I FOLLOWED Gian out of the offices towards the elevator banks, and due to the argument, we were both quiet.
No one else was there, so the clacking sound of the heels of my stilettos as I walked across the floor echoed between us. It somehow made me feel as if I was being castigated for daring to disobey Gian about the dress. We didn’t exchange words until we’d reached the end of that hallway, where the discreet and private elevator for family members and VIPs was located. It was also what a current date would use to visit him in the office. And boy, she could still feel the trauma of what happened when his last ex came to visit him.Or, more like, she managed to sneak in through the guards to get up here.I’d secretly nicknamed Gian’s ex-dates. I called them Ex’d, for ‘ex’ and ‘date,’ because he’d never ever gone past dating since I started working here. In fact, no one could tell me if he’d ever had a girlfriend aside from that first and last one when he was still at school. That was controversial, and I thought that was the only reason why it was even heard of. It was because it produced one scandal after another until the very last, tragic one. But anyway, the ones that I was at least aware of, and I’d actually met, remained friends with him post-dating. And more than friends. Gian might have mastered the art of the poker face, but the girls did not. My staff and I witnessed when they do the office version of the ‘walk of shame’—walking into his office immaculately, coming out dazed, flushed (especially around the lips), and walking a bit wobbly-like. Plus the rumpled hair. And one time, there was a bra cup a little bit sideways. But they were all smiling in wondrous bliss. Gian was a professional but clearly not a saint. I’d been here more than a year and these happenings were far-in-between for me to call him a jackass. He’d never acted like one, either. Even on a day when another one bit the dust, he’d come out of his office as if he’d been serenely mulling over new financial sheets but was called to a meeting. And as I’d already said, those women looked happy, so what could I say? I didn’t have any business saying anything at all.Except for the last one.Her name was Shiela and Gian dated her from the end of last year to the beginning of this one. He stopped going out with her in January. And since then, she’d hounded him with calls until she got blocked here in the office. Yes, I was instructed to block all numbers she used from our phones.But Shiela wouldn’t give up. When she couldn’t get through me or my assistant Janet, she somehow got through the security and reached the floor using Gian’s private elevator.But when she came down that day, she was escorted by grim-looking guards and red-faced Jason, pale as paper.That day was the worst that ever happened to me here. Thinking about it could still put the flush of anger on my cheeks.Shiela was beautiful, a spoiled rich brat, and her grandmother was close friends with Madam Soniah. You wouldn’t really expect a woman with that background to behave like she had no refinement.“I know what people are saying! Don’t you dare deny it! He must fuck you in the office behind locked doors!”“Madam Soniah and Shiela’s grandmother are still friends, right?” I asked as we waited for the elevator car to arrive.His face couldn’t get any darker as I reminded him of this.He knew. He’d seen the guest list for the party then.The lift finally arrived and the doors slid to the sides. He let me in first before he followed, the ultimate gentleman. I was careful not to show my back, and thankfully he did not reach out to hold me like he would usually do because he was holding my bag.In our silence, while the car slid down its chute, I couldn’t help but remember more of that day…So, the bitch did manage to sneak up and demanded to see Gian who was in a meeting during that time. Yes, it sounded cliché, but it was the truth. There was an important contract signing for a merger of the marketing of two different small businesses that VerraCom managed to procure a week before. Everyone knew that no one disturbed this kind of meeting. Even his mother wouldn’t. So, as far as I was concerned, Shiela could do cartwheels and back flips right in front of me, but she would get no Gian.So, I said, No Gian for you, baby. Go home now.Not exactly, of course, but something to the effect of me talking to a three-year-old. The result was she cussed, cursed, and vilified me from my hair strands down to my toenails in a screech that carried over the whole, shocked floor.I stood there and endured long minutes of the dirtiest accusations I had heard in my entire life just so she couldn’t get