Novels by Sofialexandra

I was standing in the parking lot, away from the couple I was staring at. Jason... He was holding a brunette's hand... and that hand had a diamond ring on its ring finger.He was freaking engaged?!My heart pounded deeply in my chest. I was too late? But... he was my soulmate, right? Wrong. Probably the same time I stopped believing in soulmates was the same time he seized being mine.He was smiling so fondly at the brunette and I couldn't see her face but I knew she had a big smile as well. "You have no right to be sad... You have no right to be sad..." I kept muttering to myself, over and over again as I worked up the courage to leave there."I don't believe it! It's Claire Wagner!" I stilled when I heard a lady shriek. Other students stopped to stare at me and a few began making their way towards me.I diverted my eyes back to Jason, he and his brunette were staring at me, he looked confused.I turned around and bolted for my car, driving out of the campus. Some crazy fans ran af

"Hey single lady, come home." I kept staring at my phone. What the actual hell? That jerk has been ignoring me for the past two years and just a few minutes after my boyfriend broke up with me, he sends a text?!I was furious and sad and relieved... God! I just wanted to hug my cousin so badly!Judy's call came in before I could reply to Antonio's text; she had been my personal assistant since I moved to Paris. Emma couldn't come with me because she wanted to be a full time Mom to Shelby and she did say she was getting married in a month to a guy she met.I didn't try getting close to Judy though, she just wasn't as free with me like Emma used to be, she just wanted our relationship to be professional and I didn't mind at all.Of course she wouldn't be calling if she knew I was on a date with Archie, but I didn't tell her and she probably thinks I've disappeared.I picked up."Hey, Judy.""Hello. Where are you?" See that? She's so uptight."I was originally on a date with Archie but I

"There's my girl!" Archie cheered, hugging me and kissing me firmly on my lips. "I'm sorry I couldn't make it to the award show but I'm proud of you nevertheless." I moved aside to let him into my apartment and he went straight for the glass plaque I had left earlier on the breakfast table."It looks great. Breakout Star, Claire Wagner." Yup! That's me. The newest eighteen year old who has been working her ass off for the past two years, juggling three careers as a model, actress and my all time favourite, a photographer.It hasn't been easy and I can't stress how many times my parents have told me to take a break and come home just to relax, but I've been stubborn like always. Working keeps my mind away from depressing stuff like worrying about Jason who I haven't seen in the last two years and he doesn't even have a social media account, I mean, who doesn't have a social media account?And even Antonio! That dumb jerk gave a stupid excuse and avoided attending my parents wedding, he'

"Will you be my maid of honour?" I was staring back at Mom, waiting for her to say she's just kidding but she was really waiting for my answer."Me?!" I was surprised. "Are you sure? What about Alice?" I said, gesturing to the other woman who sat next to me on the lounge."I'm married and even if I'm not, you should be her maid of honour." Alice replied before Mom could."Yes, Claire, I want you to be my maid of honour. I can't think of anyone better than you." I was flattered, but of course I wouldn't be if I had seen it before now, but my wacky abilities have deserted me for a while now; even after an entire week after I woke up, I still can't tell the future."Yes!" I said excitedly and Mom hugged me immediately, sighing in relief."Thank you. You know what? This calls for a celebration. How about all three of us hang out together? Like a girls' day out. We could go to the spa, get makeovers, manis-pedis, new hairdos...""Okay that sounds like a mother-daughter outing and I already

"Are you insane?!" Antonio half-yelled at me. I pretended not to hear him as I ate my birthday cake. After Archie was done with his call, he told everyone we were dating and though my parents weren't so thrilled about it, everyone was cool with it."You can't go from being in love with Jason to being Archie's girlfriend.""I can and that's what I'm doing." I said nonchalantly."Claire, you can't do that.""Why? Archie likes me to bits and I think he's totally lovable, hence, we're dating. And don't forget we already told our parents and they are okay with it.""Your Dad wasn't okay with it, he knows you should be with Jason, he's just being nice.""Which I expect you to be too. Archie is a great guy and Jason is far from my reach anyway. To be honest, I don't think I would have any feelings for Jason if not for that soul mate bullshit.""Bullshit?! Is this why you shut me out? Because you're harbouring crazy thoughts like this?" Antonio was pissed, I knew that but I wasn't going to le

"That went well." I stilled when I heard Antonio's voice behind me. What was he doing in my room? "Did you forget I can tell the immediate future? I knew the surprise would be ruined and you'd lock yourself up here." Oh, well.I sank to the floor and just hugged my legs. "You're sad, I get it. But look on the bright side...""There's not bright side here, Antonio. I love him yet I told him to get lost. Who does that?!" I hugged my legs tighter. Antonio came over and sat next to me."I don't know what to tell you, all I see is you spending the next two years missing Jason while you figure your life out." Two years?!"It's going to take that long?""You can't see your future?""I can't see anything, my abilities are messy right now. I can only tell the present and read someone's mind.""I see. That's probably because you haven't healed completely from the accident." I sighed."That's not important to me. I'm going to spend a full two years without Jason? Will we ever get back together?

