CARLA
Dragging up my suitcase through the wrecked and ruined staircases of my apartment was tiring, and I was panting like I had just finished a marathon.My chapped kneecap was a little bruised and bleeding from the few times I fell on my way up here and it was beginning to sting. But I couldn't pay much attention to it.I had a few more staircases to climb before getting to my apartment. My legs were wobbly and my arms were hurting from dragging my heavy suitcase.It would have been easier if we had an elevator, but the building was an almost demolished structure. The owner had a last-minute change of mind and decided to rent it out to students who couldn't afford a real, nice apartment. Students like me and my roommates, whom I guess should already be inside the apartment.We split the bills between ourselves and we've been able to take care of the expenses over the years we've spent here.I can't complain about the poor housing. It saved my ass and gave me a roof over my head. Surely, it was a hundred times better than not having somewhere to sleep at all.With a deep breath, I continued dragging myself and my suitcase until I finally got to the door of my apartment.I kicked it open and barged inside, falling to the ground and letting out a deep, tired breath.The gigglings from all sides just proved my guess – the girls were already here. And like every other time, I was the last person to return to school for the new session."Looks like someone ran out of breath." Tina teased, standing next to me and running her hand across my face."Do we help you up or would you rather lie there for the rest of the day?" Betty added with a chuckle and the others laughed."Yeah, she could be our new foot mat. What a lovely foot mat she'll make." Cindy joined in the tease.I was laughing my heart out but it was only getting me to run out of breath. The girls were always like this whenever I made my late return to school. They always tease me for it."Girls, have a heart. Please." I sighed dramatically, struggling to sit up. "You know why I don't always return to school as early as you guys do."Betty helped me to my feet and I went to sit on my bed. It was a small, worn-out foam that hardly passed for a bed but it was better than nothing at all."Yeah, we do." Tina sighed, wearing a sad look. While we were all agemates, we had months difference, with Tina being the oldest and me being the youngest."We're all Omegas but I think you experience more pain than we do. You go through more stress at your Pack because of their unending chores.""No, Betty, not really. I mean, it is stressful, but I've grown to love it. Maybe it keeps me from returning here early, but I don't mind. And no one's forcing me to do them, I choose to." I explained with a smile, taking off the small jacket that I had worn over my dress."Okay, if you say so," Cindy muttered, joining me on my bed. The room went silent but I was more focused on settling in."Could you help me with my suitcase? I need to unpack." I said. Betty nodded and pulled it over to where I was sitting. "Thank you." I smiled at her and slowly began taking out my stuff."Uh– Carla?" Cindy called with a bit of apprehension in her voice. An apprehension I hadn't noticed because I was too busy trying to settle in."Yes?" I mumbled, not glancing at her. I took some clothes to the small closet that we all shared. I mean, we literally share almost everything in this room. And even though we get uncomfortable sometimes because of its crampiness, we still manage to put up with each other."Is he still bothering you?" The question was low but it had a reverberating force with it. I slowly stopped what I was doing and slumped back on my bed, as the question aroused a million, unsettling thoughts inside me."We all know the reason you delay in return also has to do with the horror you face in the hands of his friends. Are they still on your case? Is Alpha Dawson still being a jerk to you?""I'm afraid things just got more complicated than that." An echo of fear accompanied my words and my face contorted in mixed emotions."What do you mean?" Tina asked as she came to stand next to me. Betty joined her too, hovering next to me and they were all watching me with keen gazes, waiting for my logical explanation.But I had no logical explanation for my words. I mean, I don't understand his actions either. It's been very weird lately, and it was beginning to freak me out.First, I interrupted his fuck session with Joyce and the sight of his huge cock had left me wet and made me entertain a lot of lewd thoughts about him.It was strange and I knew I had to stay far from him. Letting him mess with my mind and head would be very detrimental to me.And then, when I met him two days ago next to his room, he was trying to explain why he fucked Joyce. It made no sense.Why would he try to explain that to me? How was it any business of mine? And the fact that she came out of his room again proved that whatever explanations he was giving weren't real.So why did he try to explain at all? What mind game was he playing? What if I can't figure it out and I end up falling for his games? I'm sure he's planning something with his friends. They must be thinking of ways to continue making my life hellish.The thought of that gave me sleepless nights and left me very worried. It was the main reason I delayed returning here. If I had a choice, I wouldn't want to return to school