Novels by Miss IYA

Did those women deserve what Lennox did to them? My answer, I don't know. I just know that those women didn't know their worth. I also saw one of those women in person and from what I saw in her action, she has no respect for herself. I don't want to judge them because I'm not wearing their shoes, but the action they chose has no excuse.I was angry and disgusted with Lennox because of the videos he made but he patiently accepted all my hurtful words. He never cheated on me with another woman. He never insulted me in front of other people. He was there whenever I needed him. There's no question, he deserves a second chance.He lied but he learned. Kahit pa kasalungat sa gusto niya ang paglayo ay ginawa niya dahil ayaw niya akong pilitin at ayaw niyang maging makasarili. Hinayaan niya na maging mapayapa ako sa paglayo niya kahit ang naging kapalit ay pagkawasak niyaIt took me years to finally realised that I judged him like the way they judged me after they watched my video. I did the

Gusto kong maiyak sa harapan ng mga kaibigan ko ngunit pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko. Ipinasok ko sa bulsa ang mga nanginginig na kamay at yumuko para hindi mahalata ng mga kasama ko sa elevator na namumula ang mga mata ko.Did she really mean it? Did she really loves Creed? Kung hindi niya mahal bakit namin sila naabutan sa ganoong ayos? Parehong n*******d. Katatapos lang ba nila? Hindi na ba sila umabot sa kuwarto kaya't sa sala na nila ginawa?"Lennox! Saan ka?" Tawag ni Al nang makita ang pagtalikod ko para sumakay sa sariling sasakyan."Mauna na ako," mahina na sagot ko.Tumingala ako at ibinalik sa loob ng mga mata ang luha na muntik nang bumagsak sa loob ng elevator. Pigil na pigil ako dahil nakakabawas sa pagkalalaki ko ang pag-iyak. Subalit pagkapasok ko sa loob ng sasakyan, hindi ko naman din iyon napigilan.Ang sakit. 'Tang ina."Hoy, bakit mauuna ka? Sabay sabay na tayo!" Katok ni Al sa bintana ng sasakyan ko na hindi ko pinansin at nauna nang umalis bago pa niya makita ang

I can't look at her while she's crying, especially when I know that I'm the reason why she's shedding tears right now. She's right. I destroyed her. And I deserved all the disgust I've seen in her eyes. Lahat ng mga ginawa ko bago ko siya makilala ay pinagsisisihan ko na. Kung mas naging mabuti lang sana akong tao, hindi sana siya nandidiri ng ganito. If only I could have seen it coming, I could have done something differently. But, It's too late to regret now. I already fucked up everything.Only with her I felt different emotions. It was only with her that I experienced being happy, desperate, afraid, sad, and only with her did I cry. The only woman who gave me those emotions now wants me to get lost. She's done with me now. She's done with a liar and cold hearted man like me.Iyon ang huling hiling niya. Iyon ang pakiusap niya. Ano'ng karapatan ko para hindi ko iyon ibigay sa kanya? Ayokong maging makasarili gaya nang sinabi niya kaya hahayaan ko siya dahil alam ko na hindi ko na ma

I needed a bucket of self-control when I first saw her closely. She loves biting her lips like she's always seducing me or inviting me for a kiss. I don't know if it's her tactic or just her mannerism.Nakangisi akong mag-isa at natawa sa sarili nang maalala ko ang mga tingin niya. The way she looked and gawked at me. She's obviously attracted to me. I bit my lower lip as I stifled my smirk. Damn it. She likes me. Pumikit ako at nakaramdam ng saya.Dahan-dahan, nawala ang ngiti ko. Mabilis akong napadilat at naibaba ang hawak na alak. Shit. Umiling ako at tinawanan ang mga naiisip ko. Bakit tuwang tuwa ako? Right. I felt good because of my planned work. That's it. Yeah. That's it."Are you sure you don't want to teach another class and subject?""Yeah. I'm sure.""Isang klase lang ang tinuturuan mo…."Kinakausap ako ng head teacher ngunit wala akong ganang makipag-usap sa kanya dahil may pinapanood ang mga mata ko. Inaabangan ko siya ng tanaw habang papasok sa school. Natitigilan lang

