POVXI carry Millie, weaving in and out of people, and then exit the club. I carry her through the long hallway, into the elevator, and finally to the penthouse. Millie is now fast asleep, it takes every fucking muscle in my arm to reach into my pocket to grab my key to unlock the door. By some miracle I’ve accomplished it, I push open the door, backing us in carefully, attempting to not wake Millie or hit any part of her body on the door frame. I walk us into my bedroom and lay her on my bed. As luck would have it, she’s still fast asleep with an adorable little snore. I’m a little irritated with her antics tonight but god damn does she look beautiful. A few weeks ago I never thought I’d see the image of the woman I love laying here in my bed again but here she is, sleeping like an angel. I lean down and kiss her forehead, “I love you,” I whisper. My phone starts to ring, Julian. I leave the bedroom and go into the living room, careful not to wake sleeping beauty. “Yeah, what’s u
POV Millie I’ve left him stunned by my words as he just lays there, back to the ground and silenced. I feel empowered being the one in control right now, it’s usually him who controls every situation but today, right here, right now, it’s me, I’m holding the power. “So what’s it going to be Xavier?” I ask in a seductive raspy tone. “I..umm..” he starts saying like a thirteen-year-old boy, flustered and shy and completely submissive to me.“What’s that?” I ask poking fun at the situation. “I’ll take option one,” he whispers. “Good boy,” I say taking my heel off of his rock-hard chest. I turn my back to him and look over my shoulder as I drop one strap away from my shoulder, “are you going to just lie there and stare or help me?” He races to his feet as fast as humanly possible. I’m now turned back facing him. He unzips the top part of my two-piece dress, letting it fall to the floor and revealing to him my bare chest. “No bra, huh?” He asks into my ear. “I think that you’ll f
POV X Weeks of pent-up frustration and stress have finally been released. I needed this more than I really thought. I would’ve waited an eternity for Millie to be ready for what we just did. This is how I wanted it to be, where she came to me, practically begging, that’s how I knew she was inclined. I couldn’t deny her anymore, not that she was allowing me much of a choice anyway. She was on fucking fire tonight, in complete control of what she wanted, what she needed from me. It was fucking amazing being with Millie again. I missed that body of hers, the connection of being one again. It’s more than just fucking with her, it’s deeper than that. Everything is different with that woman, she’s changed the game for me when I never thought anyone could. She’s currently lying in my arms, fast asleep, naked and our bodies are as close as can be, entangled in one another and I couldn’t feel any more whole than I am right now. I love her so fucking much it’s overwhelming and terrifying at
POVMillie I keep the pen in between my fingers flicking on my desk echoing a calming sound while my mind is going a mile a minute. I have work to do on this Monday morning but the highs and lows of the weekend have overridden my attention. Now that I have a clearer head, the highs of being in the same vicinity of X and the lows of not knowing what to think of Dani come to mind. The two of them seemed so…natural together. What were they doing together outside that night before I interrupted? I’m still a little shocked I had the confidence to confront them, it was the alcohol of course, but what if I didn’t? Would they have done something with one another? “Ugh,” I sigh out dropping the black pen to the desk and occupying my hands with the weight of my overactive head. My mind goes solely back to Dani. I’m not sure if the past is catching up to me and the insecurities I feel when it comes to X that make me weary about her or if I’m just being dramatic and she is in fact just an inno
POVMillie It’s here. The dreaded day of June 22nd has arrived like it does every year. I’ll get the sympathy texts from family like I do every anniversary. It’s bittersweet to receive the messages because I know it’s coming from a loving place but on the other hand, I’m the one that took my mom's life, it's sad and humiliating through and through. June 22nd is always the same routine, I cry myself to sleep the night before, wake up absolutely distraught like the event happened only hours ago, and play every minute of the day in my mind the same way it did that day. I go into self-destruction mode and watch the clock remembering what I was doing at that exact moment. For example, it’s currently 9:00 am, physically I’m at work, mentally, I’m sitting at home with my mom while my dad is at work. I’m eating breakfast while I talk to my mom about the dress we’re picking up and from there I’ll continue on with every detail, living the day in a divided reality. This year I prayed I wouldn
POVMillie This man, this man I have fallen for, makes me fall for him deeper and deeper with every passing day. In this moment, I don’t think I can love a person more. He understands me in ways I didn’t know I needed to be understood. He’s here for me, standing in front of me holding me while I fall apart. I love him the way I know I will never love another. He opens his way too-expensive car for me and I get inside, he closes the door for me and walks around the car to get himself in. I have no idea what he’s got in mind but as long as he’s here by my side, I’m in for it. He pulls us out of my work parking lot and hops on the freeway going southbound. I’m really confused about where we’re headed. He takes his hand in mine giving it a minuscule squeeze, just enough to redirect my attention to him. “Why don’t you take a little nap, it’s going to be a bit of a drive,” he says glancing from me to the road. I nod my head, a nap doesn’t sound like an awful idea, I’m exhausted from th
POVMillie After paying, I change out of my work clothes and into my Coronado attire in the dressing room. I thank the woman I’m not entirely fond of before exiting the store and meeting a waiting X outside. He’s currently on his phone sounding less than pleasant to whoever he’s speaking to. I empathize with the unfortunate person on the other line. X has never yelled at me and I think if he would have I would’ve been frightened, his whole demeanor changes when he’s pissed. Sure, when he’s upset he’s thrown some inappropriate hateful words my way but I know he doesn’t actually mean them.As he’s still on the phone, he turns around looks my way, smirks at my new and not-so-improved out, and holds up his index finger to indicate he’ll be a minute. Good, I’ll need a minute anyway. This freaking guy is going to make me melt and become one with the concrete beneath my feet. He’s made literally two changes to his appearance and I’m about ready to hump my way to him like an over-hormonal
POVXMillie is currently changing back into her work clothes, she refuses to wear the clothes we bought earlier for this restaurant. While she’s busy changing I call Dani. After three rings she answers. “Yo,” she says through the line, see, just like a guy. “Hey, I need you to box up the green, Antonio is coming this weekend and needs ten pounds to bring back with him,” I say trying to be as discreet as possible. “Yeah, okay consider it done,” she says confidently. I don’t say anything else, I just hang up. I was planning to do it myself today but Millie needed me more today and she always comes first in my life. She comes back out dressed, “ready to go?” I ask. She nods and follows me down the strip to Bluewater Boathouse. We’re greeted by some tall, lanky loser who’s looking my girl up and down like she’s on the menu. She’s fucking not, maybe for me but no one else. I want to deck this fucker in the face but I guess it wouldn’t be appropriate for how classy this place looks.