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37 Days Where to?
POVJulian X hasn’t left the penthouse all night despite all my efforts. We still need to discuss the deal with Hugo he blew off and losing his shit on him. To be honest, I’d probably done the same thing. I’m not mad at X for telling him to fuck off because Hugo is an untrustworthy partner and we learned that the hard way. Does it suck? Fuck yeah but in the long run, Hugo probably would’ve screwed us in some way. I don’t know what happened to X in the last couple of hours since the meeting with Adria and Penelope but he’s deep in the dumps right now and I can’t get through to him, he needs someone to talk to but he won’t even let me in. I text Steph to see if she knows anything. Babe, do you know what’s going on? I can’t get X to talk to me, he’s depressed as fuck. I text X again My man, you good? Let’s have a drink Steph texts me back I guess X came to see Millie at the hotel and it didn’t go well…for either of them. Figured it was another let down for him. I text Steph b
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days 2 emotional
POV Millie The text from Nick pulls me out of my depressed state and into a curious one. I text him back HeyI sit up with the blanket still wrapped around me and Steph is now texting on her phone too. My phone dings again and I turn it on silent so Steph doesn’t badger me about who I’m texting. Nick: I have to go to Santa Barbara tomorrow, so I won’t be in. You can either take the day off or make the office look less boring. Me: hmm I think I’ll decorate the office, hope you don’t mind pink everywhere for your last week. Nick: the way I feel about pink is the way you feel about black coffee I giggle causing Steph to raise an eyebrow at me and then looks back to her phone. Steph probably thinks I’m crazy given my intense emotions. I text Nick back, Me: oh come on it’s not that badNick: it’s worse than bad, Em Me: you clearly have awful taste…I actually don’t care for pink but it’s fun to mess around with him. Steph stands up, “Uh hey I have to run to my car real quick, I
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days Overdosed
POVJulian I hang up with Slim and rush over to my lifeless appearing best friend. He’s sitting up on his black leather couch with his head back and arms out to the side with closed eyes. Foam sits at the corner of his mouth and his whole color looks off. Please don’t be dead. In front of X on the coffee table lay pills…Oxy, a fallen-over bottle of liquor that is still dripping off of the coffee table and onto the floor dripping onto his feet, a white piece of paper lays besides the two. I finally make it to him after my sprints and shake him praying he’s just asleep. “Wake up X, fuck…wake up!” I scream out. “Don’t you fucking do this to me, man, don’t you fucking leave me!” I say in panic. “Don’t you fucking leave me…you asshole! Don’t fucking do this man.” I say as I vigorously shake his unresponsive body. “Fuck!” I scream out with the unfamiliar sensation of tears running down my cheeks. “You’re my brother man, you can't leave me in this world alone. Please,” I beg to the
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days The weight of the world
POV Stephanie I’m sitting with Millie on the couch as she’s burrito wrapped in a blanket and on her phone looking surprisingly happy. This girl’s emotions are all over the place lately, and I can hardly keep up. I’m scrolling through TikTok when a text comes in from Julian. Call me asap, it’s about X. Go somewhere where Millie can’t hear you My heart instantly feels as though it has stopped. What the fuck?When it comes to X, it can be anything. I know tonight didn’t go well for the two of them so I’m extremely nervous right now. I tell Millie I need to run out to my car and when she offers to come with I immediately combat the offer. Whatever is happening with X, Julian doesn’t want her to hear. I leave the suite with Millie inside and go outside to call Julian. My heart is pounding through my ears as the ring continues until Julian’s voice takes over after the third one. “Babe?” Julian says through the phone. “Yeah? What’s going on Julian?” I ask nervously. “It’s X, Steph
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days The aftermath
POV XI slowly wake up confused and with wetness on my skin. Sweat? “X?” I hear someone ask. “Baby? Is that you?” I ask maybe out loud or maybe in my mind, I can’t tell. “No, it’s Evelyn, I’m here with Dr. Adams, do you know where you are?” A girl says. “Millie?” I ask out. “No X, it’s Evelyn, I need you to try to wake up a little more and focus on my questions the best you can okay?” I think Millie asks. “Okay baby,” I say. I hear talking but can’t make anything out, I fall back into comfortable sleep but I get slapped. “What the fuck” I groggily say. “X, man it’s me Julian, wake up man, stay with us,” I hear Julian say but it’s hard to stay awake I just want to sleep. “Xavier, I’m Dr. Adams, do you know what happened?” Some annoying man says too loudly. My head is pounding and I just want to go back to sleep but people keeping talking to me. “Go away” I manage to get out of my mouth. “Millie come here,” I say. “Who is Millie?” The girl asks. “You baby” I say. “Mill
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days The longest minute
POVJulian He woke up. He woke up confused as hell though, he thought Evelyn was Millie and it was fucking sad to watch. I knew X was hurting but I didn’t know the extent of it. The room is a disaster, alcohol is still covering the table and the pills have disintegrated from the liquid. X is covered in his own vomit and sweating profusely. The white note still lies there as the corners have now become wet and transparent. What does it say? I pick it up as Evelyn and Dr. Adams try to get X to talk more. X, if something happens to me, just know I love you. This must be from Millie. Poor girl doesn’t even know what’s happening to the guy she loves right now but it’s for her own good. X keeps going in and out of consciousness and it’s freakin me out. I don’t know why I do it but I slap him to snap him out of it. He wakes up a little more but only for a short time until he falls back into it and gains another slap. Dr. Adams lets us all know that his vitals are okay and to let
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days The strong one?
