Novels by Leyla Cehangir

I couldn’t believe the extent of my disappointment, sadness and disbelief. It was as if a dam had burst and I was suddenly remembering everything and crying my heart out to the ocean.Great ugly sobs tore out of me while the wind whipped my face around my face, like the wind and the sea were angry with me. Everything hurt, my heart, my soul, everything was in tatters. Who would have thought that a fun trip would end up so tragic as I slowly slid down and leaned on the upstairs deck.Heartbroken again, how did I let one person break my heart again and again? It was pathetic, I thought as I closed my eyes and thought of everything that had happened to me since Emre had come into my life.And now both brothers were in my life again, wrecking it.I felt someone come and sit next to me and I looked sideways at Emre. He looked tired and almost as empty as me.I couldn’t believe the extent to which those people had gone to

I came back to the present realizing both Emre and Ashton were staring at me.“Okay, explain,” I told him, “How are you to blame in Emre firing me?”“I didn’t fire you,” Emre retorted, “You resigned!”“You didn’t trust me!” I replied, “You didn’t believe that I was not involved in the funds that ad disappeared from the company account.”“I believed you!”“You didn’t, you had one doubt and that’s why you told me to take a few weeks’ vacation. Do you think you do that to someone? You don’t even do that to just an employee and I was more than that.. or that’s just it.. I wasn’t..I wasn’t anything to you” I ran out of words.“I wanted to investigate what had happened without you in all of it” He ran his hands through his hair.“So, you took me out of it, out of my off

“Hey Melisa?” I was sitting on the bed with Melisa in our room and we were both rubbing the hand cream that had been on the dressing table. It smelled so good, Emre never disappointed, “Thanks for opting to share a room with me. You saved me from Eric.” “It was my pleasure, he creeped me out today,” She said touching her lips. “Me too,” I replied, “I hope he’s gotten the message that I’m not interested in him.” Melisa’s phone rang and she picked it up on the first ring. I deduced from her side of the conversation and the blush creeping up the side of her face that it was Mert. I smiled and went into the ensuite bathroom to give her some privacy. I made a bun on top my head while I waited for her to finish and tried not to listen in on her conversation. When I came out, she was waiting for me. “I want to ask you a favor,” she said and bit her lip. “Anything,” I encouraged her. “Um it was Mert,” She pointed to her phone,

It seemed like everyone was holding their breaths to see what Eric would do. The tension crackled in the air. A part of me was curious too. Eric had been essentially been called out on his shit.However embarrassing it seemed for Pelin, it really was a pretty clever thing she’d done, called out Eric like that.Eric really seemed to be in a bind. He kept throwing me looks as if he expected encouragement from me which was insane. Did he really think he still had any control on me?Did he still want both me and Pelin in his hands all at once? Wow, what an asshole?Pelin had apparently realized the same thing because she looked like she was about to cry.Zayn spoke up, “Hurry the fuck up man! Make up your mind,” his tone was harsh, unlike what he usually sounded like.Looks like Eric was stepping on a lot of toes with his behavior.Pelin put her hand on Eric’s shoulder and he suddenly stood up.He looked at

This game sure seemed like more trouble than it was worth, I thought as Ashton asked me if I wanted to go next.“Sure,” I said. I had a few ideas I wanted to try out myself.“So who are you choosing Sarah?” Eric asked me and although the question was simple, his words made me wonder if he was asking me something else.“Mert,” I tilted my head at him and gave him a smile reminding him he still needed to pay for that position he’d put me in earlier.He nodded, accepting responsibility.I wasn’t going to be subtle, I wasn’t going to hold back, he’d assumed too much about me and less at the same time.“Alright, truth or dare?” I asked him.I had a plan… he’d been planning to out my feelings but now I wanted to turn the tables on him.Let us see what Mert was made of.“Truth,” he replied, a little cautiously…“

“Thanks for nothing Ash,” I mocked him as I returned back to the bonfire. Ashton was unconcerned and just stuck out his tongue at me. Did he think I didn’t notice him setting me up with his brother all the time? He just took advantage of the fact that I never said anything to him. “So where did you learn to climb trees?” Pelin asked me. I looked up from where I was looking at my hands as Emre came and sat down next to me with a sigh. “Oh, my dad taught me when I was little,” I replied “Pity he didn’t teach you how to swim too,” Zerrin put in with a sneer, “Emre lost all that time teaching you when he could’ve enjoyed himself instead. Oh the knives were out…and they hurt. I gave a tight smile, “You’re right, it is a pity. Unfortunately my dad died before he could.” There was silence then, Zerrin’s face was pale. “I..I’m sorry, I didn’t know.” She stammered, clearly she’d been taking her lead from