"Lennox!"Napangisi ako nang makita si Bob at Al na nanlaki ang mga mata. Nasa likod namin ang mga nakaaway ko noong nakaraang araw."Tumakbo na tayo!" Naduduwag na suhestiyon ni Bob.Natawa kami ni Creed sa kanya. Umiling ako at hinarap ang mga tumawag sa akin. Isang kilalang gangster ang mga ito sa kabilang eskuwelahan. Naglalakad kami sa eskinita ng mga kaibigan ko. Kadadaan lang namin sa bahay ni Roiland kaya apat na lang kami na nasa masikip at madilim na lugar na ito."Why? Do you want to say hello to my fist again?"Napahawak si Creed sa tiyan niya at tumawa ng malakas dahil sa sinabi ko. Wala pang isang linggo nang makaaway namin ang mga ito. Mas marami siyang kasama ngayon. Nakaraan kasi'y lima lang sila. Ngayon, walo na pero puro mga patpatin naman ang mga kasama kaya't lahat sila'y mayroon mga dala na mga panghampas na tubo at mga kahoy."Ang yabang mo! Pinagbigyan lang kita nang nakaraan!" Galit na sigaw nito."Pinagbigyan?" Natawa ako. "Kaya pala puro pasa iyang mukha mo h

My choices might not good to others but I want to help myself to be the best version of me. I've been in the painful chapters then I turned the page and the healing process was much longer and it's not been easy. Iniwan ko ang taong mahal ko dahil natakot akong mabasag sa milyon milyong piraso ngunit kahit ano ang pinili ko ay nabasag pa rin ako.I hit the rock bottom and watched myself tear apart into million pieces. I go slowly and take my time to put it back, trying to collect myself. At nang hindi ko mapulot lahat ay iniwan ko ang ibang parte ko, and that part was Lennox.I thought that was the painful part, but it wasn't. The most painful part is to stepping out of the box and put myself first before others. Ang hirap magdesisyon para sa sarili ko lalo't nasanay ako na unahin ang iba.I only have one life and I want to allow myself to be happy right now. I will decide today for myself. And I don't have to feel sorry for choosing myself. Kahit sino ang masaktan ko at kahit sino ang

"I'm flying! We're flying!"Nagpunas ako ng luha na nasa gilid na ng aking mga mata. Naiiyak ako katatawa. Bago ako tumungo sa kusina, naghahabulan lang sila sa madamo at patag na hardin namin. Ngayon naman ay ginawa na niyang dumbbell ang kambal sa magkabilang braso niya. Ang mga merienda nila ay nasa lamesa na at kalalapag ko lang ngunit walang pumansin ni isa sa kanila dahil abala sa paglalaro."Savannah! Silverio! That's enough! Eat your snack first!"Tumayo ako at lumapit. Kinuha ko ang babae namin at pilit pinapabitiw sa braso niya."Mom! I'm still playing!" She complained and almost crying.Natawa si Silas at siya na ang kusang lumakad patungo sa mesa kung nasaan ang inihanda kong snacks nila."What did I tell you?" Silas asked our twin. They both pouted then looked at me."A happy mommy is a happy life!" They answer in sync.Napangiti ako at umirap kay Silas. Sinunod nila ako nang muli ko silang pinababa. Nakasimangot nilang kinain ang sandwich. Nakatayo ako sa gilid ng dalawa

Silvanus POV 04"If something bad happens to Athena, I will kill you all! I will hunt you all! I will kill you!"I glared angrily at Greg. Ganoon rin sa ibang mga pumigil sa akin kanina. Pinagtulungan nila ako para hindi ko mapigilan si Athena. I know that that was the right thing to do. Pero hindi ako ganoon kabuting tao para gawin palagi ang tama.Kung ako ang masusunod, ilalayo ko siya rito at hahayaan ko silang lahat. Dahil nangako ako. Ipinangako ko sa sarili ko na kahit ano ang mangyari. Na kahit ano ang isakripisyo ko. Na kahit ano ang maging kapalit, hindi ko siya ibibigay.Pero paano at ano ang gagawin ko kung siya na ang kusang sumama? I am willing to be called heartless just so I can protect her. While she sacrificed herself, so she could protect them.Pagka-alis ni Athena doon pa lang nila ako nagawang bitiwan. I went to my car but before I could get inside, they are already holding me again. I need to chase her. Kahit mag-isa lang ako, kukunin ko siya pabalik. Bakit pinip

Silvanus POV 03Wala akong tigil sa kabubuhat ng kahit anong equipment sa loob ng kwarto ko para lang mapagod at pagpawisan. Isang araw pa lang para na akong mababaliw sa amoy niya. Ang dalas kong magmura sa isip lalo na't alam kong nasa katabing kwarto ko lang siya."Shit!" I exhaled heavily and stopped lifting the dumbbell.Nakahubad akong nagtungo sa kwarto niya dahil hindi ko na matiis. Kahit isang silip lang. Kahit hindi ko siya mahawakan.Napatayo siya mula sa pagkakaupo, nagulat dahil sa biglang pagpasok ko. Tinigasan ko ang anyo habang naglalakad palapit sa kanya. Itinatago ko na kinakabahan ako lalo na at nakatitig siya sa hubad at pawisan kong katawan."What's that?" I asked, looking at the notebook on her study table. Nilapitan ko iyon at binuksan. Kung babasahin ko, malalaman ko ang laman ng notebook. Kaya lang...nawala roon ang atensyon ko dahil nakatitig si Athena sa katawan ko habang nasa malapit ako.Kahit malamig ang hangin na nanggagaling sa labas ng kanyang bintana

