Novels by San Sar

ViktorViktor finds himself standing on his balcony, gazing at the stars in the dimming evening sky. The view is distant and somewhat cloudy, but the stars still manage to pierce through the murk. There’s an unsettling feeling brewing within him, a sense of separation from his wife Caroline that has been growing for some time now. The relationship between Viktor and Caroline has become increasingly distant, and he has begun to feel like they are leading separate lives. Caroline’s recent attempts to show concern about Viktor’s personal life feel intrusive. Viktor knows that what he does or who he dates should be of no concern to her. However, despite his firm stance, something keeps gnawing at him.Standing near him on the balcony is Kate, with whom Viktor has shared a long and complex connection. She stands, quietly watching the stars, her presence simultaneously comforting and agonizing for Viktor. As Viktor observes Kate from a distance, he can’t help but notice the quiet beauty i

KateThe weekend had finally arrived, and I was looking forward to some much-needed downtime. After a hectic week at work, filled with meetings, deadlines, and the heavy tension surrounding Viktor, I just wanted to clear my head. But when my phone buzzed, my heart skipped a beat. It was a message from Viktor.It read: "Hey Kate, are you free this evening? I’d really like to talk. Can you come over to my place?"My pulse quickened as I stared at the message. The request was simple, but there was something in the words that struck a chord in me. Viktor and I hadn’t had an honest conversation in weeks—at least not about what really mattered. There had been moments of tension between us at work, and I knew something had changed, but I had no idea what. Our last real interaction had been at the office, when he confessed his uncertainty about his marriage to Caroline. The look in his eyes then had lingered in my mind. That brief, raw vulnerability. I wanted to understand more.But there was

KateThe day had been fairly ordinary at the office. The usual bustle of meetings, phone calls, and deadlines were enough to keep me focused, but there was an undercurrent of tension I couldn’t quite shake. Viktor, had been particularly difficult to read today. He’s always been someone who wears his emotions on his sleeve, or at least, he used to be. Lately, though, something had changed. There were moments where he would look at me, his gaze lingering for just a little too long, before quickly averting his eyes. It felt as if he was holding something back, something important, but couldn’t find the words to say it.Viktor was usually straightforward, so this sudden withdrawal was strange. I had never seen him like this before, and it made me feel uneasy. It wasn’t just the tension between us, but also the unresolved question about his relationship with Caroline, his wife. They were married, yes, but there was always a certain distance between them when it came to work functions or ca

Kate The morning after the gala was a foggy haze of forgotten details and lingering discomfort. My head throbbed from too many drinks, and I could still taste the remnants of the evening in the back of my throat. I rolled out of bed with a groan, blinking against the harsh sunlight that filtered through the blinds. As I stumbled to the bathroom, the events of the previous night came flooding back. The gala, the laughter, the music. And then there was Ethan. It was just a night. But now, in the cold light of morning, I couldn’t shake the feeling that it was something more to him. Or maybe it was just me.The remnants of last night's frivolities came crashing back like a wave. The hangover was immediate. My head throbbed with the intensity of a thousand drumbeats. I instinctively reached for my phone, blinking at the bright light of the screen that felt like a spotlight aimed directly at my skull. It was already past nine in the morning—too late.With a curse muttered under my breat

KateThe Gala AftermathThe grand ballroom shimmered with gold and silver. The chandeliers above glittered like diamonds, casting a soft glow over the crowd below. The music was slow, the rhythm a gentle pulse that seemed to carry the weight of the night. I stood near the edge of the crowd, nursing a glass of champagne. It tasted fine, but it wasn’t enough to drown the turmoil swirling inside me.I shouldn’t have come tonight. Every part of me had screamed to stay home, to avoid this spectacle. Yet here I was, staring across the room at Viktor, his broad shoulders set in their usual way, the confidence in his posture undeniable. And there, by his side, was Caroline.The image stung.It was supposed to be just the two of us tonight, wasn’t it? We had made plans—hadn't we? But Viktor always had a way of making promises fade into nothing. And now, there he was, with Caroline laughing at something he had said, their proximity unmistakable. The sight of them together twisted something insi

KateThe lights in the ballroom were dimmed, casting a warm glow across the room, and the music played a soft, rhythmic hum in the background. The annual office gala had been an event I had been both dreading and anticipating all week, knowing that it would be my one real chance to speak with Viktor. But as the evening wore on, I found myself standing alone at the bar, nursing a glass of wine and feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders.The gala was a blur of laughter, clinking glasses, and the occasional polite exchange. Everyone was in their best attire, their best smiles, but I couldn’t shake the tension building in my chest. I had hoped this night would be different—an opportunity to finally speak to Viktor, to clear the air between us but that hasn't been fruitful and he went away with the promise to discuss. After that he was surrounded by people, always in the midst of conversation, and every time I tried to approach him, he seemed to pull away.“Hey, Kate. Enjoying the