this session.But Luna Giselle had insisted that I returned and I was left with no choice but to be back here."Did Alpha Dawson do something weird to you?" Betty asked curiously, as she patted my shoulder, ridding me of my deep thoughts."N–no, he didn't.""Did something happen between you two?""No. I just saw him a few times in the Pack and that's all.""So how did things get more complicated?""Uh–never mind that. Hey, help me put this in the bathroom, please?" I stretched out my towel to Tina and she reluctantly took it and headed for the bathroom.I flashed a half smile to Betty and Cindy, hoping it would kill their curiosity and they would stop asking me questions."Alpha Smith is here," Tina announced just at the same time his cologne filled the room and his footsteps interrupted the brief silence."Hey, friend." He beamed at me, hugging me and rocking my body like I was a kid. He let me go and nodded at the girls.They muttered their greetings to him with bows and returned to their corners, giving us the smallest privacy they could spare in our little room."How have you been, Smith?" It's been days since I last saw him. And yeah, I did miss him badly."Awful. You weren't next to me." He said, dropping his voice in a mesmerizing whisper. The girls began to snicker and I couldn't help the blush that filled my cheeks."Stop that." I playfully punched his stomach. "Now tell me, for real, how have you been?"He shrugged. "Good.""Anything exciting happened these past few days?" I asked, bending again to finish putting all my stuff where they belonged."None. Uh, can we take a walk, Carla?" He asked, stuffing his hands into his pocket and straightening his tall frame. The tiny, almost insignificant crease on his face showed he was uncomfortable with the audience. "If you don't mind?" He added."Sure." I nodded. He grabbed my hand and led me out of the apartment.I heard the girls do their usual silent cheer whenever I was with Smith and it got me chuckling but we were already out of the apartment. Thank goodness!They were such silly romantics who wouldn't quit pining and hoping that me and Smith become an official couple. It was impossible – Smith was an Alpha and I was just an Omega. Our worlds were too different and there was no way to merge them.Also, he would be meeting his mate soon 'cause he already clocked twenty. There was no way that would be me. I could never be his mate. It has to be another girl. Someone classy and sophisticated. Someone worthy of him.And lastly, I did love Smith, but just as a good friend, and he felt the same way. So there could never be any sort of romance between us.I've tried a million times to explain this to the girls but they just wouldn't believe me. So I decided to drop the explanations and let them believe whatever they deemed fit.Smith grinned as we walked through the iron gate of the school. My apartment was just a few blocks away, so it was easy for us to get here."Did you miss this place?" He asked, glancing around."A little." I smiled nervously. "Why are we here? The school session officially starts tomorrow. We have no reason to be here today.""I know. I just thought we could stroll the grounds. See what the schedule for this year looks like." I didn't say a word so he continued. "C'mon, it's better hanging out here than staying back at your apartment and being subjected to the stares from your roommates.""Yeah. I'm sorry about that. They were just being silly.""I know. That's why I try to ignore them. "The hallways had a handful of students who were lingering around. My frightened gaze searched around, just to be convinced that those bullies weren't here."Carla, what happened to your knee?" Smith pulled us to a halt, then he bent to get a closer look at my bruised knee. "Who did this to you?""No one. I fell down the stairs in my apartment." I explained, wincing a bit as he ran a finger around it."You should get it treated or it's gonna leave a scar." He said and took out a little band-aid from his pocket, carefully placing it on the bruise. "When you finally turn twenty, you'll meet your wolf and it'll help you heal your wounds. You won't be needing medical help anymore.""I hope so."He continued running his fingers around the bruise, and it gave me a tingling, relaxing feeling.But then I heard their loud, boyish laughter, and my nerves chilled. There they were, heading towards us.Oh, My God."What the hell are these jerks doing here?" Smith sounded irritated as he stood, shielding me with his body.I was trembling with each step they took. How badly I wished the ground would open up and take me inside. It would be a better fate than having to deal with Alpha Dawson and his friends.Glancing at them, I hadn't expected my gaze to meet Dawson's. But it did, and he was staring heatedly at me.It increased my fear and brought about a sudden wetness between my legs. But why? I had no idea.DAWSONThe beeping sound from my phone was a huge distraction for me and I fucking appreciated it. Listening to the loud moans and feral grunts wafting through the door was becoming tiring. It was nice to listen to a different sound.Taking out my phone, I checked the message that had popped on the notification bar. It was a text from – Michael?I looked up and he winked at me. Silly guy! With a smirk, I clicked on the text and read it inwardly.–The bitch screams like a broken record. Wtf?!–Wheezing at his words, I threw my head backwards, taking a peep through the small window of the empty hall where the screams were coming from.I could only make out the silhouette of the girl, with her legs held by firm hands, and her hand was braced on the only desk in the hall.Another beep and my gaze was back to my phone. This time, it was from Nick. Why were these two morons texting me when we were standing in the same hallway, with almost no distance between us?I clicked on the text and was