Silvanus POV 02She's almost thirteen and I was seventeen when we were kidnapped.Akala ko malakas na ako para maprotektahan siya. Ngunit wala akong binatbat sa mga dumukot sa amin. They are many and bigger than me. They have guns, I don't have. They are trained, I'm not.I tried to protect her with just my fists. I shouted at her to run. When I saw that she had escaped, I was relieved. Napanatag ako nang makalayo na siya. Kahit pa may posibilidad na sa kalsada mismo ay patayin nila ako dahil sa paglaban na ginawa ko sa kanila. Hindi ko iyon ininda. Hindi na iyon pumasok sa isip ko. Hindi ko na naisip ang kaligtasan ko, ang kanya na lang."Bakit hindi na lang natin patayin ito! Hindi naman ito ang kailangan natin!"Huling sigaw at tadyak bago ako tinutukan ng baril. Nakapikit na ang isang mata ko at alam ko na ilang suntok na lang ay bibigay na ang katawan ko."Mas malaki ang makukuha natin kung kasama iyan! Bugbugin niyo na lang at huwag niyo munang papatayin!"Nakita ko siya na naka

Silvanus POV 01"Who is she?"I was fourteen years old when I first saw her. Nakikipaglaro siya sa ibang mga bata na kamag anak namin. Kauuwi lang namin galing sa Manila at naimbitahan kami ni Uncle na dumalo sa salo-salo sa mansion nila."Agatha's daughter," sagot ni Lolo na katabi ko sa pabilog na lamesa."Ate Agatha? I thought their daughter died with them in States?" Nagtataka na tanong ko.Namatay si Ate Agatha na pinsan ko at ang asawa niya sa ibang bansa. Naging sikreto iyon sa karamihan dahil alam ni Uncle na mayroon nagpapatay sa anak niya. Patago ang pag-i-imbestiga at paghahanap sa tao na may gawa."Nakaligtas ang anak nila. Pagkatapos ng isang taon. Dumating ang yaya ni Agatha na si Lupe at mayroon bitbit na bata.""What? After a year? Are you sure she's Ate Agatha's daughter?""Si Lupe ang may dala at hindi kung sino sino lang," sabi niya at para bang sapat na iyon na dahilan.I shrugged my shoulders. Lolo has a point. Matagal nang taga-silbi si Manang Lupe ng mga Alvarez

(TFD) Chapter 70This is the last chapter of The Forbidden Desires. Thanks for reading!(Silvanus Pov)The lump on my throat and the hallow part on my chest. The more I tried to move my hand to find her the more I choke.I opened my eyes to make sure if I'm alone then I closed them again tightly when I saw nothing. It's only darkness and my dark quiet room couldn't calm me.Marahas na dumapo ang reyalidad sa aking pisngi upang sampalin ako at gisingin sa katotohanan pagkatapos ko siyang subukang hanapin sa tabi ko.I opened my eyes and stared at the other side of my bed. I woke up alone again...Because she's gone... She left me...Ilang beses na nga bang ganito?Sa tuwing magigising ako'y kinakapa ko pa rin ang kama kahit alam ko naman na wala akong katabi.Huminga ako ng malalim at umupo sa dulo ng kama. Napatitig ako sa kawalan at napahilamos ng mukha. Matagal na rin pero hindi ako masanay na wala siya.Parang kahapon lang ang mga nangyari. Kung dati'y sa tuwing gigising ako ay bi

“Why do you look like that? What happened to you?” Gineth greeted me as I entered. “Didn't Ate Elle see you? She's calling for you, and Lola wants Kuya Silas because it's time to eat.”I ran my fingers through my hair and bit my lower lip. Why do I get so angry when it comes to Silas? I'm not usually like this, it's just now. Maybe it's because this is the first time I've ever had an argument and shouting match like that. Maybe this is how I get angry, and I just didn't know it. “Kuya!”I closed my eyes tightly when I heard Neth calling her brother. Neth was looking at my back, and it seemed Silas and Elle were also inside. I heard Elle's faint laughter as Silas walked past me. Silas didn't even greet his own sibling. Without looking back, he headed to his room.“He said he's going to take a quick shower to cool off,” Elle told Neth.The girl glanced at me with a meaning in her eyes before going to the kitchen. Neth followed her gaze and looked at me, appearing confused. “Did you an

