Novels by Suzi de Beer

I will not be like my mother.I’ll be good for our baby.I’ll love it and care for it. It’ll have a family with two moms and two dads.“Okay, let’s get a look at this baby.”I gripped Tyrone’s hand tighter as the doctor squirted some cold gel onto my stomach. His eyes locked with mine when he raised my hand to his lips and pressed a kiss to my knuckles. “Is this your first scan?”Tyrone looked at the doctor. “Yes.”“The baby is growing accordingly, and your weight is right on point.” I flinched when the doctor pressed the wand to my stomach and spread the cold gel around. “And there’s your baby.”My eyes stayed glued to his face. I watched as his eyes widen and his lips slowly curl up into a smile. His hand tightened. “Look at our baby, doll.”I didn’t want to look. But I wanted to look. Our baby. I slowly turned my head to look at the small screen. My heart slowed to a stop before it began beating erratically a few seconds later. There it was. So small.“Your baby is fully f

“Did Sin ever get her birth implant?”I paused for a few seconds and then slowly continued to lower the bag to the floor. “Why?”Michel shrugged. “I’m just asking.”“No, you’re not.”Michel swallowed loudly. “David said that there are a few possibilities for Sin to want her nest.”I pursed my lips, stopping myself from mentioning what Bella told me about Kate and David. We had agreed not to mention it to Michel and Sin because we didn’t want to upset them on the trip. And what a trip it was. A damn fucking mess. “You think she’s pregnant.” I leaned against the back of the couch and frowned at him. “There are a lot of reasons for an omega to want her nest, Michel. Just because she wanted to come home, doesn’t mean that she’s pregnant.”He growled at me and then stormed out of the house. I watched him as he grabbed the last few bags from the car and stormed back into the house. Dropping them next to the others, he straightened to glare at me. “Don’t look at me like that,” I muttered.

Having sex in a hotel bathtub was not ideal. Especially a tub so fucking small. The one in the master bedroom was custom build. Maybe we should’ve stayed at home. This trip was a damn waste. Tyrone hurt his foot before we even made it to the hotel and Sin wanted to go back home. She never said it straight to us, but I could sense it. When I planned this trip, I never took the other people into consideration. I had been thinking only about us. Our first night wasn’t so bad, but the start of our second day wasn’t a good one. Breakfast in bed, and morning sex, that was great. But Sin’s anxiety rose the moment we left our hotel room. Tyrone decided to stay back and rest while we went to the beach. Walking between us, she clung to our hands, eyes darted nervously around us. Some of the anxiety faded when we made it to the beach where only a few people sat. We chose a spot away from them. Bella spread the towels out on the sand while I set up the umbrella. Placing the cooler box down,

I felt bad. Tyrone not only twisted his ankle, but he also had an ugly cut on his heel. I had accused him of throwing us into the water on purpose and I had called him an asshole. My eyes drifted towards him where he lay on the bed, bandaged foot propped up on a pillow. It looked like he was sleeping. The doctor had given him two small white pills to drink before he left. For the next two weeks, Tyrone was supposed to stay off his feet as much as possible.Our first day on vacation was a bust. I sighed, turning to look back out the window. The hotel was located a few feet from the beach so I had a perfect view of the ocean and the activities below. There were a lot of people. More than I had anticipated when Tyrone mentioned a vacation. My anxiety levels spiked the longer I stared at them. Would they stare at me if we go down there?“Are you done unpacking?”I shrugged. “What’s the use of doing that if we won’t be staying for long.”Bella appeared at my side. She stared out of th

It’s not what you’re thinking.How could he know what we were thinking? All I got from David was that stupid text right after I tried to call him. He has been avoiding our calls since. I was tempted to drive out to his house and demand answers from him, but Sin’s excitement for our trip prevented me from doing that. She had been the one asking questions about Kate. She was right about worrying about Kate. Somehow she had managed to worm her way into David’s life. If Bella hadn’t seen them, would David have ever told us? He said it was not what we were thinking, so if they weren’t trying to tear us apart, what was it then? Were they dating? It would tear our friendship apart if she ended up being his mate. “Are we there yet?” My eyes snapped up when the soft question filled the air. To keep our destination a secret, we used blankets to cover the back windows. Another one had been used as a partition between the back and the front of the car. For most of the drive Sin and I had been

We’re going on vacation.Well, more like a short getaway because our trip was going to be a short one--only four days. I wanted it to be longer, but beggars couldn’t be choosers. It would be fun, only the four of us. Away from everyone and we would be able to forget everything that had happened the last few weeks. I was excited and despite not showing it, I knew that Sin was too. She told us that she had never been to the beach before. In about two days, she would. We had all agreed that our destination would be a surprise which was why I was in town.Sin needed some new beach clothes like a bikini. Michel had asked me to pick up a few other things that we needed because he was busy going over things to make sure that nothing went wrong on the ranch while we were away. “Bella?” I tensed. Pursing my lips, I slowly turned around. My eyes widened in surprise. The girl standing a few feet away was not the girl I remembered. I blinked, eyes trailing down her body and then back up to

