MICHELSON POVHIDING secrets was something I had sworn not to do with her again but with this incident I definitely knew it was a bad idea to tell her.I could see the look in Brianna's eyes, in a way it seemed like she could tell every bit of my feelings apart.I still felt every bit of the agonizing pain from my hands, and even after popping two to four aspirin in my mouth the pain just wouldn't leave.It was starting to look like it was a completely different type of pain from what I had prior thought, it was a pain of guilt, of having my hands stained with blood.A pain that came from my heart at the thought that I had almost killed her.Who would have known that I had that side of me.I had walked into her apartment with the hope of talking things with her and getting out after warning her not to call me again but it looked like she was expecting me to do so after all.If I had thought anyone was more manipulative than Paula I was most definitely wrong.As soon as I had gotten in
MICHELSON POVMy mind was filled with diverse thoughts, as I tossed and turned on my bed.The alarm clock noise echoed through the room.I hurried to turn it off looking at the side of the bed to where she was laying peacefully undisturbed by the heavy noise of the alarm.For a minute I sat by the end of the bed with my palm pushing my chin up as I ran my hand through my hair.I thought about everything again, the fact that I would be going to work again after staying away for a while, the more I tried to think about it the more I realized that it was far from the reason I was worried.There was this anxiety deep down again from having to deal with Paula.Paula— The thought of her filled my mind, there was this feeling that I had taken care of that aspect that had to do with her but regardlessly I knew how hard she was admitting to certain brute fact.I walked into the bathroom and after brushing and walking under the faucet I watched the warm water drain away like it was washing awa
BRIANNA'S POVI Watched his car drive out of the parking lot, as he waved and said good-bye with a smile so evident on his face, he had tried all he could to convince me not to worry about the whole situation but deep down I felt the entire situation still needed a deeper look.Not that he was doing anything suspicious, everything that had happened that morning took place normally, he had kissed the baby bump and my chin and done everything he had gotten so used to doing off late.Watching him leave, I was still left with that worry even as his car turned the bend and I couldn't see it anymore.Could it be that he had gotten himself into a fight?His hand was still bandaged and looked like he punched right through something, and for some reason I didn't know the name Stormy came to my mind.I realized that the sudden reaction had started when he picked my phone.I was starting to wonder that he must have seen a message from Stormy and had gone after him that night.Try all I could, b
MICHELSON POVI NEEDED her to get out of the office, but she had her hands all over me.There was something about her that I couldn't quite place. I had thought that after everything that had happened between us that previous night, she would not cross my path again.That was my mere thought, she had that same look in her eyes filled with seduction, it was almost as if I had not gone to her house at all the whole time."You need to leave." I said again."Really are you sure that is what you want?"I turned around, leaned against the table that was filled with undone works, ignoring the nerves coursing through me.There was no way I wanted to have a conversation with her, I knew deep down that doing that was like lurking into her den.A den filled with infidelity and sinful destruction, a den that I had one wine and dined in but that was the past.Now all I wanted was to get away from her as fast as possible.“ I warned you at your place to stay away . . . I am not expecting you to do
MICHELSON POV IT all happened in slow motion and took quite a while for my heart to process everything, Paula lips barely touching mine, Brianna walking through the door everything. If there was ever a time my heart beat this loudly itoat certainly had to be the day my father died. The whole feeling was getting Into my head and in my heart I was revisiting that day again. The funniest thing was it was happening in the same room as it had years back, it was in this same room he had fallen to the ground after having an attack. It had been in the same room I had rushed out panicking, and this afternoon was just like a replica of it. All through my life I had not been this scared about anything else than this,I was overwhelmed with the feeling of fear and anxiety and so many other feelings as I went after her. I knew deep down that she wouldn't wait, I doubted anyone would if they were in her shoes. The last thing I could ever imagine was having her wake through those doors and eve
BRIANNA'S POVTHE last thing any woman would want to see is walking into the room and seeing her husband with another woman and I had most certainly seen that.Just when I had thought these times of ordeal were over. I had walked into his office and seen him with that woman.I couldn't imagine the look of shock that had been in my face, he bore the same look I had bit I wasn't going to fall for any of his antics.I had given him a Chance, I and given him chances after chances but he broke each and every one of it in a way that was so unspeakable.All I could do was turn and flee, it was the only thing I could think of at that moment, it was the only way I could get away from him as fast as I could.He came after me as i thought he would, hiding the misery in their eyes with dilated pupils.I didn't wait to see any more, not even when he called out my name. Did I wait for a brief second?All I wanted to do was get away from him as fast as I could and the only way that seemed possible