through. I secretly suspected she was high of something then because she was simply not in a lucid state of mind. I endured because nothing was true in what she was screaming about. Surely, no one else believed her. They were so dirty, so trashy, and even if my identity was a secret because it was what the elders wanted, I had been honest in my relationship with the people I worked with in the office. Shiela was so occupied with her screeching and I was guarding her like a hawk that we both didn’t notice that Gian was there.And when we both saw him…Nooo… he wasn’t screaming. One look at him and it was like a tantrum switch was turned off and Shiela abruptly stopped. Gian’s face was so dark when he ordered the woman to his office, using the coldest voice I had ever heard from him. It drained the blood from Shiela’s face. And then she started crying and made pathetic excuses for why she was acting like a crazy person.“I’m sorry that I said those th-eeeee-ngs! She wouldn’t let me see you… She wouldn’t let me see you and I love you and I can’t live without you, Gian. Ple-eeee-ase… I know you love me, too, Gian… Please come back to meee!”Gian pulled her from the floor to his office without a word while the insane woman moaned and groaned like she was being overcome by a seizure. After just a few moments, the elevator spewed several of our security people, and a trembling and quiet Shiela was escorted back to the elevator and out of the building. She looked so shaken up that I wondered what Gian did to make her look like that in such a short time. But I was glad to see that it looked like we would not be seeing her for a long time, if not ever.I expected to be called next. I obediently went inside his office, confidently expecting he’d be grateful and he would apologize for what happened out there.Well.I was scolded down to my bone marrow. Can you believe it?He was so angry at me because if Janet had not run to him to tell him what was going on, he wouldn’t have any idea we’d been attacked by a mental case.Yup.That’s what he said about his ex.I WAS shocked at first. I had never seen him that angry with me or anyone else. In the back of my mind, I still wondered what he’d said to Shiela to make her look truly sickly and pitiful, even to me, after everything she had shouted at me out there. But then I got very angry because I wasn’t the one who sneaked through professional security guards to get to someone who didn’t want to see me anymore. I had to admit to the woman’s ingenuity. But she was still bat-crazy. Who the hell would do what she just did if not a crazy person?And then he tells me it was my fault?“It’s my job to filter your guests when you are busy with something important,” I explained, but I was already scowling back at him.“Your job isn’t to let anyone speak to you like that! You should have called me!”“But Gian—”“If you ever do that again, you’ll go back to your parents. You can’t cut it here!”I was shocked. Okay, so I was also a personal friend. I should have expected his anger. But I didn’t expect
I COULD hear the happy sound of her laughter and I hadn’t felt relief for a long time until then. It had been awkward and solemn in the days following that scandalous incident with Shiela, mostly because I had been too guilty and she, I could just imagine, had so many questions to ask but wouldn’t dare do.I fucked up. That was the truth. And I knew it.But she hadn’t laughed like that for a while. I hope it continues this way.She really liked that red dress and she looked so good in it, too. I knew I was over-reacting. But I didn’t like Elise on something as daring as this cocktail dress. She looked so good. I could just—Stop.My mind felt all muddled. I couldn’t be thinking like this. I didn’t need this. I was already so biased, what with the way I favored her? Elise had a special place in my heart. She was the little girl I was most fond of when I was a little man in love with the widow Rosamia von Schiller—the very first love of my life.I was so glad Elise was too young to r
SHIELA attended the party with her grandmother, Doña Lucia, in a slinky black dress that left nothing to the imagination.She also brought a date—handsome, tall, younger than Gian, and, most probably, a rich heir to one of the old money.I pitied him. He almost got choked a few times by the way the woman would grab and cling to him whenever Gian was near. Technically, I was, too, since I was by his side since arrival.But kudos to him, it did not take long for him to realize what was going on and he couldn’t get far away from Shiela fast enough. He flirted loudly with other women for good measure, too.And me?If the initial reason to stay near Gian was for guys presumably attracted to the sexy dress, that’s not it anymore.Shiela’s poisonous looks thrown my way were efficient enough to glue me by Gian’s side.If looks could kill, I would be over ten times murdered.So, instead of focusing on the conversation about real estate properties worth investing on that the guys were talking ab