“I have her.”I gripped the edge of the table tightly. It was taking everything in me to keep the beast in check. If I could, I would have allowed him out to rip the council to shreds, but I couldn’t take that risk. I couldn’t risk losing my pack. Cora needed them. She needed protection and we wouldn’t be able to provide it alone. If we left pack territory it would paint a target on our back. The last thing I wanted to do was make things worse after all the shit she went through. “You lied to us,” Abigail’s mate growled. “You told us she was human but that’s not the truth. We had to find out from someone else that she’s a shifter.”I held my breath, waiting for him to tell everyone that she was a rare breed. “We should have been informed what she was the moment she stepped foot on this land.”“If I may…” Kelsey stepped forward. “The council was formed to advise our alpha. It wasn’t formed to control his every move. As alpha of our pack, he doesn’t have to report everything to you.

“Welcome home, sweetling.”My eyes fluttered open as the words flashed through my mind again. The bed dipped on either side of me, making my smile widen, but it faded the moment his lips brushed along the scars on my lower back. I tensed and clutched the pillow tighter. “Ryder ran you a bath,” he said softly. “We need to leave in ten minutes.”His body brushed along mine as he moved higher until his lips reached my shoulder. There, he paused to press a kiss to my skin and then turned his head to press his face against the back of my neck. “Are they going to punish you?” I asked. Keiran tensed, but he didn’t immediately answer. “I don’t know,” he finally answered. “They know exactly what happened.”“You make it sound like the council can’t be trusted.” “They can’t.” He swallowed loudly. “At least not everyone. Demetrius is always on our side, but I can’t say the same about the other elders. They weren’t happy when I challenged my father and won.” I swallowed. The happiness I felt

Ryder’s lips moved along my skin, pressing soft kisses here and there. We had moved to the bed, something that he had pointed out was a bit awkward because it was Axel’s bed. I reassured him that the sheets had been changed the night before and that we hadn’t had sex..in the bed. He still hadn’t looked convinced. But at least his mind was not occupied with other things. Like torturing me. I should have told him that I wanted him to fuck me hard and fast. Instead, he took it upon himself to torture me slowly. He was inside me, fucking me slowly while he peppered my skin with kisses. Every time I was close to orgasm, he would stop until I calmed down before moving again. It would be a lie if I said I didn’t love it. Shifting slightly, Ryder kissed a path up my neck. His lips lingered there and then slipped along my jaw to capture my lips in a slow kiss. I lost myself in him until my wolf rose to the surface. As if he could sense the change inside me, he raised his head to look a

I hovered in the doorway, staring at Cora. It's been three days since we found her. Three days since Xan and Keiran killed Rowan. Cora slept for most of the time. She only woke up to use the bathroom, to eat, or when Keiran or Axel cleaned her still-healing wounds. Some had already healed but they left ugly scars behind. We were still waiting for Dean to show up. It was why we decided that Axel's room was the safest place for Cora to sleep. Not that we left her alone for long. We knew that Dean was going to come for her. We just didn't know when. "Do you want me to leave you alone?"My eyes snapped over to Axel. He had been slumped in the chair next to the bed with his head tilted back and eyes closed. "I thought you were sleeping," I muttered as I stepped further into the room. He said nothing as he stood and quietly left the room. I kinda felt bad for kicking him out of his own room but I didn't stop him from leaving. Hovering next to the bed, I stared down at Cora. She sle

I used to think that losing my parents was the worst thing that could have happened to me. But nothing could be worse than being humiliated in front of your mate and your worst enemy. Dean touched me in ways I never wanted him to touch me. He did it to terrorize Axel because he knew that Axel couldn't do anything. Our plan hadn't worked out. They caught us off guard and managed to inject Axel before he could kill them. Kelsey was knocked out even before she could shift. And, I was left defenseless because Axel had already tied me up again. For some reason, I felt like they had everything planned and managed to fool us. Rowan was playing a game and I wasn't sure why. Axel was already hurting. I was humiliated. And I wasn't sure why Kelsey was locked up with us. Shivers raced down my spine when I heard the soft click of the lock on the door turning. Dread instantly flooded me when the door opened and Luther stepped inside. He smirked when his eyes locked with mine. "What a grea

“We found it at the north border. There was no note or scent around that we could trace.”I stared at the package on the table. It was wrapped in black tape, preventing us from seeing what was inside. Swallowing, I gripped the handle of the knife tighter as I took a step forward. We didn’t know what was inside. I was dreading opening it, but I knew I had to. It might be a clue on how to find Cora. “Do you want me to open it?” Lucas questioned from my right.I shook my head. To my left Ryder shifted nervously from foot to foot. I knew exactly what he was thinking because I was thinking the exact same thing. This package could be from whoever kidnapped Cora. It could be a part of her body they cut off. It could be her head. Our mate could already be dead. We had no leads to follow. Xan had disappeared from the face of the earth. There were no scents left behind or clues other than the empty syringes.“Just get it over with,” Ryder growled. I pressed the knife to the side of th