DAWSONI did a mental countdown in my head, trying to assert a normal pace where my breathing could fit in so I wouldn't have to give off those gruff breaths anymore. I stood on one spot and watched Smith inspect Carla's bruised knees jabbed hard at my chest. It looked like one hell of a romantic scene, where the guy looks out for his girl. But that's bullshit! He had no right to care for her. Or get touchy with her. She wasn't his mate. Why the hell was he bothered about her?I should be the one doing that – taking care of her and keeping her safe from falls and whatever she'd done to have earned the bruise. It should be me, standing next to her. Not him. Not this god-awful Smith Derell. Why the hell won't he just back off? Why was he making me hate him more than I already did? "Isn't that our little chipmunk?" Nick whistled in a mock tone, pointing at Carla, who had already noticed us and was fidgeting."Hell, yeah. It's her." Nick laughed, doing the whistling shit too. They always
DAWSONWild chattering and screams came from each angle of the apartment, as more people flooded in. Over half of them were students from our school and the others were random people who knew what a good party was and didn't want to miss out on one. There was a crazy supply of booze and it was consumed at a crazy pace. Bottles were littered at every corner like this was some psycho ward. The stench of bunks and cigarettes added to the frenzy and the loud music peaked the mood. Everyone was on cloud nine, taking up whatever corner was perfect for them and doing their shit. It was a mature-minded party -strictly R-rated– so nothing was too much here or out of place. Every form of kinky shit was welcome. It was the rules of the party– have fun and go wild.The school session resumes officially tomorrow and we will all be swarmed with academic work. Tonight was our only free night until graduation. That was why the guys had organized the party and just as they expected, it pulled half th
DAWSON"Why would I be here with her?" Smith retorted. "You train a bunch of feral dogs here and they sure as hell gonna eat her up. I'm not that stupid. I know better than bringing her to your hood."His words were nasty as hell and made me contemplate knocking off a couple of teeth from his mouth. But at the same time, they gave me a bit of ease too. Carla wasn't here. She wasn't at this party. There was zero chance that she would see this dirty side of me. That fact gave me a huge solace. "Then tell me. What the fuck are you doing here?" I asked, regaining my anger and spite for him. "Believe me, I didn't wanna be here either–""Then leave." I cut in bluntly, pointing at the door. "What's stopping you?""I was invited. And I gave my word that I would be here. I'm an Alpha. I stick to my word.""That's bullshit." I snorted with a dry chuckle. He was spewing nonsense. "There was no fucking way you could have gotten an invitation. No one wants you here. Not me and definitely not my
CARLA Every step I took on the grounds of the school gave me a couple of mixed emotions. I was happy to be back here and resume where I had stopped last session. And of course, there were also fun activities that made me feel thrilled to be back. But then, I was also scared of what would become of me this new season. Every year, I face a lot of misfortunes and I get sent to the school's clinic a whole lot more than was normal. I was everyone's target because the most popular guys in the school hated me. I was always singled out and dealt with. This year, I was hoping it would be different. Last night, I did a couple of prayers to the moon goddess. I don't want to be a target of bullying this year. For the first time since I got enrolled here, I want to be happy. I want to experience something that would change my life completely, but in a good way, you know? Maybe I was asking for too much, but there has never been any harm in praying and hoping. And deep down, I hope my prayers ge
CARLAHaving Alpha Dawson next to me right now was torturing. His alluring cologne infiltrated my nostrils, setting up an uproar at the bottom of my stomach. I refused to glance to the side, so I didn't meet his gaze. Instead, I kept my eyes pinned on my books. "Mr. Dawson, please take your seat!" The lecturer demanded."Can you move over, Carla?" He asked, in that deep voice. I froze. No way am I gonna share a seat with him. It'll be the death of me."No " I shook my head. "The seats are taken.""All of them?" He scoffed, clearly hinting at how ridiculous my words were. The seats were empty and there was no way they could all get filled up. Not even in hours. There weren't many people who attended this class. Just a few of us and I'm still shocked that he's one of the few. How did he apply for all my classes? How do I handle the pressure of being in the same space with him every day? Surely it wouldn't be easy to avoid him. But I still have to try, right?"Carla, please move aside