POV Stephanie As soon as Millie leaves for the day I rush out the door to go back to the mansion. She’s completely clueless about what went down last night in the penthouse. Julian had been texting me all night and into the early hours of the morning with god-awful updates. I hardly got any sleep with the information I was receiving. If Millie knew that they lost X for a minute she would be beside herself, honestly, I kind of am but I keep that to myself, I need to be strong for everyone around me. I type in the entrance gate code and park Mia’s car in her usual spot. I practically run to the elevator to get to Julian and X. When I reach the black penthouse door I knock impatiently dying to see them. Julian opens the door and I run into his arms embracing him in a long comforting hug. “I’m so sorry Julian,” I say while stroking the back of his head. “I’m just happy you’re finally here babe, I really need you,” he says and it breaks my heart that I couldn’t be there for him
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days The reason you left
POV Millie I arrive at the office just after nine, I stopped at a resale shop on my way in. It was a weird morning, I feel like Steph has been avoiding me. Women though, we do weird things when we’re PMSing. I brought in some small green plants, some landscape photos for the wall, and some cute pen holders. This should make the office look a little less…sad. I set up some of the things, already significantly better in here. My phone dings on the dark wood desk. I retrieve it and it’s Nick. How’s the decorating going? Everything pink already? I chuckle at the message. Me: Ha. Ha. No, I reconsidered last minute. Nick: Thank you god Me: How’s the document signing going? Nick: It’s so much fun, equivalent to pink. I laugh out loud. Me: I’m really missing out then huh?Nick: For sure. Would’ve been black coffee to me if you were here. Oh shit..what do I even say to that? Me: Sure..Nick: Guess we’ll never know will we? Me: I guess not Ugh, why does this feel so wrong? I me
Last Updated : 2024-02-26
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37 Days Epilogue
POV Millie 6 months later “Ow!” I screech out. “Well if you’d just hold still!” X says looking up at me. “Are you sure you’ve tattooed someone before and I’m not the first?” I ask starting to regret my decision. He keeps his gaze on me and shakes his head in disbelief, “I’ve done this before baby, I’ve tattooed Julian plenty of times.”“Seriously? Julian? That’s not making me feel any better,” I say shaking my head back at him. He laughs, “I’m hurt you don’t trust me.” “Oh, whatever,” I roll my eyes at him and he gets back to work on my arm. The past six months have been quite life-changing but also in a good way. Julian proposed to Steph last month. I swear I question his mindset sometimes. He pulled another psychopath role-play scenario scaring her to death. “Marry me or I’ll kill you” I mean c’mon Julian…she’s been traumatized after walking in on me drenched in blood that day. My mind goes back to that day. It was a beautiful disaster. Stone worked overtime cleaning the
37 Days Eye for an eye
POVMillie & X XAs soon as the words fall from Stephanie’s mouth that Millie is in trouble I book it out of the door. I practically fly down the stairs, holding onto the railing for support but jumping four stairs at a time. Time is of the essence, every second that passes is a second closer to Millie’s death. I don’t know Dani’s motive here but I can only assume the worst. I’m finally on the third level of the house, sprinting through the hall. I hear Stephanie and Julian behind me, gasping for air as they try to keep up for Millie’s sake. A thunderous bang fills my ears and my heart plummets immediately. A gunshot. I want to fall to my fucking knees and die. “No!” Stephanie cries out but continues running behind. “309! It’s 309!” Stephanie sobs breathlessly. 312, 311, 310, 309! I instantaneously slide my master keycard in the door. “Fuck, hurry up!” I scream out kicking the door. Fucks sake an eternity later the green light appears. I hastily open the door barging thro
37 Days The truth be told
POVMillie I tell Steph I need some pain relievers for an oncoming headache but really, my nervousness has gotten the better of me. In the past two weeks, X has been a madman in his office for more hours than not. I’m not entirely sure what is going on or if it’s just investigating the incident from two weeks prior. Sure, I told him I thought it was Dani that one day but I chose not to press the issue after, for now at least. I roam the hall for a few minutes, something in my gut is feeling…off? I feel the presence of someone behind me, I go to turn around but I’m pushed against the wall, hard. “Don’t. say. A. Word” a husky voice from behind me demands. Fear strikes me within. Could this be X role-playing the way Julian and Steph did? Something tells me no though. I know X’s touch, his scent, his body and this is not it, it’s not him. The fear creeps over every inch of my body and into terror. I’m forced to move my legs to a black door and I’m slammed against it facing forward
37 Days + 34