“I was scolded by Kuya earlier when you disappeared! You shouldn't have left because I knew the way back!” Neth scowled at me. “I'm sorry. I got lost looking at the trees...” I suddenly felt embarrassed. She got a scolded because I got lost.“Weren't you hurt? Luckily, Kuya found you! As soon as he jumped down from the tree, he immediately looked for you! I was almost in tears explaining that you were missing!”I shook my head and ran my fingers through my hair where I had felt the snake earlier.“I wasn't hurt...” “You should listen to Kuya! I got scared when you yelled at him earlier! Do you know that Ate Laura and I never do that to him?”I nodded and smiled. I directed my gaze to Silas, who was in front of us. Neth and I following behind them again as we headed home. I didn't know the way, so I couldn't take the lead. Silas was pushing the wheelbarrow loaded with gathered wood. A knife with a snake on it was on top of the wood. I wondered what he was going to do with it. He di

I took a deep breath in the cold wind. My mouth felt like it was about to smoke. I was wearing a thin white dress that only reached just above my knees. My white dress was now almost the same color as my skin. I raised my palms and placed them on my lips to catch the warm breath. Then I rubbed them to ease the cold. My lips are getting redder from the cold. I licked my lips from time to time to prevent it from drying out. Because of the cold, my lips and throat were getting dry. We've been walking in the woods for a few minutes now, but they haven't stopped to gather firewood. The wind isn't strong, but it's extremely cold. Maybe because of the trees? There's still some sunlight peeking through the leaves, but it's still cold. Silas and his friend Elle are ahead of me. Neth and I are behind, trailing. The curly tips of my hair swayed as I let it fall on my back. It was touching my lower back. My hair is long, thick, and very black. My eyes are round and very dark. My lips, almost t

I'm really, really bored, and I miss the province so much. We're no longer at their house in Manila, and I think we're in a faraway province now. It's just too remote, and it feels scary to walk alone in the woods before reaching the road. It's so different from the province I grew up in. The people there are friendly, and there are many things to do. Just looking at the tall trees here makes me feel like we're surrounded by wild animals. It doesn't even look like a vacation spot. It looks more like a hideaway because the roads and houses are so far away. We're in the middle of the woods, and even though Silas often practices at the back, there's no one else to hear. “Are you going out, Kuya?”My thoughts were disrupted when I smelled Silas's pleasant scent. It must be his shower gel. His siblings mentioned that he doesn't use cologne when they talk about him. He's still at the back, so I can't see him but I can smell him.“I'm going to get some firewood for the fireplace. The weath

I stepped back when he stopped in front of me. I stopped retreating when I felt the wall behind me. I glanced sideways to avoid making eye contact with him. I just wanted to disappear into the bushes next to me or perhaps be swallowed by the ground. “Do you know that it’s not right to hide and secretly listen between two people’s conversation?”“I’m not hiding!” I looked up at him and it was too late to regret what I had just said.A corner of his lip lifted into a smirk as he leaned one hand against the wall above my head. I lowered my gaze as he moved closer; his face inches from mine.“Oh . . .” He sounded sarcastic. “You are not hiding? So, you mean you admit you overheard our conversation?”I closed my eyes tightly and couldn't speak. I should have just gone straight to the kitchen! What possessed me to stop and eavesdrop on their conversation? “Don’t scare her!”My eyes flew open. The woman behind him laughed as she looked at me. I swallowed hard as my gaze met with Silas. H

I stared at Silas who couldn’t wipe the smile off his face while talking to the woman. I had my hand under my chin and pouted. I was thinking he probably was forced to take me because of Grandpa’s plea. That whatever I do here, he would never like me. I took my eyes off them to look at the people I’m with on the table. I discreetly took a deep breath and couldn’t help but look at the two again. I put my hand down when I saw them heading to the outback of the house. “That’s their niece. Athena.”Once again, I broke my gaze away from Silas when I heard Grandma say that to the father of the woman with Silas. “Their niece?”I smiled when the man looked at me. “Yes. Athena’s mother is Gineth, Laura, and Silas’s cousin. Athena’s grandfather, who took care of her, is the cousin of Silas’s father,” Grandma explained. I also nodded now that I learned how we all became relatives. He is my Uncle because my mother is his cousin. “Agatha got married at such a young age.” Grandma glanced at m