DAWSONI listened to the sounds of her footsteps until they faded and were replaced by an echoing silence.Seconds turned into minutes and then became a moment, but I had yet to recover from the shock of the conversation we just had.Fuck that!It wasn't a conversation. I barely said a word. And the few I said were harsh and didn't sit right with her. It was too late to take them back. She didn't give me a chance to redeem myself, but instead, she went ahead to burn me with her words.And all because of Smith. It fucking hurts listening to her defend him with so much passion, but she won't let me come a fucking inch closer to her. She adores the guy like he was the best thing that happened to her. But with me, it's different. She's either scared of me or lashing out at me with so much spite. Knowing she harbors that much hate for me kills me a little more each day. I know I deserve it. I deserve the anger, the hate, the curses. I deserve all of them. But I'm trying here. I'm fucking
CARLAOne week passed and Alpha Dawson never showed up at school again. After his fight with Smith, he seemed to have disappeared. No sign of him in my classes or the hallways or with his friends. He didn't show up in front of me anymore. It was like he finally took my pleading to heart and decided to stay away from me. His fight with Smith had been on the lips of students for a while. Everyone pointed out how he started the fight and the agitated altercation he had with Smith before the fight started. It was about me, again.I asked Smith about it but he was reluctant to discuss the fight with me. He repeatedly demanded that I let it go. And then, I did. I stopped asking him but I was still curious. I think I'll always be curious.Every day, I went to class with tiny hopes of seeing Alpha Dawson. Yeah, it made no sense that I wanted to see him. I wasn't missing him, no way. But then, his absence made me feel weird.It's like I'd gotten used to his constant pressuring and accosting.
CARLASmith demanded that I stay and I did. Right next to him. On his bed. It made me a teeny bit sad that I couldn't stay next to Dawson this way when he got injured. I did wanna go to him. But his clique would have lashed out at me. That's why I stayed away. Smith hasn't said another word. His eyes were shut. But I could tell he was awake, cause he was holding my hand and his thumb was repeatedly caressing the back of my hand. It was soothing and got me dizzy. I kinda dozed off. When I woke up, he was sitting up and running a hand over my hair. My head was resting on his shoulder. I quickly leaned up. He chuckled softly."Morning, princess."I gaped. "Morning?" Did I spend the night here?"No, silly. It was a joke." His chuckle was light and had a slight wince.Oh, thank goddess. I looked around briefly. It was just us in the cubicle. There were no background noises from the hallway. It was all oddly silent. "What time is it?"He glanced at his wristwatch. "A minute to 6.""Eve
CARLA"That guy is weird as fuck." Brian scoffed, as we shuffled through the pile of students cramming the hallway. "Weird. Crazy. Obnoxious. You name it and you'll be right. He's all that and more." Smith replied. He had his arm around my shoulder, keeping me from brushing against any of the students. A single strapped bag hung off his other shoulder and his gym shirt was hanging on the same shoulder too.We just got off the field. After Dawson's interruption, Smith and his teammates stayed and practiced an extra hour. As much as I wanted to go find Dawson and maybe talk to him, I couldn't leave the field. I had promised Smith I would watch. I didn't wanna break my promise. Also, Dawson just might not appreciate my concern. With the way he's been ignoring me, I thought it was best I kept my distance. "I don't understand why he came to the field. It was certainly not to play. He's not healed yet." Brian continued, still pissed about the argument they had with Dawson earlier. It
CARLATrudging into the deadly quiet hall, I had a book in one hand and my bag in the other. A couple of students walked in just the same time I did and they went ahead to take their seats. I was in a sad daze. Last night's agony was yet to wear off, and I was still as doleful. And I just might remain this way, until—My steps slowed as my eyes slanted and paused at the farthest corner of the hall. The crazy thud of my heart was a result of the excitement hijacking my insides. I let out a soft gasp, as tears burned my eyes. They were tears of joy. Just like the swelling of my heart being a happy reaction to the sight I had taken in. Dawson. He was in class, sitting next to Liam. No Nick. No Michael. Just the both of them. He didn't look as pained as he did yesterday. No, on the contrary, he looked more handsome than ever, with the black hoodie and blue denim pants.The hood was over his head, and a hair strand peered from it.Liam was also wearing a hoodie, a brown one with the
DAWSONIt was the toughest, most torturous, painful, and most disconcerting thirty-minute wait of my life before Rick Taylor finally decided to get his ass out of the café.Wait — I glanced at my watch— make that thirty-one minutes. About damn time! What the fuck was he doing in there? Taking a shit?He got into the car, slamming the door behind him. "Your coffee?" The cup was stretched to my face. I looked at the cup and then at him. "I'll fuck you up if you don't get that shit out of my face."He smiled, retrieved his hand, and began sipping it. Yeah, either he drinks it or he throws it away. I don't care. I wasn't craving coffee. A lot of questions lined up in my head. But I had to ask them more naturally. To avoid getting him suspicious. "I saw Smith go inside the café. Did he say anything to you?" He shrugged, crossing a leg over the other. "He was being a jerk. But I ignored it. Not like I could fight him."Stupid jerk. Why wouldn't he let my people be? The guys. Rick Taylo