WHEN I came to, I was covered by a blanket and I was sitting on Gian’s lap in the backseat of a vehicle.When I started to move, I realized his arms were wrapped securely around me while one of his hands held a towel to the wound in my head. And he growled.That, and that he was in the foulest mood I’d ever felt him in, froze any further movements I might have made.We were silent until we arrived at the hospital.Four stitches were done to close up my wound, and an MRI scan was performed on me. I was in a hospital bed where I never ever wanted to be, and I normally would have been fidgety, except Gian kept glaring at everyone and everything so I didn’t want to cause any more problems for everybody.He was scary, as if he was going to explode if anyone made one wrong move or said one wrong word. The doctor and nurses were walking on eggshells.Madame Soniah was there, too, and she was still in her party gown, worried about me and very guilty because she was the one who had invited Shie
WE parted with Gian’s mother in the parking lot of the hospital after I’d signed a waiver absolving the establishment from responsibility if anything untoward happens to me upon their release of me.Mang Karding, Gian’s personal driver, was going to drive Madam Soniah home while Gian would drive me to my place.And of course, he had to carry me again from the wheelchair even though I protested—err, squeaked, really—that I could walk, and carefully laid me down on the front seat and strapped me in like a recalcitrant child.I felt like an invalid. Thanks to the meds that were still working, I didn’t feel like one, though I must look like a wreck. He reclined the seat so I could be comfortable, and used up about three minutes more to fuss—the works—before he finally placed himself behind the wheel to drive us out of there. If I didn’t know he treated his mother the very same way when something ailed the gentle lady, I would have been pissed off.I secretly loved him for it, to be hones
ACCORDING to rumors, the woman was older than Gian by about five years.The relationship itself started way back in high school, but before then, they were playmates among kids in the neighborhood, so they already knew each other that long and well before the relationship.Her name, again, was Trina Cheng.Like Gian, she came from a wealthy background… and they said she really was so beautiful, and that they looked perfect together.They also seemed perfectly happy and in love from the beginning.But apparently, the relationship wasn’t as perfect under the surface as everyone thought it was.Trina started going out with a wild group in senior high, and she got hooked on drugs. That was the alleged reason for the breakup. That it might have been sudden, but to those close to the two, it was seen coming.The Verrazzanos sent Gian and his younger brother, Paulo, to the UK to continue their studies there. Madam Soniah went with them to personally supervise her boys.Trina was said to be on
Noo… where am I? Why am I here…? I cried inside my head while I walked in the dark corridor of this dank-smelling building. The cold floor where my naked feet walked was black with dirt and dust. The dust in the air clung to my sweaty skin and my face, which was wet with my flowing tears. My eyes had barely adjusted to the darkness but my nose could smell the mold and oldness of the building in the air.The building had been abandoned for a long time. I could feel paper on the floor and peeling paint and plaster on the wall. This place used to be an office before. Or a school? I wasn’t sure. But it was obvious it had been abandoned for a long time.I still wore my nurse’s uniform because I had just come out of my shift from the hospital, and I was sure it had become dirty from my running and from bumping into things I couldn’t see in the dark. My mom always kept my uniforms immaculate before she died.Mommy… am I going to die in a dirty uniform? Please, help. Save me! Oh my god… why a