FarisIt was early in the morning and I was wide awake as today is the day we all were waiting for the past few months and for some the wait has been years. Yesterday, we received an offer from a huge label of getting signed by them. The label is one of the top music producing labels, it has huge celebrities signed and contracted under them.We were lucky enough to garner their interest, we all have been working really hard to get a label sign us, we are artists and we don't know the business part of the industry, We needed professional help and only a label could provide us that support and push. I hope the meeting goes accordingly and we get signed by the end of the day.A knock on the door, diverted my mind."You up early," said Mike as he entered the room."Can't sleep, can you blame," I said sounding super excited early in the morning."Who else coming?" he asked."Tyler won't come because he has prior plans and the twins will jo

Faris,"Guys, get ready for tonight, our big day today" I said with excitement and happiness. It is a big project and if we do it right then there are high chances of us getting signed by labels."We have to give our best, no mistakes tonight. We've worked way too much to fucking get here. This here, tonight is our chance at getting our band signed by labels," I said to everyone, it was really overwhelming and I wanted to make it our day today."Don't worry Fer, everyone is ready. We all are ready for our chance at success. We've worked really hard to get here and tonight we will perform like kings, the show is ours" said Rebel matching my enthusiasm."Get ready then, we have to travel" said Tyler packing bags."Group hug guys," she said.***FarisI've been pacing back and forth in the room where we were

FarisI can't believe I fucked up so bad. I can't believe that I forgot about the rehearsals, by the way it was our final rehearsal before the big performance tomorrow and I fucked up by not coming on time. We were to shift studios and get our instruments on time to this new studio and finally start our jamming session.There were some final changes that needed to be made and make the piece attuned to the music and final work in the mixing and mastering of the beats and the final music that we will be performing. Though we have already done most of it but we were being extra careful because it was big for us, we are to perform and open for a huge band and this is extremely important for me and all of the band. We have worked way too hard for us to be here and I can't fucking be the one to ruin it for me and others.Fucking Sierra Jane is messing with my mind and turning me on just by thinking of last night.

Sierra"What happened Sierra?" came the cheerful voice of Kate. She must have been looking for me and I just switched off my phone. I don't know but I didn't wanted to talk to anyone."I tried calling you but it went straight to voicemail and you left us no message. I had to call your office and they said you were in a meeting. I was worried about you," she said while sitting on the couch in my living room."Damnit... say something, I was worried sick about you. You never pulled that kind of stunt on me before," she asked again demanding answers which I didn't knew. I am also trying to find answers."I don't know," I said sounding lost and a bit off. I tried to be fine but everything is not fine and thinking about how I left things is making me feel vulnerable."Hey, so did it really happened. I mean... you .. and Faris... like I mean.. you and him..." ,she said.. more like asked what happened

FarisI woke up to sun shining on my face. The morning brightness waking me up. I got up and sat on the bed, eyes still closed because of over drinking last night. I felt hung over and my head was aching. I roamed my hand on the night stand to get my mobile, it has always been my habit to check my mail early morning from work and start then start out my day with working out. I couldn't find find my mobile or my nightstand.I panicked and opened my eyes to look around. The bright sun shining from the window onto my face and eyes made me close my eyes due to the brightness. I adjusted my eyes to the brightness and opened my eyes to see that it was not my house, it was the fucking hotel room where we... Everything what had happened yesterday came back to me like scenes in a movie, I remember I was drinking too much then I saw.... Sierra Jane, just the girl I was thinking about and we.. ohhh... my... fucking luck.... I played pool with her and the

Sierra"Let me take you to your hotel room, we both are staggering and I don't want someone taking advantage," he said seeming genuinely concerned for me but I can't let come with because I know it would turn into something else totally.I liked him, I have liked him for a while now and suddenly he comes into my life, making me crazy. I have just started at this new job and everything finally seems to be going in the right direction for me and the career. What had happened earlier, back at my hometown will always affect me and it will always be with me no matter what I do.I have finally found stability in my life after going through so much and this, I don't think I can handle it. Faris, seems so hard to ignore, he is one thing that I can't have but all of him invites me in making me drop every guard I've built around myself.I don't know what to do but he seems right, I can't go alone it alre