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100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Let go memories
Chapter 8[Let go memories]It’s been 24 days since I have been here, away from my friends and family. Today, I remember sweet little Evie. I wonder how she’s doing at the moment. Her cancer was at a critical stage already. Her chances of survival were below five percent. I wanted to be there with her, to be there for her. She was all her father got left.Caleb walked in to announce the Alpha was would be coming to see me in a few minutes. I got out of bed with my rough hair and pale looking face. Ian came in. He noticed my saddened facial expression almost immediately he stepped inside. He seized his eyes and raised his eyebrows like he always does. “Hey, good morning… Alpha.” I greeted. He cleared his throat to speak with an Alpha’s voice. “You don’t look like yourself today, is there a problem?” he asked.I sighed, and nodded. “I don’t know. I can’t help it from within… here.” I said. “not that I could have helped it in anyway. It’s just not fair.” “The world is not fair, nei
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Tale of Ville and the Cabin
Chapter 9[Tale of Ville and the Cabin]I stared outside the beautiful roads excitedly. It was a sight to behold. I loved the trees alongside it. So different from the cities in the State. It had been a while since I saw outside the Alphas castle. I looked back at the pack which we had just left. Ian rested his head by the window with his eyes clothes. His face was comparable to that a sweet cute looking toddler, so innocent and lovely. “Where are we… going?” I askedSnape, the driver looked at me through the mirror. “Oh, didn’t the Alpha tell you? We are going to Ville culture.” He said.“Ville culture? What’s that?” I asked eagerly as the name was a strong catch.“Ville culture. It is a tradition we must do here every here. You see, at ancient times, all packs were one. Everyone was together, until we weren’t. But at the time we were together as one pack, the Alpha and everyone came together to make a garden at the center of the pack. It has all the beautiful flowers and great
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Touch me O Alpha
Chapter 10 [Touch me o Alpha]It is 21st December, many years ago. I am five years old. Little Jared picks up a box of wrapped early Christmas present. He is so happy, as he smiles running to dad with the box in his hand. Father picked him up and he laughed. It is a happy family for real. He unboxed the present. It was a spray gun. The neighbors must have brought that one in. I picked up one too, and I unwrapped it. It is a tiny guitar without any string at all. I smiled just like my little brother. Dad carried me too. He was strong and muscular, because, at the time, he was hitting the gym every weekend.“Dad?” “What is it sweetie?” Dad asked. He put some cereal in his mouth and chewed it like he does, like a clown. I always find that funny. I laughed. “Come on, what is it?” he asked again, chewing even worst than he did the first time, making me laugh harder and louder.The door bell rang. Dad put us down and went to get it. It was more present. He had ordered for them earlie
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Let me know love
Chapter 11[Let me know love]I got off the train. It was 11 : 26pm when I looked at the time on my phone. I stood in one place, marveled at the beautiful view the city and its sky had. Japan was just as I thought, a beautiful world of its own. The buildings, designs, restaurants, and lightings were views to be grateful for, and I loved all of it, but in all, I loved the moon more. It was different, and I should say more spiritual and relatable. It was like it knew I was there, like it had something it wanted to show me, or tell me. I sat at a free roundabout and gazed at its blue face with all my attention. I wished he was here with me right now. I wished he gave me his shoulders to lean on, that we were together. He isn’t Robinson. He was out there, I believed it for a while. At a time, I even thought I saw him. I had a strong imagination. I took a lot of photos this day, and finally, I took one more. It was me alone in the streets. It was me with the moon.*** Ian said not to c
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. A night after
Chapter 12[A night after]Feeding routine is different here. Here, breakfast is lunch, and dinner is dinner. We eat only twice a day no matter how long, stressful or awfully boring the day was. We visit the Graves of all Alphas that have ever been, every morning and in the evening during the moonlights. Tradition forbids anyone from eating anything before this morning respect is paid. Not even as small as a shrimp. We repeat the same morning tribute until the sun is almost directly under the meridian everyday. Quite exhausting for a one time thing, but we had to do it everyday. I would complain, but I had no right to. Not to the packs council, or the Alpha, or even myself. We were also not to have any form of sexual intercourse until after this morning. Not even cuddling or kissing, but Ian and I turned our back on that rule as we had crazy long and short sex every morning and I didn’t pay tribute to the dead with cum on my body just once. This week was one of the best I have had i
