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Chapter 88 Harder Than Before

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Blue/Ava's POV

"I'm sorry… I'm sorry for failing you once."

I bit my bottom lip as I felt tears pooling in the corner of my eyes. He was hugging me so tight as if he's afraid to let me go. I can feel his pain. I can feel his regrets. His fear. I don't want him to feel this. Seeing him cry breaks my heart.

I swallowed hard. "D-Don't fail me twice, Nicholas. Tell me the truth. I want to know why my heart yearns for you. I want to know why I don't remember us."

He pulled away and stared into my eyes. "The doctor said it's not good to force yourself."

I shook my head. "I'm not forcing myself, Nicholas. Just tell it slowly. Slowly make me remember my past."

His eyes flickered with pain and worries. "But…"

"Do I have to use Nicholai to make you do what I want?"

He squeezed his eyes closed. I can see he's torn between my safety and Nicholai. He looked at me again and swallowed hard. He cupped my face gently. "I'm not losing you again, baby. Let's do this slowly, okay? I'll remind you about o
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