MICHELSON POVTHEY say when a person is having a near death experience, life flashes across your optical gaze.I wondered if she saw any bit of that in a way I did care if she did,as I was driven to a Point I had never been before.I caught her just before she hit the ground, right there in my hands I watched as she asked for oar.This wasn't the way I pictured any bit of everything that was happening.The car that just hit her zoomed away past the corner as I let out a scream that hit the air."Help!"I was confused about the whole situation and didn't know how to react to every bit of it.In a way I was starting to think that I am stupid for breaking my phone.I ran all the way back, banging my two fists in the door of one of the guards.It was devastating, for me yet to deal with it as I banged again and again.Finally, one opened and seeing me alone he looked worried."I need your help." I quickly, "Call the ambulance!"He rushed back quickly as soon as I could hear him making t
MICHELSON.THEY say real men don't cry and I wondered if emotions were really part of what made up the term manhood.I could remember just two times I had broken down to tears in my entire adulthood life:The first, was when I lost my fath.The memories still filled my mind like a scar that would never leave and I could still see it in my nightmares.This was the second time…It got me wondering how long I was going to get out of all of this if anything ever happened to her.Never, never was the right term to tell myself that I might never get out of this mentally if anything did happen to her.I paced the hallway worried and in a state that was quite tense.I felt the need to do everything and at the same time, I felt like doing nothing other than just walking through the white hallways of the hospital.Pausing by the dispenser, I grabbed a dispenser and gulped down two cups in quick succession running a hand through my hair that was ruffled.I was in a state of total mess both phys
BRIANNA'S POVHow fast was it to stop loving when it turns toxic?For me as fast as my heart beat in seconds.It had taken me nothing to make up my mind, perhaps two weeks of locking my door against myself and crying till I could feel my eyes go red with burning tears.This was not about compiracy but I was prepared to get through everything…As a matter of fact I wanted half of everything as well.Half of his wealth was going to make me obviously one of the richest female in the city and in a way it wouldn't affect him.For the next couple of hours all we did was talk about what I wanted—Which was to get away from the marriage as fast as I could.She has talked about it being more longer process and for all of cared I was ready for how messy it was going to become.Every part of me wanted to stay away from him.He was toxic this man, seeing him this morning reminded me of how much I hated him, it was quite a remindwr of why I wanted so bad to stay away from him.My husband was only
Michelson POVWhat in the hell I was doing. I thought to myself at the last-minute.At that time I was heading down the road, far away from where anyone could see me, it looked like I was drifting down the bowel of hell in my mind.There was a need to stop. I had to bring everything to a stopI tried to hit the brakes on the car.Fuck…I kept on pushing the brakes but it didn't work.All of a sudden I was starting to regret the fact that I decided to go down this path, I was regretting doing this at all as it felt like a very drastic action.What am I doing here?It felt like I was visiting another world, as the city passed before my fresh eyes as I drove deeper.I kept hitting the brakes as the car sped through, going off on the road with the same speed I had started with.As I neared the dead end , I thought about getting out of the car.The belt seems jammed, the door -I felt the wind in my face as it looked as though I was about to embrace death.Just then at the last minute,
MICHELSON POVWasn't it said that good music heals the soul?The music playing softly through the stereo was in a way depressing and there was no way to say why it was this way.I had picked that same music, I had always picked out any other days but today it did look like I was listening to a totally different song— It was like I was listening to it in a different way or perhaps hearing the tunes of the music differently .Either way I was not enjoying an but of this and in a way the way she was treating me was quite expected.The more I tried to take my mind away from all of this the more it became dawn on me that I might as well be a murderer.With own hands, I had committed this attrocities.In a way i wondered if she would ever forgive me, I would give anything as a matter of fact everything just for her forget everything but even to someone totally deranged that would be quite impossible.There was only way I could get my mind off all of this, and that was for me distract mysel