I was tormented by thoughts.It would have been easier if Julien left like that, but he just had to say those words to me, making me restless with tormenting thoughts. I had to wonder if I was doing the right thing by denying my love and refusing to be with Julien, I couldn't decide.I thought by the time Julien returned from his trip, I would be ready to get on with my life without worrying about my feelings; but now, I wondered if I should forget my worry and accept to be with him.Yes, he was Gwen's husband but now she's dead, I am in charge of the children as she wanted and now I'm really in love with Julien, also as she wanted.Did she somehow see the future? Did she know I would eventually fall in love with Julien and she gave me her permission beforehand? That sounded like something Gwen was capable of, she was always after my happiness. Why then was I still denying it and refusing to be with Julien? Maybe I needed some kind of reassurance that I was doing the right thing, or m

He looked surprised at me, unable to say a word."But I can't be because you are Gwen's husband.""Alexa...""I can't blame you or myself because it was bound to happen, Martha thought so too. The only way we can help the situation is to avoid each other and my feelings will naturally die.""Why is that the only way? Why can't we nurture it and let it bloom?" I stared at him, what was he saying? "I am no longer Gwen's husband, we all lost her but that doesn't mean we can't move on with our lives. It would be wrong if Gwen was still here, but she's not and to be honest, she did give us her blessing. So, why should we shy away from our emotions?" Was he talking about Gwen asking him to marry me? Has he really been thinking about that all these time? When he says 'ours', does he mean he feels the same way too? No, probably not."I can't... it's not right.""Alexa..." But I didn't listen, I left him there and went to my room.I spent the rest of the day thinking about Julien's words, Mart

Arthur avoided me for the rest of the day, he always looked away when I was close to him and he walked away before I could say a word.He barely even touched his dinner and insisted that Julien tuck them in for the night. It really made me sad and uneasy.I had to wait in Julien's study for him to tuck the children in. We still had to talk about Cecilia and I had to thank him for finding her.I sat on the soft couch in his study and waited, lost in my thoughts, wondering how I could get Arthur to talk to me again. I couldn't let them call me mother, I just couldn't. No matter how much I...The door opened and I straightened. Julien looked a little surprised to see me there."I thought you went to bed." He said as he came in, shutting the door behind him."I wanted to talk to you first." He nodded and came over to sit next to me on the couch."What about?""About Cecilia... Thank you for finding her, I didn't know you were searching for her at all...""I have, ever since you told me sh

"Did you see that?!" I nodded to Arthur's question, he was pointing at a spot where a hawk had swooped down to grab a prey which appeared to be a lizard."It was so fast!" He said, running to the spot and looking up as if he could still see the bird. I only smiled.Arthur seemed happier now, he could smile and play with his brothers again; he didn't cry in his sleep anymore. In fact, it's been two months since I've heard him mention his mother or cry for her.It's been seven months since Gwen's demise and I missed her so much, I was getting used to my everyday life with the children and Julien; our pretend family. I call it pretend because no matter how many functions I attended with them, being their stand-in mother, I was still Alexa and not Gwen. I could never fully be their mother, no matter how natural I was with them.Sometimes I would be lost in thought and wished Gwen could see her boys grow and it would bring tears to my eyes, but I would remind myself that no amount of cryin

It was morning and we had just said goodbye to Papa Benjamin and Papa Ramsey, now it was time to say goodbye to the dowager duchess, Frederick, Martha and their children.Arthur was upset, so he refused to say goodbye and stayed in bed. We couldn't force him, the child was hurt.Julien was carrying Eliott and the sleeping Eric was in my arms as we watched them get on the carriage, but then Martha suddenly came down and came to me."Can I speak to you briefly?""Of course." I followed her as she led me all the way to the library. "What is wrong?" I asked her when she finally stopped."I didn't want to say anything but I couldn't bring myself to leave without saying it.""Saying what?" She stared at me for a moment and I waited."Gwen loved you a lot, so much that I believe she loved you more than she loved the children.""That is not possible.""But it is. She always spoke so highly of you and when she got sick, she was always saying strange things that I couldn't understand.""Strange

"What will you do now?" I was sitting at the garden alone when Pa Benjamin joined me, sitting next to me. Gwen and the baby were buried two days ago, but it did nothing to soothe the ache in my heart; it still didn't feel real to me. I keep expecting her to jump out behind me and tell me it was all a joke.The funeral was a big ceremony and even Robert and his wife had to come with their children, as well as Gwen's acquaintances and the entire population of Arana... after all, their Duchess just died.Papa Benjamin and Papa Ramsey came immediately we sent a letter to them. Of course, Papa Benjamin was furious that we hid the truth from him and he missed Gwen's last moments, but he managed to calm down after a while.Julien didn't know how to go about explaining the situation to Arthur, so I went with him. As expected, he child was devastated and he reminded me so much of Cecilia. I wasn't going to let him feel alone, not ever. I assured him that he still had Julien and I would be wit