“What?” I looked at her in confusion, had she just said what I thought she’d said? “An arranged marriage? What do you mean an arranged marriage?”“Just what you heard!” Mari replied and sped up as we got near her place.I was struck dumb as I put aside all my problems to focus on Mari’s problem, an arranged marriage in this age? What were her parents thinking?“But Mari, we’re not in the dark ages anymore.. maybe you misunderstood your parents..” I said hesitantly as she parked her car.She gave me a murderous look and without saying a word, banged out of the car. I winced and slowly got out thinking about the huge bombshell she had dropped on me.Mari was like a free bird, not ruled by anything, fears or uncertainties. She had always lived a charmed, cushioned life, never faced any problems or gone through any tragedies as I had and so she had flourished.I had never be

It was Baron. I heaved out a sigh of relief as I saw Baron hesitantly come into the room.Damien tilted his head and just stared at Baron and no joke, he looked scary.Poor Baron just stared at me and Damien and then back at me. I tried not to fidget or fix my clothes but it was hard with the silence.I guess Baron was waiting for me to speak but I refused to say anything because he had no right to come barging in here like this and I was pretty sure he had come here to check on me. he didn’t have a good reason for this interruption.I hadn’t wanted this interruption; I had wanted to be kissed by Damien instead. To be taken by him against the door. I felt hot just thinking about him and me in here, on his desk, on the chair, on the sofa.“Yes? How can I help you today Mr. Hoffman,” Damien asked him finally as Baron said nothing and the silence continued to lengthen.“I..I came here to talk to Seline, I mean info

I watched Seline walk away from me and after Professor Flynn and I was afraid for her. What if I had put her in trouble because of my stupid attempt at taking her out of the class.Shit. I thought and followed behind her maintaining a distance so I would know which office they were heading to.Both of them entered the room and the door closed. Seline had looked remarkably calm and even as if she had been expecting the professor to call her out.But Seline was too good, she probably thought she really had made a mistake by disturbing his class.The prick.Why did he have to act so high and mighty as if what he taught was so fucking important to our lives. Who even needed his advice on running a business? He just liked to brag about how much of a big hotshot CEO he was. If he was such a big thing, why was he teaching?Huh, I could brag about my family business better than him and I hadn’t ever even spent a day working there.It wa

Class was almost over and the lecture was finished. Some of the students had already left but a few of the girls had gathered around Damien. Now I could see what Mari had meant when she’d said that most of the girls had a crush on the new professor.Well obviously, he was hot as hell. That’s how he had fooled me as well.Oh God, I was dating a professor and it was a secret relationship.How had I gotten into this mess?Shit..Could I tell my friends?I didn’t know, I needed to talk to him first.Mari hadn’t noticed anything strange about me but she had been a bit distracted by a call she had received from her mother and had rushed out right after class to talk to her. I wondered if everything was alright.“So why does he want to see you?” Baron asked me gesturing at Damien who was still surrounded by his fandom.I shrugged, “I don’t know, might be because I didn’t att

I was equal parts angry and shocked, unable to decide if I should keep staring at him or to look down at my notebook. I didn’t even know what Damien was teaching, I was so confused.Whenever I looked at him, I kept looking until I had to tell myself to stop. It felt strange to watch him talk to the class and know that I had kissed those lips, those hands had pulled me closer.It made class so distracting.I didn’t know how to behave, how to sit, how to write..I didn’t remember ever being this nervous before.But in all of this, Damien was calm cool and collected. It should have affected him too, I thought irritably. My being in the room should affect him too.I was glad I wasn’t sitting next to Mari today, she was at the other end of the aisle and we hadn’t been able to get seats together because of the stunt I’d pulled midway.Baron wasn’t as in tune with my feelings as Mari and he merely th

I turned back the way I had come in and slammed right into Mari.“Whoa, what’s wrong Seline?” she caught my arms and steadied me before I could move past her and out the door.I couldn’t think clearly, “I..need to go out Mari, to the bathroom, I forgot something.”“You forgot something in the bathroom?” Mari asked me as I moved past her but I didn’t answer. My head was spinning as I took deep breaths to think clearly.Back in the hallway leading towards the classes, I tried to make sense of my reality.Damien?Damien was my professor? He was the new professor? How was that possible?How? And why hadn’t he said anything?Suddenly I remembered his words in the text, ‘See you in the morning.’ and then his words last night, that I’d find out tomorrow whether or not he told me.This is what he meant.THIS IS WHAT HE MEANT?!I suddenly