Novels by SCIARTIST

Zach… The sun poured through the window, its rays enveloping my face, causing my eyes to flutter. I stifled a yawn, slowly opening my eyes, to realize it was morning already. I smiled as my hand roamed the bed, trying to find Nicole on the other side. “Good morning,” I whispered, but when I turned around, I was greeted with an empty bed and ruffled sheets. So many thoughts began to flood my mind; was it a dream? If it wasn’t, why did she leave? Didn’t she have a good time? Did I go all primal on her? I would've loved to at least hold her a bit more, before we had to let go. To tell her it wasn’t just the spur of the moment, it was real. I sniffed the pillow she had slept on, her scent lingered. It was both intoxicating and relaxing, reminding me of what happened last night. Beautiful, she was beautiful. From the quiet sounds she made to how her feet curled when I touched her, she was so gentle and so innocent and so trusting of me. All I could think of was

Nicole… “I—I—“ I tried to speak, but my words came out as stutters. All my brain cells suddenly went numb at that moment, and all I could hear, were the unspoken words of Zach. I swallowed hard and gave him a nod, watching as a smile formed at the corner of his lips. The truth is I’ve been drawn to Zach from the moment I saw him at the airport, and there was no point denying the mutual attraction between us. “You know, Nicole, seeing you in like this is so much better than anything else,” he breathed, his voice carried this intensity that made me believe every single word that came out of his mouth. “Like what?” I whispered. As he closed the distance between us. My voice was barely above a whisper. “We’re not doing this here.” He said, before I could ask what he meant by that, I felt my legs swinging in the air, as Zach carried me in bridal style to his room. When we got to his room, I barely had time to look around, my mind was fixated on Zach an

Nicole.. Sleep betrayed me again. It left me thinking about the events of that night and most especially Zach. The next morning came and I felt like a zombie, hungover and starved of sleep. Still, I pulled myself together. I had to help Leah get the kids ready for school. “Are you ready?” Leah asked. “Ready for?” I was confused because I hadn’t heard her say anything about going out and most importantly, me tagging along. “Zach is dropping the children off at school since Jack would be busy. I think you should use this opportunity to bond with the kids,” she explained as if it were the simplest concept in the world. The word ‘bonding’ triggered an image of my mother and me. When I thought back to those days in childhood, the memories hurt more than any physical injury. “I am sure I can bond with them when they are back, I don't really feel well?” I knew how weak and fragile my words sounded but couldn’t think of anything else to say other than it. I

Nicole.. “I am so sorry I got drunk, that was so stupid of me.” I apologized to Leah for ruining one of her big days, and what was more stupid was that I still didn't know the gender of her child. “That's okay, I should have known better.” She said looking at me with her blue eyes shining brightly and sparkling with happiness. “It's just that I am so excited about having you here with us, it feels like forever and a lot has happened. I mean, your hair is curled now.” She winked. I nodded. “You didn't invite me to your wedding, you kind of cut contact with me and I was stuck in the dark, wondering if I did something wrong.” I explained, remembering the last time we talked, before I moved back to school. She sighed. “I am sorry for that, but please understand that things aren't the way they seem. I have so many things to apologize for, and so many explanations to give but all I can say is that I am sorry for not being a good friend, for not being there when you needed me,

Nicole.. I couldn't sleep that night when I eventually got to my room because of two things; First I was now the topic of discussion in my group chat, and probably the whole school by now, and that was not how I intended to start the semester, secondly, the stranger I barely knew in the jacuzzi. The next morning came in a slow agonizing way, I lost count of the number of times I rolled over and checked the time. I thought I had managed to sleep for at least an hour before waking up in a cold sweat with fear and dread crawling up my neck to choke me. I checked the group chat again and it was still the same old news, me. I felt ashamed of myself, of how fast I had given in, it shouldn't have been that easy right? Why was it always this hard to get out from under other people's expectations of someone else? Wasn't it enough that I'd just had the messiest week? Yet the universe brought me another trap. I finally dragged myself out of bed, took a shower and proceeded to look

Nicole… “What have you done?” I was horrified as I pushed him off me to see the triumphant arrogant smirk on his face. In the next seconds that followed, I didn't care if my jeans weren't worn properly or my top, I didn't care about all of those things. They had seen me naked already, so I ran. Hot tears streamed down my face, blurry my vision. Bella called after but I didn't stop running, she could barely run to save her life so I ran knowing she’d not catch up. I wandered around aimlessly, not sure where to go or how to cry anymore. I ended up in a bar, and all I did was drown myself in booze until I couldn't remember the events of today, or how I got flirting with this man in front of me who had a wedding band. I couldn't remember who pulled me away from him, neither did I remember the darkness that completely blurred my vision. **** The next morning. Something blinding reflected on my face and I groaned as I squinted while trying to sit up properly. It was the sun