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Back to the cold
Chapter 13[Back to the cold]“Life tells no lie. What is, has always been, what has always been, will always be. It’s all just a circle. The only new thing to it is us, and it shall watch us fade away into the darkness we all came from. Our void, our fear. But even so, it’s all temporary. Everything is. Life.” Dana, a German mythologies says. I rolled the dice in my hand. I always admired her growing up. Dad came in with flowers in his hands. He looked grateful.“How are you feeling?” He asked holding my hand.“Better, I guess. Nothing I haven’t felt before.” I answered. He kissed me on the head and heaved a sigh of relief. “What took you so long?” I scolded him.“I flew in as soon as I heard. I’m so sorry.” He said. “hungry?” he asked, raising a box of chocolates.I smiled, falling for it like the eleven years old teenager I was. “Are you sure you feel OK?” He asked again.I shrugged my shoulders. “Shouldn’t you ask the doctor? I haven’t seen any since I woke up.” I said and sighed
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. A Crack in the line
Chapter 14[A Crack in the line]So while I paused with my lips apart, looking at him say everything he had just said, my mind flashed back to the story Kendra told me some time ago. I immediately saw the curse on him and believed it. Ian had made me hurt with his words and I wasn’t sure he realized it then. The way he looked at me, it was like he regretted e everything we’ve had, everything we’ve become. It was Luke he wished it never happened. The thought of this, made me sad, and angry. I had almost forgotten that look, those eyes. I know them too well. Pity and regret. Rob gave me that look, those eyes. And even now, it hurts even more. “I’m sorry. Excuse me.” He said and walked out.I sat on the bed, thinking if it was real, the legend, what I thought we had. I wondered if this was ever real to him, after all, he is an Alpha, and they pretty much play with hearts.It was dawn the next day. I touched the other side of the bed. I was the only one on it. Ian slept on a tiny chair
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Know a beast
Chapter 15[Know a beast]I stepped out of the car. I smiled back shyly as Ian’s face brimmed with a beautiful and honest smile.“What?” I asked.“Nothing.” He replied, still smiling.“Then why is a certain Alpha I know smiling like that at me?” I asked, almost laughing out. Ian shook his head, and killed the smile which was turning into a creepy grin.“You look… beautiful. I have no words for it.” He said. I smiled. That was sweet.“Alright Mr. flirt, lead the way.” I said. Ian got out and gave me his hand. His face was high up like that of Caesar. How could I not believe I made him very happy?Just then another car drove towards us like a mad driver, drifting with speed. It happened so fast and sudden that I couldn’t move. Ian pulled me some inches back, creating just enough distance for the car to stop right in front of me. My heart pounded with fear and shock. Who was the crazy werewolf being in that car? The door opened slowly, and a leg stepped out. I was eager to see who it wa
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100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Rainy sweet nights.
Chapter 21[Fated mates: Rainy sweet nights.]Ian returns. It is evening. Caleb took his coat. I smiled. Ian made a groan as he took off his coat. His arm was still hurting. His self healing process had been drastically slowed down because of his life force in me.“My lord.” I teased him. “How was it today?” I asked.“Construction will begin tomorrow. The site has been cleared out.” Caleb answered in his place. Knowing Ian well enough, Caleb knew he wouldn’t answer my question. Not in front of everyone like that, where he was supposed to be the almighty and fear striking Alpha he had built as his reputation.“I made dinner.” I said.“I am not hungry, but I will have a taste.” He said, and smiled deviously.“Sure, but first, I have to take you to the bathroom.” I said, taking his hand. I smiled at him. I knew he loved my smile so much.Yes, I bathe him. Although he refused at first, he gave in.“So, you are my mother now?” he said and laughed.“No, I’m not. Not yet. Right now, I am jus
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. The comfort in you.
Chapter 20[The comfort in you.]• I slowly opened my eyes. I faced the ceiling of my room. Kendra didn’t come to wake me up. Or perhaps she hasn’t. What was keeping Ian? Immediately, my fear began to creep in again, and soon, it was consuming me. Was I right? Did a miracle not happen? Is Ian an outcast?• Ian pulled me to himself and hugged me again. He kissed my head. “Thank you Bellamy.”• Yesterday, in the lake, we made love under the sunset, today, we kiss forever under the sunset. The passion of his touch was prayer being answered.*********“OK, please do not tell anyone I told you this. Especially the Alpha. You did not get this from me.” Kendra requested.I chuckled. “What is it?” I asked.“I can not tell you unless you give me your word.” She said, holding my hands while tripping hard.The excitement had got through to me and contaminated me as well. I because super excited to hear what secret she has for me. “Fine, I promise not to say a word. You didn’t tell me anything. W
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. The passion.