POVX“Ah, what the fuck man,” Julian complains as I hit yet another solid ball into the pocket. I smirk his way taking all the glory as I’m currently kicking his ass in pool. “Gimme the lighter,” I say with my hand open towards his way. He hands me the red Bic lighter. I spark it up and light up my joint, take a hard hit, and hand the joint to Julian. “Good shit,” I say and then blow the smoke out in his face. “Fuck you, bro,” he says as it goes straight into his eyes. Oops. “Shoot your shot already,” I badger him.I sit on the crocodile brown leather bar stool and lean forward to watch him miss the shot. “Calm your tits,” he says concentrating on the yellow-striped ball. “Fuck yeah!” He yells out, dammit he got it. My phone vibrates in my pocket and I lean myself backward to reach inside the pocket of my black jeans to retrieve it. My spine stiffen from the text from an unknown number. +34 85601-1337You fucked up X. Now you’re going to pay. Blood will be shed Who the
37 Days Taking my advice
POV Stephanie I bring my computer to life, type in my password, and open up the browser to search for morning flights. “Do you think everything is okay?” Millie asks me laced with suspicion. “Yeah mills, don’t worry this isn’t unusual,” I remark calmly. “Okay,” she balls her hands into a fist on her lap. She notably looks uncomfortable as I go to work and it’s distracting me. “I think I’m getting a bit of a headache, do you mind if I grab some ibuprofen from your room?” She asks rubbing her head. “Oh yeah for sure,” I say handing her my keycard and she gets up stepping out of the office. Okay, now I can actually concentrate. I click on various flights, Julian didn’t say anything about a return flight so I choose a one-way ticket until advised otherwise. I book them their usual hotel rooms for three nights, once again, I can adjust it at any time. I text Julian that they have a flight booked for 9:30 tomorrow morning. I close my computer down, turn off my office light, and
37 Days Pressured to play
POV Millie It’s been an extremely interesting last couple of days. I sit on X’s lap wrapped in a light blanket on the balcony while we watch Julian and Slim risk their lives lighting off fireworks, the real Fourth of July. Although I hold my breath every time they bring a flame to the firecracker, the beauty of the lights over the ocean almost makes it worth one of them losing an arm. I snuggle into X’s hard warm body, wishing to be cocooned into him forever. I’m a lot more at peace now, X sat me down and explained his talk with Dani which I appreciate him doing. She’s still on my shit list though and I promise she’ll pay. …It’s Friday evening and It’s been two weeks since the Fourth of July. I’m physically and mentally in a better place but I of course still have my moments. X and I have been in a much better place as well since our brawl that one night. “Oh my gosh, you guys! We need to discuss chapter 23!” Mia says fanning her face. Oh yeah, somehow in the past two week
37 Days Flick you
POVXI pull Dani outside of the door and close it behind me. I run my fingers through my hair in frustration towards Millie. I don’t know what that shit was but this is obviously not working out right now. “Dani, look,” I start off as she looks up at me expectantly. “Millie is not okay right now and I apologize,” I say trying to be nice. “Look, X, it’s fine. She’s hurting right now and she needs someone to blame, it’s okay, I understand it and I’m not taking it personally,” she says being mature about the whole situation. “Thank you, but like I said, she’s not okay. Something about you is triggering her. She may be out of line right now but she is my main priority. I’m not firing you but I need you to stay away from me. As for work goes, I need you to go to Julian for everything. As for a friend, I like you as a person I really do but I need you to not text me anymore or come here unannounced or at all for that matter. Millie is my main focus and I need to respect her feelings,
37 Days The villain I’ll be
POVMillie I’m awoken by a knock at X’s door. X is still sleeping, miles away from me may I add. He was incredibly sweet to take care of me, holding me in the shower, dressing me, and sleeping next to me when I knew he didn’t really want to do any of it but he still did. For me. “X” I gently shake him awake. “What?” He grumbles out. “Someone is at the door,” I say. “Ugh!” He grunts, “stay here I’ll be right back.”He yawns and sleepily sits on the edge of the bed running his fingers through his hair and walks out of the bedroom. I rub my eyes and grab my phone from the nightstand, five o’clock?! My god that’s the longest I’ve slept in days, I really needed that. I have a text from Steph How are you feeling? Let me know if I can bring anything up for you. Do you need a spicy novel? Also, how’d the conversation with X go? That was two hours ago. Hey! Sorry I fell asleep. I’m feeling fine. We haven’t talked yet because we fell asleep. I might need some new yoga pants in a bit
37 Days Working overtime
POVXI’m on my tenth set of pull-ups, sweat glistening my entire body. My hair is drenched and pissing me off as it falls to my eyebrows, constantly needing to be pushed back. I’m trying to channel my rage without alcohol and working out is the only way I know how. I’ve been in my gym for two hours now, Julian joined for forty five minutes and then dipped like a weakling. I’m on my sixth rep when my phone vibrates and lights up with a notification. I finish my pull-ups, wipe myself off with a towel, gulp down some water and check my phone. Millie. I can’t do this right now. I do fifty push ups before I decide to text Millie back so I don’t lose my shit on her. She wants to talk tomorrow, I just don’t think I have it in me to face her yet. I don’t respond to her requests because it’s something I need to sleep on. We’ll see how I feel about it later. I do a few sets of Russian twists before I decide to end my workout for the night. I leave the gym dripping sweating, patting mys
