "Okay okay fine".

She did the same. I looked at my watch it's time to go to school.

"Let's go to school or we will be late". I said laughing.

"Okay let me get my bag first". She said and went to her room.

She came out of her room and we went to her car. Her baby. Oh I didn't tell you what car she had.

She has a black BMW. She got it from her parents for her birthday. Cool right. He parents are basicaly rich but they aren't the snobby rich people.

They are very sweet and caring. They took me in like I was their own.

Amy started her car and drove away from our apartment. I looked out the window. Looking at the trees passing by so fast.

After fiftheen minutes we were in the school entrance. Amy parked her car and we went out of her car only to see Genevra and Andrew sucking each other faces.

Like their lives depents on it. I felt hurt and betrayed. I thought there would be something different after yesterday.

He was so caring yesterday and today he's back to normal. His playboy ways.

Maybe eveything was just an act. Caring and smiling in front of me was maybe just an act. So that I can forgive him.

I'm so tupid to realise that. What does Genevra have that I don't. I did everything for him to notice me. Everything but I stopped when it was not working. And yesterday all those feelings came back.

It's not woth it. I love him since I was fifteen but unfortunatly he doesn't feel the same way. He never did anyways.

Sighning I looked back at them. They still sucked each other faces.