BRIANNA'S POVThere was only one word for how the past week had been and it was —Shambles!One could say I was a living shadow of my old self, and thanks to Michel he had totally out done himself making a mess out of me.That was what was, a total mess…I had dragged my feets through the tiled floor, ignoring the looks I got from maids and the greetings as well.The past one week had been nothing but hell for me as I was trying everything I could do with the situation at hand.The way the sun felt on my face, the fresh air—The taste of coffee like I had always loved it every morning, everything felt to me new.“Are you fine ma'am. ” one of the maids asked.Something in me whispered that she was not only asking for the state of my physical look but also how I was mentally as well, the whole feeling gave me goosebumps."Yes I am.” I replied , faking a smile. The truth was I wasn't, as a matter of fact I was far from being fine but like they say the truth is always a hard pill to swal
MICHELSON POV.What did I feel ?Pain!Absolute pain and there was no way I could get over it.Men are allowed to feel pain too ain't they?Mine was like a hard blow to the heart, I could feel every bit of my heart, stop then pause like this wasn't essential and just when I thought everything might be as well over, I felt it beating again.It looked like I had brought nothing but destruction Into her life, slowly I tried to play everything again at the back of my mind.If there was anything she hated more that moment it was certainly me.It was something, she didn't even need to say as it was glaring in her eyes.My face was inexpressive…Yet one Could tell that everything going on deep down inside me was absolutely shambles.Till now the only two people that knew about what truly happened was Brianna and myself and in a way I wanted to remain this way.The doctor ushered is about so she could attend to her, I took that time to take a long stroll around the hallway, stopping at the wat
BRIANNA POVIT looked like he was keeping the rest of the words buried from fear of speaking or getting how I would react.He looked at me for a minute not knowing how he was going to react to every bit of everything that was going on.When the words fell from his lips, I could feel the heavy weight of them."The baby is gone."At first I thought the words were just my thoughts playing out and he had not said anything, but when I thought about it again, I could hear the words playing again at the back of my mind."What?"I looked at my mother's face hoping it had something different…an emotion that would convince me this were lies.My heart beat shattered, and I could every bit of the piece and piece of my heart as it fell to the ground.The pain sent a raw ache through my chest and I could feel it pounding against it.My vision blurred behind tears and the shimmer of the sun on the marble floors, I couldn't hold it.One could numb any other emotions but certainly not pain, there was
BRIANNA'S POV.I Turned and saw him sitting right there, it was the last place I wanted him. As a matter of fact, I didn't want him anywhere around me.“Oh my god. You’re alive... She is alive! " He exclaimed as I stared around for a minute wondering what it was about him that I hated and disdained most at this moment.He glanced at me, a glint in his eyes filled with excitement. “I thought I was going to lose your"Perhaps, he shouldn't have said those words as I felt my memory returning back to me in full force.I felt a sharp pain in my head ...Staring at his face blankly at the moment, it was like staring into the face of the devil.If there was anything I wanted most at that moment, it was certainly having him closer to where I was.For all I know, I was done with the man.He tried to touch me but I took my hands away from where he was, flinching the very bit like his touch was toxic.As a matter of fact it was toxic, at least to me...I could feel the venom in his touch crawl
MICHELSON.Leaning back, against the chair in the hallway, I rested a forearm on the arm of the chair looking around at the events unfolding as I focusedmy gaze on the far end of the room.The anger In me was enough to raze down the entire room but I did well enough to bury it down as it burned in my throat and heart maring everything else in the process.My eyes skimmed up an inch to find the doctor again, a moment earlier she had insisted that I went back home after I returned there.The plan actually when I had gone home was to rest,take a fresh nap, eat and come back by morning but I couldn't do any of these things as I kept tossing and turning on the bed.The night was promising to be filled with nightmares so at the last second, I had dragged myself out of bed and now I sat in the hospital hallway wiping a hand across my face.My gaze darkened,conveyed every bit of my thoughts.In a way while I sat back in my chair, my humor was fading into the half empty hallway.My though
MICHELSON.THEY say real men don't cry and I wondered if emotions were really part of what made up the term manhood.I could remember just two times I had broken down to tears in my entire adulthood life:The first, was when I lost my fath.The memories still filled my mind like a scar that would never leave and I could still see it in my nightmares.This was the second time…It got me wondering how long I was going to get out of all of this if anything ever happened to her.Never, never was the right term to tell myself that I might never get out of this mentally if anything did happen to her.I paced the hallway worried and in a state that was quite tense.I felt the need to do everything and at the same time, I felt like doing nothing other than just walking through the white hallways of the hospital.Pausing by the dispenser, I grabbed a dispenser and gulped down two cups in quick succession running a hand through my hair that was ruffled.I was in a state of total mess both phys