Chapter 19 [The passion] I rushed over to Ian to check what his locket says. It says “only old friends can give the deserved pride.” “He will never let you win. You have to take the bead back.” I said. “I can not take it back.” Ian yelled Tyler let go of my hand. “You say this wine is for a Victor lord, and you bring it for Ian when you know we are pitched against each other?” He asked and then laughed. “I know he will win. That is why you envy him so much. Because he is stronger.” I said. The arena was full of whispers. Tyler had won two rounds of the three. The eeriness of silence ached my head. Tyler rushing off towards Ian with all the force he could find in him, was the last thing I saw before collapsing. *** It is late in the afternoon, and still no sign of Ian arriving back in his Castle. Kendra asked me to fill her in the stories which she had already concluded where amazing, but I was not really in the mood to. My larger attention was focused on any possible news ab
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Tournament III
Chapter 18[Tournament III]With Tyler’s grinning face, I could tell everything had gone terribly bad. He took his locket and hung it on his neck chain.“Do not let me win like the first time. Let the greatest be called Lord.” He said and walked away.I rushed over to Ian to check what his locket says. It says “only old friends can give the deserved pride.”“He will never let you win. You have to take the bead back.” I said.“I can not take it back.” Ian yelled, attracting everyone’s attention towards us. “I will handle this. Do not talk to me about it any further.” He ordered with a red eye. He hung the locket on his neck chain too and stormed out. I looked at my arm. I was bleeding from the muscle Ian grabbed angrily.“Is everything ok?” Saint Cooper asked looking a bit concerned.“yes, everything is fine.” I replied.“OK. Please join us at the arena. This way.” He said, pointing me with the direction.“I’ll join you soon. I just need to see my lord first. There is something I must
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Tournament II
Chapter 17[Tournament II]What we had was a very tight situation. With a condition like this, it was bigger than both me and Ian. The entire pack, as well as Ian’s pride and my life was at stake. How could this be? There was so much to lose in just a night if this went the unfortunate way, which Ian had said was sure to happen.“what do we do then? I…” I stammered worriedly. “There must be a way.” I said.Ian continued with the walk with his hand deep in his pockets. He looked less worried than before, and far less than I was.“I have to talk to the Alpha I am pitched against. Hope lives only if he understands and let’s me win once. Aside that, there is no other way.” He said.Not very much people seemed to like Ian, even though they were all very respectful of him. I believe it was mostly driven by fear and not love or admiration. I doubt if anyone would agree to do that if they found out he was temporarily far weaker than any of them. Tyler would beat him to a pulp and watch him ou
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Tournament
Chapter 16[Tournament]Ian sat outside the cabin, under a tree at the backyard. The sun had set, and time was already ticking in the second session of the day. I crossed my hands, watching him from inside. He didn’t look OK. I felt this was the worst day of the days here in Ville culture for him.I should be out there keeping him company, but I didn’t think he wanted to talk to anyone at the moment, so I left him with his thoughts. What was he thinking about? What put him in a long mood like this?I left the glass of milk on the cabinet, untouched. I had lost my thirst for it. By the next sunset, we’ll be back in the silver city pack. I hoped the dead moods will remain in the Ville. I don’t think I could bare seeing the Alpha looking like this for any more days.I decided to cool down by taking a long shower. I stood still while the water did its work. Even though it didn’t feel right, it felt good. I needed Ian. I needed his hands. I needed his body, his lips, his shoulders. I nee
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Know a beast
Chapter 15[Know a beast]I stepped out of the car. I smiled back shyly as Ian’s face brimmed with a beautiful and honest smile.“What?” I asked.“Nothing.” He replied, still smiling.“Then why is a certain Alpha I know smiling like that at me?” I asked, almost laughing out. Ian shook his head, and killed the smile which was turning into a creepy grin.“You look… beautiful. I have no words for it.” He said. I smiled. That was sweet.“Alright Mr. flirt, lead the way.” I said. Ian got out and gave me his hand. His face was high up like that of Caesar. How could I not believe I made him very happy?Just then another car drove towards us like a mad driver, drifting with speed. It happened so fast and sudden that I couldn’t move. Ian pulled me some inches back, creating just enough distance for the car to stop right in front of me. My heart pounded with fear and shock. Who was the crazy werewolf being in that car? The door opened slowly, and a leg stepped out. I was eager to see who it wa
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. A Crack in the line
Chapter 14[A Crack in the line]So while I paused with my lips apart, looking at him say everything he had just said, my mind flashed back to the story Kendra told me some time ago. I immediately saw the curse on him and believed it. Ian had made me hurt with his words and I wasn’t sure he realized it then. The way he looked at me, it was like he regretted e everything we’ve had, everything we’ve become. It was Luke he wished it never happened. The thought of this, made me sad, and angry. I had almost forgotten that look, those eyes. I know them too well. Pity and regret. Rob gave me that look, those eyes. And even now, it hurts even more. “I’m sorry. Excuse me.” He said and walked out.I sat on the bed, thinking if it was real, the legend, what I thought we had. I wondered if this was ever real to him, after all, he is an Alpha, and they pretty much play with hearts.It was dawn the next day. I touched the other side of the bed. I was the only one on it. Ian slept on a tiny chair
100 days in the Alpha’s arms. Back to the cold
Chapter 13[Back to the cold]“Life tells no lie. What is, has always been, what has always been, will always be. It’s all just a circle. The only new thing to it is us, and it shall watch us fade away into the darkness we all came from. Our void, our fear. But even so, it’s all temporary. Everything is. Life.” Dana, a German mythologies says. I rolled the dice in my hand. I always admired her growing up. Dad came in with flowers in his hands. He looked grateful.“How are you feeling?” He asked holding my hand.“Better, I guess. Nothing I haven’t felt before.” I answered. He kissed me on the head and heaved a sigh of relief. “What took you so long?” I scolded him.“I flew in as soon as I heard. I’m so sorry.” He said. “hungry?” he asked, raising a box of chocolates.I smiled, falling for it like the eleven years old teenager I was. “Are you sure you feel OK?” He asked again.I shrugged my shoulders. “Shouldn’t you ask the doctor? I haven’t seen any since I woke up.” I said and sighed
