Novels by HeichouAtaraxia

Malayo pa lamang ako ay kitang kita ko na ang dagsaan ng mga tao sa loob ng cabaret. Hindi rin nakaligtas sa paningin ko ang bilang ng mga babaeng entertainer sa taas ng entablado. Kaya naman halos karamihan sa mga customer ay kalalakihan, dahil araw ngayon ng biyernes. Friday, free day kumbaga. Nagtuloy tuloy na ako sa pagpasok at agad namang nahagip ng mata ko si Nicole na kausap ang dalawang matatandang lalaki. Tumatawa ang dalawa habang siya ay pangisi ngisi lamang. Nanguuto na naman siguro si bakla. Akmang lalapit ako sa kanya nang biglang may bumunggo sa akin. Halos mapaupo na ako sa sahig dahil sa lakas ng impact mabuti na lang at nahawakan ako ng kung sino. "I'm sorry miss, are you okay?" Marahas akong tumingin sa taong nagsalita. Mataas at maputing lalaki ang sumalubong sa akin. Malamig ang tingin at base sa tindig nito'y halatang mayaman. "A-Ayos lang po, pasensya na." Yumuko ako bilang paumanhin, nautal pa ako dahil sa tar

Ilang segundo bago ako natauhan mula sa pagkakatulala. Model? Jesus Christ! I don't even have the slightest idea about this thing and the likes. How could he offer me such favor? I know kasasabi ko lang na hindi ko pipigilan ang kahit na anong pabor na hihilingin niya sa akin, but this? Hindi ko alam. "Chase sandali, lasing ka ba?" Napamaang siya at hindi makapaniwala sa narinig. Napahilamos siya ng mukha at pagkatapos ay malamlam na tumingin sa akin. "Azi...I...fuck! Hindi nga ako nagbibiro edi lalong hindi ako lasing." Halata ang inis at pagkapikon sa boses nito. Kulang nalang umirap siya at bigwasan ako. Wow! Siya pa galit? Sapakin ko to eh. "I don't have a choice okay? I needed this promotion so bad. Dad doesn't want to help me and I understand. That's why I need to work hard for this, at ikaw ang tanging alam ko na makakatulong sakin." His tone is humorless and I've never seen him this eager to achieve something before.

Mula sa maliit na detalye hanggang sa kahulihulihang pangyayari ay binigyan ko ng eksplenasiyon sa mga pulisya. I don't even know if it's a big deal or not pero base sa mga paguusap nila, the information being presented are indeed necessary. "We do not need to investigate more since, you have answered all the queries. As for the driver of SUV, he's not yet fully recovered but in due time, we'll ask for his statement. Anyway, kaya namin kinailangan ang mga impormasiyong ito ay para maipakita sa kamag-anak ng driver ang totoong nangyari..." Malumanay at matamang saad ng chief police officer. Tumango ako at marahang tumingin sa kaliwang bahagi ng opisina. There he is, having a conversation with one of the police officer. Kanina nasa tabi ko lang at seryosong nakikinig, hindi ko namalayang umalis pala siya. Umiigting ang kanyang panga habang nakapameywang at matigas ang ekspresyong nakikipagusap. Nakatalikod sa akin ang kanyang kausap at siya naman ay nakahar

A woman probably in her 40's has been talking nonstop yet I can't hear anything. I stared at her and noticed her deep blue eyes, it looks familiar I think I've seen it somewhere before. Even the shape of her face were similar to someone very close to me. I don't know why but it felt strange, she's glaring at me like I'm some kind of sickening creature. If looks could kill, I might be dead by now. Her stares are full of disgust and hatred. I tried to reached for her hand but then she quickly fade away and that's the last thing that happened before I got back to my senses.As soon as I woke up, my eyes immediately roamed around the unfamiliar room. I exactly knew this isn't my place or any of my friends, then I remembered my life would have been taken away from me if it's not because of that guy. I examined my whole body and it's unbelievably fine, though my head stings a bit.I'm about to stand up when the door slowly opened. Hindi ko maani

The reason I'm striving hard ahead of time is because I wanted and wished for a better future, the only thing an illegitimate child like me could ask for. Naalimpungatan ako sa malakas na tunog ng aking alarm clock. I sat up and turned it off. It's exactly 6 o'clock in the evening and I need to move fast dahil may pasok ako ngayon sa Cabaret ng alas singko, I did my daily routine and took a cup of hot coffee, I prefer it plain and black, the bittersweet taste will surely awaken my nerves later on. Life isn't as simple as you thought, when I was a kid I never got the chance to drink other beverages aside from this. I had a rough childhood and I decided to leave it six foot on the ground. When I'm done checking and making sure my place is safe, I hurriedly went outside and look for a ride, saktong may namataan akong tricycle kaya pinara ko na agad. As soon as I step inside the Cabaret I saw Maris, one of my co-workers slowly approaching me.

In life, either you win and celebrate, or you lose and accept your faith. But will you choose to quit when the thought of doing it seem tough and relentless? I have been battling for my own good eversince, alone yet still alive. A result of rage, a curse rather than a blessing, no one wanted and hoped for it's inception. Both of my parents have their own family, none of them acknowledged me as their own. I'm used to it, but that doesn't mean I don't have a choice, though it would make me less of a desperate bitch trying hard to get his hopes up, I just know what's best for my mental health and settled for more substantial matters.In spite of the pain and sufferings caused by their selfishness, who would've thought I'll crave for that piece of appreciation? Of course it sounds pathetic isn't it? I always wish for atleast a moment to be with them but that's beyond imagination. Since I was born, I never had the chance to feel a mother's warmth, a father's to