ELISEThe apartment building was a four-storey building with one unit on each floor. My family owned the building. My mother and stepfather privately invested in real estate— renting houses and apartment buildings—and they owned several in other places. I lived here. Otherwise, I would be staying in one of the condo buildings/towers of the Von Schillers in Metro Manila. My father’s side invested in real estate, too, in partnership with the Verrazzanos. But this particular building was reserved for the family when we visited Manila.The first-floor unit was occupied by my cousin, Jason. The third-floor unit was for guests visiting from the province. The higher level on the third floor was a semi-covered deck. I kept my plants there in container boxes and big pots. On my free days, I could be found there tending to my plants or reading in my rattan hammock. We also do our barbecues there, drink there, and generally relax there at the end of the day. I was talking about me, my cousin Jas
EliseThe next day, I arrived early at the office.Work hadn't started yet, but some people had stopped by to check on me. I was supposed to have fallen down my apartment stairs and gotten injured as an excuse for my leave. Janet, my secretary, told me that so far, she hadn't felt that anyone at the office knew about the revelation in Tagaytay regarding the Schultzes. I had already told her about it so not to keep her in the dark, given how closely she worked with me. This way, she could also try to look out for me and see what everyone was saying about whatever gossip found its way to work.Of course, I didn't mention the development between Gian and me. No one outside our families needed to know about that. Or at least, not yet.It made sense that no one here still knew about the formal breakup between Brandon and me. These employees weren't connected to people who would hear the news. Their concern and curiosity were the reasons they checked on me in my office, especially those old
Prelude FOURTwo drunk men staggered along the beach, singing drunkenly while one of them waved a bottle of gin in his hand. After a while, he lifted the bottle to his mouth and drank, only to be disappointed when he realized it was empty.He said something to his companion, and they both laughed. The man then tossed the useless bottle onto the sand, and they continued their unsteady walk.After a few moments, one of them stopped and pointed towards the water, close to where the waves were crashing onto the sand. He let go of his friend's shoulder and waded in to retrieve whatever was floating there, pulling it towards the shore. It was a large sack tied with a rope, and something was inside.They struggled to untie the rope. From inside, something round began to emerge from the sack's opening.Suddenly, both men sobered up and started shouting, for there on the sand lay the head of a lifeless woman. Her long hair spread out on the sand, played with by the waves as if wanting to pull h
Elise“For real? My God, Elise! Poor Tootsie! What kind of heartless person would do that to a poor dog?” exclaimed Alia on the other end of the line, shocked and on the verge of tears. I had called her first thing when I woke up in the morning.I sighed, massaging my forehead. “I don’t know. Anna was the first to find her, so she’s been crying nonstop. She even needed to take a tranq to calm down and rest.”“What about you, and Inay and Itay?”“We’re still in shock. But Tootsie has already been buried in the garden.” I realized tears were streaming down my face. I had been so worried about Anna that my own grief over what happened to our pet was just catching up with me now. “Alia…?” I said, wiping my tears. “Is it okay if we… if we have a pet there at our house?”“You’re thinking exactly what I’m thinking!” she exclaimed.I smiled. “I want to take one of the puppies once they’re stronger. I want to help take care of Tootsie’s remaining puppies.”“Please, pretty please?! I want to he
EliseI RECOVERED my senses as he showered sweet kisses over my face. I started to hear the waves again, and his hand that had worked wonders was arranging my clothes over me as if he had not wreaked havoc on the body that those covered.My heart was still beating very fast, and my mind was still stunned.“Welcome to the world of adults,” he whispered with our lips barely touching.My reply was to lift my chin to give him a passionately grateful kiss.It took a moment more before I could move. We laid in the sand in a tight embrace, and I moved my head. He looked down at me.“How do you feel?”I couldn’t help but smile. I felt so languid like I was warm liquid. I felt like I was dreaming but I knew I was not. “I feel wonderful.”“That’s great. I hope you don’t get mad at me…”I was still smiling like an idiot. “Why?”“It’s just that when we fell…? I landed on your rose.”I stared at him for a moment before my mind caught up. “What?!” I pushed him away so we could sit up. “Where?” I cr