The moment I opened my eyes, I realized that something was different. I felt different. Blinking up at the ceiling, I took slow deep breaths as I evaluated things. Besides from a few aches and pains, nothing about my body felt any different. I was sore from all the fucking we had been doing the previous night and the bond marks throbbed. Val’s mark hurt a little more than the others, but I was sure that it was because he hadn’t nursed it enough yet. I glanced at Val who was still fast asleep next to me and then silently slipped out of bed. Walking into the bathroom, I hesitated a moment before I turned towards the mirror. My eyes widened. Stumbling forward, I leaned forward to get a closer look. Raising a shaky hand I traced the raised skin of the mark with my finger tip. Out of all the places, he had to mark me on my left breasts directly over my nipple. It was going to be hell when he nurse his mark. I sighed. Using the toilet, I washed my hands and splashed my face with some

Elias knew what he was doing. Other than me who was starting to second-guess everything. I wasn’t so sure about my plan anymore. Insecurities were starting to fill my mind.I swallowed as I stared down at the toys Elias had placed on the end of the bed. Along with it was a bottle of lube, some towels and a packet of wipes.The lamps next to the bed were switched on, creating a soft glow around the room. One curtain had been closed and the other was half open, letting in some more light.“They should be home any minute now,” Elias said softly. “Wait here. I’ll send him to his room when they get back.” He smirked as he walked out of the room.I stood awkwardly by the bed, eyes darted around the room. Should I take a seat on the bed? Do a sexy pose like they do in the movies?It felt like forever before I heard voices coming from the kitchen. I waited a few more minutes and when Val didn’t appear, I made my way towards them.Only he wasn’t with them in the kitchen.Frowning, I glanced

“I’m not sure how I feel about this. You spend most of the time taking care of them and now you carry both their marks. It should have been fare if I got to mark you first.”I swallowed as Val slowly stalked closer.“I think I might need to hurt myself too.”“Don’t talk like that Val!” I frowned at him. “You don’t have to do anything to get my attention.”He raised an eyebrow. “I don’t?”“You have my attention now.”“Yeah, but for how long?”“However long you want it.”Valiant smiled but it slipped the moment Elias appeared. Muttering under his breath he turned and then fell back onto the bed I had been busy making.I glared at him, but he ignored me.“Your mother called,” Elias said softly. “She wants you to return home immediately.”I blinked at him. “I’m sorry, I think I misunderstood. My mother who has been ignoring me for most my life, wants me to return home?”“Yes.”“Why?”Elias shrugged. His eyes darted to Val for a few seconds before the locked on me again. I blushed under hi

I was glad that Alex had done bonded Daisy before she could run away.It was going to take some time for Daisy to work on her issues, but we were going to be by her side every step of the way.Although I had imagined a different kind of bonding when Daisy said that she wanted us to bond her.A sigh fell from my lips as I turned onto my side.Daisy was snuggled between Alex and Val, fast asleep.My eyes locked on her shoulder. The wound was ugly red and stood out against her pale skin. I swallowed and forced my eyes away from her bond mark.After hesitating for only a second more, I slowly slid out of bed and walked out of the nest.A few minutes later I was seated behind the computer with a steaming cup of coffee and my folder with notes open next to me. But no matter how hard I tried, the words deserted me. All I could think about was Daisy and the fact that she was now our omega.We were now officially deemed a pack.“Why do you always slip out of bed in the middle of the night?”My

As it turned out, much to their disappointment, their parents were already at the penthouse. They were already halfway here when their mom called. I was actually happy that they arrived when they did. As eager as I was to bond them, I wanted to clear the air with their family first. Especially Sylvia. She started glaring at me the moment she walked though the door. Mom Bee greeted me with a hug and muttered words that she was happy that I was okay and home. While Elias and Mom Bee finished cooking dinner, I helped set the table and then joined the others in the living room. Alex pulled me onto his lap before I could take a seat next to him. Colour flooded my cheeks but I relaxed against his chest. My eyes locked with Alister’s for a few seconds before I quickly looked away. “How are you doing Daisy?” he asked softly. “I’m doing okay, thank you for asking.” Sylvia scoffed. “How can you be doing okay when you’re the reason my boys got injured?” “Sylvia.” “Mom!” She ignored them

“Hey,” I said softly.Daisy’s eyes darted up to me and immediately darted away again. “Hi.”I hesitated in the doorway, waiting for her to invite me in, but she didn’t. There was an awkwardness between us that hasn’t been there before and it was driving me crazy.“Can I come in?”Daisy nodded.My eyes darted around the room as I entered.Her clothes were scattered around one side of the bed and on the other side it was folded neatly where she sat, busy sorting through it. Was she planning on leaving?My heart squeezed painfully in my chest but I ignored the pain and took a seat on the edge of the bed.“Daisy, we need to talk.”She paused for a few seconds and then finished folding the shirt and placing it on the pile of other neatly folded shirts before she raised her head to look at me.Instead of saying a word, I showed her.“John’s men trashed the apartment when they came looking for you. I found it on the floor in the nest.”Daisy swallowed loudly. “Does Alex know?”“No.”Licking