CARLA I arrived late at work and I was almost scolded by my boss. Brian had to step in for me and tell him about the incident that happened in school. It was enough to get me off his scolding list and then he put me to work behind the counter. It's been hard to smile at the customers with how heavy and gloomy I was feeling. Still, I tried to let out faint smiles and picked my words carefully so I wouldn't come off as rude and unreceptive. But in every idle second and minute, I found myself thinking of Dawson. Rewinding that moment in that hallway where he walked right past me like I was some stranger. Being bullied and having my face bashed into the lockers didn't hurt as much as watching him ignore me did. The pain was another level and it was depressing. If I got this affected by his action, then there was no more living in denial or downplaying it. Because it just became clearer that somewhere down the line between hating him and entertaining his naughtiness and cockines
DAWSON "Was that really Carla Jason back there in that hallway?" Rick Taylor asked with a heavy tinge of excitement. I ignored him, choosing to look out the window instead. With the crazy level of rage piling up inside me, I was an inch away from venting it on someone. Lucky him, he could be that someone if he didn't stop getting on my damn nerves with his questions! Rick Taylor was the worst choice of guy to be around right now, that I was in a snit. He was too innocent and clueless and might just tick me off without knowing. And if I did lash out, then I would feel guilty about it all my life, because he didn't deserve it, logically. He shouldn't be next to me right now but I was down to my last option. I needed to leave that stuffy infirmary and I needed a ride for that. I already argued with the guys so I couldn't get them to take me. There was no one else to do it. Except him. So I had to call him to come over and bring a few clothes that I could change into. I hadn't
CARLAWaking up to Smith's low and husky conversation with Brian felt like the most natural sound to wake up to. Except, I don't recall taking a nap. So why do I feel so woozy?I opened my eyes to a plain white ceiling decor. Turning my head to the side, I realized it wasn't just Smith and Brian. There were two more of them and they weren't wearing the soccer practice outfit anymore. They all changed back to their normal wear.What happened? Did the practice end already? Why don't I recall any of it happening? And again, where am I?Brian was laughing at something Smith said, but then his gaze found me and he grinned. "The princess is finally awake."Smith turned sharply and hurried to me. "Fuck, Carla. You gave us quite a scare. Are you alright?" He rubbed his warm hand on my forehead. "I feel fine. Where am I?" Even my voice had the grogginess that came with sleeping for so long. What really happened?"You don't remember fainting out in the field?" Smith started."And Smith bring
SMITHIt's bad enough that I started the day making a mess with Dawson. Worse, I got a week of detention and I now have a taint in my incredible school record.Even worse now, I've got the whole school thinking of me as an assailant and psycho out to kill Dawson Walcott.Even more painful that Carla was also judging me for my brutality against Dawson. She might not say it. But I could feel it. And she had every right to judge me.I was wrong. I know that. Giving him a fractured rib was a bit too far. But help me, goddess, it's just so fucking hard to see her giving me those judgy stares and making me feel like shit. It hurts to see her worried about that jerk. Overlooking the fact that I did what I did for her. Because I love her. If only I could make her understand that. But I can't. So I'm stuck. This whole rambling narrows down to the fact that I've had a crappy day since I drove into the parking lot today. I was looking to end it on a nicer note, with the soccer practice and Ca
CARLAI stepped into the hall and took a seat in the middle row. Placing my books on the desk, I glanced around the half-filled hall. It was a habit now. First, I sit. And then I check if he's here. If he isn't, then I keep glancing at the door, anticipating his mind-seizing entry.I already looked around before I stopped myself, recalling that there was no chance for him to be in here. He was at the infirmary. My eyes were fixed on my feet as tears welled in them. I've been spilling those tears ever since he got carried away from my sight.Watching him hit the ground so hard and groaning in pain felt like a wicked stab to my heart. Watching them carry him away felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. The unexplainable pain created a sad chaos inside me.I had to run off to the restroom to bawl my eyes out. It didn't make sense that seeing him get hurt would make me feel so sad. But then, I wasn't just sad. I was broken. There was this low-key, innate kinda anger that