EliseI PUSHED AWAY from him to get up, but I heard him grunt, and then I realized that my elbows were sticking to his ribs. “Oh!” I adjusted my position. “Sorry.” And I started to get up again.But his arms tightened around me. He looked winded, but he was smiling. My heart pounded as warmth spread somewhere in the vicinity of my lower abdomen. “Gian…”“You do know that all that stupid play was to get you exactly where you are right now? Minus this small accident.”I laughed. “Really? You didn’t plan to bump into my head?”He sighed. “I know… I should have just kissed you the moment Anna left,” he said, then reached up and pulled me by the nape of my neck so our lips met.I responded to him right away. As soon as he felt my response, he groaned and kissed me deeper. His mouth opened, and the next moment I tasted the sweetness of the chocolate we had shared in our heated kiss.I felt warmth permeating my body. His arms released me but his mouth didn’t. He worked his jacket off, kissin
EliseI GOT UP before Anna completely lost it. She was covering her entire face with her hands, feeling incredibly embarrassed that Gian heard what she said. She was also extremely thrilled.“It’s Valentine’s Day, so I brought flowers for two single, beautiful ladies I know are here. Here’s for you, Anna.”Anna quickly extended her right hand to take the flowers and chocolates, while still covering half her face with the other hand. “Thank you, Gian. Happy Valentine’s Day! Eeeeh!”Still screeching the longest screech ever, she turned and ran back to the beach house.Gian and I laughed while watching her, and Tootsie, who momentarily didn't know whether to follow or stay, eventually ran after her. Tootsie was, for all intents and purposes, really Anna’s dog.Then Gian turned to me. An awkward moment passed as he seemed unsure of what to say.“I thought you didn’t do Valentine’s?”He handed me a box with a long-stemmed rose and a ribbon-tied chocolate bar. “I don’t want you to be lonely
EliseAFTER A BURP and a sigh, I settled back in my chair, smiling. We had dinner on the balcony of the beach house that evening, at a long table filled with our favorite recipes cooked by Itay Jess. I was surrounded by soft conversation and laughter, and the atmosphere was relaxed. The smell of barbecue from the grill lingered in the air. The soft music of 2Cellos played from the speakers by the side of the house. The best part, though, was the steady white noise of waves lapping on the beach. I planned to get out there to walk or swim tonight, so I was wearing a bikini under my top and shorts.Right now, I felt so lazy.And happy.And without a care in the world.I heard the sound of a chair being pulled and looked up. Inay was standing up with the help of Itay Jess, who pulled her chair away from the table.“Look, guys. We need to scram.”Anna was all smiles. “Enjoy!”“Whe
Prelude IV“AYYY… wait, wait. Let’s stop. Stop…” The overweight woman stepped aside from the jogging trail in the woods and leaned against a tree. She wiped the sweat from her forehead with the back of her right hand before fanning herself. “Haaaay. Whose bright idea was it to come here? Why did I get dragged into this again?”Her jogging companion, a woman who had run ahead on the trail, jogged back with a grin. “Because you have a crush who only dates sexy women? C’mon, Betty. We’re almost done. Then you can have breakfast.”“Breakfast? My tongue’s already hanging out, Lorna. I don’t know if I can make it out!” Betty wailed, almost in tears.Lorna reached out and grabbed Betty's arm, trying to pull her along. But Betty was heavy, and Lorna momentarily lost her balance, bracing herself against the tree trunk. The two of them laughed.“You thought I was light, huh?” teased Betty.Lorna was about to respond but suddenly stopped. She crinkled her nose. “Why does it smell so bad? Like so
EliseMorning came when I woke up. I wasn't surprised to find that Gian was no longer beside me, but I grabbed the pillow where his head had rested and hugged it.He had stayed until almost morning. Before he left, he whispered that he needed to get up and go back to his room before his mother checked on me. I remember his touch on my cheek before I fell asleep again.As I slowly awakened, memories of the previous night started to come back. My drunkenness... the things I said...I opened my eyes, gazing at the rotating ceiling fan above the bed. Did I tell him I liked him? It felt like I did, but the details were hazy. Did I mean it in a simple way or something more?I slowly got up, feeling the ache in my entire body. I needed my medicine. My head throbbed, and I craved a cup of coffee. I needed a hot shower.I had to be ready when I face Gian again. And only because I couldn't hide fr